Smint

he/him sastiel, hilson, hanigram, stony, kanej definitely no wincest 👀

[future-dregs]

Trauma bonded junkyard dogs, do not separate, must be adopted together

[luckyntrashy]

Would my bbgs perchance be interested in Clint Barton, Hawkeye fanfics?..

[hilsonschild]

Yea bbgs absolutely would!

[anassemblageofpassions-deactiva]

I think what a lot of people don’t get is that Sam is constantly, constantly operating from a place of trauma. He probably spends a good chunk of every day thinking about Lucifer. He probably dreams about the cage almost every night. 180 years is a lot of fucking time. And it’s entirely possible it was thousands. I vacillate on how much time I think he spent in the cage, but it was minimum 180. I’d say maximum probably 1800. Anything more than that and I don’t think he would be functioning. But honestly time in the cage probably didn’t really abide by normal rules.

But Sam is constantly on edge for a reason. There is a reason Jared padalecki’s portrayal of his character went through such a drastic change season 7 onward. How could he not be a completely different character? He has led over double his lifetime in a completely different place, being constantly tortured in ways the human mind literally could not comprehend. Of course he’s going to be jumpy. Of course he’s going to stutter. Of course he’s going to flinch at everything. Of course he’s going to be quieter. We have a character who spent 180+ years in a constant state of trauma and pain and complicated feelings toward an abuser. Jared didn’t suddenly stop being able to act post season 6. We saw what he did with gadreel. You just didn’t pay attention or even consider the implications of everything Sam was going through.

It really is such a fascinating case of genre vs acting study though, because absolutely no one else on this show, save maybe Ruth Connell later on, treats trauma in the same way. It’s not congruous with the genre. There isn’t very much variation with how jensen ackles plays dean post-hell. And to be fair, 30 years of torture is a lot less than 180. And the narrative sure as hell preferred to move on and never linger on what Sam is constantly going through. There’s plot to get through and more implications to ignore. This show stopped attempting to be a horror long ago.

For everyone except sam, at least.

[sam-of-course-is-an-abomination]

incestuous psychos.

[hobbsyssel]

some battered and bruised hawkguys~~

(ref.)

[i-wanna-be-a-cowboybaby]

imagine you settle down with this random dude who has a weird satan tattoo and is scary good with firearms and you guys have kids together and love each other and get to grow old together and then you die first and you're waiting up in heaven for your husband to meet you but he never does and then you eventually find out its because he actually went to his brother's heaven for the rest of eternity to bicker with him and drive around the place in their old ass impala that has zero suspension

[pasta-n00dles]

Always thinking about how the older and more trauma Sam got, the less quick to anger he became.

Like he was hot headed in the first few seasons and then as time goes on all that fight just leaves him more and more

[assiraphales]

eric kripke when the boys needs someone new on the roster :

[aliusfrater]

do you guys remember when sam was drunk for weeks straight after dean died for the first time and he literally had to start squatting in houses because he was spending all the money he ever had on alcohol

[superabnormal]

virgin veins | sam winchester

cw for implied csa and abuse watch on youtube

w* dni

[hilsonschild]

Me☝️

[transfemmesam]

happy pride to them and them only

(image by @stanfordsweater, sorry for not crediting you originally)

[samstrifee]

happy pride month to sam homosexuality metaphor winchester

[askboxmemes]

Ask me my "TOP 5" anything!

[shadystranger]

i feel so funny knowing cas and jack's concept of human love is just sam and dean. like these celestial beings think the peak of human relationships is these two brothers psychotically weird about each other...case study for real. imagine how warped their understanding of humans is

[monstersandbrothers]

writing dean winchester is like. he’s hideously selfish. he’s the most selfless person in the world. he’s pathetic. he’s strong. he’s completely clueless about his feelings. he feels everything too much. he hates himself. he’s the cockiest son of a bitch you’ll ever meet. he ignores his fear. his fear consumes him. he’s protective. he wants someone to protect him. he’s controlling and possessive. he’s soft-hearted and kind. he wants to bear the weight of the world because it’s the only thing that makes him feel useful. he doesn’t want to feel responsible for everyone and everything. he loves the hunting life. he just wants to be normal. he loves his brother. he hates his brother. he loves his father. he hates his father. he loves his mother. he hates his mother.

and writing sam winchester is like. he’s never fit in anywhere. he just wants to belong. he wants to get away from his family. he doesn’t want to let his family down. he’s full of anger. he’s the gentlest man in the world. he’s never had the ability to choose. he’ll do anything to preserve other people’s ability to choose. he’s a good hunter. he wants to be anything else but a hunter. he’s defiant. he’s complacent. he’s ashamed of the things he’s done. he’s proud of himself for who he is. he doesn’t ever want to kill. he’ll kill anything that threatens someone he loves. he feels suffocated by his brother’s love. his brother’s love is the only true thing he’s ever known. he hates his father. he loves his father.

everything about these characters is a contradiction. how can you not want to eat them alive, absorb them into your blood, and then spend the rest of your life trying to write them into a world where every single one of these things is true at the same time??? i’m absolutely. insane

[trialssam]

sometimes I wanna eat sam winchester