As Theo Nott touched down on the pitch, the roar of the Slytherin crowd was deafening. The victory was complete: Slytherin had won the House Cup. Theoâs teammates surged towards him, lifting him high into the air in celebration. The thrill of triumph and the smell of victory filled the crisp evening air.
Hours later, the excitement had shifted from the Quidditch pitch to the Nott residence, where the grand celebration was in full swing. Music and laughter echoed through the opulent halls as students, family, and friends gathered to honor the win. The house was alive with the energy of the Slytherin spirit, with food, drinks, and a great deal of revelry.
Meanwhile, Theo and Matteo were nowhere to be seen. The two friends had found themselves in a less glamorous situation: Theoâs truck had broken down on their way to the party. The situation had quickly escalated from a minor inconvenience to a near disaster, as the truck stubbornly refused to start.
âKeep pushing. You better be pushing!â Theo yelled, his breath visible in the chilly night air as he strained against the vehicle.
âIâm pushing!â Matteo shouted back, his frustration evident. Theoâs truck was heavy and unwieldy, and the prospect of missing out on the party was adding to his exasperation.
âPush harder!â Theo urged, his voice a mix of determination and amusement. They were almost there, just a few more steps from the Nott residence.
Finally, with one last effort, they managed to roll the truck to the edge of the driveway. Theo leaned against the truck, panting and smiling with relief. âHome sweet home,â he said, grinning as he glanced at Matteo.
Matteo gave him a flat look, clearly annoyed. âIâm saving for a new one,â Theo said with a chuckle, trying to lighten the mood.
âUh-huh, save faster,â Matteo muttered before turning on his heel and heading towards the house, eager to join the festivities.
Theo watched as Matteo disappeared into the party, and with a resigned sigh, he trudged towards the entrance. The contrast between the chaotic scene outside and the lively celebration inside couldnât have been starker. As he walked in, he was greeted by cheers and claps on the back from his friends and family.
Despite the rough start, the party was as vibrant as expected. Theo joined the crowd, accepting congratulations and high-fives. His friends, including Enzo and others, were animatedly discussing the match and their victory.
As Theo navigated through the party, searching for you amidst the sea of well-wishers, he was momentarily lost in the whirlwind of congratulations. He stopped briefly to exchange pleasantries and thank the well-meaning crowd, but his focus remained on finding you.
When he finally spotted you on the dance floor with Pansy Parkinson, he felt a surge of relief. He made his way over, a genuine smile spreading across his face. Without hesitation, he wrapped his arms around you in a warm embrace.
"Hey," Theo greeted, his voice filled with a mix of joy and exhaustion. "Congratulations, Mr. MVP."
You grinned up at him. "Thanks! Can I fix you a plate?" Even in the midst of the celebration, Theo's thoughtfulness shone through.
"I'll take one of everything" You smiled
"What are we celebrating something?" Theo chuckled, the warmth of your smile making the stress of the day seem almost worth it. Before he could say more, Adrian Pucey swooped in, grabbing Theo's arm.
Theo was about to respond when he felt a firm hand on his shoulder. His father had arrived, ushering him towards a distinguished-looking man who introduced himself as a scout for a professional Quidditch team.
"Let me tell you, that teamwork I saw tonight and the dedication from you, Nottâthat's the kind of player Iâm looking for," the scout said, his tone sincere.
Theo thanked the man, his mind racing with the possibilities as he tried to process the unexpected opportunity. He turned to find you again, but the crowd had shifted, and he was momentarily disoriented.
Just as he was about to resume his search for you, Pucey stopped him once more, this time with a curious look. âHey man, great house,â he said, then paused. âYour room? Wicked cool.â
Theo blinked, slightly taken aback. âOh, thanks, man. Wait, you were in my room?â
"Well yeah I just took a picture... I'm doing mine the same way" He smiled like it was completely normal before pulling out his camera and taking a picture with Theo. The flash confusing him even more then he already was.
Before he could respond Pucey was talking again "Dude we should hang out tonight, Get to know each other"
"yeah sure, I just have to grab the house cup I left it in my truck." Theo thought quickly of a way that he could get away from Pucey.
"Oh dude don't worry I'm on it" And with that he ran off, leaving Theo alone once again and brininging him back to his search.
Theoâs treehouse, tucked away in the branches of an old oak tree, was a nostalgic retreat from the bustling party below. The evening sky was awash with twilight hues, casting a gentle glow over the scene. Theo led you up the wooden ladder with a mix of excitement and nervousness, keen to share this personal space with someone special.
As you reached the top and stepped into the cozy, somewhat cluttered room, you were greeted by the familiar smell of pine and the faint scent of old books. The space was adorned with old Quidditch memorabilia, photographs, and sketchesâevidence of the countless hours Theo had spent up here as a child.
