IF IT FEELS GOOD, IT CAN'T BE BAD.

[homotia]

" my body hurts, but it looks so good. i’m not gonna give it up … wearing this jacket, being on this team, looking this good has moved me up the ladder … but is it worth the pain? i finally look the part … i know I’m performing better than half the guys but why are those guys getting more pats on the back than i am? i think i’m pretty friendly. is it something more than that? am i never going to be able to reach the top of the chain? " — VICTOR HUYNH.

A HEADCANON-HEAVY SHANE HOLLANDER BLOG CARRD | PINTEREST | INBOX MEMES | META NAVI | MULTI FILL IN MY BLOG'S INTEREST TRACKER HERE.

[prokopetz]

For clarity, when I said "don't push yourself", I didn't mean "don't ever test your physical and emotional limits"; I just meant maybe the Costco parking lot is not the place to conduct that particular experiment.

[sp00kywaifu]

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[justrpmemesandmusings]

the salty af munday meme

Because, like it or not, we're not all balls of sunshine all the time. We can be pure salt when we want to be.

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[homotia]

OPEN TO MY ILYA MUTUALS: 15/06 HAPPY ILYA DAY!

— it's late enough where shane doesn't have to worry about dinner, and he hopes that ilya has, in fact, eaten before he makes the trip to montreal from ottawa. fuck. maybe he should have thought of dinner too. too late now, for all that. maybe if it needed to be, they'd just have that pack of instant noodles that ilya had discovered the other day buried in his pantry. hidden away from the world like a damning secret that could end shane's career in five minutes if it got out that he likes eating instant ramyeon like any other person and not pertaining to his clean eating and healthy habits. god, what an absolute fucking nightmare situation that would be. but it's not like anyone can hold him accountable if it was off-season right? shut up, hollander, that's the last thing you should be worrying about now when it's supposed to be your boyfriend's special day. so stick to it and see that through maybe? the thing that you thought would be nice enough if it means anything to him.

shane hollander is by no means, a romantic person of any sort. he doesn't see himself as the type of guy who arranges dates nor goes to expensive places to celebrate. it's also very weird to him now that he's going out of his way, gets a small cake— frosted with buttercream, he doesn't remember the flavor anymore after he got it, it's been hours anyway while it sits in the fridge —topped it with number candles of the age ilya is turning that year. shane looks at how stupid it is, stupidly fucking cute, and he's the one getting secondhand embarrassment from doing something so saccharinely sweet for rozanov. but it's fine, he can tolerate this because it's not a grand gesture or anything. it's not. he's doing something nice for his boyfriend, that's all. and he also wants, no, craves the praise that comes with it because nothing's better than being recognized for effort. because of course, shane knows he's that fucking shallow about himself. though, like anything else as per the shane hollander standard, he's beginning to doubt that this is starting to be way too dumb or not enough for the matter. maybe he should have done something less sappy than this shit. it would have been easier to just send ilya a nude, or something really slutty, which he already had in the morning. he was wearing something white and lacy, near translucent, enough to keep the man on his toes for the day.

[ txt | lily, sent in the daytime ] i'll see you in montreal tonight.

shane had texted that to him back when he sent that picture, and now he's already regretting that because he got way too ambitious with his own overconfidence. oh he's going to disappoint ilya now, isn't he? you know, for being chickenshit. the coward he is once shane realizes he's played with fire and now has to deal with the consequences of being burned. fuck. well, it's too late now, and he has to commit to the bit— wearing what he sent ilya this morning, beneath just a t-shirt and track pants because it's been a bit of a day. whatever, he can do that now while his boyfriend is on the way here soon. speaking of the devil: shane's phone blips up the notification that ilya was, in fact, going to be here soon. and that means, he does want to see the lingerie. on shane. one way or another. and honestly, what's shane to do? it's not like he was that uncomfortable in the first place— there's just something about the way ilya looks at him that makes it all worth it, like he is the hottest thing in the room no matter how ridiculous he looks. so he tries, with a little bit more confidence, because shane is willing to do this one thing if it means making his boyfriend happy for his birthday. and any other day for the matter. maybe.

[homotia]

a complete set this time, happy fucking birthday rozanov.

[softgnome]

Personally I do think that sometimes non-hockey fans can end up mischaracterizing Shane and Ilya because they don't know enough about hockey/hockey playstyles

The Ilya we see in Heated rivalry would not be throwing the first punch, he's not an enforcer. Ilya is a star center and a Pest. He wouldn't be doing his job correctly if he was punching players every other game, it would end up with not enough ice time to let him be the playmaker he's paid to be.

