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[hidrogenperoxyde]

Im suffering from AuDHD burnout

I don’t know how to get out the loop, i have things i desperately need to do, and i need help

I have two school graded assessments,

one of them being a huge homeroom group project that’s frustrating me as i receive responses such as: ‘i understand, but…’,

And the other? A duo project - i feel guilty as heck because it (literally) takes me an hour to write two-three sentences and i really dont want to be a burden to my friend

I have two commissions to finish that i had accepted before my burnout got to this extent

I have two birthday gifts i have not finished drawing/animating

I’ve lost passion in things i love doing but im still interested in them and i still want to engage in them… but they’re not… fulfilling anymore..? or i dont have enough motivation to do what i need/want to do? Do you get what i mean?

Ok overall i have no move to do anything. It takes me two hours to ‘fully wake up’ and pull myself out of bed.

Therapist told me to ‘do what i love,’ i cant do that either, but I REALLY want to… i just cant? Im so exhausted.

(Not serious) should i let natural selection strangle me by the throat and go die

(Ok now serious) i need non-vague advice on how to recover

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animal doodles i did w my friend in geography :-)

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i have a huge fear of my psychotic episodes coming back again, im not on any anti psychotics either so im even more scared now

everything i do and everyone i interact with - its all going to result into disaster i hate being alone but i mentally cant stand being near anybody right now every day im on the verge of suicide 😭😭😭💔💔👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎

would you think im insane if i said that lion dances are really helping me through this week right now……….. 🤕🤕🤕

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ok if the psychologist ever hands you any of those mental health 1 to 5 forms, ALWAYS ANSWER AND CIRCLE THE WHOLE NUMBERS GIVEN do NOT turn them into decimals or else you'll end up autistic... like me... i got sent to get an autism diagnosis... and got a '100% on the spectrum, congrats'....

^^^^ deadass what i wrote

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i think the best way to ruin your online relationships with others is to add a ‘best friends’ list in your intro page or whatever

Ykwim like

oh and also having those anonymous sender websites like strawpage that let people send you things anonymously

i only have wunna those because idgaf about what peole send me as long as it’s not like someone else’s address

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my biggest pet peeve is whteb people make their oc have insanely small wings that would make them physically unable to fly and maybe even glide at the same time…(only if theyre trying to design an oc that can fly/glide)

i mean unless if theyre there for deco…. maybe….

other than that, i hate ur oc and i also dont like your design choices.. or whatever………

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oomf’s oc :-)

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charlotte!

wip

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im an insanely boring person during breaktime at school because i use that time to just relax and ‘do nothing’ ykwim

so i just listen to the people around me and their conversations, i like it when i learn something new about them or the topic theyre talking about

but recently everyone’s (people im kinda friends with) topic of conversation is just SO FUCKING BORING. I really just want to sit by myself and listen to commentary or something but i know that if im seen alone im definitely going to get made fun of

Ive been hearing the same topics in conversations for the past week or so

why are we so repetitive and boring?

(though, i cant say much because im only a listener)

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my biggest fear is seeming mean with extreme malicious intent, i just dont see why people feel good when hurting others without guilt idk i think im a hypocrite

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my sona againppp

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the thought of our scientific purpose of being alive is so sad, wdym my biological purpose is to prevent our species form going xtinct by reproducing with them??? bruh moment... considering not having kids so our species can just eradicate itself atp

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i wish i was the embodiment of this emoji 🫢🫢 like, i 🫢🫢🫢aspire🫢 to be as🫢 neutral🫢🫢 as them. 🫢🫢🫢///..... same with 😮 like😮 im so neutrally shocked right now 😮🫢

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Drawings of my persona i did in math!! :-) im not in a good mental state right now though, so, im gonna back out from multiple communities im in until the holidays roll back in - yk, like a little hiatus!!! ^_^

I feel like my artstyle is gonna deteriorate thiugh… so i will be posting doodles every now n then just to keep my style in check and make sure its not devolving or somehjng…………….

Als i found out that predators use the emoji combo 😭💢 to find other like-minded people and i just wanted to say that im very mad and sad and disappointed because i fukin LOVE the 💢 emoji and i genuinely fint want people to think im a predator??? (Same goes for the lightning bolt emojis, theyre so cool 🙁🙁 why did stupid nazis have to take them)

(WHY DO PROBLEMATIC PEOPLE TAKE THE BEST EMOJIS 💢😡😡💢💢💢💢💢😡💢😡💢😡😡💢🤬🤬🤬😠🤯)

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im genuinely so pathetic why does i only have one friend whom i actually feel comfortable around?? I feel like an egyptian mummy in the middle of an american zombie apocalypse

i never fit in anywhere and finding people where i can actually be myself around is so difficult??

especially when you live in a fuckass country where the ratio of humans to sheep is 1:5-6

And ive only ever met one person out of the 14 years of being alive where i feel safe, not judged and just

its so difficult?? I dont understand what im doing wrong really and i just blame my looks and whateer is going on in my head

how hard is it to meet people and make friends how do people do it so effortlessly i just DONT UNDERSTAND 🫩📉

i dont want to die alone

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people who intentionally change the way they type to convey some sort of negative emotion are cornfields