Jackie Blue

I dont want 2 die yet

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[heyjackieg]

Hello from the Pakua studio , today I had class this morning. After last night, my bow snapping in half, I almost wanted to use that as an excuse to not go to class. I already skipped martial arts class last night, i didnt want to quit.

Morning class was tai chi then archery. Both classes were great, im glad i went.

Currently im getting ready to teach kids acrobatics. I am grateful for this opportuity. I was sad that my journey was goimg to change and be different but i am honored.

Working 1:1 with Master Clawson has been great. I am being challenged and guided. The other day i did a 1 hand handstand, first try!! I laughed because it was easier than i thought. It showed me how much i secretly limit myself.

This weeked it evaluations, im going for green in 5 disciplines and orange in chi.

Im savoring this orange era, thank you yellow and white belt. Orange i became stronger. Im sad to leave orange, im nervous to meet green. However, change is a part of life.

-Jackie G

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Hello , its 2026. I'm currently watching blue eye samurai for the second time. I appreciate the main character is non binary, she/he/they.

Triggger warning blood . Its interesting that i use cos play blood but when me or my grandma are bleeding, i freak out.

Example, the other day my grandma sat on a pair of sissors. We were doing arts and crafts and it was a freak accident. My grandma's leg has a small puncture, it was gushing out blood. I freaked out and did not handle that well.

Tonight in archery i broke my bow, it snapped in half, one of pieces hit and cut my wrist. Minor cut but there was blood. I only freaked out after people were looking at my wrist. My wrist is vulnerable, i have scars from self harm. I know no one was looking at my scars but i was. I am thankful for my teacher , he started setting up a bow for me ;( i was scared and did not want to shoot again.....i wanted to go home and rest. But i kept going. I am proud of myself. After archery, i passed on martial class. I went to dinner with michelle, thai food. It was nice to decompress and open up.

Im tired im going to sleep, ill write soon!!

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THE SHINING (1980) HANNIBAL (2013-15) THE SUBSTANCE (2024)

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pretend this is an email

im suppose to send an email to the grand master but im nervous.

i have so many masters. 4 to be specific.

this is my rough draft, my tumblr draft. the drama queen chronicles.

i currently got a job opp teaching kids acro, i was hand picked.

i am the chosen one. i already knew and accepted this.

i dont want to send a message, i dont want to cause problems. i dont want to start drama. but im not gonna be a bitch. im not gonna be punked. i know the energy. i see the energy. its not the same as it once was, after i shared my news is when the energy immediately shifted.

i was not supported and currently do not feel supported by some.

i still need my master as my individual teacher. i feel he has abandoned me. my other masters keep in touch , maybe not liz but i understand because i dont open to her and i only see her once a week. my other masters are more in my life, i see them at lease 2x a week.

again, the energy was fun and now its not.

this is just a wave, a moment in time. this will pass.

but in order for things to change i must speak up for myself.

i must overcome fear. i must overcome myself.

i am grateful i spoke up today. i am grateful for my support system.

i am scared. scared to ruin someones life. again, the robbin situation. i was scared to "ruin" his rep.

again, im not going to be punked, mistreated, mincroagressed, uncomfortable, not supported. i can leave and find another master.

i am grateful for the good times. i am grateful for the knowledge.

xoxo ya mama xxoxo

jack attack

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[heyjackieg]

Sun Gazerz feat. MATZI

“ CRYBABYBACKBITCH Its the 29th year around the sun and my sad trippy summer just begun. All these drugs got me feelin numb. No more pain.

My friend and I made a track! Thank you for the support! -Jax

[heyjackieg]

I started Pakua 5 months ago! One day, i'll have my own school !

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you went without me :( / you always leave me behind

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It has nothing to do with Satan, Mama. It’s me. Me.

Carrie (1976) dir. Brian De Palma

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Gia Carangi by Arthur Elgort (1980)

[heyjackieg]

VIVA BRAZIL

you need to get these Brazilian men away from me!!!

get these married men away from me, goood lord they are sexy.

last week at work, the capoeira boys came to the cafe and i fell in love. viva brazil!

sooner than you know im gonna be joining Capoeira, not just for the sexy men. I want to grow not only in Pakua. However, i found Pakua first. I must learn Pakua for a while before i start a new sport.

que boyfriend by Asia Cruise.

im not sure where my next romantic relationship will be/who it will be with. All i know is, i want someone who knows self defense. I want someone who is kind and patient. I want someone who is a great teacher. I want someone who can explain there feelings and emotions. I want someone mature, responsible. I want someone who has goals, excited about life. I want someone who is humble and grateful.

i am not desperate for love, i will not move fast. I am getting myself together.

i can look at these Brazilian men and keep manifesting.

xoxo- Jackie G

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Chopped hair. Almost to my original form

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Sun Gazerz feat. MATZI

I don't want to cry anymore

I started to make a track last summer 2024.

I came back to it this spring/summer.

I had a huge spot for an open verse, i asked

•Mazti

• Arko Banks

• Grace Valentine

Lets see what the others come up with!

Visuals coming soon!! Lyrics as well! Matzi sent this over last night, theres some words i cant transcribe.

Cheers yall! Thank you for the support!

- Jackie G