But being a pest can be playmaking! Find a player to bait, emotionally push them just enough that they try to fight you, and then get the fuck out of there before the ref gives you both penalties. This gets your team the power play. There is probably someone on Ilya's line dedicated to helping him get out of the fights he starts, and finishing them for him!

I also think this is also something that Shane would respect. Ilya is good at it and it's a good strategy for his team. I don't think Shane would see it as some dirty tactic, because Shane probably thinks everyone with a brain can see it for what it is! He probably thinks everyone should be able to see that being an asshole is a tactic for Ilya, that it's something to ignore and not fall for, that it's a strategy and not personal beef.

I think Shane's more disappointed when a Metro falls for it. Shane sees it as Ilya set up a Looney Toons ass obvious trap and one of his teammates ran into it. Why be mad at Bugs Bunny when you can be mad at your defenceman for falling for a fucking Bugs Bunny trap.

[rho-delta]

Yep, Ilya’s not the guy who throws punches or gets hit by them, that’s an enforcer like Ryan Price. It’s pretty clearly stated in the book. From Heated Rivalry chapter 9:

I think this confusion stems from the few hockey scenes in the show where Ilya checks people into boards (notably Shane 😈). But we don’t see any actual fights on screen and so we don’t see an enforcer in action, only Ilya shoving people.. which is definitely NOT a fight.

[biomasse-comic]

fighting the problematic stereotype of 'only the bad guys are weird sex perverts' by making the good-hearted protagonist an even weirder sex pervert

[homotia]

found an interesting paper for myself to read that's gonna probably affect how i write gavriel

[homotia]

being a closeted trans guy is something bc i spent like five minutes in the bathroom staring at the mirror and posing masculinely muttering to myself about how if i ever get on testosterone i want a lower voice and a dick clit and also i swear i was possessed by the russian spirit of ilya rozanov while doing all of that.

[homotia]

ilya rozanov earlier today in ottawa, waking up to something shane had sent in the morning of his birthday.

[jupiter-suggestion]

there is something inside of you that you do not want. you claw at your chest, choke on air, wishing to drag it up and out of you. what procedure can excise pain? how can you live with this?

[jupiter-suggestion]

slowly. softly. that's how you live with it. one day at a time. sitting with your inner child and saying, "that should not have happened to you. i'm sorry. you deserved better." the pain is eased when you treat yourself now the way you should have been treated then; kindly, with patience. only time will shrink this thing inside you, and you have to stop saying that you don't want it, or it'll never go away.

[captainewyork]

OUT OF HOCKEY. hi , so little update. i did manage to get the electric back on ( although there's only enough for 2-3 days , i hate being on a meter ) but before that , my mum admitted she'd left the freezer open over night ( when the electric had also gone out ) and because of that , we lost a ton of food ( pre made meals etc ) that we cannot replace and seeing as we were pretty much out of fridge food , we are now in a situation where we're running very low on everything besides instant coffee.

so as much as i hate to do this , i am asking for a little help so i can a ) keep the electric on and b ) get some groceries. obviously no one is obligated to do so and i definitely understand that some people can't so , if you can't , it's totally fine, i get it! if you're able to reblog this post though i'd really appreciate it <3

for those who wish to help , i'll leave a link to my paypal down below. im willing to make graphics for anyone who is able to ( although i may be a little slow as i am struggling mentally , but i will most definitely do what i can ) paypal.

[homotia]

tumblr killed my ask reply where shane badly misreads ilya telling him smth that's supposed to be a compliment as an insult like a warning sign to not make 15/06 a bad day for rozanov.

[saengjonja]

Ah! Everyone is already in a swamp of “it’s nothing” deception Boasting, saying “I openly laughed at it” I’m weak, without exception If you demand it, I’ll give you any prize you want

“Hey, this love is damaging” “Don’t you know how to accept love?” Though I swung and missed at that sleeve Don’t lecture me

It’s a depressing, hateful, meaningless mayday With your ego swelled by a feeling of omnipotence Don’t drink for three straight days- Weak, without exception, if we just play peekaboo Then I’ll kill you at our rendezvous

Saying “I just wanted to mistakenly believe that you loved me" Our love was just me mistakenly wanting to believe

@homotia

[homotia]

thinking of durge shane and orin again pre-lobotomy, let me tell you that relationship is NOT good nor healthy and how durge shane rationalizes that killing his bloodkin off was mercy at best and cruelty at worst.

[homotia]

more shespurr agenda