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[weepingchoir]

you have a disgusting storytelling addiction

[ticklefighthockey]

i knoooow this is a limited budget thing but i still think that shane's "i can't come out" rationale would be so much more powerful if we saw more of him in a public-facing context. like signing autographs for hundreds of fans gathered outside the practice facility, or idk visiting kids in a hospital or speaking at a school.... sponsorships are just the weakest emotional reason to not come out. like oh your multimillion dollar contract won't keep a roof over your head if the seltzer water company drops you? oh the watch company will think less of you if you're gay?

[sailermoon]

this is how new yorkers @ mamdani

[sailermoon]

[all-roads-are-now-bent]

[amygdalae]

[amygdalae]

[quietwingsinthesky]

like the betrayal’s always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didn’t matter. someone discards you because they didn’t give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say “I love you. I would make the same choice again.” You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.

[quietwingsinthesky]

“I thought they cared about me, but they were lying this whole time.” <- tired. boring. removes all the nuance of this relationship to make it easier to move on from.

“I thought they cared about me, and I was right, and every minute they were there for me, every time they said they were proud, every laugh we shared leaning against each other bruised and breathless, all of it was real. and they still left me behind. They could put their love aside. I couldn’t.” <- insane. will never leave you alone. reminds you that even the worst people are still people and can still care about even the ones they hurt the most and that undoes neither the harm nor the love.

[quietwingsinthesky]

okay. something about the way i worded this is making people think this is a vent thing about real relationships. and it’s fine if that’s where it took you. but i feel like i need to be transparent here: this be blorboposting. karlach cliffgate and her terrible awful no good very bad betrayal.

[imdrinkingmiso]

they hate me because the years of memory loss has purified my mind

[gio-utti]

Astarion doodles~

[ticklefighthockey]

just trying to imagine how the ilya/marleau/shane threesome would unfold

[ticklefighthockey]

god also wait which one of you had the headcanon where cliff was originally just supposed to watch and then he locks eyes with ilya from the cuck chair and telepathically conveys that he NEEEEEDS to get in there immediately and ilya’s like don’t even worry bro I got you and leans over to shane to be like baby you’re so good you’re so hot can you take another load for me baby

[redstonedust]

if vampires existed in real life i think there would be shady companies advertising "organic blood" sourced from "willing donors" who are coincidentally all poor people being paid like $5 per blood donation. and like haughty vegan vampires who only drink a synthetic blood drink thats brewed in a way thats actively worse for the enviroment. and radical traditionalist vampires who go on tiktok and claim that true alpha chads have to drain and kill people and anyone who leaves their victims alive is a liberal cuck. enter the world of hypothetical insufferable vampire politics with me.

[ticklefighthockey]

I know it’s a romance novel so ilya has to be largely Cured of his avoidant tendencies by Love. but for fic purposes I’m just saying: I’ve said I love you to three romantic partners over the course of my life and every time I’ve enjoyed like 24-48 hours of feeling like I’m a new person I’m reborn I’ve been transformed by the healing light of love and then I wake up on the second or third day absolutely certain that we should break up. and then I have to Deal With That. not to project (I say projectingly) but I just think a two-week vacation from the self at the cottage is not going to fix what’s fucked up inside this man… guy who gets dropped off at the ottawa airport and discovers that wherever you go there you are

[cogneartive]

can i please get more pictures like this. this how it feel

[cogneartive]

more examples

[heroticisms]

[ilya-rozanovs]

Heated Rivalry (2025) but it's just my girlfriend's favourite parts

Ilya Rozanov version

[papayajuan2019]

what are three thousand things you associate with me

[notahorseindisguise]

knowing when to hold em and when to fold em is also important for origami

[hollandar]

Hudson Williams, #1 Shane Understander

I think Shane was a character who, soon as I read him, made all the sense to me. I felt immediately a kinship and an ownership over Shane. I was like, “I need to be the only person to tell this story. I get it. I want to be the person to be Shane and I want to spend time with him.” [x]

(sources below)

PANEL 1 Out

PANEL 2 (fear/desire) The Permanent Rain Press

PANEL 3 (vegas bathroom) Numero Netherlands

PANEL 4 (tears) Harper's Bazaar

PANEL 5 (ilya inverse) Teen Vogue Image: [x]

PANEL 6 (additions) (4 gifs) Numero Netherlands Entertainment Weekly

PANEL 7 (good job) Them

PANEL 8 (dichotomy) eTalk CTV CBC News Images: [x] [x] [x]

PANEL 9 (cottage home) Variety

PANEL 10 (heart eyes) Timid

PANEL 11 (evolution) Much Image: [x]

PANEL 12 (yuna) Variety

PANEL 13 Timid Numero Netherlands Out Image: [x]

[redstonedust]

everyone knows about the filing the serial numbers off that comes with turning a fanfiction character into an original character but theres a lesser known and equally funny "putting an original character created for a preexisting fandom setting into my own world" . like yeah this was always my own oc. i made this guy. however i need to shave off their homestuck horns. dont worry about it. its fine.