his perfection 🖤

just a girl trying to find herself 29, sad

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The next time he sees me I’ll be smaller I promise. 🖤

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Genuinely can’t do this anymore and I have no one to talk to. I don’t even have friends anymore. My mom hates me. I wouldn’t be missed

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Genuinely can someone explain to me why my ex shows up every few months to ask how I am and then takes days to respond or stops responding. Like, if you want to talk we can talk but what is this nonsense?

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I just don’t really know what the point is anymore

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I’m so fucking stupid

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My friend made me eat real dinner tonight. He’s clearly catching on and worried about me but he also knows I’m fat as fuck so I don’t know why he cares. Now I’m nauseous and hate myself even more yay

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“youre so quiet” thanks, no one listens to me when i try speaking 

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I don’t get it. I have such a good day. I go swimming and walk along the pier and stay under 500 calories and I feel like I’m on top of the world. But I can’t stop thinking about him. I have everything right now, things are so good. But I can’t stop thinking about him. Missing him. And the stupid thing is I’m the one who walked away. I know it wouldn’t work, I’ve seen that it didn’t work. But that doesn’t stop me from thinking about how good it felt when things were good. From missing him. It’s so stupid to still be this heartbroken but holy fuck I think I’m going to love him forever. I would give everything for him to still be the guy I fell in love with.

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Put on fake nails tonight that are so long I can’t do anything but most importantly eat. Tho if anyone has tips on how to game with them lord knows I need help lmao

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I always think abt like “i dont wanna wait 3-5 months for results” but would you rather lock in for a few months or spend the rest of your life telling yourself you’re gonna get skinny?

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Why does food have so many calories good god

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Tried psyllium husk this morning and now I’m convinced I’m going to choke and die I love having health anxiety lmao

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Alright well won’t be pretty by summer at this rate but time to lock back in

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After four months of no contact my boyfriend wants to get back together and I know it’s a terrible idea but I want to so badly. I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest a second time

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How am I down 2.5 pounds this morning when I also started my period today? Surely my body is pranking me

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Has anyone ever completely refreshed their tumblrs? My feed is so dead and I wanna follow new people but don’t even know where to start with finding them