[hiddeningrid]

x

[moveslikekeithrichards]

everyone has dreams about being lost at school, late to work, cant find bathroom etc but whats yalls most common Uncommon stress dream. ill always have dreams about having various problems with my fish tank

[xbbyhoneyx]

iconic.

[hiddeningrid]

hmmm but yesterday i had this thought while getting ready in the afternoon, and now i wrote it down.

about whether alternative realities, our bodies behaving like electrons moving between orbits by releasing or absorbing energy, would ever become a discovered and accesible reality. and then i realized, they already are. because in my memories, layers and layers of reality exist, and i move through them. people i haven't seen for 10 years, i will love again in my dreams. those passed away, i hop onto the path of that orbit, and they are with me again. i guess the true tragedy is, that with time and inevitable loss, one's outer world gets more and more compressed into their inner world, all the people you could once touch an orbit of a memory away. and on it goes, until i become my own electron moving through all those other worlds.

[hiddeningrid]

it's just, every day i wake up and do things

and if i don't do nothing, then it's just water in the flowing river of my depression and i'll drown

[cillianistic-deactivated2026050]

「 Cillian Murphy - "Red Lights" Portraits, 2012 」 

[skelkankaos2]

Okay. Reblog this and tag with a numerical response for how many of these artists you listen to. It’s stereotypical “tumblr user” music.

Lemon Demon

Tally Hall

Death Grips

Jack Stauber

Mr Bungle

King Gizzard and The Lizard Wizard

Devo

Oingo Boingo

Aquabats

Weird Al

My Chemical Romance

100gecs

Talking Heads

They Might Be Giants

Mitski

Girl In Red

[hiddeningrid]

why is it that truly the week i absolutely was bursting with writing some stupid little fic, i was simultaneously so swamped i had only time to get measly little bits out. and now that i have all the time in the world,

well. am i seeing any words? do i have any motivation whatsoever?

no, and no.

[artfilmfan]

Paul Watson in “Watson” (Lesley Chilcott, 2019)

[hiddeningrid]

im starting to suspect that i have PMDD. i checked back the dates when i was having very bad suicidal ideation and planning, and all of them seem like they happened just before my period.

i'll have to keep better check of it to have more accurate data, but g'damn. i seriously went through such an intense episode like two days ago, i made an actual researched plan and all, couldn't sleep cos i wanted to harm myself so badly, and then my period started and now i feel, uuh , okay???? like hey what the fuck, actually. that's a pretty fucking big fluctuation.

[hiddeningrid]

gotta love the depressive periods when they deepen like this. i've been extra super down in the dumps the past few days. just really not seeing a point to any of this. scaring my friend with how apathetic i am.

therapy is still so many hoops to jump through. got my next appointment in like 2 months. trying to make it to that spot, i guess. it's just all so fuckin useless. the most bluntest needle is discarded to me to sow myself back together.

[roseillith]

Malá mořská víla // The Little Mermaid (1976) dir. Karel Kachyňa

[tootiredtobekind]

Cillian: "They're not even that blue"

and these are his eyes:

[hiddeningrid]

@devotedlyshadowytheorist

Actually found the clip of the woman calling his eyes not even that blue, here you go. It's hilariously weird lol.

[hiddeningrid]

wherever you go, there you are

[mushroomseb]

CILLIAN MURPHY ⌙ Inception (2010) premiere

[zegalba]

close-ups of butterfly and moth wing scales

[hiddeningrid]

watching what must be one of cillian murphy's first times doing a non-irish accent on film and oh boy.

that irish isn't peeking through, it is blazing through that british accent. most notably the "th" sounds, or should i say "Th" sounds, very very cork!

he had a much stronger accent when he was younger, and the irish lilt is quite present especially in his earlier accent work. weirdly though, i didn't catch much of it in peacock from 2010, but then his american in sunshine from 2007 kept slipping quite distractingly. one of the reasons i really enjoy his irish work, since it feels that one step more authentic.

i can't hear the irish lilt as much in later seasons of peaky blinders, but i did hear those irish "r"s and "a"s occasionally even in oppenheimer. the natural accent truly hard to shed.