"Let me start by saying that I am not a professional in anything that I am about to talk about. I never attended college for this stuff, never talked to an expert about it, hell I’m a 19 year old student in college. But I think, I really think that I have something to say because, you see, I really believe that I know what love is. Now don’t laugh, just hear me out. I teach junior high students from my local church about anything really. And every week it seems like a new girl will come in, talking about how much she “loves” boy x or boy y. And, like clock work, boy x or boy y will end up breaking her heart and she will be back at step number one. And the next week there will be another boy and so on and so forth, the cycle will continue. When I was younger this cycle was funny- it was humorous to me to see some girl always think that the guy she’s know for a week was “Mr. Perfect”. But I think differently now. You see I think that this is a miniature example of what reality is in today’s generation. People, they go to bars or parties and hook up with other people and meet people and friend people and next thing you know these people, they are “in love”. And this love, it is passionate and hot and fast. It could last for a week or a month or a year but then poof. It’s gone. And these people are left broken, starved of the thing they truly desire, looking for the next person to “love” them. People become calloused to others. They begin building up a wall to the world, a wall that is meant to protect them from the pain that they feel. Yet they cling to this hope of finding love, they search for that person, that white knight. And, like those junior high girls, they find “the perfect one” and, like those junior high girls, they are left broken hearted and another brick is placed into the wall. And the worst part is, it doesn’t have to be different people, no the same person can break and break and callous someones heart until they are simply a a soul encased in a tomb of walls build by the hurt and pain and disappointment, and buried under the belief that they will never truly find love because real love doesn’t exist.
And you wanna know what the saddest part is? The world wants people to believe that that’s how life really is. We teach people to act a certain way, to behave a certain way, to say certain things and believe certain things. We tell people to bury their soul because that is the safe thing to do. People don’t care about you. People don’t care about who you really are, deep down inside. People only care about what you look like, what you say and how damn good you are at acting like something that box puppet that society tells you to be, because whoever fits into that box puppet the best will find success, and success, through some convoluted fucked up system, leads to love. If people like you and that mask that you wear, then you will be happy, and the worst part is people actually buy into this bullshit every single day for hundreds upon hundreds of years. We are protecting ourselves with the very same tomb that is slowly killing us because it is safer and sexier to hide then it is to be real.
But that will never achieve, that will never find or discover the one thing that all humans desperately want in life. It will never lead to love. Love is a funny thing. I think everyone on this planet deep down wants to be loved. But no one really knows how. Love is more than a feeling. Feelings are fleeting and won’t stay forever- love is permanent. It is deeper than looks, or personalities or even values- these things can change over time. Love doesn’t require anything of anyone- it can’t be bought by money or actions. It doesn’t care how popular someone is or what someone says and it sure as hell doesn’t care what someone looks like. Love isn’t concerned with feelings because it isn’t a feeling- it is something deeper than that. Do you know that sense you have when you look out into the ocean? That sense that you are looking on something so powerful and raw yet so beautiful. That’s the closest feeling that I can compare to love. Love is amazing. It is strong and safe and pure- it strips away the walls that society tells people to put up around them and it finds the soul, the real, unprotected, soul. And in that moment that love finds this person, this person at their most vulnerable point, it doesn’t damage or harm; no, love looks at them and says “you are beautiful”. It knows every fault of a person, knows their mistakes and failures- it sees past the walls of society and the mask people put on and it doesn’t judge, or harm, or hurt. It simply says “you are beautiful”. Love doesn’t care about what a person says, or does, it doesn’t care about popularity or looks or actions. It simply looks at the soul, the real person, and says “You are beautiful”. And love doesn’t hold on. It doesn’t force. It’s simply there. Sometimes the person who is loved will run away, or hide, or fight back because they don’t feel worthy, or think that they deserve to be seen. They are scared of letting someone in and don’t want to leave the safety of their walls so they push back, putting up pressure against this powerful force. But love doesn’t fight, it doesn’t invade, it doesn’t push. It simply looks at them and says “You are beautiful”.
There is someone out there, somewhere, who will love you like this. You just have to wait, to hang on and not force things. Love is fostered by two things; friendship and time. These two powerful ingredients are the keys to tearing down any walls, breaking down any barriers, and leading to love. And this is why I am waiting. I will wait for as long as I need to, until I find that person, that person that is out there for me that will look at my very soul and say ‘you are beautiful.“
-A friend of a friend AKA: Matt Williams
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