âSo, another top-secret hiding place,â you said, slipping your hand into his and looking around with interest.
Theo chuckled, his eyes twinkling with a mix of pride and nostalgia. âYouâre the second girl Iâve ever brought up here,â he said, his voice softening as he met your gaze.
You raised an eyebrow playfully. âThe first?â
âThe first was my mom,â he said, pausing to see your reaction. When you elbowed him gently, he continued, âAnd she only climbed up here to get me down when I got stuck.â
Both of you burst into laughter, the sound echoing softly in the quiet, serene space.
âWell, Iâm honored,â you said, taking in the view of the Nott estate. âThis place is so cool.â
âYeah, my dad and I built it together,â Theo said, a hint of nostalgia in his voice. âItâs been a special place for me.â
You nodded, glancing over at him. âIs that the coach from the pro team who he hasn't stopped talking about in weeks?â
âThe very same,â Theo said, a note of amazement in his voice. âHeâs here at my house tonight. Itâs surreal.â
âI bet heâs already got your name on a jersey,â you teased.
âThatâs always been my dadâs dream,â Theo said, his tone filled with warmth. âHeâs been so supportive and I know he's proud .â
âIâm proud of you too,â you added softly, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze.
Theoâs expression grew contemplative. âThe thing about going pro isâŠâ
He was cut off by you both speaking at once. âIâll be 1,000 miles away.â
Theo stopped, his gaze fixed on you. âIt feels like this year is flying by.â
âYeah,â you said with a sigh, âI wish it would slow down, at least for a little while.â
Theo took a deep breath, looking around the treehouse as if trying to hold on to the moment. âWell, at least we have right now.â
âThatâs true,â you agreed, leaning closer.
âAnd right here, right now,â Theo said, his voice soft and earnest, âIâm looking at you, and my heart loves the view.â
You laughed, the sound light and full of affection. âThat was pretty cheesy.â
âI know,â Theo said, grinning sheepishly. âBut I meant every word.â
You smiled back at him, feeling a sense of contentment and connection in the quiet intimacy of the treehouse. The party below seemed like a distant memory, replaced by the shared moment between the two of you.
Theo leaned in, his eyes reflecting the soft glow of the lantern hanging above. âIâm glad we could share this moment together.â
âMe too,â you said, your voice barely a whisper as you leaned in closer. âItâs been a night to remember.â
As you two leaned in and shared a slow kiss the winning fireworks were set off in the back. Perfect timing.
As the party below carried on, the sounds of celebration drifting up to the treehouse, Theo and you were content in the knowledge that, despite the uncertainties of the future, you had each other and a memory that would last long after the night was over.
ᯠđđ° .á alcohol consumption, mentions of blood/violence, SFW, boy did i have some fun with sunday's one, blade's one is ass but moving on, this took me way too long to write, 6.3k words đ, idk if this has been done before (probably), rbs are appreciated!! <3
ᯠARGENTI .á
đđ đđđ. Never in your life had you been so flustered over a mere complimentâbut, really, no one could blame you. Having such a man of unparalleled beauty himself flatter you with flowery words and praises? Not only that, but with the most sincere, earnest expression on his face while he said such things? Falling in love had never been so easy.
