hellohawke

I'm just an ongoing existential crisis with a craving for boba and thai tea.

[hellohawke]

Smut

my naym is fan

an wen i reed

a fic about

the shows i seed

i haf a blush

an face bloom red

now kant get up

i hide in bed

[hellohawke]

The Space Between These Walls

In the space between these walls

I have laid out all my injuries

My endless fears, my questions 

A floor fillled with half formed dreams

In the space between these walls

It is getting rather crowded

As I skirt the evidence of pain

And hide in other's stories

In the space between these walls

There are piles now of objects

Some need cleaning, some need moving

But there's always something more

In the space between these walls

I don't know if I'll get better

And I'm frightened it's excuses 

And I'm frightened that it's true

In the space between these walls

We are trying to raise a human

We are trying to help them navigate 

The world outside these walls

In the space beyond these walls 

I am hoping there's a future 

Where my hurt is healed along the path 

I make outside these walls

-a. hawke

[hellohawke]

A Hazy Rainy Day

A voice from in my chest it cries,

"Let's go home, I need to rest."

I look around the place I live

"Then what is this, then what is this?"

-a. hawke

[hellohawke]

Birdsong

There is a bird outside my window

It sings a song to me

A song of life and happiness

Of greener grass and inner peace

I open up my window

And reach out to the bird

But it takes flight and now I stand

And wait for its return

But minutes turn to hours

And hours turn to days

And then I look and years have passed

At the window where I wait

My skin begins to crackle

The yearning starts to fade

And yet my limbs no longer move

And by the window I remain

-a. hawke