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f 28 uk toxic bisexual with no ball knowledge

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my goaaattttttttt

[freakoutgirl]

Lots of people think they're doomed but they're not doomed the way I am doomed

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i don't know how much longer i can be around people who think it's fine to have men in women's spaces on the basis that said man may or may not end up being a trans woman

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or "this is a space for women and marginalised genders which includes gnc men" so basically it's a space for whoever cool can we just say that then

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i don't know how much longer i can be around people who think it's fine to have men in women's spaces on the basis that said man may or may not end up being a trans woman

[tragicwaif]

When they torture u to insanity and then torture you for being insane 😂😂😂

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when i was young i always i assumed i must've been an accident because i thought there's no way mum could've believed she was psychologically ready to have children. but i wasn't and she genuinely did. crazy

[dogpuppy]

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[bippus]

OK Can I just say something? *unending harrowing silence*

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the thing about being unable to express my feelings at home without dismissal at best and retaliation at worst (usually some combination of both though) i think is a pretty useful framing for me to understand the problems i've had throughout my life. i was always the kid who'd cry uncontrollably at school for what seemed like no reason and i see now there were some pretty obvious causes

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i've been thinking a lot lately about how i was completely prevented from establishing any kind of reasonable boundaries as a child, and also from expressing my feelings without retaliation. it's always been really hard to understand what i want from relationships with other people or even to fully comprehend that i'm allowed to want, instead of solely being passive. i remember the phrase "treat other people how you'd like to be treated" used to drive me crazy when i was young because i couldn't comprehend how to start thinking about i wanted people to behave towards me - i had no experience of these feelings being acknowledged or listened to. anyway. it's still really hard now. i guess

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i rewatched heathers today, which is my favourite movie and i was obsessed with it as a teenager, and what struck me about it on this particular watch was the nihilism. i am quite nihilistic at my core it seems

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dunno how to uproot my fundamental belief that i don't deserve to be happy

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intro to this ancient penguin edition of metamorphosis I'm reading references kafka's "unsatisfactory love affairs" and "inflexible intellectual honesty and almost psychopathic sensitivity". real man of the people wow

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bought a man city shirt with miedema's name on the back and it actually looks really nice i might have to be a massive loser and wear it out places

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Humiliating

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i'm kind of addicted to self sabotage