(S)LOW ACTIVITY

even if the whole world hates me, no love lost

[hienous]

I MIGHT BE DOWN, BUT I'M STILL BAD. EXTREMELY LOW ACTIVITY MULTI-MUSE, BY LEX (SHE/HER, 26, LESBIAN).

rules: don't be a dick. triggering content will be present, but all tagged. please tag anything related to dog deaths + cancer. i am Going Through It so activity will be spotty as hell. best way to interact with me is through prompts, because i don't know how to do starter calls anymore <3

*characters with an asteric are original characters

PERCY JACKSON & THE OLYMPIANS: ANNABETH CHASE, 18-21, bisexual, cis woman, she/her. primary. CLARISSE LA RUE, 19-22, lesbian, nonbinary, she/her. primary. JASON GRACE, 17-20, bisexual, cis man, he/him. secondary. LEO VALDEZ, 17-20, bisexual, trans man, he/him. secondary. LUKE CASTELLAN, 19-24, bisexual, nonbinary, he/them. secondary. MIKAYLA DESOUSA*, 18-24, lesbian, cis woman, she/her. daughter of aphrodite, legacy of mars. primary. PERCY JACKSON, 18-21, bisexual, cis man, he/him. primary.

POWER RANGERS 2017: JASON SCOTT, 20, nonbinary, he/them. primary. KIMBERLY HART, 20, bisexual, cis woman, she/her. secondary. TRINI GUERRERO, 20, lesbian, nonbinary, she/her. primary.

YELLOWJACKETS: JACKIE TAYLOR, 18, closeted lesbian, cis woman, she/her. secondary. JEFF SADECKI, 18-43, unaware bisexual, cis man, he/him. tertiary. NATALIE SCATORCCIO, 18-43, bisexual, nonbinary, she/her. primary. MIKAYLA DESOUSA* (again), 18-43, lesbian, cis woman, she/her. previously @patricidas / @manslaught. primary. SHAUNA SHIPMAN, 18-43, bisexual in denial, cis woman, she/her. primary.

MISC: ACE EMERSON*, fandomless serial killer, 24-28. bisexual, cis man, he/him. plotting preferred. ASHER ADAMS, all american, 18-25. token cishet man unfortunately. primary. CONRAD FISHER, tsitp, 22. bisexual, cis man, he/him. testing. KAI PARKER, REMOVED from the vampire diaries universe, 22+. bisexual, nonbinary, he/them. LEIGHTON MURRAY, sex lives of college girls, 19. lesbian, cis woman, she/her. LOGAN BLACKBURN*, fandomless mechanic/street racer, 23-26. lesbian, cis woman, she/her. testing. LOVE QUINN(-GOLDBERG), netflix's you, 24. bisexual, cis woman, she/her. secondary. PJ, bottoms, 18. lesbian, cis woman, she/her. primary. REGINA GEORGE, mean girls (2004 + 2024 mix), 18. lesbian, cis woman, she/her. secondary. TARA CARPENTER, scream, 18-22. lesbian, cis woman, she/her. primary. PETER PARKER, mcu spiderman, 18-20. bisexual, trans man, he/him. secondary.

[hienous]

hi

[hienous]

p.jo is back tonight so i hope you all know i'm about to be the most insufferable person to talk to

[hienous]

#everyone make a p.jo verse. this is a threat.

do not ignore this

[hienous]

p.jo is back tonight so i hope you all know i'm about to be the most insufferable person to talk to

[candyflossmemes]

spotify wrapped has arrived. send me a number from 1-100 for a starter based on that song, or a lyric from it, or send a 🎁 for me to shuffle.

[taiturner]

"My vision went blurry; sweat poured down my face as I was suspended in the final moments of being who I thought I was before inevitably becoming someone else.  Someone I wasn’t sure I wanted to be. I thought of a caterpillar getting its last glimpse of light before it closes its cocoon. Do caterpillars think, No, let me stay this way forever, or do they think, Eh, fuck it?" — Black Sheep by Rachel Harrison

[taiturner]

I can see your hand shaking.

