Pairing: Divorced, single dad!SeokjinX Best friend, Fem!Reader
Theme: Angst, Fluff, mutual pining, confessions, slice of life au, bf2l au.
Wordcount: 1.3k+
Summary: Seokjin could count on his fingers the things that haven't changed within these 20 years of his life, and one of those is you..
Warnings: mentions of unsuccessful marriage, divorce, mutual pining, quite angsty (Not like girl crush I promise), love confessions, crying, Seokjin is 40, reader is 39. SFW.
Minors are not allowed in this blog!!
A/N: Happy Seokjin day! Hope our baby is happy and healthy. 💜
And I hope you all like this short piece. I personally like the way it turned out. Tell me what you guys think.
“Appa, you know you have to do it today, right?” Seokhee’s voice sounds less like encouragement and more like a threat. Seokjin knows his daughter well. He knows she will make his life a living hell if he fails to complete his mission today.
So, he has to do it. He has to do it today at any freaking cost.
“Yes, Seokhee! Appa knows.” Seokjin tries to calm his daughter down but in reality, he fails to stay calm himself.
He is nervous. There is a tremble in his hands, which he used to experience back in his rookie days.
Now that he is thinking of those days, he realizes so many things have changed, have been altered even. He used to be youthful, used to throw dad jokes all around, used to hit the club twice a month but now.. All he has is back pain, impending migraine before each boring meeting, and a skin thicker than earth’s mantle.
But he also has more experience, both professionally and personally, and patience. Certainly, a wrong marriage, fatherhood and a divorce has taught him enough about life and he is grateful for that.
He could count on his fingers the things that haven't changed within these 20 years of his life, and one of those is you.
You were with him when he used to be reckless and wild, you were with him when he took the vows he couldn’t keep, you were with him when he held Seokhee for the first time in his arms, you were with him when he signed those divorce papers and you still are with him.
You took care of not only him but also his daughter selflessly. He is grateful to you for all of it, but he is even more apologetic. You kind of sacrificed your life for your best friend, him, and his daughter, Seokhee. And as a result, you are 39 and unmarried.
What unsettles Seokjin even more is that he could have easily held your hands, looked into your eyes and told you that he loves you, he has been loving you for 20 years now… but he failed.
He failed you again and again on several occasions for numerous times in these 20 years. However, that is not what he wants to think of today. He is finally giving himself a chance, giving his life another chance… and giving you an idea of what you and him could be... together.
“Hey handsome, where are you so lost?” you appear out of nowhere and sit down beside him on the sand. Handing him the ice-cream cone, you take a lick from yours.
Seokjin jolts at your sudden appearance. He tries to calculate for how long he has been zoning out. He looks at his phone only to find out Seokhee has cut the call and the screen went back to his wallpaper.. him, Seokhee and you, a happy family... only if it actually was. He puts the device in his pocket.
“Took you so long.” he comments softly as he tastes the vanilla-flavored goodness on the tip of his tongue.
“Yeah. The queue was pretty long.” you point at the ice-cream shop residing a little far away from the place you two are sitting currently. “But it’s worth it. The ice-cream tastes really good. Seokhee would have liked it so much.”
Seokjin scoffs. He sometimes feels jealous of his own daughter because these days all you talk about is her. Is Seokjin nothing more than Seokhee’s father? Are those 20 years long memories fading from your brain or something? Can’t you look at him as Kim Seokjin, the 40 years old businessman, who loves you?
“You miss her, don’t you?” he turns his head to look at you. The mellow sea breeze has ruffled up your hair making it messy, you have a little bit of chocolate at the corner of your lips, your right elbow is covered with sand, your eyes are red and there are eyebags under those. But you are beautiful nonetheless. As beautiful as when he had seen you for the first time, when he was 20 and you were 19.
“Of course I do. I know your ex-wife takes good care of her but I can’t help being a little worried, which makes me miss her even more.” you pout a little. Seokjin’s heart melts into a puddle.
“And what about me? Do you miss me?” he adds a little suggestively, trying to find an answer or a question in your eyes.
“You are practically right here, Jin. Why the fuck will I miss you?” you giggle, nudging his shoulder with yours in the process.
“Not that, Y/N. Don’t you miss your Jinnie? You best friend? The person I used to be before getting married, before having Seokhee?” If Seokjin's voice sounds a little desperate, he does nothing to mask it. It’s you after all. He can show you the real him, the desperate version of himself who craves you and your love.
You smile a little, but there is a sadness in it that tugs at Seokjin’s heart strings.
“Yes. Yes I do. But I can’t let that take me over. Otherwise I will start wishing for impossible, forbidden things that I buried long, long ago.”
“What if those things are not forbidden? Not impossible? What if- what if the wishes are mutual?” Seokjin suggests.
Your expression changes in a heartbeat. When you look at him, he perceives moisture in your eyes. And you look hurt, as if he has trespassed a territory you clearly asked him to stay away from.
“You don’t know what you are saying, Seokjin.” Your voice trembles.
“Don’t call me that. Call me Jinnie, just like you used to 12 years ago.” Seokjin scoots closer to your body.
“I- I can’t-”
“Let’s start afresh. Both of us, you and me, together. Please?” Seokjin cuts you off.
“What? What are you even.. Jin? Are you pitying me right now? Are you extending your kind hands seeing me approaching my 40s without a partner?” Fat trails of tears roll down your cheeks and break Seokjin’s heart.
“No- what the fuck! No-” Seokjin tries to establish his ground but you cut him off.
“Then why? Tell me why are you proposing something so unreasonable like this? Are you joking with me?” you spat at him.
“Do I really have to spell it out for you? I love you! Are you happy now?” Seokjin shouts back, “do think it’s unreasonable to finally give my feelings a chance after debating for 20 fucking years?”
“Jin-”
“For god’s sake, Y/N. I have more gray hair than black these days! Do you think I will be joking about getting married with the woman I love at this age?”
“Are you-”
“Yes! Yes I am serious. I have been loving you since when I was 20 and you were 19. Hell! I took my wedding vows imagining your face and you are now accusing me of pitying you!” Jin’s own face is smeared with tears now. He didn’t even realize when he started crying.
“Was I the reason behind your unsuccessful marriage?” your voice sounds unsure as you address the elephant in the room.
“No. It was a marriage of convenience, none of us were happy. It had to end at a point and it did. You have nothing to do with it.” Jin replies, wiping the tears off of his face.
He finds you biting your lips as you stare at the sea ahead.
“It’s okay if you-” Jin gets silenced as you whip your head at the speed of lightning and place a chaste kiss on his lips.
“I love you too, Jinnie. I have always been in love with you, maybe even before you fell for me.” you murmur, connecting your forehead with his.
Tears roll down Jin’s cheeks again, but this time due to happiness. You wipe those with your thumb.
“Finally.. Finally you are mine.” Jin whispers as he leans in for another kiss.
“Yeah, you are a little too 20 years late but we are finally there.” you place your lips on his.
“I love you, Y/N” Jin mumbles in between the kiss, pulling you closer by your waist.
“I love you too, Jinnie.” You reply, wrapping your hands around his neck.
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