This Season I Didn’t Expect
This is not just a pregnancy story. This is a season that humbled me. I’m counting days now. Days before I finally meet the baby I’ve been carrying not just in my womb, but in my prayers, fears, and quiet surrender.
This journey hasn’t been easy. I’m a mom to a 5-year-old kindergarten, a 1-year-old baby boy, and now carrying our last blessing. Yes, I’m happy but not all the time. There were moments of fear, guilt, and many “Lord, bakit ang hirap?” moments.
I questioned God. I missed a career I had to let go. I quietly carried the guilt of not being able to help my husband financially the way I wanted to. And as a CS mom, alam kong matagal ang healing process. The thought of not being able to fully take care of my 5-year-old and 1-year-old during recovery hits differently. Iba yung bigat ng mom guilt kapag alam mong gusto mo, pero hindi mo pa kaya.
Yet, through all of it, God taught me lessons I want to share buntis ka man o hindi, mom ka man o simpleng tao lang trying to survive life:
1. You can be grateful and tired at the same time. Hindi porket pagod ka, hindi ka na thankful.
2. Letting go is also obedience. May mga season na kailangan mong iwan ang pangarap para alagaan ang mas mahalaga.
3. Guilt doesn’t define your worth. Hindi nasusukat ang value mo sa financial contribution lang.
4. God’s timing doesn’t rush, it restores. What you lose in one season, He can return in another form.
5. Surrender brings peace that control never will. When I stopped fighting the “what ifs,” I found rest.
This journey changed me. Not everything was easy to accept, but I chose to surrender it all to God and still be thankful. Hard, yes. But still a blessing.
This is just the beginning of my mom of 3 life journey. And if you’re in a season that feels heavy too stay with me. There’s more to unfold. 🤍
















