Hey all! Apologies for going dark over here. Life kinda beat my ass for a bit but I am getting back on track finally!!
TLDR; my eight year old ferret passed away and I thought it was my fault. The grief & guilt ate me alive until we confirmed it was lymphoma. I’m still very sad because my Sweet Bean was my buddy for eight years, but I’m feeling better and I’m finally back at making art. I will be following up with folks this week!!
It truly feels like the end of an era, I had ferrets from 2013 to now. Bean was a vvvv good girl with the fuzziest pantaloons, who hated my partner’s guts and socked feet. I’ll miss her. ❤️🩹
Here’s what happened: A couple weeks ago I got a nasty case of bronchitis which was rough and sucked. I also had an eight year old ferret named Bean who was the last of a trio my partner and I had. My eldest I got before I met my partner in 2012 and he passed away in 2024 he was with me from college to home ownership and lived in half a dozen states. He was deaf and loved chomping erasers. My middle was an adrenal boy and only made it to three which was heart breaking because he was truly one of the sweetest, most special creatures I’ve ever met. Then there was Bean our only girl and an absolute spitfire.
If you don’t know ferrets can get influenza (and covid) from people. Since Bean was housed in my office I always wore gloves and a mask when feeding/watering and a mask while working if I was sick with respiratory symptoms. Even if it’s not something I should be able to pass her in theory.
A couple days after recovering Bean started sounding a little wheezy. In the past she could get that way when we transitioned into Spring but having just been sick I was still cautious and got a vet appt scheduled for three days later. By the next morning she was much raspier, I called my office and our exotic vet wasn’t in to get her in sooner.
At this point I’m convinced I got her sick. Our appointment is still two days out and I’m stressed. She then begins to rapidly deteriorate. By late afternoon I called an exotics EV the next town over and we got our ass there. Ultimately with her condition and age the vet advised euthanasia because she suspected what we were dealing with was cancer, something common in ferrets her age. I didn’t realize until we were in the car that her lymph nodes under her neck were quite swollen. However I was still convinced I had killed my ferret by not being cautious enough and opted for a necropsy before cremation.
It took like two weeks of me irrationally dwelling on murdering my beloved pet before we got results back which confirmed that it was actually lymphoma. Like cats ferrets will hide that they’re not feeling good and despite being healthy at her last yearly about seven months ago she had been slowing down. I had assumed it was just age but it was seemingly a combo of age and cancer.
Anyways fuck cancer, but I’m so relieved I didn’t accidentally murder my beloved tubular pet 🥲
Finished Sketch commission from @queen-scribbles 🖤 Theron and her lovely Imperial Agent Jaaide. Thank you for the commission it's always a delight to paint Theron! 🖤🖤
Another watery themed piece! A commission for @serendipitys-teapot featuring some Shakarian that I'm SO PLEASED with!!!
This is a piece to accompany their Shakarian fic and you can read it here from the beginning or check out the latest chapter that this piece belongs to here!
"This is for stealing my ship *punch* and this is for touching all my shit *punch* and this is for eating all my food *punch* and this is for mother fucking TORCHYYYY *PUNCHPUNCHPUNCH* "
Sorry if you thought Khano was a gentle little blueberry muffin, but Skavak had it coming.
Another watery themed piece! A commission for @serendipitys-teapot featuring some Shakarian that I'm SO PLEASED with!!!
This is a piece to accompany their Shakarian fic and you can read it here from the beginning or check out the latest chapter that this piece belongs to here!
why does this have 32k notes? it’s just a picture of a knife in a ranch bottle, is there some unspoken joke that 32 thousand people share? what is going on here, i dont get it. it’s just a fucking picture of a knife in a ranch bottle. is there some spiritual connection people have to this picture? is there some ominous and mystical reasoning that this has 32 thousand notes? do people reblog this because it makes them look like some indie blogger? or is there just something funny to this? someone please explain
Doing a lil v-day sale! Want to focus on shippy art to continue to build out that portfolio! 🖤💖
Offering for my tumblr fam only 25$ smooch sketches! Full color sketches, but will likely be shoulder/waist up and I might be a bit experimental with coloring! (Look to recent OC sketches for ideas).
FinchMarie-studio.com has a contact form, feel free to DM, email [email protected] or use discord @ FinchMarie
Commissions are closed! Thank you all so much for the love 💕
Folks currently in my queue I will be updating you directly by end of the weekend, but I’ll also be posting daily updates for what I’m working on via my Trello!
Organize anything, together. Trello is a collaboration tool that organizes your projects into boards. In one glance, know what's being worke
Will I be late to my own funeral? Maybe. Anyways. OCSmooch # One featuring one of my very favorite Sheps on this hellsite @dadpilled 's Sacha Shepard (they/them) and my Peregrine Shepard (she/her). 🖤🖤
Now that I'm fully back from work, I can share that I participated in the inaugural Valentines day BG3 exchange run by the ever lovely @commander-krios
Be sure to check out all the incredible work on AO3: Here.
I was gifted a piece from the insanely talented @eluvisen that made me actually shriek, of Aska and her Wizard.
Go admire it: here!!
I did a piece for @aevallare that is far too spicy for Tumblr's delicate sensibilities of her Tav, Auri and Astarion based on a very very good spicy and sweet scene from her BG3 long fic 🖤