darling .

[hrjunho-blog]

i turned it off and on already.

[hrjunho-blog]

hrseungjoon‌:

     the caller id at this time of night (or day?) tells seungjoon more than he needs to know. pesky freeloaders off his technological knowledge who don’t even understand that his expertise laid in software and not hardware…why does he even bother? his finger hovers over the ‘decline call’ button for longer than he’s proud of, but decides to give junho the benefit of the doubt for once. 

     in which he learns he’s more intuitive than he gives himself credit for.

     “dude…” he groans into the phone, pinching the bridge of his nose. “calling in the middle of the night aside, you know i have assignments…” he’s at the end of his work week which makes his fatigue all the more intense. he wonders if the hyperbole is really necessary, but he relates to the life-or-death situations caused by technological issues. “you owe me big time, junho.”

     so he pushes away from his desk and lets his chair roll towards the center of his room, spinning around slowly as he attempts to help his friend. “don’t yell at me for this, but have you checked if it’s plugged in? or if you’re hitting the power button properly…you sound tired enough that that’d happen.”

“why’d you take so long to pick up? i know you weren’t sleeping,” it’s not the time for accusations, especially if junho wants seungjoon to like him enough to help him out here. there’s a talkative side that comes out of junho when under stress. sometimes it’s good, in front of the camera for example when he can’t have a dull moment; other times it causes him more trouble than he really needs.

part of him feels bad for disturbing his friend, enough to make him pause sympathetically for just a moment. but the moment is over soon enough and the pressure of staking his whole academic career on one video takes priority over feelings. “i know, i owe you my soul, whatever, you can fix this, right?”

he tries, he really tries, not to sigh with too much exasperation when seungjoon asks him such an obvious question. “yes, it’s been plugged in and charging for half an hour now. i swear i did everything i could think of before i called you. i’m not completely useless, y’know.” he doesn’t deny that he’s tired though; were it not for the pure fear keeping him upright he’d probably be out cold by now.

“can you just come over? you can do your computer magic or whatever and i’m sure it’ll be a super simple fix for you and you’ll be pissed at me but i’m willing to take that over my literal funeral right now.”

perhaps he’s a little too dramatic.

[hrjunho-blog]

i turned it off and on already.

@hrseungjoon

he’s fucked.

if it was just an upload for his channel, it would be no big deal. yeah, he’d be frustrated and disappointed that hours of hard work just vanish without a trace, but one tweet to his followers and they’d be pretty understanding. his upload schedule is a hot mess anyways; some say it’s part of his charm.

but this wasn’t a channel upload. this wasn’t for pleasure. this was fifty hours of work for possibly the most important grade he’ll get all semester. he’s been working on this project since last semester, a short mock-umentary for one of his classes that was supposed to make all of his (also quite talented) classmates look weak and blow his professor away with his ability. it was supposed to go to a small film competition and win big, get him the attention of someone who mattered, and secure an internship with a top company. they say not to put all of your eggs in one basket. junho did just that.

“joon,” he’s on the phone the moment his computer won’t power on. this is an emergency. “please, i need you to save my entire life. i’m not kidding, i’ll die if i don’t get my laptop on. it won’t work!”

it’s not hard to tell that he’s stressed even just by voice, that he probably hasn’t slept in 36 hours, and that he’s at his wits end. the caffeine pill he had crushed into his energy shot (dumped into the strongest, blackest coffee possible) makes his hands shake something terrible when he tries to put the phone into speaker mode. “and yes, i’ve tried turning it off and back on again already. the problem is it won’t turn on!”

[somaistockholm-blog]

“Success has a simple formula: do your best, and people may like it.”

Sam Ewing (via somaistockholm)

[nyuqyu]

q just wants to be in the video