careful fear or dead devotion

late-twenties. she/her. probably trying to be funny. fandom aperol spritz aunt. sometimes writer. abuser of the em dash, a brow furrow, and naming things with taylor swift lyrics. ao3

[90s-kid-sad-adult]

lie to me

[heroes-fading]

sorry i've been so absent friends, it's an even-numbered year which means it is trying to kill me <3 hope y'all are doing well and i hope to get caught up on my old projects once i'm able to catch my breath here

[tlirsgender]

Being critical of your interests is sooooo fun when you have the critic gene & then you sound kind of insane to the average tv watcher when you're like "this is my favorite show, It's Racist" & then you try to clarify what you mean & get that [Speech (legendary) - FAILURE] "the racism is really interesting though"

[tlirsgender]

[Speech (legendary) - SUCCESS] I find the sociopolitical context of pulpy old sci-fi born circa the civil rights movement really fascinating to analyze especially when it was progressive for its time but still reveals the writers' unexamined biases in the subtext

[havingapoemwithyou]

heart by Maggie Smith

[freeuseshanehollander]

DR. MICHAEL 'ROBBY' ROBINAVITCH in THE PITT SEASON 2

[coffygifs]

BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER | 3.05 “Homecoming”

BONUS:

[blueangelbby]

My controversial opinion is that some of you don’t have enough lived experience and maturity to be watching a show like The Pitt.

You don’t know what it’s like to have systems working against you systematically, to be caught in situations where black and white don’t exist, where there is no saving someone, where you can be the victim but still be perpetrating your own misery, to know that no matter what you do, you’re still incapable of fixing something perfectly.

You want clear lines drawn in the sand of this is the bad guy and this is what mental health should look like and this is what should be done in XYZ situation when the reality of it is so much more difficult and shaky and impossible. You want characters that are Good and ones that are Bad and the Bad ones don’t get to redeem themselves or fix themselves or have rocky reconciliation.

You shouldn’t be able to form hard opinions because this show constantly tells us that the real world is so much messier than that. People are messier than that. You think you understand characters perfectly but you show that nuanced and complex characters with flaws AND strengths are beyond your level of comprehension.

If you want a happier TV show where people aren’t hurt, aren’t hurting themselves, hurting the people around them, where people are the villain from the beginning to the end with no chance at redemption, go watch a cartoon or something.

[nibeul]

out of curiosity, does everyone have a certain type of character they get attached to or are urs random

[havingapoemwithyou]

good bones by maggie smith

[flodaya]

#i am so glad no one overreacted

[urgetocreate]

Nikita Chan (American), Rainbow Shower, 2025, Colored pencil on paper

[havingapoemwithyou]

[i basked in you] by Franz Wright

[slow--spark]

just give dana some time to distract security

[mournfulroses]

Izzy Ravas, from her novel titled Disarm: A Forbidden Romance (What We Don't Say,)

[heroes-fading]

Anyone else ever come across "Midnight Rain" (t-swift) and need to have a moment to handle the sad stancy feelings of it all? It's like a Nancy POV post-season 2 angsty retrospective, made all the more sad if you take the epilogue at heart and imagine Steve actually settling down and starting a family.

Oh you have no idea how long I've been here

[havingapoemwithyou]

A Brief for the Defense by Jack Gilbert

[heroes-fading]

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it

I had hoped you'd see my anon face with sunglasses

And that you'd be reminded that for me, Take Me to the Riot isn’t ooooover

(I hope you sang that in your head like I did)

you should know that bullying absolutely works on me and I'm moving that update to the front of my queue just because you asked 🩷