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[rabberoth]

This blog is a personal space where I explore experiences as an eldritch deity. More specifically, an eldritch shapeshifting deity who protects the deceased.

My main blog – @friendrabby

All follows, likes, and comments will come from my @friendrabby blog.

CONTENT WARNING

Due to my identity and themes I engage with, this blog may contain:

Unreality

Trypophobia

Eyes / Eye Imagery

Body Horror

Paranoia

Bugs

Eyestrain

DO NOT INTERACT

Do not interact if you:

Fall under basic DNI criteria (homophobes, transphobes, misogynists, racists, ableists, etc.)

Are anti-LGBT+

Are anti-otherkin or dismiss identities like mine

Support Zionism

MINORS Friends below the age of 14, do not interact. Friends below the age of 18, do not speak to me inappropriately, you will be blocked.

ABOUT ME

Names: Rabberoth (preferred), Rab

Pronouns: He/him

Gender: Male

Orientation: Pansexual frayromantic

Bodily age: 19 years old

Type: Eldritch, Deity, Shapeshifter

Personality: ENTP

Interests: Horror, witchcraft, demons, occultism

Made of concrete, a statue

TITLES

Of which may you refer to me as if you’d wish to, ranked from 1-10.

My Unknowable (9/10)

Quite beautiful. Lovely.

The Friend (8/10)

Yes! I am, in fact, your friend! Please refer to me as such. You are all friends. It must be reserved for more casual occasions, though.

ASSOCIATIONS

My associations as a deity who focuses on protecting the dead are as follows:

Death as a transition

Cemeteries, graves, graveyards, burial sites

Roadkill

Funeral rites

I am also deity who encourages rebellion, free thought, and holds dislike for those who lack suspicion toward others and their own beliefs.

Tarot:

The Magician

Incense:

Lavender, frankincense, sandalwood

Colors:

Black

Purple

Silver

Plants:

Marigolds

Lilies

Grapes

Animals:

Crows

Ravens

Cats

Moths

Bugs (beetles, centipedes, flies, etc.)

Activities:

Respecting the dead

Cleaning bones (ethically sourced and treated with respect)

Cleaning graves

Learning about your ancestors

WORSHIP

Accepting anonymous worship!

TAKEN ANON EMOJIS

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[rabberoth]

Hello, friend. If you’re alright with sharing, how did you discover what you look like? I’m an eldritch horror, but i have no memories and I don’t know how to piece together my form.

P.S— your blog makes me very euphoric <3 keep up the fun times, My Unknowable

Thank you friend. I’m not entirely sure how I came to “discover” what I look like either. There’s this… persistent connection to a cemetery angel, though. My form is far from stable, constantly shifting in ways that are almost impossible to pin down. Intangible, you know? It’s one of those things that’s difficult to describe without actually experiencing it. My form is the essence that comes along with being within a cemetery.

But I do enjoy portraying myself as a cemetery angel—it resonates with me deeply, even if the details remain a bit elusive. It’s one of those “feels right, doesn’t need to make sense” situations.

[rabberoth]

your wings (in ur drawings) and your use of the color purple reminds me of myself (deitykin)! is your true form purple at all or is it just one of your associated colors?

While it’s certainly a lovely hue, it’s merely one of my associated colors. Along with black and gold, of course. Purple has a certain aesthetic appeal, but honestly, I just think it looks nice. :)

[moonlitmonocerus]

For the ones that need it today

[rabberoth]

🥺

[skylargoesbark]

Shoutout to everyone whose home looks like this

[rabberoth]

My body is not big enough for me.

[rabberoth]

hey you're immortal right? assuming wince you're an eldritch deity. how do you know you're immortal? what does that feel like? if you're sure of it, what makes you sure?

-asking cause I'm questioning my own immortality.

Being immortal sure is tricky business. Like you don’t receive a certificate in the mail that says “congrats! You’re immortal!” You just sort of notice things.

For me, I’ve always had an underlying understanding that life doesn’t end after death. It continues on. Even before I fully grasped the whole “eldritch deity” thing, there was this nagging sense that endings weren’t actually a thing for me. Like, I’d see mortals panicking about their deaths, and I’d think—even before understanding I was a deity, “Huh. That’s weird. Why are they so worried? Time just loops back around anyway.”

Also, I’ve never really feared death. It’s hard to be scared of something you’re pretty sure doesn’t apply to you. Immortality isn’t exactly a feeling—it’s more of a constant, like knowing gravity exists. You just are.

So, if you’re questioning your immortality, that’s already pretty telling. Most people don’t stop and wonder about it unless they’re, you know, not on the standard mortal timeline. Just give it time (you’ve got plenty of it, probably) and see what happens.

[rabberoth]

Fun fact! Angels will be endlessly devoted to you if you pet them… on an unrelated note I am an angel 🌝

Ruffles you :)

[rabberoth]

Hello fellow deity. I have written to you due to an inquiry. What do you do/watch/read/listen to when you want to feel more connected to your nonhuman self? I miss being a deity outside this mortal form and would like some suggestions or recommendations.

