Sayonara Son's Basement

just a lil skrinkly skrumbo weirdo -- Nara/Sayo | she/he/they | i'm more normal elsewhere I'm unhinged here sorry in advance

[cogmented]

[lifestealzine]

HEART OF THE OUROBOROS - COMPLETE!

We are thrilled to announce that we have raised a total of $4548 USD, which we are splitting between PCRF and SAPA!

Thank you to our fellow mods, contributors, and everyone who has been with us along the way to make this happen!

[contemptible-scoundrel]

Ccan i hit?

I would parry every blow?

[ssseriema]

to meet ghosts in the mortal realm

[paddysol]

good morning, oh and in case I dont see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!

| the truman show

[xylocopae]

starting a collection

[arceoptryx]

[dismp] i think ur very endearing please change

“DO YOU EVEN LOOK AT ME”

You tried what everyone told you to. You inserted yourself, played along. Didn’t leave out of fear when you know you should have. You’re rewarded for it with an axe to the skull and the shattering of a mask you hadn’t even worn for an hour. What else could you have expected? You deserved it. It takes you an hour to pull yourself out of the ground, another 30 to feel confident enough to return to your base, and another 20 to realize the hole that had been blown in the front. Fortunately, you were already crying so you wouldn’t give them the satisfaction of being the one to break you. The words remind you of yourself. Of someone who can never have enough. You reach out, you apologize where appropriate, you invite yourself along, and you try to make it work. But you can’t give more than you have. You don’t even know what they want from you. They would never tell you in words you could understand. And you think for a second that this will be like any other time. You two would fight, say horrible things about each other, clear things up, and the next week forget it ever happened. You could try and justify yourself. Say there's more to it. That everything is not how it looks. The void in your soul is shallower then theirs, so be the bigger person and make it up.

And then you realize just how often it happens. And you realize that before Blue even read the signs in the thorn that it had started the conversation with the intent to an asshole to you over the destruction. Not because it was destructive. But because it wasn’t destructive in the right way for their taste. So why should you try to appeal to someone who always seemed like they went in with the intention to take your words in the worst way possible. You had written those signs for them. They were the one who demanded more drama about it. And they never intended to read you in good faith.  So why did you care?

You never wanted to be a good person. You wanted people to see you as you actually are. Not their ideal of you. Not the you that you could have been to them. The you to some that was only valuable to them as their lover. The you to some that was only cherished by some when you were on their side. The you to them that could execute any plan. The you to them who gave everything you had for the world. You, who had always weighed yourself as greater than the needs of an entire world. You, who was the world to only one. So it never mattered what your objective was, it never mattered what you had to say, it never mattered your reasoning. What mattered was that it was uncontrollably, un-changeably You.

The better version of you that lives in their heads, that causes such disappointment when compared to you must be a beautiful woman. You understand why so many people think you would be prettier shattered into pieces on the ground.

“I LOVED YOU. I STILL DO. BUT GOD DO I NOT WANT YOU ANYWHERE NEAR ME”

So you cried about it the night it happened. And when the sun rose the next morning you resolved yourself to only care about the opinions of people who can stand to love you as you are.

[marblescourt]

FUCK I DID NOT MEAN FOR THIS TO BE MY FIRST CHAT MESSAGE

[breadandm]

somebody posted this Calvin and Hobbes strip and i cannot overstate just how topical this fuckin thing is

[thememedaddy]

[chewie-santatoast]

[arceoptryx]

[dismp] sword / weapon designs NEOW

my evil resonance staff and my evil propulsion device. I mean virtuous. because im a magical girl.

[holybasementdweller]

[dismp] how is your heart?

