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☆ see good in all things ☆

[hon3vbees]

☆ she/they

☆ i’m 19

☆ lesbian

☆ fandoms im big into and will prob yap about: marauders, marvel (these are the big two) pjo (the whole riordanverse really), all jennifer lynn barnes books, criminal minds, sanders sides, tsitp, slomw

☆ i’m also a music fan and go to a lot of shows, so that’ll probably be here from time to time. my top artists are taylor swift, gracie abrams, maisie peters, conan gray, noah kahan, and chappell roan but i love so many

☆ i’m a writer, both fanfictions and og stories including a book i’ve been working on for ~3 years if i can get over my own fear of being perceived i might start posting my writing on here again

☆ don’t have any tags rn but if i start using some ill put them below a cut here. assume any fandom stuff will be tagged accordingly!!

[hon3vbees]

next person to tell me my accommodations give me an unfair advantage over other students is getting their shit rocked into next week

[hon3vbees]

i want to say i’m at my most powerful time of year with both tourettes awareness month and pride month but i am in fact a loser lesbian with a sore throat so bad i can barely speak because my coughing tics been so bad

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

"Clearly I wasn't talking about disabled people-" yeah part of the problem is that the existence of disabled people just isn't considered in your worldview like that's the problem we're criticizing not a get out of jail free card

[maia-selene-black]

It's actually really easy for me to like Regulus and hate Snape.

And before people come out of the woodworks with claims that I am classist or whatever other ist they want to put onto me.

Growing up poor doesn't excuse the fact that Snape bullied children. [I grew up poor and was bullied, never once have I thought, 'let me go bully people']

He singled out Harry because of a decade old grudge against James. Rivalry or bullying, either way you look at it, Harry isn't James and should not be the one paying the actions of his father just for the sin of simply looking like him.

He outright tried to poison Neville's toad because the kid wasn't perfect at a subject [the kid was 13, he's not going to be an expert potion maker] and took house points away from Hermione for helping Neville not poison his pet.

He mocked Hermione's appearance to where she permanently altered her face, she permanently altered her face following that scene.

So yeah, I don't care that he was on Dumbledore's side and a spy. He was a grown ass man bullying children. In my opinion, the fact that he was bullied as a kid makes it worse, because how are you going to put someone else through the shit you went through.

Now with Regulus:

We don't know enough about him, what we are given is a fragmented story from two very differing perspectives, yet they don't outright contradict one another.

It's more than likely that two things can be true at once. Sirius doesn't hold Regulus from the same malice as his parents, he simply calls him too soft, emphasizing how he was following their lead and never thinking for himself. [Unlike Sirius who was always a rebel]

Yet the first time he thinks for himself, the first act he does that directly goes against his family's ideals? Is undermining Voldemort in a way that nobody will know. He left the note for Voldemort to find, not for glory, not for redemption, he faced death for the chance that Voldemort could be killed for good.

Sirius thought that Regulus was just like their parents, but his final moments was him being more like Sirius than ever before.

[hon3vbees]

most memorable tourette's questions!! that i have heard!!

do you still have parasites? (several months after explaining tics) (this EXACT scenario has happened 3 separate times with different people i wish i was joking)

oh like tics and roses? because she got cancelled btw

can you get [phrase] as a tic please

did you get it from tiktok

you mean a Demonic Presence?

can you like not though? like it's not funny right now :/

non tourettic people stop thinking a whole disorder is for comedic purposes only challenge (impossible)

[radishnt]

“but what if my friend gets offended and hates me and refuses to speak to me after i set a boundary” easy peasy! that is not your friend. hope this helps

[trippiest]

what a beautiful day to not be in high school

[gayofthefae]

This is the like those “remember to be grateful you don’t have a sore throat right now” posts. It IS a beautiful day to not be in high school! Thank you!