âThis rose, one possessing such quiet, enrapturing beauty itself, falls pathetically short in comparison to you, my lady,â the knight had remarked silkily, all while presenting said âpatheticâ rose to you confidently. He was stooped into a gentlemanly bow, one of his gauntleted hands placed over his armoured chest, those sparkling green eyes of his intense and filled with true candour. âIt is like starlight follows your every step, so dazzling and captivatingâa sight no person in their right mind would be able to banish from their thoughts.â
âIâŠâ You hadnât the slightest clue what to say. To be bombarded with such ornate compliments (on a normal day, youâd consider them painfully cheesy) and gazed at with two earnest jade eyesâwell. It left you utterly speechless. With only a trembling hand responding to him and reaching out to accept the flower, you flicked a frantic glance in Himeko's direction. But she looked on in great amusement, hiding her giggles behind an elegant hand. This knight should be showering her with compliments here! Himekoâs the gorgeous one! Awkward, baffled silence from your fellow Express members suffocated the atmosphere. Your cheeks were burning. âMy goodness, IâŠIâve never received such high praise from someone as handsome as yourself before.â Or anyone, for that matter.Â
âYou have not?â Once you had taken the rose, the knight of beauty, named Argenti, straightened and peered down at you with such a genuinely astonished stare, as if the concept of no one ever having complimented you was completely foreign and bizarre to him. âI do believe that is the most outlandish thing Iâve heard for a very long time. Such a lovely young woman such as yourself, one who I quake at even having the honour of being in the presence of, has never received her due praise? What has this universe come to?â
âI, uh, have no idea.â You twirled the rose gently in your fingers, noting its thornless stem. It smelled very nice, and it was evident the man before you took great care of his (seemingly endless) supply of flowers. âBut, thank you very much, Sir Argenti. you have made my day.â
In fact, you wanted to cry from embarrassment and joy at the knightâs abrupt onslaught of lauds for you. You didnât think yourself worthy.Â
And then he did something most unexpected. He took your hand in his large, gauntleted one ever so gently, as if it were a soft, fragile petal of a rose, and placed a gentlemanly kiss to the top of it. You could hear March gasp in shock, and the sound of a phone camera going off. Oh, theyâre going to tease me about this for a long, long time. Argenti parted his lips from the top of your hand, but he did not straighten, remaining hovered over it while gazing up at you with two intense green eyes. âTruly, I tell you, it makes my heart soar to know I have, butâwill you grant me the honour of keeping me company during my stay?â
âIâIâm sorry?â
Argenti finally stood straight again, but he brought your hand up higher so he could place another peck to the top of it, if need be. âI shall, regrettably, remain aboard this extraordinary train only temporarily. However, if you were to allow me the privilege to befriend you throughout my brief visit here, I would be utterly overjoyed.â
Tongue-tied, you sneaked a glance in Marchâs direction, and she caught your eye, immediately flailing around and frantically gesturing for you to say yes. Dan Heng stood at her side, his usually aloof, blank expression now showing a rare expression of bewilderment at Argentiâs antics and flowery words toward you, and he nodded along with March.Â
Pressing your lips together anxiously, you finally managed a nod. âSir Argenti, I believe it would, in fact, be my honour to keep you company amid your stop here.â
Happiness brightened the Knight of Beautyâs previously tentative expression, and he pressed another soft kiss to the top of your hand, closing his eyes. âWords could never efficiently suffice to convey the bliss I feel at your affirmation. My lady, how eternally honoured I am to have met you throughout the vast, endless cosmos, where such a beautiful soul as yourself is so hard to come by.â
ᯠSUNDAY .á
đđđđ đđđđđđđ of a man was one you either got off on the right foot with, or you didnât. There was simply no in between. In contrast, his angel of a sister was much easier to befriend, considering her naturally sweet temperament, but her brotherâŠwell, to say the least, you could not stand the man upon your first introduction to him.
It was at a rather illustrious event, one you could only attend because of your own familyâs status. The invitations were sent to your father three months ago, all the way from penacony and into your own homeworld, one lightyears from the planet of festivities. Your father thought this a great opportunity to speak personally about business with the renowned Mr. Sundayâa man with the slyness of a fox and the stillness of a snake.
Yes, his handsome features and suave manner were truly appealing, but that didnât take away your simmering urge to splash your glass of SoulGlad all over that exorbitant off-white three-piece lapel suit of his. And, oh, yes, he was so polite and charming and refined, but the way he looked at you made your cheeks heat and blood boil.
Golden eyes with the softness of a rock. Utterly unreadable, unpredictable. But you tolerated him, because relations between the head of the Oak Family and your father took priority well over your own inimical sentiments for the man. Also, his sister Robin, the famed and beautiful singer all across the cosmos, had become a quick friend of yours. The vast difference in personality between the sibling duo was baffling.
âDelighted to make your acquaintance,â Sunday had pleasantly greeted, smoothly taking your gloved hand and placing a gentlemanly, polite, and brief kiss to the top of it. âMiss [Name].â
âNo, the honour is all mine.â At first, you thought him nice enough, rather taken with the way he so facilely, amiably kissed your hand. Youâd always liked the more traditional men, and Mr. Sunday was the embodiment of oneâwith his tall frame and courteous demeanour. That impression, however, did not last long.
The more the man talked, the more you disliked him. His voice was soothing and silky and full of the right amount of polite detachment fitting for a businessman of his calibre. His lips seemed to be permanently turned up at the corners, into some kind of semblance of a smile you couldnât quite place. Almost a smirk, not quite. Something about it put you off, and drew you in. Perhaps that was the point.
ââŠThis is not a realm for the infirm,â he was saying to your father, his champagne glass held loosely in long, attractive fingers. Ones sure to not have a single callus on themâfor, you sardonically, softly scoffed into your own glass, this man was the very type to spill blood by proxy, never dirtying his own, smooth hands.
Maybe you were jumping to conclusions and making unfair judgements about this manâbut, well, you just couldnât shake the feeling that there was much more to the Head of the Oak Family than what first met the eye. Something off-putting.
