exceptionally unexpected

that tender moment when a recreational miner discovers they're on to something beautiful

[hiddengem3]

This has always been me...but I'm in a new season in life where God sent me someone to journey with. That makes me smile. 😊

[hurried-deactivated20181109]

[hiddengem3]

😂😂😂 going to church tomorrow like...

[hiddengem3]

My life.

[itsborderlinebitch]

tbh you get so used to your mental illness that its not even like “oh god this cant be happening” like it used to be. its just like lol “here we go again another mood drop” “oh well would u look at that i cant stop shaking” “what do you know? i dont feel anything” and its such normalcy to you that it becomes this dreadful routine that never ends and the worst part about all of it is that you dont care anymore

[hiddengem3]

Mood.

[moisemorancy-deactivated2022061]

[bpdpoc]

Does anyone else with anxiety find themselves constantly googling the definition of different words? Even if I know the definition of the word, I still google it before I use it in conversation just encase I was wrong so I don’t look stupid. Is that just me?

[hiddengem3]

ENCASE lololol 

[hiddengem3]

India.Arie - The Truth

Music video by India.Arie performing The Truth. (C) 2002 Universal Motown Records, a division of UMG Recordings, Inc.

Thinking about the best Valentine’s Day I’ve ever had! 

[imjust-a-girl]

[meesow]

[sappling]

i love this meme

[hiddengem3]

Everybody be cool. I come in chill.

[hiddengem3]

Adulting takes work.

[momzynoor]

[kittykatex]

[hiddengem3]

#mood

[justgirlythings]

📖

[hiddengem3]

yaaassss!

[hiddengem3]

I bought you a kiwi today...

last night was weird. so many emotions and thoughts ran through my head as we sat and talked. i care a lot now and i knew exactly what i wanted to tell you to do but i knew you would resist it so i kept my mouth shut. i just wanted to make sure you were safe. calm. comforted. but deep down inside i knew there was nothing i could really do about your situation. so we bid our farewells and i let you go. go to find your peace. go to have your moment. go to find your comfort that will not always be me. i had a feeling that i wouldnt experience our normal routine today. but i smiled awkwardly as you waved goodbye getting out the car. i tried to keep a straight face as i drove off. you told me to get a full nights rest and thats what i did. because you told me to. you told me that you would be okay. and i have no choice but to believe you. you sent me a song and i must’ve listened to it a thousand times until i fell asleep. i did as you said and i sent you a message this morning to let you know i slept soundly through the night. no reply. i packed you a kiwi because i know you like them and i as i put it in my bag i felt things in my heart. i couldn’t wait to tell you when i saw you today. but i had a feeling today would be different. i looked at my phone two hours later and there was still no reply. your phone is out of commission it seems and it sucks because, for now, thats our method of communication. the thought of being disconnected from you is making me anxious. is it temporary or permanent. what a cliffhanger from last night! my leg is shaking at my desk as i write this. i shoudn’t worry because you’re probably thinking of me too. i hope. the kiwi is sitting there ripe. ready. beautiful. yet uneaten. with no owner. i just wanted to write to say, i bought you a kiwi today...but i havent heard from you. now i have to pretend that everything is okay as people greet me and require tasks. i have to pretend that im okay not hearing from you. not seeing you walk into the room. i have to not worry right now. how do i pretend? i’ll take your advice and turn my thoughts into writing. i hope this works.   

[hiddengem3]

Waiting Room Thoughts

I'm sitting here in this waiting room waiting for my number to be called and all I can think about is... him. I tried to think about the massive amount of work I did today, I thought about housework and dinner to be made even the reason why I'm in this waiting room. Nothing even matters. I tried to think about any and everything else but it turned me back to the thought of...him. I smile as I think about random little things like the butterflies I get every single time he walks into my office. The details in his text messages. The first time I saw him laugh really hard at something. The pensive look he makes glaring out the window when he's in deep thought. The way he gently touches me when he's reassuring me everything is going to be alright. The time he ate my pie and it made me laugh. The flowers that took my breath away. The words he incoherently shared with my sister. The passion in his voice when he talks about his students. The promise. The thought that I may just be a moment in his story. The fear that once again he may be just another passer-by. I'm trying to think of the best and be hopeful but I remember what he said...I remember how I felt. I am getting scared again. Should I stop thinking? Probably. Why am I like this? How do I change? Is there a pill I can take for a hopeless romantic who's never had feelings. How can I be sure without being sure? The anxiety of being in this waiting room is giving me the anxiety of being... In. His. Waiting. Room.

[sheismysquishy]

Anxiety is panicking about being late and then sitting in the parking lot for 20 minutes because you are so early

[hiddengem3]

annoying!

[hiddengem3]