Honest Britt

It's personal. I've lived in a place of fear. Now that my faith has been activated, I know that I can speak my truth. Hey, nobody's perfect.

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A good cry for big dreams

If you know me you know that sometimes, I cry. Okay, okay, I cry a lot. This was a particularly bizarre week for me and for many.  It brought up a lot of emotion. For me, this week has made me think about time.  What do I want to do with my time?  It caused me to really evaluate the things I want to pursue in my life: having children, creating a supportive community for my family and friends, donating my time to a greater good and committing myself to producing great work.

Yes, some of these things were already on my to do list and some are things I am already tackling (not having kids), but this week really solidified that these were the things in my life that I really want to work on accomplishing sooner rather than later. These are the things that will make me proud. I love helping other people accomplish their goals, but I need to make sure I leave enough time for me to accomplish my own.

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Don’t Cry over Spoiled Milk

For some reason over the last couple of months I keep cooking with spoiled milk (not the same carton).  Yes, gross.  What continues to confuse me is the expiration date.  It’s always up to date!  I check every time!  Now, my husband has to tell me to smell the milk before I use it.  I know to smell the milk, I promise!  This is something I learned when I was a child.  Why am I having to be told again and again something I already know? 

Which has me thinking.  What’s wrong with someone reminding me to do something?  Do I get defensive because I feel like I know everything?  Probably. Having people in my life to remind me to smell the milk is a good thing.  That means I have people in my life who have my back.  I have people in my life who aren’t afraid to remind me of something I already know.  It helps to have other people watching out for us.  Reminding us that it’s important to take care of ourselves.  

I don’t have to be upset, annoyed or frustrated that I didn’t smell the milk.  I need to be happy I have someone in my life that will do the things that I sometimes forget to do.  

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Fear & Faith

I’ve spent my entire life living in fear.  What will people think?  What will people say?  Fear can often be a paralyzing thing that can consume your mind, body and soul.  Something that you would easily say yes to, becomes a no.  I haven’t figured out how to relinquish fear entirely from my daily thoughts, but I have learned to have faith.  Faith is something that had been missing from my life for years.  I never knew, “For we walk by faith and not by sight,” until my (then boyfriend, now husband) Arjay told that to me – yes, I should’ve, but I didn’t. 

Stuck in a cave of self pity and sorrow, I had no idea how to walk by faith.  The only thing that kept me going was pain and nothingness.  Not feeling.  Not being.  Not living.  You can live off of sadness.  I was a sad version of myself.  It was hard for me to recognize myself.  After loss and pain, I chose to feel nothing.  The problem with feeling nothing is that you can’t relate to anything.  You can’t progress in your life. You can’t figure out how to grow.  I was stuck.  But faith got me out of the cave.  Faith had me turn my back on fear.  No, I’ll never be able to stop the thoughts of fear from entering my mind, but I’ll know how to fight the thoughts when they come.  

Don’t give up when you feel down, pain, sadness or fear.  Walk by faith, not by sight.  Know that there is a plan, no matter how windy the road may be.