When I used to roll ecstasy, there would be a time when the roll gets better and better and each thing makes it bigger and bigger (a certain song, a certain cigarette, a certain story.). But of course it always felt so shitty afterwards with cuts on the insides of my cheeks and whatnot. Today my mom forwarded me something about the corona virus through an aunt in China (she has already blocked me on Wechat but still texts me). So anyway I had a wavering heart and getting a fearful heart. I tried to stave it off by faith by fighting it off in my heart with faith, but Satan was winning. Finally, just now, I prayed. And as I prayed I felt condemnation. But God led me to remember the words in Romans 8:1 that there is now no condemnation for those that are in Christ Jesus. And as I read on, starting from verse 14 here above, it felt as though God was leading my heart precisely: Verse 14. First in my heart I confirmed that yes I have been led by the spirit of God, and what happens to those who are led by the spirit? It says here that they are then the “sons” of God (ok! I’m the son of God) 15. But it doesn’t stop there. It keeps on explaining and talking to my heart: you did not receive the spirit just so that you can be lost to fear (corona virus), you have received the Spirit of adoption whereby we cry ABBA Father (again, reconfirmation that i am son of God). And plus I was adopted by my stepfather and recently I realized he is a father to me so this verse works to help me believe I am the son of God 16. And if there is still any doubt left, God triple confirms with me that “The spirit (in you right now) itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God. 17. And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ Verse 28) All things work together for the good of God: yes even an unstable heart and a losing battle of faith for the entire day, worked together to make me pray to God & finally find the answer in Romans. Anyway, Im thankful: God talks to me & it feels as though I’m rolling. That wasn’t a feeling I had to give up after all, Ha — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/2TN8dcP