âHow do you mean?â Your father replied, taking a sip of his SoulGlad.
âI mean, natural selection is one to take precedence and make the choices for us, no?â You acted uninterested in the conversation as you looked away and pretended to watch the performing orchestra with rapt interest. âThe law of the jungle puts each person to the test, and that all depends on your own determination, potential and, most of all, aptitude. Life is an obstacle course. It all boils down to oneâs capabilities.â
âSurvival of the fittest, you mean?â your father clarified, squinting at the Head of the Family, before he nodded in agreement. âYes, yes, I quite agree. Adaptation, such a morbidly wonderful concept. It is how individuals like you and I clawed our ways to the top, if it meant our loved ones lived the lives they deserve.â And then he wrapped an arm around your shoulder, giving you a fatherly squeeze, smiling down at you. âIâve no qualms about getting some dirt under my fingernails if it means my beloved daughter is comfortable for the rest of her life.â
âFather, youâre making it sound like youâre secretly an underground crime boss.â You jokingly arched a brow, masking your deep discomfort with the present topic of the conversation. You could feel Mr. Sundayâs golden hues boring into the side of your face intently. âYou shouldnât say such things. I think youâre both talking nonsense.â
âAh, so you have been listening,â quipped Mr. Sunday, inclining his head toward you, gazing at you through his greyish-blue bangs and long lashes. âYou do not agree with the survival of the fittest?â
âOh, now, I do not consider myself to be a holy person, Mr. Sunday,â you elucidated, straightening your posture. âI hold no lofty ideals. But I do believe in fairness.â Ironic, as all Iâve been doing this evening is judging you. But, somehow, you felt that your judgments were not inaccurate. âI believe that for society to flourish as it should peacefully, this âsurvival of the fittestâ archetype should be discarded. Instead of using the weak as leverage for âgetting to the topâ, the âfittestâ should do their best to extend a hand to those clinging to the precipice for dear life, instead of letting them fallâor, even worseâkicking them to their metaphorical death. Do you understand my meaning?âÂ
âYour words hold merit,â the Oak Family head acknowledged, staring at you from over the rim of his champagne flute. âYou seem to cling tightly to your morality.â
âYou do not?â You were beginning to enjoy twisting his words and testing him. Letâs see how long itâll take until he trips up. âThe holy and righteous Head of the Family cares not for principles?â
âThat is not what I said at all.â Sunday seemed equally amused. âI pride myself in my integrity. That is somethingâŠyou and I appear to have in common.â
âHm.â You gazed back, unintimidated. You really did not like this man. Yes, you were attracted to himâbut what man or woman wasnât? His allure was merely one of the many tricks up his sleeve he effortlessly, unhesitatingly utilised to his advantage.Â
It was unfortunate that your father jumped to use the chemistry between you both as a great business tactic. âWell, then, I shall leave you both to this conversation. Such a riveting one, yes, but I fear my informant is seeking my attention. Enjoy yourselves!â
And just like that, your own shelter from the beloved Mr. Sunday was gone. Silence befell you both momentarily, before the Family head extended a hand to you, flashing a bewitching smile, so full of knives. âNow, Miss [Name]âŠshall we dance?â
ᯠBOOTHILL .á
âđđđ'đ đđđđđ these shady parts are ideal for such a lovely young lady as yerself, darlinâ.â
You didnât look up from your whiskey glass. âBecause Iâm not safe from vagabonds like you?"
