i hedcanon that hedwig has a tendency to drink before performances on particularly bad days because sometimes she just gets so insecure about her performance that she can't even go on stage without a bottle in her hand, still sweaty from the stress. this especially happened when she first got gigs and still happens frequently. maybe after the events of the show transpire, she stops doing that, but... who knows?
I can imagine her hanging on by a thread sometimes and feeling like she needs it to keep going.















