cherry valley forever
blake kathryn
Today's Document
Three Goblin Art
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if i look back, i am lost
noise dept.
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wallacepolsom
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
ellievsbear
YOU ARE THE REASON
occasionally subtle
Monterey Bay Aquarium
Peter Solarz
Alisa U Zemlji Chuda
tannertan36
almost home
seen from Malaysia
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@howisitthatimstillhere
I know you’ll be the star in somebody else’s sky…but why can’t it be mine?
Funny how i posted this on 30.6.2012 not knowing that this song would affect me so much today. i am still listening to this same song over and over again. This line hits deep. How can i recover.
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So many things has changed i feel like i’m a different person entirely. Reading back this old blog, i miss my old self. Nonetheless, my entire outlook on the world is different now. How things work, how people work how i work. I think i would stay the same forever, that i would not become the kind of person that i despise, but i did become whatever shit i used to think i would never be. Fell in love, still not yet out of love but working on moving on with my life. Never thought that i would fell for someone like that, but i did. And i fell hard. It affects my life, affects my entire view on this world, affects my entire view of love. And never thought i would become that kind of person when I’m in love. Now i understand that just being in love is not enough. No matter how much both of you love each other, if its not meant to be, its not. Suddenly i am at this age. Unmarried, without a child, still missing that person. So crazy. Work is crazy, my name is all over the place. Birthday is in 4 days. Time is moving so fast i cannot run anymore. Just letting everything go. Maybe that way i will feel peace. Hopefully, i will be happier when writing my next post.
Just so you know, its not anonymous anymore. Whatever i said will be quoted in verbatim in the newspaper with my name on it. Its scary. I am more careful with whatever i said. The thing is people don’t understand. Last week my father said don’t read the comments, buat sakit hati ja. Its true, i don’t read them because if i care about what other people said, i could go crazy. Here, this is a picture of my sandwich last friday.
Jogjakarta in December. After 3 years of not travelling out of the country, finally, Indonesia. Last time i was there was in 2015. So much has changed but what stayed the same was the people. They are so warm so welcoming, so wise. I couldn’t explain it but they seem to live a life that is full of feelings, more poetic, deep in every angle. The feeling of being there is something i cannot explain. Its a country full of culture i hope it stayed the same and never changed. I would definitely come back, no doubt. Now back in Malaysia after 6 days. Feel like crying because i have to resume my normal days here. I think its because of my job which i probably hate. I think the last 6 days was when i was truly genuinely happy in 2022. In this adult life not many things can make me happy i noticed. But life goes on.
A 2022 update.
This is it. My decision will be publicised, criticised and my decision will affect the nation. It matters not what happened in the process, whats important is the result. I am fortunate / unfortunate enough to be in this situation where my job requires me to judge and my decision will affect the whole lot and later the consequence is..i cannot avoid being judged by the public. However all this is alright i guess because as i was typing this, in every news for every decision i made, i was anonymous.
Spring time. April 2021 in KL Court. Welcome 2022.
Scout & Nimble
Eames DKR Wire Chair
So I take it went ok then, Romeo?
Tuba Club
PJ Matten
Vogue Korea, June 2010
Birling Gap, June 2017.
If i am rich, this is the kind of house that i would buy.
A 2021 update. This selfie was taken on 3.8.2021. Posting it here to remember how weird this time is. This is me working. Probably not the best attire to do my job, but I can’t risk anything and better be safe than sorry. You’ll never know.
Haven’t posted in a while. Have to admit, i am afraid to post anything public because for the past one year, there is this crazy creature stalking around and following every social media I have. Crazy times.
