So, I was half asleep and all of a sudden this came to me. It’s probably not the best because I’ve not really written fanfics before and I’m more used to script writing than storytelling but I hope you enjoy it!
(Set at some point towards the end of 20x09, it’s a take on what I think could be a good ending to the episode)
“I don’t know what to do, I’m running out of options here Fletcher”
Frieda exclaims with frustration and a slight concern in her voice which she tries to mask. She looks at Fletch who is leaning forward with both hands pressed against Jac’s desk.
He raises his head slightly to look at Frieda
“I wish I knew what to say” he answers pushing himself up into a standing position.
“I’ve tried everything, I’ve talked to her, listened to her, comforted her, I’ve been there for her in every possible way I can but every time she starts to open up, she, it’s like she wants to talk but then as soon as she starts to get a bit vulnerable she puts up these barriers, and, I just don’t know how to get through to her”
Frieda looks at Fletch, she can see how much it hurts him to see Jac suffer and that he can’t do anything to help, she can clearly see that he’s fallen for the stubborn, red headed surgeon just as much as she has fallen for him, so she does something she knows will either make or break the situation.
“Well, you know why that is don’t you?” she responds under her breath.
Fletch looks up, slightly confused by what his colleague has just said.
“What do you mean?!” he replies in an equally confused tone. As he looks at Frieda he can see that she is trying to find the right words to explain, like she did quite know how he was going to react to the response she was about to give, which is unusual for her because she isn’t the type of person to care what people think.
“Because of how she feels about you”
The confusion on Fletch’s face is replaced with shock. “What?! Don’t be ridiculous!” Fletch snaps. She couldn’t possibly… Fletch has been aware of his feelings for Jac ever since he found out that she’d been shot, it felt as though he’d been shot himself when he heard what happened, the thought of losing Raf and Jac from his life made him feel physically ill. From that moment he has known he has feelings for her but he’s never said a word, he knows she would reciprocate his feelings, because that would be insane. “Jac doesn’t have feelings for me” He adds because he can’t believe that Frieda would say something like that! Why would she even think that? “She doesn’t have feelings for anyone, this is Jac ‘the ice queen’ Naylor we are talking about” though he obviously knows that she’s not the 'ice queen’ she makes herself out to be, she’s got so many layers, she’s complex.
Fletch looks at Frieda and the look she’s giving him tells him that she doesn’t believe that he thinks that about Jac for a minute.
“Look…” Fletch begins to explain “Jac is, Jac… she’s infuriating, she’s a pain in the neck and she’s impossible to help because of her incessant need to be in control of everything, she’s completely insane but…” seeing as though she seems to be able to read his every thought, he might as well be honest with her “but she’s also kind, caring, fiercely loyal to those she cares about…” he pauses and smiles as he remembers “sometimes when she laughs hard she’s got a sort of little snort” he sees Frieda smile and realises he might have made a mistake by telling her that part, so he quickly continues “she can put on a brave face even though she’s broken on the inside, because that’s just who she is, she puts everyone else’s needs above her own even if she needs help herself, the patients come first, they always do… She is stubborn and insufferable but she’s also wonderful, talented, funny, beautiful and… ” Fletch realises that he’s just bared his soul to a woman he’s only had a handful of conversations with and probably doesn’t need to hear anymore, so de decides to wrap it up “my point is, she’s the most fascinating woman I’ve ever met, but at the end of the day, she’s Jac and there’s no way that the Jac Naylor I know could possibly have feelings for me”
A voice says from the doorway in almost a whisper.
Fletch stops, his whole body freezes but oddly at the same time feels like jelly. Trying to process in his head that he has just revealed his true feelings for a woman who has been standing in the doorway listening to every word he’s just said. Even though he knows exactly who is standing behind him, he’s holding on to the tiny bit of hope that she isn’t going to be the person he sees when he turns around. As he turns around, lo and behold, there she is, stood leaning her back against the frame of the door, looking at him with a nervous half smile on her face. He walks over to stand in front of her…
“Hang on a minute, what did you just say?!”
The words that Jac said have only just hit him, she can’t have just admitted her feelings can she? As he looks down at her, he can tell that she doesn’t quite know what to say, he knows her well enough to know that talking about how she really feels isn’t something she finds easy.
“You heard” she sharply responds hoping that she won’t have to elaborate and can just leave it at that, though she knows Fletch and that he won’t just let it lie. Jac’s heart was beating so hard she could feel it pulsing through every part of her body. She looks into Fletch’s eyes, she can see him looking for her to say something to confirm that he had heard her correctly the first time.
“Last week, you asked me why I didn’t leave” she states unsure of where this is going to lead
“Yeah, and you wouldn’t give me an answer”
“It’s you!” She interrupts, because she knows that if she doesn’t say it now then she’ll lose her bottle and never say it. She can see the confusion on Fletch’s face as he tries to work out where she is going with this.
“The reason I didn’t leave this place is because of you. I was all ready to pack my bags and take Emma as far away from this place as I possibly could. But then I got shot, and I didn’t know if I was going to make it, but from the moment I opened my eyes, you were there, all through my recovery, you were there. And it didn’t matter how many times I shouted or how difficult I made things for you. You never left my side. Where most people would have run a mile, you never flinched. And I realised that no matter how much this place drags me down, no matter how much you get on my nerves sometimes, I don’t want to leave because I don’t want to imagine my life without you in it”
Jac looks up into Fletch’s eyes which are fixed on her, she can see that she has shocked him, hell, she’s shocked herself, she never thought she could open up to another person like this, and it’s surprising how much better she feels now it’s off her chest. She looks at Fletch who still hasn’t said anything, and she couldn’t tell what he was thinking by the blank expression on his face. Now she’s concerned that she’s said too much, that she’s finally scared him off, like she does with everyone she cares about. Just as the panic starts to set in, Fletch places his hands on her shoulders, the way he did that time in her office when he tried to get her to take some time off. Looking back she probably should have listened to him then but she can’t help but think she would be in a very different place right now if she had.
Finally Fletch breaks the silence “Is that why you won’t take time off? Because of me?”
Jac is taken aback, Fletch knows her better than she knows herself in some ways and that terrifies her, but she knows he’s right, she’s scared that if she leaves now then she’ll lose him, because, they’re not together so if she leaves then she won’t see him and that though makes her heart hurt.
Clearly Fletch is able to read her thoughts, as he slides his right hand across her shoulder and places it on her neck. “Well, you don’t have to worry about me because I’m not going anywhere” he declares as he looks into her eyes and pulls her in closer, their lips meet. It’s soft and slow at first but they’re taken away in the moment and it becomes more passionate.
As they kiss from behind them they hear “umm, do you guys want me to leave?” Both Jac and Fletch had forgotten that Frieda was still in the room. Not wanting to ruin their moment, Jac waves her hand towards the door ushering Frieda to leave.
Frieda looks at them both, she smiles at their happiness “if I’d have known it was that easy, I’d have said something weeks ago…” Frieda says to herself “Ahh well, have fun” she replies to herself as she heads for the door to leave the new happy couple alone together.
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