[scoes]

RULES FOR FOLLOWING ME

i am your favorite mutual

whenever i make a joke you have to laugh at it and say haha thats so funny

you have to be nice to me

im correct about all characters if you disagree you die

i am never "cringe"

i am always "based"

i am your favorite mutual

i am your best friend

you love me so much

i love you too

[hon3vbees]

i think one of my least favorite things about my tourettes is how big of a trigger emotions can be for me (like my main trigger is any sort of big emotion like anxiety, excitement, etc) and while it’s not at all my only trigger and also sometimes i just have days i’m ticcing more because that’s just how tourettes is it’s the one everyone knows because it’s so obvious

like nothing makes me more irrationally angry than ticcing and someone asking me if i’m anxious like there’s always going to be a reason for why the symptom is happening and also for once i just want to have a big emotion and it not be obvious to everyone around me

on the other end sometimes it feels like i can’t let myself get really anxious or really happy or something because then it sets my tics off so i have to try to calm down so that my tics will calm down especially when im anxious or upset because thats when my tics will sometimes get harmful. like for once i want to just EXIST without it being something i have to monitor or have obvious to everyone at any time

but like genuinely at least for me i hate when people point out my tics like that like if it’s funny or something too big to ignore than it’s fine to say something or laugh and move on but if i’m just ticcing a lot you do not have to point it out all the time and if you’re worried im distressed because of it then just ask if i want help or if i need anything instead of expecting me to explain my emotions or to have a reason as to why my brain is acting up more than usual

[hon3vbees]

i think people took my “send me stupid questions about tourettes” post to mean send me stupid questions you’ve heard and honestly i love this so much more please keep this up i love shitting on people who are willfully ignorant about disabilities

[hon3vbees]

Stupid questions I've had asked about my tourettes: (sorry for the mention of the word faggot)

Can't you just hold it? You said it's like a sneeze, can you not hold a sneeze?

Do you have to do it so loud?

Do you actually have tourettes or are you just doing it for attention?

Why didn't you always have it? You never did this when you were a kid.

Why would you do something so stupid? (Person who witnessed me have a head slamming tic who knows I have tourettes)

Can you just not?

It must be great having tourettes, you can just say whatever you want, I imagine you just go around cussing people out because you can.

No, Mary, that's how you end up bruised and bloody behind a bar because your tics decided this was the moment to shout faggot.

... yay

i have heard most of these and they all remind me of how willfully ignorant people are. because like, i don’t think the average person is capable of holding in every sneeze and not sneezing ever without severe discomfort. i would love to meet someone who can. i’m thoroughly impressed. also the are you doing it for attention and why would you do that questions are always so contradictory to me,because i really can’t imagine any reason a person would choose something that is so harmful especially with certain tics to get attention, when there are definitely better and less dangerous ways to get attention

[hon3vbees]

Stupid question about tourettes as someone who only has minor motor tics in her neck

Do vocal tics typically have a consistent volume or is it varying? I doubt the volume itself is controllable (correct me if im wrong) but like I mean if hypothetically someone were to have a tic where they said "fuck", is it always said at the same volume (ex. yelling) or does it vary?

please bear with me because i do sometimes struggle explaining how things feel but i will try my best

in my experience (however it’s been a couple years since i’ve had multiple consistent actual speaking tics, most of my vocal tics now are noises. interestingly i’ve found have much less control over volume with these types of tics) on like an average day most of my consistent tics do tend to stay about the same volume anytime i do them. however sometimes if i’m suppressing i can still get the urge out by whispering the tic at a lower volume it’s just not as satisfying to the tic urge and doesn’t always work. the volume of my tics definitely varies depending on the tic and also other factors (for example when im having a bad tic day they’re much more likely to be loud and i have much less control over that).

if i had to compare it to motor tics (i don’t know how your tics are but at least with my tics in my neck) sometimes my neck tics are a fast jerk and sometimes it’s more of a drawn out stretching movement, but both of those tics have the same premonitory urge feeling in my neck if that makes sense?

[radioactive-earthshine]

Not sure why it's a new trend among fic readers to assume if the fic has not been posted within the week it's inappropriate to comment on it, like the fic has to be hot out of the oven to give feedback for.

I got a comment on a fic that is less than a year old and it was mostly an apology for being a comment on an "old fic" and how late they were in commenting.

Just comment on the fic. Doesn't matter how old it is.

[mysteryteacup]

Fandom is not social media.

Fandom is not trends.

Fandom is a cross between a library and having a slumber party with your friends.

"Old" means nothing to fic.

[tumblerislovetumblerislife]

an ao3 author is never late, nor are they early; they post precisely when they mean to

[hon3vbees]

remember kids any character can have your disability if you project hard enough

[hon3vbees]

wake up babe a new headcanon i hadn’t even considered just dropped in the tags on my post

[hon3vbees]

Stupid question about tourettes

When shouted as tic I got a bomb!

Someone asked me "where you hidden that bomb?"

this is a great stupid question but also if it was an employee also potentially amazing recall of their bomb threat policy