YELLOWJACKETS 2x03 "Digestif" / 3x09 "How the Story Ends"

[yenvengerberg]

YELLOWJACKETS 1.04 | 3.09

[ladyintree]

shauna being here,  in her home,  makes taissa feel both uneasy and relieved  —   there was once a time when she knew shauna could understand her with just a simply look,    and she could find solace in her company,   despite being so afraid to be vulnerable with anyone else.    back on the other side,   in a place where she and shauna were never friends,   and after how difficult it’d been to reach shauna in those final months of their time in the wilderness,   she’s not sure what to do with this.  

all she really knows is it’s better that she’s here  —  that someone’s here  —  because taissa feels like she’s losing her mind again,    when she was supposed to be pulling herself back together.

her hand balls into a fist,   tapping at her temple,   struggling with the question because the answer makes her feel powerless.   all of this is making her feel powerless,  after all that she did to try to protect mikayla,  to keep her alive,  to keep her safe…    and now this?    she knew there was something off about her and mikayla’s plan.   she knew they’d missed something,   that it was relying too much on time that taissa wasn’t interested in wasting.   and the past few weeks,  not knowing if mikayla was okay and not knowing when she’d be able to see or talk to her at all,   taissa’s dread only grew.  

she knows that if she could talk to mikayla,   mikayla would tell her that it isn’t her fault and there wasn’t anything she could do.   but she can’t fucking talk to mikayla.    “no,”    she says quickly,    dropping her hand to place both on her hips now,   her body twisting back and forth as she tries to think.   all she’s done is think lately.   “no,  i can’t—  there’s no fucking way to talk to her yet,  and it’s making me fucking…”    she trails off,   not putting a word to it,   her head shaking.    “my parents are trying to figure out a way.”    she looks to the door,   then back to shauna,  rolling her eyes before she can ask.  “they don’t know about us.   about what we are.”     another word she doesn’t want to use,  not to shauna,   because shauna’s face when she told her she was going to marry mikayla still haunts her. 

her jaw clenches as shauna claims she broke a promise,  shooting a look of disgust back at shauna.

it’s not something she blames on mikayla—    taissa had spent their final weeks in the wilderness trying to ensure they were all prepared for what they were about to walk into,   that they were all on the same page.    she was diligent,  making sure all the pieces were in place,   watching everyone a little too closely,   as if trying to anticipate who was about to fuck this up for them first and willing to do what it took to cut the snake’s head before they had to find out here.

"are you fucking kidding me?" she asks, shaking her head. "what was she supposed to do? let him kill her?" the thought makes her shudder and she can't linger on it for much longer, focusing instead on being angry at shauna. "you think she wanted this? it's fucking killing me not being able to tell her that i don't blame her." because she fears that's what mikayla's worried about, knowing how important it is to taissa that no one fucked up, but she doesn't see this as mikayla's fuck up. "what they're saying about her, about all of us because of it, it's not true. he made her do that. not..." she hates entertaining the idea even just to dispute it. "what happened to us."

[hienous]

that's entirely unhelpful. at least if tai had spoken to mikayla, shauna could possibly figure out what kind of headspace the other girl is in, figure out if mikayla's going to fuck all of them over completely. she's unsurprised by the response, but still disappointed, having to refrain from rolling her eyes in irritation. "she didn't use her one call on you?" who the fuck else does she have to call? her tone suggests, even if she doesn't allow herself to actually form the words. as far as she could remember, mikayla only ever had one parent— so, logically, wouldn't she want to use that call on the girl she was with?

but then she thinks about the strange friendship between mikayla and natalie, and shauna begins to feel sick to her stomach. could she have called her instead? could nat be using this as some opportunity for revenge on shauna after she stole her hyperbolic crown, even though it was nat's selfish leadership that ruined it for herself in the first place? her jaw clenches, and she looks away for a moment, debating whether or not to ask— but she'd rather ask tai than nat, so she has no choice. "has anyone talked to her?" she hopes tai can figure out who shauna's really referring to, not trusting herself to voice natalie's name without a snarl. it's her fault she's dealing with any of this— and, really, it's her fault mikayla got put in this position.

again, she has to hold back an eye roll when tai shoots that disgusted look at her, because there's no way taissa doesn't see how completely fucking horrible this is for all of them. if her dad was so bad, why'd she go back home at all? shauna wants to ask, but she knows tai won't take that well, hearing shauna victim-blame her wife. that's not even what shauna has an issue with. if it's all true, if that man really was an abusive asshole, mikayla did the right thing. shauna would have done the exact same thing— wishes she'd be presented the opportunity to hurt someone like that, even, because she still remembers the way lottie's face felt beneath her fists, remembers the way blood dripped from coach's achilles, how good it felt to make other people just feel the slightest hint of all the suffering she had to endure— and she can't experience any of that again. she can't even admit she misses it.

