paperhrt's evil clone

ac: pppuri WSS, ENDOS, PROSHIP & RQ DNI blog where i let myself say Words (be mentally ill)

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You must be thinking, "Another fucking sideblog??? why don't you go into a ditch and Blog from there???? what's wrong with you?? why do you have so much swag??? why are you so cool????" well my friend s. I yearn to sort. aka sideblog

MAINBLOG — PRNSCC — FICTKIN BLOG

Call me Ego / Rigor, friends can call me Jos if they want idk !!! Call me whatever as long as it's Normal. but also be Strange with it. but not too strange. then it'll be weird

Auhhhh, i draw sometimes but not too often idk. art block. This blog will have more Personal stuff ? ig. More rants where I don't censor myself. probably (doubt). might post art here too. maybe. might reblog some suggestive jokes because they're funny but that will be tagged appropriately with #suggestive (and you can block the tag if you want)

I Guess i'll system it up here too

TAGS

#egotist artist — art shit ig

#egotist rambles — the yapperrrr

#the answerer — asks

idk i'll add more laterrrrr

DNI shit idk

i hate you wss wss go away

I hate you endos endos go away

I hate you proshippers proship go away

I hate you radqueers rq go away

CREDIT

O1, O2, O3, O4

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time to feel sick about every decision i’ve ever made in my entire life

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Local Thing questioning if hy's intersex, uh. Hashtag my hypospadias

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So I'm. 90% sure. Yeah. Wow! I sure am doing a lot of discovery ! Wow

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Local Thing questioning if hy's intersex, uh. Hashtag my hypospadias

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im going to fix my entire life

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I forgot I was Korean and fully thought I was white so far today

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>be me

>look into Bad Habit

>personality disorder symptom

>denial

>loop

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Well

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Looking into OCPD (<- probably has symptoms) and SZPD (<- thinking more)

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Conclusion: OCPD symptoms are prevalent and that's okay. Can't get a diagnosis so I am merely suspecting. No SZPD symptoms other than possibly Something. I forgot.

Conclusion 2: The #1 introvert with disdain for those I perceive as strangers and a dislike for expanding My friend group, indifferent about acquaintances/people I don't talk to often. Also disinterest in most things but that is The Depression (and possibly burn out. shrug). A preference for being alone but I think that's been a thing for at least ten (10) years. Also avoidant attachment but I already knew about that one.

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Re: Conclusion 2

But that is a lot to say and explain. Perhaps a simple "I'm introverted" is sufficient enough

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I really do need to like. Be more loud and proud about My identity. And I think I'm doing a good job on My mogai blog but not anywhere else. I think I'm nervous that people will tell Me I'm being queer wrong or that I'm being trans* wrong or whatever. And it's annoying, can I stop Doing That

I need to be more openly tfemmasc and more openly lesboy and more openly aroacespec forever. I do believe it's a "What if they don't accept Me even if they have 'We accept everyone!'? What if they mean 'Everyone But You'?" Which is a stupid thing for Me to think lmaoooo Everyone kill Me with hammers

*not cis

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i know simply plural is ending.. i suggest you look into berrytree! it's like so goo.d... mutual.. trust me. it's anti-endo too...

i think the blog is berrytree-co & there is a discord server for it! said server is currently closed but. heh. i can return whenever it comes back up.. it's still in beta testing, so it's not perfect but mutual trust me...

Omg.... Berrytree mention.... I trust you mutual.... :joy:

I have ☝️ actually been trying out berrytree <- procrastinating on it. But evilly. On account of My Evil Nature

lets have phone sex over walkie talkies

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“bend over” “bend what? over”

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I hate this place

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(clutching my side) ARGH! they shot me!! *Pulls my hand away to reveal pink glittery gel pen ink*

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Why do all radqueers talk the same 😭😭😭 what is Up with that

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It really is "do what you want forever but not like that" in Ways

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Drawing is so hard, how do people do it

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And on the topic of My Mother, I've just remembered that she has said some Things regarding Christianity that made (??) year old me question things.

She'd tell me that Certain Bad People could hypothetically be in Heaven had they prayed before dying. And I remember thinking something along the lines of, "That does not sound like a Heaven I want to be a part of"

Alongside the "God told me such and such" that made Me raise My eyebrow.