#a. hawke

[hellohawke]

Smut

my naym is fan

an wen i reed

a fic about

the shows i seed

i haf a blush

an face bloom red

now kant get up

i hide in bed

[thenugking]

My Dragon Age PCs are such mess like hi these are my Inquisitors, Kas Surana and Rem Brosca, and this is my Hawke, Rose Amell.

Also Corinne is a Hawke but is actually dithering about whether she wants her surname is Amell or Vael or Montilyet.

Mihren’s surname is Ghilain. Not surana.

Elora doesn’t actually use the surname Aeducan anymore and refuses to answer to it. I just have to call her that so that she has one, and so she doesn’t get confused with her alternative Time Lord self, Elora of the House of Whiteriver who refuses to answer to the surname Whiteriver.

Meanwhile Mahariel won’t ever use his first name, L. Hawke will fight you if you call her Lucy instead of Hawke but needs to be differentiated from other Hawkes somehow, and A. Hawke’s first name has become a deadname and now just has to have A. as a weird first name, which just makes things more confusing for Amber Hawke and Amity Hawke.

The games have given Rynessa the surnames Andras and Lavellan but neither of these are her actual clan, and she doesn’t actually use a surname.

I hate them all.

[hellohawke]

The Space Between These Walls

In the space between these walls

I have laid out all my injuries

My endless fears, my questions 

A floor fillled with half formed dreams

In the space between these walls

It is getting rather crowded

As I skirt the evidence of pain

And hide in other's stories

In the space between these walls

There are piles now of objects

Some need cleaning, some need moving

But there's always something more

In the space between these walls

I don't know if I'll get better

And I'm frightened it's excuses 

And I'm frightened that it's true

In the space between these walls

We are trying to raise a human

We are trying to help them navigate 

The world outside these walls

In the space beyond these walls 

I am hoping there's a future 

Where my hurt is healed along the path 

I make outside these walls

-a. hawke

[hellohawke]

A Hazy Rainy Day

A voice from in my chest it cries,

"Let's go home, I need to rest."

I look around the place I live

"Then what is this, then what is this?"

-a. hawke

[hellohawke]

Birdsong

There is a bird outside my window

It sings a song to me

A song of life and happiness

Of greener grass and inner peace

I open up my window

And reach out to the bird

But it takes flight and now I stand

And wait for its return

But minutes turn to hours

And hours turn to days

And then I look and years have passed

At the window where I wait

My skin begins to crackle

The yearning starts to fade

And yet my limbs no longer move

And by the window I remain

-a. hawke

[thenugking]

If all your Hawkes got together in, say, the Hanged Man, how would that meeting go? Which Hawkes would get along best? Worst? Do all the Hawkes end up uniting in hatred of Amity or is she capable of appearing to be a reasonable human being long enough to avoid it?

Oh man like, while Amity is capable of appearing as reasonable by like, normal Andrastian standards, she is still anti-mage, and would say Some Things about that, and everyone except Amber and Corinne would have a lot of rude things to say in response. Amber would try her best to get along with everyone and have everyone be best friends and Corinne would say that Amity did have a few good points (which would turn Dragon against both of them) but like, if Amity says much about Anders, that’s going to turn Corinne against her too, end up in A. Hawke getting at least very close to stabbing her, and be around the point that Amber goes “no okay maybe she Is just awful and we shouldn’t be friends with her. But maybe don’t stab her anyway?” Amity could probably appear reasonable enough not to get stabbed, but she’d definitely end up very unliked, and probably excluded from the conversation.

There would be a lot of Worrying over Millie for being just a baby, giving Millie six more parents to add to her growing collection. She’d latch onto Corinne most of all, after deciding she’d be the easiest and most profitable to blackmail, but would probably find L. Hawke the most fun to be around.

L. Hawke, A. Hawke and Dragon would probably get along very well with each other. Corinne and Amber would get along a lot too and mostly end up talking to each other and Millie. Rose would feel kind of an outsider for not technically being a Hawke and not growing up in the same family as the others and also being among people who didn’t completely hate Aveline. She’d get along best with A. Hawke, who could bond with her over giving up on being friends with Aveline, although ze would probably be a bit distracted trying to manage L. Hawke and Dragon’s brainweasles.

Dragon says the others are all Fools for not romancing Merrill. Millie says look it’s not her fault Merrill wasn’t interested in a teenager. Corinne says you know what that’s completely fair, she’s glad everyone else made better romance choices than her. L. Hawke is insecure because Rose romanced Isabela too, and there are cooler Champions than she is, and even a teenager managed to become Champion and is also probably cooler than her and somehow just beat them all at Wicked Grace. A. Hawke and Amber both encourage her.

Rose tells everyone what growing up in Kirkwall was like, and what she remembers of their grandparents. Which was that they sucked. Corinne is a bit disappointed in that. Rose is not a big Corinne fan. 

Amity has to go sit in the corner because she sucks and no one likes her.

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I can’t sleep so have some pretty pictures of all my DA OCs, part 2