A raspy chuckle followed. âHoho, a sharp tongue you have. Yeah, Iâd say you ainât far off the mark there, treasure.â The scrape of a stool being drawn out filled the silence, and the man you still hadnât looked at took a seat next to you. âBut, ya havenât got anything to worry about around me, sugar. I ainât one of them shirtbags.â
Shirtbags? âThatâs what thoseâŠshirtbags all say.â Should I just leave? Youâd almost finished your drink, anyway. âCanât a girl have a drink in a rundown bar late at night in peace?â
âSure she can,â was the answer. âYou still ainât safe, though. Look out for yerself.â
âWhatâs it to you?â You finally glanced over at the man, and his appearance immediately took you aback. Cowboy hat tipped down low over his eyes, only the slope of a nose and a shapely, smirking mouth visible. Long, grey hair split into two flowing over back with black undersides. AndâŠmetal arms. A metal-plated torso. A holster with untold ammo and a gun secured on his right hip. He had cool, dark skin-tight trousers on with spurred roper boots on his feet. You couldnât see his eyes, but it was easy to tell he was awfully attractive.Â
The unknown man tilted his head slightly, revealing his only visible eye to you. His right one was fully covered by his hair. It was curiousâthat eye had a red pupil, with four white lines rimming it, making it appear like a target lock symbol. You blinked at him, and he grinned. This guyâs full of surprises. His teeth were sharp, jagged, like a sharkâs. âOh, sweetheart, it ainât nothinâ to me, youâre right. But whatâs wrong with extending some friendly concern for a sad-looking young woman on her third glass of whiskey?â
âHow did youââ You narrowed your eyes at him. âHave you been watching me this entire time? And sad-looking? You wanna start a fight?â You brushed your coat to the side, revealing your own gun. He glanced down at it in immense amusement. âIf youâre just here to cause trouble, then you can piss oââ
He held up both hands in surrender, still grinning. âNot here to cause trouble, sugar. Just here to chat. Nothinâ else, I swear. On my honour.â
You snorted. âDidnât know you had any.â
âHey.â His tone turned whiny, half-offended. âIâm basically actinâ as your bodyguard right now, honey. Keepinâ all these creeps in here miles away from ya because of my menacinâ energy.â
âMenacing?â You laughed derisively. âHa! Youâre a funny one, cowboy. Anyway, whatâre the likes of you doing in these parts? This is a bar, not a saloon. Canât play poker here, you knowâat least, I donât think so.â
âHar har.â The man paused and ordered someâŠmalt juice? You looked at him weirdly. He ignored it. âHilarious, darlinâ. I ainât your stereotypical cowboy. I go around beatinâ them IPC fudgeheads up, not smackinâ cow rumps on a ranch.â
âAn outlaw, are you? Ooh, scary.â You chuckled into your shot glass. âHow bigâs your bounty?â
âWhy? Gonna turn me in?â He leaned his cheek on one metal hand, gazing at you with an intense eye. It felt a bit weirdâstrangely, that target lock symbol in his eye made you feel like heâd set you in his sights. âGood luck with that one, sweetheart. Peopleâve been tryinâ for years.â
âWho said I was gonna turn you in?â You arched a brow at him. âI donât care about you and your so-called bounty. You sound pretty full of yourself, cowboy.â
âWhen youâre a pro at evading the IPC for years on end, who wouldnât get a little bit of a big head?â
âPride always comes before the fall.â You took a sip of whiskey. âBiggest mistake you could possibly make is underestimating your enemy.â
âHeck, sounds like yer givinâ me some advice on how to continue runninâ away from them IPC hooligans!â he guffawed. âSounds like youâre already well on your merry way to becominâ a scummy crim like me, eh, darlinâ? Oho, now thatâs funny.â
âWhatâs wrong with extending some friendly concern for a scruffy-looking cyborg?â you echoed his previous words sardonically.
âAlright, you got me there,â he conceded amusedly. There was a moment of silence, and then he held out a hand for you to shake. âNameâs Boothill. Whatâs yours, sugar?â
You looked at his hand, and then at him. Then you took his hand and shook it firmly. â[Name]. Nice to meet a fellow outlaw.â
ᯠBLADE .á
đđđ đđđđđđđđ sharp edge of a sword was hovering just over your jugular vein, more than ready to slice it open at any given opportunity. It was barely touching your skin, a ghost of a scrape, and you remained completely, absolutely still.Â
The blade was of a deep, dark crimson, with golden spider cracks adorning it, giving the sword a serrated, broken appearance. It was visibly well-wielded, and mended many times over.
Just like the man who was holding it to your throat.
Bandages covered his left hand, and one was wrapped around his upper right forearm, on his coatâs sleeve. Strange. Another was wound around his upper right thigh, also on clothing, not on his skin. His hair was shaggy, unkempt, brushing over his eyes so thickly, his left one was barely visible. But his one visible eyeâŠit held an intensity you hadnât come across beforeâone so piercing, so penetrating, it became a physical and mental battle to hold it.
The man was handsome, very handsome, and his face was full of youth. But the way his brow was knotted so harshly, lips drawn out into a severe line, and how his uncovered eye speared through you gave you the unshakable sense that this man had seen, done, and lived many things, and many lifetimes.
âI know who you are,â were his first words to you. A deep, gruff, cold voice, so menacing. The manâs whole ambiance screamed menace. He would kill you without a second thought, resolutely, and youâd just become yet another victim he never stopped to understand, to care about.
