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teehee i felt so STUPID today !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you wanna see bad? i can show you bad. i can show you in complete silence. i can show you suffering in complete stillness. frozen in time, maintaining the image. cuz when you're really gone and dead it'll have been worth it

and. i have no one. because it defeats the purpose. my purpose. it makes me useless

mfw i'm

bad at everything

can't even maintain my image

what am i worth

nothing

fishchop

when i die and it's finally over i will finally be asleep and i will finally stop caring and i will finally stop crying and i will finally decide that none of it really matters. and i will be ok

there's nothing left for me. it's ending soon. my days are numbered, they've always been numbered. i just hope it isn't cold

i want to bleed again

once you're doing it in the back room of ur job your getting back again.

#i think most ppl wouldn't consider this getting bad again #they'd consider this getting way worse #but i need something to relieve my anxiety stress pain at work i can't wait until i'm home i need it #and it's more fun to improvise with a rusty screwdriver #vent

thatgirlisgonegirl

Sometimes it feels like my day goes on without me,

I’m here, i go through the motions, i do what i have to.

But im not really there, I’m locked somewhere in a room of my mind covered in blankets sobbing my eyes out.

I don’t feel I’m really here

fishchop

hey what's the point of living? no, seriously really. is it to wake up every day and watch society as we know it crumble around us. is it to pray for change, a revolution that won't happen in our lifetime? is it to wake up in pain every day from an illness i can't diagnose or cure? nothing will ever be good again, what am i waiting for