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from now on

Three years ago I was a child afraid of the world, so I held onto what I knew, but now I’m somebody ready to let go. Back then I couldn’t understand, but now I know I cannot keep delaying. Let look ahead together, let’s not look back and hold onto all that we cannot change. Goodbye. Thank you for the comfort, thank you for giving me a reason for my existence. I understand now even if I have to walk alone and I have nothing at all, these words will take me home.

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Why do we lose ourselves?

“Because what we're looking for, what we're going in circles around for is nothing. We're just obsessed with something we thought was there, and when we finally realize nothing is there, we stubbornly hold on because that nothing has become our whole world.”

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maybe it don’t make sense

maybe it don’t make sense

i know you don’t understand

how someone can still hurt like this

after two years

you left again and again

and the last time

i thought you wouldn’t do it again

but you left again

and this time it hurt even more

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why

why do people like you leave again and again

when you took the risk

to hold me in your arms

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i wish you would tell me

i wish you would tell me

clear up the air so i can understand

but you won’t and it don’t make sense

maybe it will when i love again

just want to know 

so i don’t make the same mistake again

they keep telling me some things are better left unknown

cuz it’ll break your heart again

but they forget it hurts more to be kept in the dark

about something you’re involved in

i wish you would tell me

why you left

don’t want it to be burning in the back of my mind

for the rest of my life

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forgiving

forgiving

never easy

but what would it be

if it was easy to let go

forgiving

i choose to let all the pain go

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forgivness

your cuts were cut deep

like you knew

how to carve these wounds

maybe you wanted me to hurt

but did you ever think

i could walk away ok

from all that pain

you gave me

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the past

old memories come back

they’re never completely erased

unless you chose to forget

the marks they left on your skin

the past in not just passed on

what you’ve done is done

but don't forget

some things can never be completely erased

some things stick with you deep

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i can’t forget and erase

red lipstick is easy to wipe off

spilled coffee can be cleaned up

and wine stains can be washed off

but you are something 

I can’t forget and erase

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nothing without you

i miss your presence

it’s been filled with emptiness

this loneliness is consuming

i’m in rooms full of faces

but it feels so lonely without you

i know its pathetic 

but i’m nothing without you

it’s like i’ve never been alone

you filled all the spaces

and now it’s like i’ve never been alone

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I miss you

I miss you

even though we’re gone

and we’ve moved on

I miss you

can’t believe I’m alone

that you won’t come back home

I still miss you

even when you’re not in my life

and you’re not mine

I still miss you

still don’t want to forget you

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he

he bought me roses

as i stood by the sea

and said to me

don’t leave me

and drown in the sea

but little did he know

i was already drowning in oblivion

giving up on what we could be

and i said to him

my apologies

that the truth is 

i was slipping away

while you thought things perfect

and now i’m finally going to leave

and he knew 

he hadn’t been looking at me

a couple seconds passed

and he said he was sorry

and i was complete

he held my hand

and set me free

that was the last time i saw him

and he saw me

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he loves you

he loves you i know he does

the way he looks at you

is different than the way he looks at me

look into his eyes

you’ll see a difference in every time

or the way he touches you

he does’t touch me the way he touches you

he doesn’t talk to you

the way he talks to me

he doesn’t say the things he says to me

to you, no he says things i wish he’d say to me

he loves you

and he don’t love me

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when i go

since she’s been gone

you’ve been acting different

doing things you wouldn’t

saying things you should’t

everything you know you

should never try to do

are you going to blame me for every mistake

when i go far away

are you going to say mean things behind my back

because i’m not listening

are you going to say i did things 

when it was you who made that mistake

because you knew no one would dare tell me the things you said

are you going to say you love me while creeping behind

doing the opposite right in front of my face

because if you are

because if you dare

you’re worse than i thought

you’re not right

to stay for

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blue

I like how the blue covers the sky or the white fluffy clouds that remind me of cotton candy I like the sunsets with pinks and oranges or how bright yellow the sun is when it sets on the blue waters or how when the night comes the ocean seems so dark, so black and the sky sleeps in the dark purples and black i like the city lights that flicker yellow in the darkness or the stop lights that flash in yellows, greens and red or how the green makes me jealous of how beautiful the colors are but i always come back to the familiar blues the depths of the oceans the waves of the oceans come to me and the blue waves with white foam splash onto my feet with a cool touch or the dark waters that are so far from the sand at the night and how exhilarating it feels to run to the ocean in the night or the familiar blue sky with a sun smiling back right at me or the rain when the sky cries when the clouds cover the blue skies or the blue cars that past by the window as i ride the blues speak so easily and so familiarly like a close friend calling me with my name and that’s the one voice i love to hear blue

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lights

the lights flicker and they look up to see the lights that gave them everything and they ask why do you flicker didn’t you light the way for us for so long but they didn’t know that lights don’t stay bright forever some lights will stay and some will fade into distant memories like you and me once bright lights and now what once was and what once could be is gone only leaving a darkened light bulb for us to see

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silence

i hate the silence she says she say it’s empty and the she can feel a thing in the sounds without words but the silence between us is always buzzing with things no one sees we always feel the words we don’t know how to speak we can feel the emotions we don’t know how to give and in the moments of those silence i see things i never would of seen i touch the parts of us we hide so deep and the demons we never speak come crawling out for us to understand that reality cannot speak everything we see that in the silence of reality there are things hidden underneath and because of the silence i understand the things we don’t understand and cannot explain and thats why i like the silence between you and me