"i don't know, tai. he probably did deserve it. the mugshot is fucked, but—" she takes a deep breath, finally trying to get to her point. "come on. you know this could be really fucking bad for all of us. not just because of what everyone's saying about her, but— because of what she can say about us." shauna specifically. "they all want to know what happened out there. what if she makes some plea deal? agrees to tell them something just so she can get less time?" and who better to target than shauna? she doesn't trust that mikayla would tell the police about natalie, how she deliberately killed ben scott, how she watched javi martinez drown in her place— but she could tell them about shauna. she could tell them that shauna drove jackie taylor out of that cabin, how she beat the shit out of lottie, how her son's body is still out in that wilderness. it was bad enough to watch all of the others mourn her child, like it was a collective loss and not just fucking hers, but to have to see the entire world learn about that? to let everyone look at her with equal parts pity and disgust? that can't fucking happen.

mikayla didn't do shit out there— all the stories about her circulating the media aren't true, because she never killed anyone out there, never even hurt anyone, much to shauna's own surprise. but shauna fucking did. mikayla wouldn't be scathed by letting out even a few of their secrets, so what would she have to lose? how could shauna actually trust her? when she thinks of mikayla, she's not picturing the girl who wrapped her hands after her knuckles split open on lottie's face, who told her she understands the need for release, who never actually looked at shauna like a monster, the way so many others did— no, now, when she thinks of mikayla desousa, she remembers the cruelty she was capable of before the plane crashed, how often shauna would have to comfort jackie after biting words from the cheerleader, how shauna always craved those interactions. she remembers how easily mikayla would tear people down, just to get her own way, and shauna never really minded until now, until it's her mikayla could go after.

[hienous]

so do i just go out and bite someone or-

[hienous]

i forgot part 2 yesterday my bad. fake blood tw

[hienous]

so do i just go out and bite someone or-

[hienous]

it's not until she's actually let into the turner house that shauna considers the fact she's never been here before. for months, she shared an attic with @ladyintree, but she's never even actually been inside her home— but it's only a passing thought, something that fades from her mind just as quickly as it came. shauna's too worried about other things, like all the reporters constantly swarming around like vultures, even worse in the past couple days. it's only been two days since mikayla desousa's face has been plastered all over the news, but already, stories are circulating— people whispering about how the trauma of being stranded out in the wilderness is what made mikayla snap. and already, rumors of the crime scene have been spread, how bloody it was, how you could hardly recognize her father's face.

shauna's been trying not to think about how jealous she feels— how she misses it.

she wanted to go to tai when she first found out, but she needs to have an actual conversation with her, so she waited— gave tai time to process all of it. it's been really inconvenient for her, because of course the only one on their team with any sense of reason also just happens to be her girlfriend. or wife, if they're still delusional enough to believe in that.

"have you talked to her?" she asks the moment they're alone in tai's room, deciding to skip any attempt at small talk. she doesn't want to ask how tai's been if it means shauna has to talk about how she's been— how quiet her bedroom feels without jackie's presence, how suffocating the taylors have been, because she came home, but their daughter didn't. she doesn't want to talk about any of it.

she'd had days to consider how to approach this subject, but she decides to just come out with it. "she broke our promise." just one month, and already, mikayla desousa's drawn so much attention to herself. maybe it wasn't intentional— shauna doesn't know much about mikayla's home life, so she's not going to pretend to be sure about whatever happened in that house days ago, but she does know that this is going to impact all of them. it already has.

[hienous]

if you ever miss me, look for me in these characters <3

trini [redacted], power rangers 2017. toni shalifoe, the wilds. pj, bottoms. clarisse la rue, pjo. deena johnson, fear street. conrad fisher, tsitp. shauna shipman, yellowjackets. annabeth chase, pjo.

tagged by: @tarote tagging: @incassandra fuck you <3 @baypen SORRY

[hienous]

i’m having thoughts about clarisse so this is a reminder to myself to expand on that later

[hienous]

about clarisse and chris... she does date him, temporarily. she was his friend before he joined luke, so when he came out of the labyrnth, she tried helping him because she did care, despite everyone thinking she's just some asshole. this is also when she and silena started getting closer, and clarisse was aware she was forming a crush on her, but she was really annoyed about it. not because she had a thing for a girl, but because silena was a daughter of aphrodite, and considering their parents, it just felt too obvious, so she ignored it. and more importantly, this is around the same time silena started dating beckendorf, so her feelings didn't seem to matter anyway when she had no chance.

silena, seeing how much clarisse has helped chris, started encouraging her to date him, and in her attempt to ignore the crush she had on silena, she did. it didn't last for long, because clarisse ended up realizing that she was not into guys after all, so at least that relationship was good for that much. she's still friends with chris, but that's it.

[hienous]

i’m having thoughts about clarisse so this is a reminder to myself to expand on that later

[hienous]

@manslaught. sorry everyone the princess needs her own blog

[hienous]

opened my laptop to just find an open post where i was giving another depressing mikayla headcanon. i don't ever let that girl live