Stuff. Things. Bacon.

Tasty, tasty bacon. Also, I pole dance.

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#Latenights on the shopping app that brought you #sharpened #vegetables . #wtf #whattheactualfuck #nicebike #bikeballs #bicycleballsack #itglows #glowingballs #thatlookscancerous #wish #wishapp

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100 people bought this carrot sharpener. But why?! So their children can stab each other with their veggies instead of feeding them to the dog?

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Getting my nails done after the election like...

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Count Chocula says Happy Halloween!

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Trick or Treat!

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#wbw And I’ve seen your flag on the marble arch, and love is not a victory march, it’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

My absolute lowest point. My heart had been ripped out of my chest for the millionth time and I’d been denied entry to an honors society I’d dedicated myself to being part of my entire college career, on a technicality. I had met all the requirements, but because I’d pissed off the president, an illegal popularity vote took place where it was decided I’d “bring the whole group down”. I spent the weekend forcing myself into a Valium-induced coma, listening to Lady Antebellum’s “Need You Now” on repeat so I wouldn’t have to feel anything. I’m not proud of that coping mechanism, but I’m proud I didn’t kill myself, because I don’t think I’ve ever come closer.

7 years later and it’s amazing how little an honors society matters in the real world. Also looking back on it, how quickly I could have, and should have involved an ADA lawyer for blatant discrimination - though I didn’t tell anyone I was autistic, everyone just thought I was weird. That said, as an honors society a vote was never supposed to happen, per the charter, and to this day I wonder how many people didn’t get in because they didn’t fit the mold of that group. I didn’t want to rock the boat that badly, but taken to the right authorities it apparently could have been grounds for the revocation of the charter, and the dissolution of the chapter, so I wasn’t just upset and whining - this really wasn’t ok. My Facebook status for this day was “I wonder if this is how Lyra felt when she was separated from Pan” This was a Golden Compass reference, and being apart from your daemon was like being apart from your soul. Now I’m looking back thinking girl no, that wasn’t love, that was Stockholm Syndrome. Because love doesn’t look like clandestine hookups at 2 am once every 3 months, and a complete disregard for your existence at all other times. As I found scrawled multiple times in the margins of my high school notes this weekend, “Love doesn’t hurt so I know I’m not falling in love, I’m just falling to pieces.” Love. Doesn’t. Hurt. And it’s a lesson I’ve had to learn over, and over, and over again.

I’m now working in theater, and engaged to a man who doesn’t treat me like he might lose everything if anyone knew he loved me. I’m surrounded by people who love me for everything I was a pariah for in college, and I now wear my Asperger’s on my sleeve, so I can’t be ripped to shreds for expecting to be able to behave like everyone else when I simply can’t. Adult Libby is a badass, and even on days where I can’t see it, I’ve come a million miles since this picture.

#learningtolovemyself #college #heartbreak #imstillhere #rockbottom #lowestpoint #needyounow #country #themusicofpain #xanderharris #valium #stockholmsyndrome #alphapsi #alphapsiomega #theater #waylatergram #misunderstood #aspergers #aspergerssyndrome #badass #wbw #waybackwednesday (at Herman Baker Park)

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Umm #Hellogiggles ? I do not think that particular iteration of that word means what you think it means.

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#flashbackfriday Twenty-One Pilots, Red Rocks (at Red Rocks Park and Amphitheatre)

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Nemo, is that you? #twentyonepilots (at Ascend Amphitheater)

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If you really believe what happened in my hometown was an inside job to enact martial law, please unfriend me now, and stop looking for hidden evil when there's enough tangible evil right in front of our faces. There is a huge problem in this country, but creating conspiracy theories to shift blame is not the answer, and I will not believe for a second that the city I grew up in would orchestrate the execution of good men just to give the government more power. #Dallas

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Happy Fourth of July, from my couch, where there's no rain or traffic. #murica

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#holdthedoor (at Pangaea)

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Industrial inspiration

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#tbt Most popular booth at the Rhododendron Festival.

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That last spike was mid #battleofthebastards. #intense #whiteknuckles #gameofthrones #got #byefelicia #fitbit #heartrate #bpm

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#tbt Morning at the farmer's market in Hilo, Hawaii before our waterfall hike. (at Hilo, Hilo, Hawaii)

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#wbw View from the Texas Star. (at State Fair of Texas)