âYou do?â You were nervous; that sword of his was held so steadily, there was not a detectable tremor in his grip at all. The manâs entire form was utterly motionless, like a predator lying in patient, still wait. And the killing blow could come at any time, and you would never have possibly anticipated it. ââŠI donât recall meeting you before.â
âThen why are you here?â There was the crackle of leather squeezing together, and you watched as his only gloved hand curled around the bladeâs hilt just that bit more. That red eye narrowed. It was flecked with searing gold, you noticed. âYou do not belong here. I should kill you.â
You slowly lifted a hand, not making any sudden movements, but his eyes did not move from yours for even a fraction of a second. Tapping the back of it against the swordâs edge, you ever so slowly eased it away from your neck. You were amazed he let you. âSir, I have no idea who you are, but did you think I was going to let a stranger bleed out in some empty alleyway at one in the morning?â
âYou should mind your own business,â he spat, but he deemed you harmless enough to stay his sword fully. It dissipated into stardust, and your eyes bugged out at the sight. The man tried to take two steps back, but he stumbled, slumping against the brick wall behind him. You rushed to catch him, but a large, firm hand grabbed your shoulder and held you away from him. âDonât.â
âMister, you are bleeding. Severely.â From your observations of his (very obvious) mannerisms and appearance, you could only surmise that this man was some kind of soldier or thug, either or. He knew how to wield a sword masterfully, and this kind of incident evidently wasnât new to him.
âAnd I will be fine.â A flash of red in the dark was all that told you heâd flicked a glare in your direction as he slid down the wall, sitting on the cold stone ground. âLeave this place.â
âAnd if I donât?â
âYou would just be making it more difficult for me. Leave. Before I have to make you leave myself.â
You knelt down in front of him. He was panting heavily, a hand on his middle. Rivulets of blood oozed between his fingers, streaming out and down through the gaps of his knuckles. âWhatâs your name?â
âThat isâŠnone of your concern,â he puffed, that permanent frown on his face deepening. Sweat glistened on his brow. âThereâs no need for me to tell yoââ
âIâm asking so I can call a friend of yours, genius. Or an associate, if youâre involved with underground stuff like that.â You began to reach for his hip, feeling around for a phone. âBecause you, clearly, donât have the energy toââ
His free hand snatched yours away, grip tight and almost bruising. âLeave. Just leave.â
You stared at him, lips pursed. âI need to calm down. Whatever secret it is youâre desperately trying to keep from me is none of my concern. Iâm not interested in that. What I am interested in is getting you help. Let me contact whoever your partner in all this is.â
His wide chest heaved, his breathing laboured, before he finally broke gazes with you and released your wrist. âFine. Make it quick. And then you go, understood?â
âPerfectly.â You waited for him to extract his phone from his pocket and unlock it, handing it to you. Then his hand slumped down. Damn, even doing just that took everything in him. You were growing increasingly concerned. This man is dying. I need to hurry.
The first name to pop up in his contacts was someone called âKafkaâ. Hitting the call button, you put it on speaker and held it out to him. He waved it away, rasping, âyou do the talking.â
Four rings went by before the other end clicked and a crooning, sultry female voice filtered through the phone. âOoh, what a pleasant surprise, Bladie. You never call first~â
You glanced up at the so-called âBladieâ, who fixed you with a glare that screamed, I dare you to ask. I dare you. Biting back your laughter, you cleared your throat and carefully began, âUh, good evening, maâam. Iâm here with your friendâŠBladie.â
There was silence on the other end for a beat before the woman broke into chuckles. âHaha! You called him Bladie! Oh, you donât have much longer to live, missy. If heâs incapacitated right now, youâre very lucky.â
You sneaked a glance at the man before you and saw that she wasnât exaggerating. His glower was murderous, even more so than before. Your stomach dropped at the sight. ââŠHaha. Sorry about that. And yes, he is incapacitated right now. Very injured, in fact. Heâs losing a lot of blood, maâam.â
âOh, donât be so formal!â This âKafkaâ talked as if the present incident was just another Tuesday for her. What do these two get up to? You werenât sure if you even wanted to know. âJust call me Kafka, sweetie. Iâm on my way right now, Bladie. Whatâs your name, honey?â
You gave her your name. Kafka hummed. âMm, yes, well, darling, I would advise you to leave, please. Youâve been a great help, and I hate to scare you off, but Bladie here has a few problems only I can attend to. Your leaving is only for your own good.â
âWhy?â Curiosity killed the cat.
