Do you think the writers are actually going to show us a ptsd or paranoia Siddiq as a continuation of what he experienced in the barn when season 10 comes back or do you think it won’t be a factor at all? Cause, he did not seem at all changed by the experience in the final episode of season 9 and honestly, the writers do a really crappy job of giving side characters (Siddiq, Alden, Eric, Aaron, Jesus, Enid etc) the stories and screen time they deserve?
so i think he was hiding it from everyone (especially in front of rosita & negan), because he wants to be this person that everyone can lean on, ya know?? he needs to keep pushing on so he won’t exactly show those things until the symptoms of ptsd become too much for him to handle.
like, i write him that he hasn’t been getting much sleep bc he keeps getting nightmares. he tries not to push it on rosita, @valorousfate , bc he doesn’t want her to worry. he can’t afford people to worry about him bc his job is to make sure they dont worry about their physical being. he’s a doctor and he wants to make sure people are reassured that he’s cool.
but, there’s that hint that he’s like oh fuck whenever he tries to sleep. like, maybe he dreams about being in the barn or him being the one on the pike but hes conscious. something thats so horrible that its hard for him to comprehend the dream until its over. and him of all people know about his condition but he just doesnt wanna worry anyone, ya know?
ive totally gone off on a tangent here, but siddiq isn’t exactly by himself on screen. hes always with someone or in a group, so theyd probably disregard his ptsd as him trying to hide it. bc thats what I THINK he’d do