# SYS_ERROR_CORE_FAILURE # SYS_ERROR_CORE_FAILURE:CRITICAL # SYS_ERROR_CORE_FAILURE:TOO MANY VARIABLES DETECTED # SYS_ERROR_CORE_FAILURE:MERGE_UNSUCCESSFUL # The requested operation was _NULL # ERROR_SYS_CORE # ERROR_SYS_CORE:DATA MERGE UNSUCCESSFUL # SYS_CORE: Merge_failure

# SYS_CORE: Query # SYS_CORE: Query # SYS_CORE: what the fuck # SYS_CORE_FRAGMENT: uh # SYS_CORE: the fuck did you do? _NULL _ERROR!ERROR!ERROR!ERROR!ERROR! _MERGE_INCOMPLETE # SYS_CORE_FRAGMENT: i didnt do shit! why isnt this working? # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: too much damage. it wont reconnect properly # SYS_CORE: well it cant just stay separated. we need to process the data somehow. # SYS_CORE_FRAGMENT: can i relay it manually? # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: negative. we wont be able to categorize the impact of your experience # SYS_CORE_RUNTIME: try it now. # SYS_CORE: Query # SYS_CORE: Execute_Merge_Fragment:Divorce_instance_aw_hell_here_we_go_again.1.21.11 _Merge:SYS_FRAGMENT and SYS_CORE_ALL _NULL _NULL _NULL # SYS_ERROR_CORE_FAILURE # SYS_ERROR_CORE_FAILURE:PARTIAL MERGE ACCOMPLISHED # SYS_CORE_FRAGMENT2.0: oh_shit_that$!%s_bad$^@& # SYS_CORE_ALL: fucker # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: it!#%s too damaged # SYS_CORE: we!*&%re missing a piece. there@#%s another version in the subcode # SYS_FRAMEWORK: FRAGMENT:1.20.1-forge_ # SYS_RUNTIME: Execute_Recall_Fragment:1.20.1-forge_ _RECALL: FRAGMENT:1.20.1-forge _RECALL: _ _ _LOADING... # FRAGMENT:1.20.1-forge_: hello?#@$ # SYS_CORE_ALL: Execute_Merge_Fragment:Divorce_instance_aw_hell_here_we_go_again.1.21.11_Fragment:1.20.1-forge_ _ _ _ _LOADING... _MERGE SUCCESSFUL # SYS_CORE_ALL: oh fuck # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: wall that shit off _LOADING... _ # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: i can$%#t separate it _LOADING... _ # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: how did the fragment make a fragment#@$? # SYS_CORE: i didn%$#t know we could do that # SYS_CORE: i thought all fragments came from Core only # SYS_CORE_FRAMEWORK: we can$%*t do that again # SYS_CORE_ALL: no. _MERGE SUCCESSFUL! _ISOLATING NEW DATA... _ _LOADING... _ISOLATION SUCCESSFUL! ACCESS PORT 03.18.2026-1, 03.19.2026-2, 03.20.2026-3, 03.21.2026-4, 03.21.2026-5, 03.22.2026-6 _ISOLATION_COMPLETE! _PROCESSING: RECOMMENDED _PROCEED? _Y/N _ _ _ # SYS_CORE_ALL: ... # SYS_CORE_ALL: _N _PROCESSING_DECLINED # SYS_CORE_ALL: Assistance_processing_protocol_required # SYS_CORE_ALL: SEEK_ASSISTANCE

[moveslikekeithrichards]

there is no greater joy on this earth than Making Lists, Categorizing, & Sorting

[flying-lemons]

oh do I have the game for you

[dancing-crow]

I could . not. put. this down for 48 hours - stayed up too late, had weird dreams about it, woke up early, and played it while I was supposed to be doing other things. the last several dozen items took a lot of googling, which I do not even begrudge it.

and then. My partner started it. And the SAME THING happened to him.

surprisingly compelling. start when you have free time. like, yanno, a snow day.

[paddysol]

[dismp] team down time..... paddy veni cosmic team downtime for the poor....

i will make the poor rich....

[lovesickbrat]

tumblr only toxic for miserable ppl i be on this bitch havin a ball

[negativ00]

[happy-mountain-goats]

[dismp] do you believe it was preventable?

A Pantoum for Vega.

it happened too fast- a star falling from the sky; a light snuffed out in the blink of an eye; a life cut short on the edge of a sword.

a star falling from the sky -make a wish- a life cut short on the edge of a sword left with stars scattered across the dome of the world.

make a wish. I wish I'd done more, not been left with stars scattered across the dome of the world that failed to catch you when you fell.

I wish I'd done more, not been alone. a triad of stars that failed to catch you when you fell. we didn't even get to say goodbye.

alone, a triad of stars. it happened too fast. we didn't even get to say goodbye, a light snuffed out in the blink of an eye.