âDonât ask questions. Just leave,â the man growled, and he seemed to be getting nastier and nastier by the second. âDo as she says. Go.â
âIâm almost there, Blade,â Kafka said through the phone, and thatâs when you knew sheâd used his actual name. Blade. It suited him. Very well. The faint sound of heels clicking in the background on the line told you the woman was hurrying over to you and Blade. âHang in there, alright? Just a little longer.â
âMiss Kafka, I think I should stay hereââ
âHoney, Blade here is mara-struck,â she interrupted you, her voice still so lilting and flirtatious, but it held a firmer note. âIf he goes wild, youâll be the first to go.â
âWhat do I keep telling you?â Blade panted, and thatâs when you understood the golden gleam in his eyes. âGo. How long until it gets through your thick skull? When youâre dead? Just leaââ
âBladie, donât be so harsh.â Kafka had her previous playful tone again, one this man obviously hated. âSheâs probably terribly shocked right nowâarenât you, honey?â
ââŠYeahâŠâ You were. Utterly shellshocked. I need to get out of here. This man was much more dangerous than you initially anticipated. âIâllâŠIâll go.â
âGood idea,â Kafka purred, and then two sets of heels began to echo behind you. âHere we are.â
The call ended, and the woman emerged from the shadows. Voluptuous, graceful and just exuding danger, the tall lady approached you both with quick, but casual, calculated steps, and Blade looked visibly relieved at her appearance. Kafka smiled down at you, but it wasnât a real smile. Just an automatic reaction, you guessed. You immediately handed her Bladeâs phone. Her smile widened. âThank you, sweetie. Run along now.â
âOfâof course.â You hurried to your feet. Glancing worriedly down at Blade, he kept his head slumped as Kafka knelt beside him in the place you just were. Her perfume hit you like a truck, and you suddenly thought this woman was very cool. Really cool. But lethal. âIâŠyeah. Take care.â
âOh, we will.â Kafka didnât look up again, and was feeling Bladeâs pulse. âHave a lovely rest of your night, honey. You got lucky.â
Youâd already guessed as much. âHaha. Goodbye.â
Turning to hurry out of the alleyway, you were stopped by the woman calling out for you one last time. She had a long, elegant finger pressed to her lips, and she winked at you. âJust a little reminder, sweetie, to not say a word of this to anyone, alright?â
ââŠAlright.â
Kafkaâs intense gaze wasnât half as friendly as her smile. âGood girl. Keep quiet, and weâll be back with a reward for you in no time.â
Intimidated, you backed up. âOhâthereâsâŠreally no need, maâam.â
She clicked her tongue, turning back to the now-unconscious man before her and continuing with whatever she was doing on him, chuckling rather darkly. âOh, but there is. See you soon, sweetie.â
ᯠAVENTURINE .á
âđđđ đ few tricks up your sleeve, have you?â
You threw the dice down on the roulette wheel, leaning back in your chair and watching it spin about freely. Taking a sip of your cocktail, you smiled at the golden-haired man to your left over the rim of it. âYouâre asking me that question? Youâve got untold ones hidden up in all nooks and crannies of that expensive peacock coat of yours.â
Aventurine leaned his cheek against his fist, elbow propped on his chairâs armrest. A pair of the most striking, beautiful eyes youâd ever seen gazed at you through rose-tinted shades. âWhy, arenât you observant. This little gambling session really has been such a ball. I havenât come across someone as skilled as yourself in a long time.â
âThank you kindly,â you sarcastically said, setting your beverage down with a soft clink. You glanced at the mountain of chips gathered neatly right in front of the man. Equal to yours. Now, you were both locked in a one-on-one gambling session where you fought for each otherâs chips. Maybe a bit unorthodoxâusually thereâd be many more players. But the less there were, the more intense it was. âI dare say, this is one intense first meeting, donât you agree?â
âMost certainly.â He took a sip of his whiskey. âNow, shall we make a small, personal bet of our own?â
âA personal bet?â you repeated, tilting your head at him. âI would never have guessed you made such things.â
âOnly when necessary.â
âOh, I seeâyouâre doing this because youâre losing. Pitifully.â You twirled a chip around between your fingers. âAlright. Whatâs this bet youâd like to make?â
âI bet that if you lose the next five chips, you answer a question of mine. If I lose the next five chips, Iâll score you a little rendezvous with the lovely Miss Jade.â
âOnly five chips?â you queried warily, lifting a brow. âAnd how did you know I wish to speak with Jade? Oh, what am I saying. You IPC thugs always have tabs on something.â
âYou wound me. Letâs hop to it, shall we?â Aventurine threw in his dice. âI bet on a twenty-three. Five gold chips.â
âFive-thousand credits, hm?â He was going for the kill. You smiled to yourself. âAlright. I bet on twelve. Five black chips.â
âYou play cheap,â he mused, intently watching the dice spin around. âNot much of an investor, are you?â
âKnowing you and your tactics, I would be more likely to take a greater loss than you,â you explained, no qualms about handing it to his innate gambling skills and apt intuition. You couldnât fathom how he did it and where he got his accuracy from. âFive hundred credits isnât too much of a loss for me.â
âTwo selected numbers out of thirty-eight in total.â Aventurine relaxed into his chair. The dice began to slow. âWhat are the chances?"
