HEEBIE JEEBIES

(he/him) MDNI (+18 suggestive art) ⚠️HUGE TW/CW⚠️ monster art, oc stuff, vents, macabre art, weird art and whatever's on my mind.

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Vent

TW: topic about ptsd/trauma

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Please understand where I'm coming from.

I mean this in the most respectful way possible.

I do not want people sending me DM's

I do not want to make friends.

I'm totally fine with aquaintances or people talking to me for a short while in comment sections.

I'm NOT in the best mental state to have conversations with people.

I'm too depressed and stressed tf out to fully focus and remember things.

I worry I'd dissociate mid conversation and then I'd feel really bad. :'(

I appreciate people being nice to me but, i need to be alone because I'm not feeling well.

I've been dealing with financial issues due to me constantly trying to help/support my mom when she's barely making enough money to support herself and my siblings.

I'm scared for them. I'm worried about one of my sibling's health issue.

I'm depressed about the way I get treated at home.

I'm depressed because I dissociate/freeze up/shut down so many times that i forget ALOT of things or I'll struggle to think and form sentences that make sense. I try my best to be mentally present most days.

I'm depressed because I still am very traumatized and I fear alot of things.

I never feel comfortable or safe. I struggle to sleep because I always fear I'd be SA'd or harmed in my sleep.

I try my best to c0pe in h34lthy ways instead of s/h or 4tt3mpt1ng s__c_de.

I don't think I'll ever truly trust people ever again due to the traumas I've had.

I don't want anyone in my life. I just want to be alone. I'm exhausted from everything that's happened to me and is currently happening.

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I really dislike the plain masks. I really like these!

I might make my own but idk 🤷‍♂️

The price of the latex dog mask was $220 wich seems like a fair price considering it has a really good design.

I love the gas mask look to it.

I might get this and some long latex gloves on my birthday. I really love shiney pvc/latex/leather outfits. I like looking glossy/shiney. ^u^

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I would love to wear something like this but, with bulky black boots. I want to look really good. ^///^

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I want to look like a maniquine. I want to look fake/plastic or porcelain.

I want to feel like I'm a beautiful sculpture.

I want to feel comfortable in my body by looking how I want to look.

I want to buy a few maniquines so I can sculpt faces on them. I want them to look almost sentient so I don't feel so lonely when I return home. I don't like company over but, I like the idea of someone's presence in my home. (Someone i feel safe and comfortable around)

Not actual people but, sculptures/maniquines that are people to me.

I had this idea of having all the maniquines surround my bed watching me sleep. It would make me feel safe.

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When i d__, I want my mother to keep my skull on her living room shelf.

I want my skull to be painted like a sugar skull.

it's not morbid, I think it's a beautiful thing.

I think that should be an option to choose when someone d__s but,

unfortunately it's not.

It's unfair that people are allowed to buy a stranger's bones online LEGALLY but, I can't keep my family member's bones.

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My mom said I look like this guy from Yellowstone. She's right. I do look like him.

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This is my daughter, shae butter. She says hello! ^u^

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I feel paternal towards salad fingers.

When I saw that one episode where his mom was mean to him it made me cry. I know it sounds dumb but, when a character goes through similar things i do, it makes me cry sometimes.

I kinda wanted to draw more wholesome salad finger art with my oc Heebie.

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I am a proud father of many silk moths.

The joy of being a insect parent is everything.

I love my silkworm babies.

I love my pupa babies.

I love my moth babies.

They are one of my favorite things to talk about.

They make me very happy.

I draw my silk moth babies, pupa babies and silkworm babies sometimes.

This is the wholesome stuff I post sometimes.

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My little moth baby is resting under the moth plush's wing. How cute!!! 😊

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I am obsessed with silkworms, silkmoths, and pupea.

I talk about them alot.

I wish people love and appreciate them as much as I do.

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I think pupae are so cute!!!

If they were large like a cat I would put one in a stroller and show everyone my cute bug child.

I love my bug babies. They make me so happy.

No one understands how adorable they are to me.

They look like baked croissants. 🥐🥐🥐🥐

^u^

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I love the sounds pupea make when they move around in their cocoons.

To me it's relaxing/calming/soothing.

I like to lay next to my cocoons and listen to the pupae move around. It helps me fall asleep.

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I ate cooked rotten meat one time and didn't get sick. It tasted like strong bitter cheese (rotten milk) and burnt rubber.

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Fat moths are so funny and cute.

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Caterpillars are so cute!

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These beetles are so cool.

I forgot the name of them.