Penelope ⋆

i treat my blog like my diary and also post lyrics i relate to

[hourswerethebirds27]

Do i miss her or am I just on my period?

[hourswerethebirds27]

today is my birthday. Today i will learn how to breathe.

[hourswerethebirds27]

i hate when people try to say how i feel. You are not me you don’t know what im thinking or feeling so dont act like you do. You’re allowed to feel stuff about me but dont act like your perception of me is who i really am.

[hourswerethebirds27]

i hate how my brain processes pain. Why cant i feel anything? Why am i numb? why am i not normal? I want to cry bc part of me believes if i dont it means i never cared but I promise i care i swear i do. I think im numb because i care too much. i know its all going to crash on me in a few days im so scared.

[hourswerethebirds27]

I didn’t want to be like this. I’m a painting made up of angry brushstrokes of from those who Ive ever loved, i try and try and try to scrub them off, to paint over it but it just becomes a mess of colors. Look at me from afar and I’ll seem beautiful. Everyone lingers in one way or another. In how i talk, how i act, how i love. And as much as i try to change myself they will always be there.

[hourswerethebirds27]

cut my hair, changed my style, changed my makeup, got braces, lost weight, am i pretty yet?

[hourswerethebirds27]

i wonder if she still thinks about me.

[hourswerethebirds27]

i miss being in love

[hourswerethebirds27]

so kind and empathetic until it comes to your daughter right?

[n0vemberschild]

[hourswerethebirds27]

why am i always crying get me out of here

[querdish]

My stupid ass trying to find out what’s going on at Blackwell

[hourswerethebirds27]

Takes me so long to get past one episode 🫩

[hourswerethebirds27]

to the girl who saw me crying in the bathroom and asked if i was ok and comforted me ily you’re an angel.

[hourswerethebirds27]

Whenever people tell me i remind them of ladybugs i feel like Jackie getting associated with bunnies

[mikeyyyssgf]

sophie deserved an oscar for this scene

[hourswerethebirds27]

"why cant you hear him crying??"

[hourswerethebirds27]

the way I view life and reality needs to be studied

[hourswerethebirds27]

oh how i wish i could eat without getting nauseous