fućk my Sobriety✌

a lil bit of this and a lil bit of that dabbling in the art of how to ruin my life 😂✌💀 feet pics anyone? cashapp me $10 and I'll send a video of whatever you want 🖤🖤 dirty rp/degradation/rate your 🍆 starts at $5 just dm me on here loves stay safe🖤

[hey-skinnyskinny]

Honestly I miss ice, but that's all folks💀💀✌

[saprophetic]

sometimes i fantasize about what it'd be like to be on adderall because the concept of being able to Accomplish Tasks is incredibly appealing to me

[hey-skinnyskinny]

🛑TW: Eating disorder, mentions pregnancy which ik is sensitive for some people understandably 🖤🖤

I just had a random fucked up thought:

If I were to find out I'm pregnant, I honestly dunno what'd I do. My rational side would be happy (also a bit stressed bc my living situation, im not raising a kid in the household) but then my ED side would kick in. I dunno if I could mentally deal with the weight gain. Knowing I have to eat, not just for myself but for the lil guy/girl.

.... also just realized why isn't talked about for pregnant women with mental disorders or ED and how it might affect them??

[blackberrysunshinee]

[hey-skinnyskinny]

When will I finally stop running and just face my demons/problems head on?

But then again how can I run from myself?

[thoughtkick]

“I need to stop fantasizing about running away to some other life and start figuring out the one I have.”

— Holly Black

[danieljricciardo-archive-deacti]

the blood in my veins is made up of mistakes

[hey-skinnyskinny]

My toxic trait:

Whenever I start catching feelings and I go home, I tend to overthink and my head convinces me that I'm just a bother/nobody really gives a shit so I sabotage my own potential happiness✌

[lily--of-the-valley]

You haven't seen addiction

Until your heart is racing and you're snorting lines even when you promised to stop after a gram

You haven't seen addiction

Until you've inhaled from a glass pipe enough times to be hearing voices and shadows all night long

You haven't seen addiction

Until you crash your car while high on bars and stumble out in a blur

You haven't seen addiction

Until you're shooting up while sitting on the bedroom floor praying you don't miss this time

You haven't seen addiction

Until you forget who you are

Until the only thing you think about

Is that next high

That next shot

Next line

Next pill

Next hit

I have felt oblivion

And I have lived in Hell

You haven't seen addiction

Until your mind has lost itself

To itself

[ritikajyala]

no but we seek validation

and we're so fucking attention starved that we need to put stories

and post pictures and scroll Instagram for hours. Days on replay.

im sorry it's this way.

[stayhighandfuckwhattheythink]

Any women in South Carolina trying to find a real man to party with? Hit me up! 😉

[berryfun303]

[mariebitch111]

[rottengirl1977]

since i've been caring way way less about what kinds of food i eat this time around (to feel less shitty physically), i updated my list of favorite low cal "meals" lol ❤️‍🔥

aussie bites (oats, apricot, flax, sunflower seed, chia, coconut, quinoa). these are really high cal in comparison (130 per piece!!!) but guys i can't stress enough how good just one of these is at keeping away hunger. i never have to eat 2

tomato sandwich (toasted bread, tomato slices soaked in balsamic vinegar, 20 calorie aeoli, broiled in oven). about 180 calories in total, it's a rexy-fied version of a childhood food of mine and the flavor is perfect for savory cravings

pickles of course. so much more satisfying than a regular cucumber since it has more flavor, and it's my go-to when i feel binge-y

ritz crackers, ONLY TO BREAK FASTS. i eat 5 (80 cal) when i feel too nauseous to go on, to soak up acid in my empty stomach and give me a tiny energy boost. if you can't tell i'm really sick of being scared of carbs lol and i'm trying to fix that

strawberries with stevia, enough said

just putting this down to remind myself that i don't have to eat that fried rice i was looking at 💗 cause i've been really good today and i'm not gonna fuck up

[zaisti]

why can’t you remember? is it too much of a good thing? squeeze past the pressure slight miscalculation it all goes in stages

[mindlesssquids]

I want a freind who sends me meth/coke/weed and we could tweak on call together,,,,

Ahh, wishful thinking

[bloodonmycrucifix]