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Illustrator and Graphic designer with 0 skills for managing a social media account | Will draw for money | Takes commissions _____________________ - Current artist for the band OK Goodnight - ________________________________ Business at [email protected]

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i guess im just never finishing this one

it was from a dream i had once, about an infinite tower that connected to an unknown universe. i walked up a spiral staircase and every step was often twice and often thrice my own size, until i reached a room where a colossal guardian of some sort sat, made of marble, on an ivory throne and accompanied by his consort. my ears rang and my vision became blurry when i tried to look up and understand his infinitely larger shape.

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I just might follow you When we meet down in the garden of earthly delights

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After a couple of rough years, i gathered enough courage to draw fanart again It’s probably dumb, because as a serious illustrator (or whatever) I really feel like I shouldn’t be doing this..?   And I’m truly sorry that these fanarts are not feeding my portfolio or whatever.  But they make me happy. I deserve this. I deserve to be able to use my hands to create what I love too, no?

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she just won’t leave him, you know?

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Everything is wrong, but it's alright

2021 really came with lots of feelings about hyrule warriors

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why can’t I like things anymore?

fanart is so joyful to me but somehow I fill my head with these thoughts that it’ll be unappreciated or dumb

but it’s all i want to create

it’s all left in me

I just want to make LoZ and ffXV fanart in peace and be appreciated by it. and i will. But if you have suggestions of things i could draw, hopefully romantic, no matter the gender, please do suggest them to me I love drawing romance

i just feel so beautiful

I feel like i’ve created something beautiful. 

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she’s the one who tempts me, yet she for whom I’m pure

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she left, making excuses she never understood herself.

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I owe you all an apology

I am not the artist I wish I was

and yet I’ve left a grain of sand that I didn’t think anyone cared for. I just wish I was better. I’ve gotten my face and my body back, I’m no longer a soul 3 feet away from my body, even if sometimes I do detach. 

I no longer feel so far from the mirror even if I don’t sometimes recognize myself.

and it’s all about this. These connections, across the universe.

so i’ll do my best to stay, and remember that i do have a future. 

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Hi i was wondering if your drawing of the two stamets in the garden you titled with believer/deceiver lyrics was available anywhere as a print. I would love it as a coaster, and mousepad and postcard and....just I really love it.

Send me the post? Maybe we can arrange something!!

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Hello there. I just saw your halloween pics. For what it's worth, I think you look gorgeous. I hope you're feeling better and not dissociative any more. I must confess that I do miss you sometimes, and I'm sorry for all the pain I brought you. I'm glad that you're happy and successful. Keep on going. Lots of hugs and kisses. Take care.

Damn, I think I might stay this time for people like you. <3

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Hi there! Just wanted to check up on you, see how you've been. Huge hug to you, and wish you the best.

Damn, this is a lot of love for a waste like me. I love you, thank you.

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I heard you had surgery the other day. I hope you're doing better and that the dysphoria subsides. You're strong and you can get through this.

Thank you <3 I’ve just gotten back to tumblr now and...I’ll do my best to stay. Thank you again. <3

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Do you have twitter? I don't use tumblr anymore but love your work!

Damn, hi!! I haven´t been around tumblr for a while... I’m working on getting back here actually. I’ve felt pretty bad this last year and I’m too shy for twitter. You think it’s a good idea?  <3

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sit until morning. 

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I had surgery recently

And sometimes it feels like everyone sees something different

My body feels as if it were in pieces scattered in a room of mirrors

I can’t find my eyes and I definitely lost my tongue

My skin is someone else’s coat

And my bones are put together with glue like a cheap airplane model

Surgery has made me lose all hope in the human ability to know the world around them; and I wish someone had told me that maybe depression would be affected by this too

I’m surrounded by optimists and I feel like a tree in the middle of fall

Where everyone sees beauty in my changing leaves

I feel nothing but decay

The inutility of my struggles against the ravages of time

I wear masks because my face is not my own

And no one has been able to certainly tell me if I’ll ever feel like myself again

I live my life pretending that I’m the person I used to be

I see old pictures and try to convince myself that is me there

I’m an actress playing the role of my life, and everyone is none the wiser

I wish someone had told me I was beautiful and this surgery wouldn’t help me feel any better

I wish someone would’ve told me I was fine before it was too late,

and now that is too late

I can’t do anything but wait

Like a well watered fern

Like a statue made of clay

Trying to become a human being

again

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I guess this redraw is a little dumb, but I didn’t keep many drawings from my childhood, let alone feel the need to recreate one of them...

I’ve been fascinated with fairies since I was a kid.