Aliens Awakened my Stardust

Aspiring human ♡ Antisocial Weirdo

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My new current obsession

[butteryplanet]

kitchen ghosts

[oldfarmhouse]

I adore🤍

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Each day gets harder than the last. Sometimes feeling like I'm swimming against the current so hard that I sometimes wonder about just letting go, relaxing, and letting the waves take me

[simzart]

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Crushing Imposter Syndrome

I don't think it's possible to defeat this particular demon. I have been fighting him for, well, 33 years now. Every time I've felt that I didn't deserve the friends I had, the grades I had, etc. When nothing feels real and my life feels like a movie. The difference is, in movies, the girl can accomplish anything she sets her mind to and she thrives. I don't feel like that's where my movie is headed.

I feel like my career isn't the right one for me. I feel like there is no career that is right for me. I don't feel like I'll ever be truly happy in my day to day working life. I'll always want something different than what I have.

I don't think I have what it takes to do this.

[despazito]

I think it's so important to have a "nature" calendar in your head, like a way of tracking time that's completely separate from anything work or obligation related, not holidays or anything stressful. For instance I look forward to august because at 8pm every night house finches hang around my window for a few weeks. In spring I love waiting for the magnolias to blossom. Just ways of tracking the time with zero stakes that's completely removed from life's zeitgeist and that you really look forward to

[magpie-misfortunes]

look all i'm asking for is forehead kisses and academic validation and autumn and museum dates and cold bedsheets and misty mornings and baggy sweaters okay???????

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Dissociated

Do you know how it feels to be a creative soul with no creative outlet? Feeling a violent need to be set free.

[optimistic-nihilist]

[myself-when-i-am-real]

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Excuse me...out of the way...

OMG OMG OMG I am FINALLY moving up. Or at least in a favorable direction. I finally got the job that I went to college for, have been working my ass off for, have applied for more than once, and am beyond ready for! I start on the first of next month and I can't wait!

Now to overcome the crushing imposter syndrome that has set in.

[aanau]

[vexheart]

the rain knows all my secrets

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For the first time in a year I am finally doing things for myself. Sitting in a salon chair right now getting some bomb ass purple hair. Just bought myself an art deco ring that I've been wanting. Gonna make a batch of soap later. I have finally realized that I can't wait for other people to make me feel good. I am responsible for that.

[anxietyproblem]

[guccixcucci]

The United States of America is such a wicked and evil country. May the downfall of that empire come soon.

[queermatsuda-moved]

if light just said he was gay and swapped out the porno mags for GAY porno mags he would have gotten away with everything, i believe that with my entire being

“why does he have so much to hide” gay, next question. “why does he act so strange around L sometimes” gay, next question. “why is he so perfect and meticulous” gay, next question.

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I mean...yeah