More Violets. Less Violence

hi there! i am hopeless, called iam and this is my main blog where i post stupid things about games, fandoms, art, personal stuff or any dumb shit that i like. NO LONGER ACTIVE.

[hopelesswillwin-moved]

Announcement

A while ago I felt the need to get away from this blog. I originally intended to come back after a while, but... that somehow never happened

Now, several months later, I’m deciding to give this blog up for good

You can find my new blog -> HERE <- now, though keep in mind that my interests have shifted over time.

This blog will remain on the web since i might want to access old posts, but I will no longer be active on here.

[ithelpstodream]

Hafþór Júlíus Björnsson has a tiny puppy named Asterix and it’s amazing.

[princeofbellehair]

whoever did this, thank you.

[bitterlush]

[huehauheuo]

GUNS

[slbtumblng-deactivated20221210]

´´Betch, where’s muh muhnee´´

[hopelesswillwin-moved]

I had a dream recently that I do not want to forget so i’m gonna write it down

beware of typical dream weirdnes

(honestly my subconscious makes me cringe sometimes)

So i and some other people were on an... expidition of sorts? I cannot really remember if we were participating in an “around the world” race or had a mission or were escaping somewhere but there WAS time pressure.

for some reason we went off course (i have the suspicion that the “reason” was my idea) so were were crossing these fucking huge mountains to get into china (another disclaimer: for some reason the china in my dream was nowhere near close to the actual geographic china???? wtf brain?? it was somewhere in eastern russia idk why)

we passed the peak of the mountains and were on our way down when he found a fucking huge chinese High dragon - now I am actually a scrub and do not know the actual chinese lore behind dragons and i do not know what exactly inspired my dream here. We did not want to alert the dragon of our presence bc in the dream High dragons were seen as gods in china since we were intruders and non-natives it was sort of an affront just to breathe the same air as one of the dragons.

but the dragon noticed us and he was super curious since he had never seen people “from the west” before (*cringes* wtf brain) and he brough us down the mountains and to his... palace? home?

the dragon (his name was Seng?????) liked me for some reason and he was actually super adorable, and he wanted me to play some sort of instrument for him (i do not actually play any instruments - but in this dream i could go figure) and he liked it.

eventually he let us go again and we returned to our home.

now, i cannot remember if it was while still on the expidition or at home I got a letter from the dragon. i cannot remember what was in the letter but i did reply to him and authorities were pissed bc i am just a fucking pleb how dare i have private correspondece with a almost-god????

authorities were additionally pissed because the dragon had laid an egg and -surprise- i was the mom (i cannot remember if i confirmed it to authorities though)

then suddenly it was years later and i was teaching a class (something military which is weird bc i’d never go anywhere to military) and suddenly this guy dressed in a suit walks up with a child walking at his hand and i knew it was Seng (in human form) and his (my) son.

Seng just wanted to visit (the chinese goverment was livid bc omg?? but at the same time they cannot say no to him bc he can litterally just eat them) and i could not talk to the child bc while he had already mastered looking like a human he couldn’t talk in this form yet.

i followed them to their hotel and we talked a but and what was most adorable was that Seng - being a dragon and sort of god - had no idea how to do casual daily stuff like the concept of hotels and credit cards or showers were super fascinating to him so there’s that

~dream end~

now you might wonder how the fuck i could be the mother of the dragon baby/egg. well. in fact I do know the events that lead to that part - they were not explicitly in the dream but at the same time the knowledge of them was there??

it’s kinda gross though so you might not wanna read this and I honestly am somewhat embarassed by WHAt. THE. FUCK. BRAIN PLS?!???????

i honestly don’t know how my SUBCONSCIOUS came up with that.

so seng approached me while i was at his palace and we talked about it and I consented. he turned into a human and we had sex - and now comes the freaky part.

now his dick was not a normal dick - instead of ejaculation he had tiny tentacles that went deeper inside me and basically snatched the.. egg cells( ? is that the word?) right from the source.

it hurt like fuck and i was out for several days afterwards and woke up barely conscious with servants telling me to rest and i was like fuck that and left. 

i think i was sort of mad at Seng but not really??? it was weird.

