I'm just obsessed with the idea of a soothing sadist, something that will force me to do whatever they want but understand that I'm just a pathetic pet that needs comfort.
I want to whine and whimper, telling them that I can't take, that it's too much, it won't fit. Just to have them cooing at me, hugging my distressed body and being like "shhh I know puppy, I know, deep breaths, you can take, it's okay".
Want to cling to then and beg to stop just to receive an "oh no no no, it's happening baby it's happening and you can take it, that's it, relax for me. I know I know, but it's going to happen puppy"
Want them to also be a bit sarcastic, when I start whining saying that it's going to hurt, want them to chuckle at me "yes it's going to hurt, but I'm here for you, don't worry. Yes puppy it is going to hurt, deep breaths don't panic, I'm just being honest. Good boy, let's do it"
I want that confusion sensation, they're hurting me, making me miserable, but they're also my only source of comfort, I need them! Want to hug and cling to someone that wants to hurt me, it's going to hurt me and it's being sweet about it.
