I feel like the reason I always want to be alone is bc the people around me are so toxic with their behavior and emotional processing that it just shows me that I don’t want to be that person for someone. The last thing I want is to be the person that is weighing everyone else down or just being a downright dick. Being alone means I don’t have to hurt anyone intentionally or unintentionally. Of course I’ll never be ALONE I’ll have my friends and family but when it comes to living with people...I want no one around me. I know what it’s like to live with people who are just so invested in their own lives and misfortune that they don’t even give you a second thought unless they need/want something from you. I will not be that person. I will NOT. I have to carry my life on my shoulders by myself and that’s fine, it just would be nice to have someone to actually ask me how my life is and try to talk to me. Instead it’s always about their life and what’s making them upset. I’m not even upset right now this is just a constant feeling I have and I guess typing it all out helped a little bit. Okay bye tumblr see you in another 6 months when I’m having a depressive episode.