OKAY SO YEAH FREAKY SHIT

i hope nobody reads this

[hopelesswillwin]

so where is the TFC AU where Nathaniel Wesninski was never on the run? Where Neil Josten and the other names never existed?

where Nathaniel joined the Ravens and becomes popular as a Backliner with a black 4 on his cheek

where things start escalating when Riko breaks Kevin’s hands and Kevin just vanishes and then suddenly Kevin is with the Foxes

where Nathaniel meets Andrew on the court or in the locker room or when he’s sent to PSU to get Kevin back

where it’s Andrew who has to go to the Raven’s over christmas and Nathaniel is his partner, locking the shackles in place and standing by the door while Riko has his way

where Nathaniel is just as unsettled by the way Andrew laughs about the abuse even when his scars tell another story and where Nathaniel is just as scared of his father and his body tells even more stories of what he watched and endured, with and without Kevin and Riko and Jean in the room

where Andrew still promises to protect Nathaniel and maybe that’s what gives him the courage to defy Riko and finally think This king’s ruled long enough— it’s time to tear his castle down

[hopelesswillwin]

“Even if some tasks seem too difficult for you, remember your strengths. Believe in youself! You can do anything!”

My mom sent me this card now that the semester’s ending and I have to take all my tests, and I wanna share the encouragement. *Lux voice* We can do this!

[hopelesswillwin]

okay but you know who is seriously underappreciated in this fandom?

fucking Orlant

first of all he’s fucking hilarious. Sure, he’s also lewd and has a sort of obsession with what Laurent might be doing in bed but he has the best one-liners. He’s the one who comes up with ‘Cast Iron Bitch’, but there’s also “Pretty sweet orders for a bed slave. […] Think what that’d be like, getting a leg over the Prince.” but also “You must be the fuck of a lifetime.”

his was of talking/joking is so particular that when Jord talks to Damen about “and that’s he’s not […] distracted by his first taste of cock.” Damen’s first thought is “That rewording smacked of Orlant.”

but despite the way he talks about Laurent he is fiercly loyal and protective. When he finds out who insulted the Prince & beat up Aimeric (who is pretty new in the prince’s guard) he goes right to the guy to beat him up - and when he finds out that Damen snitched on him about the fight he’s so mad he draws his sword on him.

and yes, he’s violent and rough (looking @ this post) and not even close to who Damen and Laurent are as persons but he’s TREASURE and deserved better than he got

[hopelesswillwin]

Friendly reminder than Prince Damianos was known for his “healthy appetites” and “took lovers frequently, slaves and nobles, too” and apparently one of his most memorable dalliances with another man was with a gladiator who lasted 12 minutes in the arena against him (which might be impressive in itself) and then proceeded to spend 6 hours in Damen’s chambers.

[hopelesswillwin]

Amazing

[hitoame113-deactivated20161112]

On the attack!

Commission of Urai Stormclaw by their lovely owner! full version here

it took my too much time to draw OTL

[highlandvalley]

[hopelesswillwin-moved]

dB^)

[lyriumumu]

Anders moves to Kirkwall and meets Fenris in less than ideal circumstances. Then his old friend Garrett Hawke convinces him to join his theatre group - where Anders and Fenris meet again.

Chapter 11 is up, raising the rating to Explicit

Chapter 12 will be up later today!

[officeofnerd]

150 year old Victorian prosthetic hand. 

[body5000-deactivated20180929]

let girls be ugly ,let girls not care about their appearance, let girls be beautiful in ways that aren’t considered beautiful

[lyriumumu]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Merry Christmas @thecryoftheseagulls! I’m your Secret Santa for the Fenders event and I bring you (part of) your gift.

While writing the length of the fic sort of… exploded, so I will add one or two chapters each day until the gifting period is finished and the fic is complete. I hope that’s alright with you and that you like it <3

[togrutan]

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