𝙖𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙢

and how to come home

[serehsin]

i always cry in the grocery shop. lingering in the produce aisle, turning every fruit over in my hands to find the ones unmarked. 

i want to ask if you can love damaged goods. 

i want to ask you if you're scared of your father. 

a study in .. i'm the big sister .. i just wish i was better at it, one of us always needs to go first .. i know this .. i go first, everyone has a secret, how to let go and how to come back, on the back porch ..

an independent and private writing blog for top gun: maverick original character, riley emilia seresin by abigail . ptsd, parental abandoment, emotional manipulation and variations of emotional abuse, sibling abandonment and attempts at reunification, parentification & other triggering content. due to the nature of source material and riley’s background content such as ptsd, sibling/parental abandonment etc, will not be consisently tagged, please keep that in mind. please read all information before following & interacting.

one .. carrd , two .. study , three .. playlist , four .. pinterest

[serehsin]

pluck, sender plucks something out of receiver's hair.

for a second she almost forgets she's alone until a hand reaches across the small distance between them which is terrible she knows especially considering clark treated her to her favorite coffee and one of the biggest cinnamon rolls in the shop, but she's fixated on the letter in her hands, another addressed return to sender and the ache she still feels where her healed wound rests. she's fumbling around for a pen when a hand quicker than lightning reaches out and plucks the pen from behind her ear and extends it to her with a grin,

" oh, thanks. " riley accepts the pen with a brush of their fingers, stalling her words for a few moments before she sets it back down and lets the touch fall away, " sorry, didn't mean to completely zone out on you, clark. "

.. @realpunkrock

[serehsin]

i really forgot how much i adore this movie endlessly

[serehsin]

psst ... my dad put on tgm so guess whos coming back here after abandoning out of nowhere like a jerk ??

[kingbuckley]

☆shannon diaz week☆, day 2 (outfit): yellow dress

[athenagrantt]

9-1-1 WEEKS   ↳ #shannondiazweek2020  

favourite outfit: s02e17

[stricatul]

maybe intimacy isn't taking off your clothes. maybe it's taking off your "i'm fine". maybe it's being naked in ways that have nothing to do with skin.

[gobagx]

son, are you a danger to yourself?

ALL LIGHTS TURNED OFF; CAN BE TURNED ON.

an independent & selective portrayal of dr. jack abbot, ( attending physician, 40’s, handsome but with an edge ), from max’s THE PITT. jack is worried over by belle, 28, she/her, est.

[serehsin]

i get off in ten minutes! then my dad and i are going to run out for a little while, but feel free to like this for a starter when i get home <3

[serehsin]

my mother's trust issues are leaking into my chest and i've got my father's nose and his tendency to stop calling back ..

so i'm sorry about the 9 missed calls i have from you and the 6 voicemails i never played .. i swear i'd love you if i could ..

[armybled-deactivated20251201]

PHYSICIAN  HEAL  THYSELF.     #armybled,  an  independent  &  selective  portrayal  of  doctor  caitlin  lenox  from  nbc's  chicago  med.  given  hope  by  scooby. 

[serehsin]

okay i updated my carrd, my pinned and my promo !

[gobagx]

son, are you a danger to yourself?

ALL LIGHTS TURNED OFF; CAN BE TURNED ON.

an independent & selective portrayal of dr. jack abbot, ( attending physician, 40’s, handsome but with an edge ), from max’s THE PITT. jack is worried over by belle, 28, she/her, est.

[serehsin]

*psst taps mic* is this thing still on ?

thinking about moving riley from low activity to maybe more active, not completely but more brought back to life if that makes sense 💙

it's alright if you don't want to stick around with all the hubbub remember i care about your happiness more than anything !

[serehsin]

good morning kiddos <3 i hope you're finding some sunshine wherever you are !

i just wanted to give everyone the heads up that riley will be switching from a high activity blog to a medium-low activity blog. i'm not leaving or abandoning her i just want to be honest about the muse i have for her right now, my muse meter has just been really fickle lately and i'm trying to chase some joy <3

i hope you all find that joy too <3

[serehsin]

finally going to try to grow cecelias blooming muse into something hopefully beautiful instrad of letting it fade away with all my bad feelings ❤️‍🩹

so feel free to follow me over @ cehcelia if you'd like but its okay if you're all sick of my blog hopping im kicking myself over it too

[serehsin]

it's not like she thought it would be easy to mend her relationship with jake .. far from it honestly. she just underestimated how much it would hurt to watch him smile and laugh from afar, how happy he seemed and how that had fallen away in an instant when she had shown up at the hard deck. riley knows she shouldn't just keep showing up in his life, ambushing him at every chance .. but god she missed him.

like he could feel her eyes on him, he turned towards her and quickly she ducked behind the wall next to the entrance, heart thudding in her chest, hoping he hadn't seen her. scrubbing a hand over suddenly, ridiculously watering eyes she doesn't realize she's smacked right into another person when she looks up and vaguely recognizes @heartsbreaking who's been around the hard deck, " shit, i'm sorry. i wasn't even looking, are you alright ? "

[washeartsbreaking]

carly didn't always spend her free weekends at the hard deck, but when she did it was because she was in a mood to have fun with her friends and coworkers. she'd been coming back from the bathroom and heading back over to the bar when someone backed into her. it surprised her, of course, but she didn't have time to really react before the woman was already apologizing.

once she got a better look, she realized that it had been someone she'd seen around the hard deck a few times and didn't recognize. "yeah, i'm fine! no harm, no foul. are you?" she glanced from the woman and her wet eyes to the rest of the bar in case someone had been harassing her or looked like they might other wise be the cause of her tears. "do you need a ride? is someone bothering you?"

[serehsin]

" good, i'm glad. sorry again, i usually pay more attention, " riley apologizes once more, at least able to feel some relief for this small encounter, even if her heart is still pounding from almost being seen crossing boundaries jake had firmly laid down and wasn't that just adding to the worst sister ever olympics medal. she scrubs her hand over her face once more, sniffing to push back the ridiculous tears, " oh no, really, i'm okay. just some messy family stuff, you know how it is. "

and that's as close as she'll get to anything involving jake because it's his right to be able to acknowledge her as his sister or not and as much as it hurts her, she's going to respect that.

" , but i'm glad you're okay, sorry i'm realizing i actually don't know your name. " riley realizes once she goes to apologize once more before hopefully sneaking away, " which is okay if you're wanting to keep that to yourself, "