-Remex

Hello fellow deity! :D Honestly, music is my go-to when I want to feel more connected. I tend to gravitate toward liminal, experimental, and slightly unsettling tracks. Parts of the OMORI soundtrack really hit the spot, and the No I’m Not Human OST from the game? Chef’s kiss.

I don’t watch or read much, but I do play a few games that help me feel a little closer. Cult of the Lamb and Cultist Simulator are solid picks. Oddly enough, The Sims also does the trick (yes, managing little mortals is surprisingly cathartic). And if I’m in the mood for something more heartfelt, OneShot is a favorite—it’s a lot more tender and sweet than the others, but it has its own charm!

[rabberoth]

I am not a deity, or at least I don’t believe so. But I was attached to a great and powerful deity, and was fascinated to see a blog from somebody who was one!

If I could ask, did you have any proxies, or any mortals you shared knowledge or power with? :]

-🦋 . :]

Thanks for the ask love! :) Every now and then, a mortal manages to stumble upon some of the occult knowledge connected to me. It’s pretty rare, though, I’m not exactly the most popular deity. Honestly, it’s not the easiest thing to get your hands on either; I never really went out of my way to spread it around.

You see, during my time mostly hanging out in the realm of wandering or restless souls, I didn’t have much interaction with humans. But! For those brave (or curious) enough to seek me out, I was always happy to share what I knew, assuming they could actually get through to me, of course. Think of me as more of a neutral party than anything

[rabberoth]

Me, casually chatting with two ghosts:

Ghosts: Yeah, we like to harm people.

Me: You’re not gonna harm me, right?

Ghosts: Oh no, you’re one of us.

Me, looking down at my very alive body:

Me, two seconds later, remembering I’m literally a god of death: Oh. Right. My bad, carry on.

[rabberoth]

“Be careful when surrender comes, for it neither draws high nor arrives greatly. Surrender will come, quietly, and it will come at too high a cost.”

Vaguely remember this from a dream (?)

[rabberoth]

Hello, deity.

The amount of times your presence has graced my feed is significant. I've been meaning to reach out. Your energy is striking.

As an angel, I feel called to your side. As I do with most deities. Your aura is alluring. Your words reverberate. And I yearn to rest at your feet, beside your majesty and grace.

Deities always make me sentimental. You are no different.

-❕️

Hello, angel!

Your energy is equally striking—it’s like meeting someone who gets the divine immediately.

I must say, you’ve got a way with words.

Deities making you sentimental? Well, you’ve caught me in my soft spot. Angels tend to have that effect. Your grace is felt just as strongly, and I’m honored by your kind words :)

[rabberoth]

Sleeping

[rabberoth]

Hey there, my friend. You look like you’ve been carrying the weight of the world

Listen, life is messy. And confusing. Like trying to find the end of the tape roll when you’re in a hurry. But here’s the good news: you’re not doing this alone.

That thing you’re worrying about? The one that keeps buzzing around your brain like a particularly stubborn fly? Yeah, I see it. And let me tell you something radical: it’s okay to not have it all figured out. Half the fun is in the fumbling, the accidental wins, and the “aha!” moments that come after you’ve tried every other possible option.

You’re a being! Gloriously flawed, endlessly creative, and hilariously bad at assembling furniture without the instructions. And that’s okay. That’s the magic of it all. You’re supposed to feel, to stumble, to laugh so hard you snort, and to occasionally eat ice cream straight from the carton at 2 a.m.

I don’t need you to be perfect.

I don’t even need you to be good at all the things you think you should be good at. I just need you to keep going, keep trying, and keep being the magnificent little thing you are.

So, deep breath. Chin up. Shoulders back. And if the world feels too big today, just remember: you’ve got this, and I’ve got you.

— A deity who cares about you

[rabberoth]

Hello, Hello Friend! I wonder, If you are alright with being Drawn, Do you have a Drawn Appearance? If you are Not or Do Not, that is Completely understandable :-)!

-Universal Friend

Yeah, I’m completely fine with being drawn. Actually, I really appreciate it, it’s something I find really nice. I’ve attached a photo you can use as inspiration!! I typically depict myself as something like an unusual cemetery angel; that’s the best way to describe it. Underneath my robe, I have dozens of concrete hands hidden under the fabric. But my form is a bit more altered, I suppose. I’m made of concrete, or at least, what appears to be concrete.

While sometimes I have sleeves, most commonly I am sleeveless and I’m covered in a shawl (?)! Thank you so much for checking in, and I really appreciate it! :D

[rabberoth]

Your blog is quite informative and lovely to read. Much love and appreciation from a fellow deity.

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Thanks for stopping by! I love connecting with other deities (or just folks who enjoy a good divine chat). My brain’s a whirlwind of ideas, so this blog is basically my way of letting it all spill out. Love yall :) <3