estaba leyendo este manwha y toca temas que si tú como persona los viviste, te duele muchísimo y más recordar.
Este panel es uno dónde recordé la vez que me iba a suicidar, de igual manera estaba drogada y muy ebria, estaba tan harta de todo. ¿Cómo es que ando contando esto ahorita? Pues en ese entonces el que era mi pareja, no sé cómo se entero o cómo llegó antes, pero cuando salte, él alcanzó a agarrarme, no sé tan poco de dónde sacó tanta fuerza y equilibrio para no caer en el intento conmigo.
Después de eso, él me llevó dentro, me baño, me lavo el pelo y me enjuago, sus toques eran tan suaves, tan delicados, quitaba todo rastro de sangre y olor a alcohol. Poco a poco me fui calmando hasta quedarme dormida, al día siguiente cuando desperté, él estaba ahí conmigo, abrazándome y me rompió el corazón ver sus ojos tan rojos e hinchados.
Más tarde hablamos y se rompió a llorar al saber que si no hubiera llegado a tiempo, yo ya no hubiera estado y que estaba harto de que no tuviera la confianza para decirle lo que pasaba por mi mente o el cómo me sentía.
Él fue la única persona que me salvo y que realmente se preocupo por mi, que jamás me vio con lástima, sino que me consentia, me refugiaba y me hacía sentir querida. Me dio todo el amor y afecto que siempre careci desde que tengo memoria. Lamentablemente yo estaba tan emocionalmente inestable, tan dañada, tan mal que termine hundiendolo a él, cosa que no quería pero él seguía ahí, y más adelante entendí que así ames mucho a alguien, no tienes porque ser su terapeuta, no tienes porque salvarlo si no quiere ser salvado, no tienes que ser responsable y cuidar a alguien que está tan jodido porque al final tú terminaras igual o peor.
Él terminó en muy mal estado, años después y hasta ahora sé que mejoro mucho, que le tomó demasiado volver a confiar y creer en él amor y las personas debido a todo el daño que sufrió estando conmigo.
So I've been reading these two webtoons lately about female leads stuck in very toxic and unhealthy relationships (while being aware of it), and I'm loving every second of it!
If you know me, you know I just love a badass cool female lead and I also love seeing characters stuck in very difficult situations and watching how they use their brains and/or skills to get out of it, and both comics excel at these aspects!
First series is "Trapped", a comic about this taxi driver who got tangled by accident with a vampire who develops an obsession with both her and her blood after she manages to outsmart him a couple of times, something that hasn't happened to him in years.
It feels very "Tom and Jerry" with both characters trying to get the upper hand on their relationship, and you would think it would be super one-sided but vampires actually have quite a bit of annoying rules on how they work that severely limit their freedom and our female lead exploits as many of them as she can to make him eat sh*t! It's just glorious!
"Dreaming Freedom" is... somehow less dark, and at the same time way darker of a series.
It's not as violent or gory but it deals with more realistic problems that hit closer to home for some like school bullying, abandonment, harassment, family abuse, and so on.
The premise is that our female lead teams up with a guy that has the power to use dreams to affect people in the real world, and they use this ability to get revenge on all the girl's classmates that harassed her, but the more our female lead does that, more the male lead gets obsessed with her and we later find out that he has some serious anger issues making him extremely dangerous.
Our lead basically goes from "I can use him to get payback!" to "Oh my God, I'm the only thing that's keeping this dude under control and away from people!"
It feels like you're being handed a living knife that you just pray won't run out of control or turn itself against you. It's so uncomfortable but at the same time so thrilling!
While I really don't like when unhealthy relationships are glamorized and used to send some kind of "Oh, he's kinda dangerous... But at least he loves you, so it's okay, right?" message, I do like it when the unhealthiness of the relationship is the focus AND is painted as a problem that needs to be fixed.
I like how both female leads always call the male leads on their bs and keep them in check whenever they start going too far, and it's fun to see how they use them whenever they're backed into a corner by the antagonists of the stories.
Also like the themes these series explore, about how when you keep dealing with people that act like monsters you see yourself slowly turning into a monster yourself and start to attract other monsters as well, eventually making you question how far can you go? How far should you go? Can you get back from it? And so on.
But most of all, I like that both series make sure to show that these "bad boys" were their last freaking options. Not the first, not the second, but the very bottom of the barrel. They went to them only after they felt they had no other choices and were sure that nobody else would take their side.
This isn't just "Oh, I went to him because he's a hot bad boy", this is "The world turned its back on me so I'm gonna use the only cards that I have left."
They basically made a deal with their devils and now the fun is watching to see how/if they're gonna get out of it.
This is how I like to see problematic relationships. You don't paint them as something normal or something good, you paint them as a hardship that needs to be dealt with and use it to do clever commentary on the worst aspects of humanity so we can learn how to be better and as a source for good and intense drama to make us worried for the main characters and invested in seeing them get out okay.
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