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this is a side blog - submit or send in an ask. share the thoughts that keep you up at night. 

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I am failure

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you think things are everlasting but they’re not, they disappear, you think they are everlasting but they disappear one by one and you will have to fill the open space with something new, again and again and again and again

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It's kind of crazy how a parent's love is only unconditional if you're everything they've ever wanted. I know have my flaws, (lazy, stupid, tone deaf, dull, bad grades, cynical) that they can accept endlessly without reservation.... but of all things to hate me for, it's for my preference?

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I miss you ...You were never kind. But I miss you. ~ Kuro Anon

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Agony! My stomach hurts with an anxiety so severe that I could drop to my knees at the mere sight of you. I love you, but I hate what you've done me. Made me wish to sew my mouth shut as to never disappoint you with my words again. To chop off my pure hands so you won't loose any sleep over your dirtied ones. I want you to pay. I want you to stay. ~ Kuro Anon

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I love you I love you I love you.... Smiling to you, cheering you up, patting your head, the faint light in your eyes, I just want you to be happy. SO happy, you burst! That's why this stabbing pain on my arms and in my heart won't stop, I'll do anything to make you happy. It's all worth it to see that tiny... tiny spark in your dull eyes.

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For now, I'll pretend your cutting side eye every time I speak doesn't hurt. I know you think I'm stupid. I can't help but believe you.

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I kept wishing things could be they were when we were younger, more naive, when things were better. Watching you cut into my skin now sparks memories of those times, and I realize it was never better, only I was naïve. My life has never been good, and it still isn't -- you have never been good. I was only seeing things the way I wished they were. Instead of going back then, now I ask: why can't we start anew, with only scars where your nails once bled me?

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I'm Kuro Anon, I'm sorry if I'm sending too many asks (most unsigned, I didn't know if I should or not) this just seemed to be the right place to vent a bit poetically about some problems I'm having. :(

Don’t worry, the place is here for venting and letting your feelings out. I’m glad you could find a place that gives you comfort in some kind of way.

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I am an maniac Please do not realize that I am obsessive Please do not notice my desperate behaviour I want you to embrace me As who I am 

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I feel so devoted to you

I am afraid there will be no room for me in your heart one day

never leave

never leave 

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Just give me a concrete, solid reason to hate you and I will be gone forever. Why can’t you find the courage to do that?

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I still remember holding onto my phone all night like my life depended on it. I didn't let go at all in my sleep. I only hung on and cramped my hand in case you needed me in the middle of the night. It was then I knew that I loved you more than I thought possible. That night changed me

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everything is disgusting and filthy, till now I kept this plain taste of absence in me but recently I realized again that this world is a fucking rat hole

[blowjosh]

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I will never be loved

never

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i wish i never met you; i'd be so much better off

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