𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆

𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙢 𝙨𝙪𝙣

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so how much sad did you think i had, did you think i had in me ? how much tragedy ? just how low did you think i'd go ? before i'd self-implode before i'd have to go be free ..

a study in .. my heart spilling its guts out for everything, just getting color back into my face, honey and wildfire are both the color gold, how terrible it is to love something death can touch, have courage & be kind, the girl who lost things, and then i just snapped ..

an independent and private writing blog for t100 original character, nina emerson wilde (kane) by abigail . parental death, mental health breakdown, medical content such as hospitals, trauma, surgical descriptive terms, ptsd, arson, gun violence and unhealthy coping mechanisms & other triggering content. due to the nature of source material and nina's background content such as heart surgery/heart transplant, surgical terms, police (due to the fact that nina's dad is a cop ) etc, will not be tagged, please keep that in mind. please read all information before following & interacting.

one .. carrd, two .. study, three .. playlist, four .. pinterest

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good morning kiddos ! i hope you're all doing so well this morning and that the world is being kind to you today <3

i just wanted to pop on here and give everyone the heads up that i will be placing nina on a temporary hiatus ! it's not that anything is wrong, i simply just don't have the time or the muse truly that she deserves !

it's okay if you want to unfollow, just know i thank you for loving nina and for being here even if it was only temporarily <3

[heartsave]

WHAT   FORM   OF   LOVE   DO   YOU   EMBODY

love  is  tenderness .. ( love as gentleness after a lifetime of cruelty ) .. when ocean vuong said "sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined" and when pablo neruda said "like a jar you housed the infinite tenderness and the infinite oblivion shattered you like a jar" and when anais mitchell wrote "all i've ever known is how to hold my own, and now i wanna hold you, too”

tagged by .. @countybled

tagging .. @shesdaylight , @halztead , @realpunkrock , @postm0rtems & you cutie !

[serehsin]

my mother's trust issues are leaking into my chest and i've got my father's nose and his tendency to stop calling back ..

so i'm sorry about the 9 missed calls i have from you and the 6 voicemails i never played .. i swear i'd love you if i could ..

[heartsave]

a    .    age:    30 b    .    birthplace:    ohio c    .    current    time:    10:41 am d    .    drink    you    had    last:   juice box, apple e    .    easiest    person(s)    to    talk    to:    either my best friend , tara , or the best person i know, belle f    .    favorite    current    song(s):    hmm. i still keep playing the twisters soundtrack over and over. also, so much noah kahan lately g    .    goals:    publish one of my stories and not end up deleting it h    .    horror    yes    or    horror    no:    so it used to be not at all, but now it kind of depends like i'm in love with randy from scream and happy death day but other than that its a case by case basis i    .    in    love    ?:    i mean i love loving, but most platonic love is kind of my jam j    .    jealous    of    people:    oh definitely if i'm being completely honest k    .    kissed    someone    recently?:    not in a hot minute l    .    love    at    first    sight    or    should    i    walk    by    again    ?:    please always walk by again <3 m    .    middle    name:    patricia ann n    .    number    of    siblings:    two , but we don't talk nor do i wish to o    .    one    wish:    right now it sounds so silly, but i would give anything to bring b.obby nash back </3 q    .    questions    you’re    always    asked:    so how's it going from my therapist is always the opener and probably the most constant i get s    .    song    you    last    sang:    gosh my memory is a pit, but probably something from noah kahan or taylor swift t    .    top    3    fictional    characters:    this is the hardest question bc they change but always at the top is evan bu.ckley , kate carter from twisters , and beck from y.ou u    .    unexperienced    or    experienced    writer:    i mean i recently told a friend i've gotten a lot better so i would like to say experienced ! v    .    vacation:    me and my dad went to pennsylvania last september (?) solely to see twisters in 4d ! w    .    when’s    your    birthday:    september 16 x    .    x    -    rays:    probably my chest from a bad cold a few months ago y    .    your    favorite    food:    oh god it changes so much thanks to my picky stomach, but lately i've been loving raspberries , cream cheese toast and apple juice boxes (s/o to orange gatorade and dr pepper cream soda as well) z    .    zodiac    sign:    i'm a virgo !!

idk who i stole this from because it's just been sitting in my drafts but, thank you to whoever i swiper swiped it from !!

tagging .. @countybled , @wihlted , @realpunkrock and @frthestars

[heartsave]

finally got my new tgm oc all set up and aside from the nerves shes sparking joy so i'll be there for the night !

for now because im still kind of nervous feel free to like/ask for the url but also okay if you don't want to 🩵 i adore you all no matter what 💞

its mostly just her background im worried i didn't get creative enough which i always try so hard to do with my ocs

[heartsave]

good morning kiddos ! i hope everyone is having a wonderful morning, i am currently shoving a bagel into my face after three hours of sleep !

question for the class now; does anyone have any good tips or tricks for making gifs ? i'm trying to learn how but i'm struggling kids <3

[heartsave]

finally got my new tgm oc all set up and aside from the nerves shes sparking joy so i'll be there for the night !

for now because im still kind of nervous feel free to like/ask for the url but also okay if you don't want to 🩵 i adore you all no matter what 💞

its mostly just her background im worried i didn't get creative enough which i always try so hard to do with my ocs

[heartsave]

hello its me, i'm the problem, its me !

.. i may have completed the carrd for my new tgm muse..

[heartsave]

good morning !! good morning my loves !! i hope you all have a day full of sunshine!! im proud of you and i should be here later today!!

[askboxmemes]

My muse is dead. Tell me how yours is dealing with it.

[heartsave]

good morning kiddos ! i'm at work yay, but a couple cute kids did come in and do our scavenger hunt !

anyways, i'm here while we're slow <3 i hope you all had safe holidays/fridays ! please drink some water and remember you're the bees knees <3

[archive-rottenache]

when he hears the creak of the door open, he turns on his heel to find nina standing near the threshold between the halls of the ark's wreckage and the makeshift training room that they managed to carve out from one of the vacant rooms. the moon hangs bright in the sky outside, surrounded by a plethora of stars, with several guards keeping post at the arkadia gates. it's the middle of the night, and helo morris is training like he's getting ready for war. "can't sleep?" ... @heartsave

[heartsave]

she should be asleep she knows that, but well sleep's been harder and harder to come by since .. since maybe always, since she was afraid sometimes she wouldn't wake up, since her dreams had turned to nightmares, since the cold silence of her cell haunted her, since they had hit the ground and it was all she could do to hold onto her heart ..

she wonders if helo is the same, if he's running the same way she is, if he feels scared .. she wonders if he knows how much he matters to her, she wonders if he knows he's a steady point in her life that she finds herself drifting towards especially in the quiet of the night that seems so oppressive, " not really .. not really ever i guess .. sorry that probably doesn't make sense. "

[heartsave]

still considering that tgm sibling oc kiddos just saying...

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the way i love a good sibling oc though ..

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just dropped 30 bucks on taco bell doordash ...someone validate my choices please 🩵

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i'm not saying i'm considering a tgm muse .. but like i'm also not saying i have a 80% formed one either ..