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It’s been more than a year since I thought I would eventually forget. But here we are 1 year, an almost relationship, and a year in lockdown later, still wondering why. That was the last conversation I wanted to have because I really wanted to know. But what I thought was “life” got in the way. And I didn’t want to get hurt if I’d ever have to build a family by myself

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Plants spark joy

When you’re willing to give lots of chances for someone who’s willing to let you go with one mistake.

It only took you two weeks. Nagkamali lang ako eh. Nirespeto mo lang ba ako kasi gusto mo ako? Am I nothing to you anymore? Ang bilis mo naman. Naiwan na naman ako.

I have been feeling anxious lately. This week and the last has been about being so unsure of myself and my future. I would randomly feel insecure about myself in so many aspects of my life. I have actually been binge-eating to cope, which leads to me feeling fat, and blaming all the bingeing on not having him anymore.

I have felt this way twice during ECQ, but this time I consciously wanted to take control by thinking of other unhealthy ways to cope like vomitting and hurting myself. It does not help that I am constantly questioning this season of waiting.

Why am I writing this here? It’s easier to write it as is and try to process it by myself than to open up about what I’m feeling and get unsolicited advice and feel judged in the procwss. There is basically no one I want to talk about this to.