okay huge development. i think i might be recovered from my crush 🧘♀️
i like her a lot and i think she’s really cool and she’s so exactly my type i’ll always think she’s hot, but i’m not holding out any hope for anything. even if she did like me back, we wouldn’t be compatible, we live our lives too differently. idk the full situation but yesterday i overheard her say “my son” and that really stopped me in my tracks like whoa wait hang on what. i thought i knew all the important stuff but obviously not! so that got me thinking about all the other stuff i Do know about her, and there’s soooooo much more that i don’t, and just kind of had to tell myself like yk what lets be serious, we really just would not be compatible. going into this weekend i was like okay yay hehe i’ll be brave time to make my crush more obvious time to be flirty and now today i’m like okay no let’s reel that waaaayyyy in. i’m friendzoning myself and officially saying fantasy over, she’s a friend i’ll just always think is hot.
and that’s okay!!!!!! that’s okay. that’s okay! this crush has really done a lot for me in getting me to have a crush on myself again and i’m so grateful for that <3 i feel like i’ve become so much more myself recently, and not just because of this crush but it definitely played a big part. ofc i’m a little sad that my person isn’t right there (it’s insane that she’s sooooo my type and that work is the only place i socialize like the universe didn’t need to play in my fucking face by making it feel so meant to be but obviously i always knew it had to be too good to be true lmao) but i’m also feeling really good and confident and happy and hopeful and i know that my butch prince will come one day <3