âIt all depends.â You watched as the dice spun away from the âtwelveâ notch over and over. You were getting a bit jittery. You had a feeling that this question of his was worth far more to you than the five hundred measly credits you put on the table. âFor all we know, it could land in neither of our betted numbers.â
âOh, so true.â This man was so sly, so conniving. It set off alarms in your head. The corners of his shapely lips turned up, and he grinned devilishly at you. âLetâs see where it lands.â
The dice spun and spun and spun, getting slower and slowerâbefore, finally, it rolled to a gradual stop, tumbling into a notch.Â
Your fingers twitched. You wanted to wring the handsome, cunning manâs neck. The dice had landed so excruciatingly calmly into the twenty-third notch.
As expected, I suppose. This man never took any losses. You werenât too worried about pushing the five black chips his way. You were more worried about what question you would have to answer.
âFive-hundred credits. So worthwhile.â Aventurine gladly accepted them. âNow, letâs seeâŠhere is my question. Donât look so perturbed. Itâs nothing, really.â
âIs that so?â You crossed your arms over your chest, swinging a leg over your other, lightly kicking your heeled foot in an attempt to remain calm. âPray tell, what do you ask?â
âI ask that you make a little deal with me.âÂ
You arched a brow. Another one? âAnother bet? I think Iâve had quite enough of those for one day.â
âOh, no, itâs not a bet, honey. The deal is this: pose as my girlfriend for a while, and Iâll compensate you thoroughly.â
âThatâs nice. Whatâs in it for me?â
âStatus. Renown. Wealth. Reputation.â He held up four fingers, then a gold chip suddenly appeared out from between them and he flipped it in the air casually. âAnd, of course, safety. Maybe a little nice dinner with the elegant Senior Manager of the IPC Strategic Investment Department. You canât go wrong with this.â
âTruly?â You werenât buying it. âIt will be contractual?â
âAbsolutely.â Aventurineâs crooning voice was grating on your nerves. But he was tempting. So tempting. âAnd itâll be our little secret. Iâll swear not to pull anything unsavoury.â
You considered it. You needed the money. Reputation and status was also an enticing offer. But you needed time to think.
âShall we meet up and discuss this elsewhere some other time?â You pulled out your phone, extending it toward him. âPut in your contact details. Iâll text you when Iâve thought it through.â
âWise of you.â Aventurine accepted the gadget and tapped away at it accordingly. âTake your time. I look forward to working with you.â
He got up and left, only the strong scent of his expensive cologne left in his wake. You noticed he never took your five-hundred credits, and left his five-thousand behind.
ᯠJING YUAN .á
đđđ đđđđ'đ expect the Arbiter General to be the one to rescue you from three mara-struck soldiers.
Itâs not like you were helpless. You could fight; you had the Combat Type of Wind and Path of Erudition at hand. You were no weaklingâyou, ranked a Sergeant Major in the Sky-Faring Commission, had had your fair share of battles in the past.
But youâd never crossed paths with The Divine Foresight. Seeing his tall, powerful frame and flowing hair in passing as he strolled around the Sky-Faring Commissionâs headquarters was as much as you knew of him personally. And that was nothing at all.
âAre you alright, miss?â He held a hand out to you to help you up, and you hesitantly accepted it. This is so embarrassing. Me, a Sergeant Major, needing help from the General himself? Can one get any more incompetent? You decided then it would be a good idea to keep your identity and rank private. You didnât need the Arbiter-General walking away from this thinking you were incapable of even defending yourself from the most common of opponents.
âIâm fine, sir.â You brushed yourself off once you were on your feet again. You covertly tugged your badge signifying your rank out of sight. âThank you for helping me.â
âNot at all.â General Jing Yuan smiled at you indolently. For someone who just wiped out three mara-crazed former Cloud Knights, he looked pretty sleepy. âAllow me to accompany you back to the Sky-Faring Commission.â
âIâIâm sorry?â Surely he hadnât worked you out that quick. Neither could he have recognised you from the Commission either. You werenât remarkable like that, and neither of you had ever interacted. âI donâtâI mean, I, uhâŠâ
âIs something wrong?â He tilted his head at you. âAre you not Sergeant Major [Name]? Madame Yukong speaks highly of you.â
âI was not aware you knew of me, General.â That whole hiding of your badge was useless, then. You fidgeted with the hem of your sleeve. âI am ashamed. To think you, of all people, would have had to be the one to save a well-trained soldier as I from three mere mara-struck knights.â
âAshamed? No, donât be. You were ambushed, no? Then, it is not your fault.â
âThank you.â You bowed your head respectfully. âBut, there is no need for you to escort me back to the Commission. I do believe I will be quite alright on my own.â
âOh, I was heading to the Commission anyway.â General Jing Yuan inclined his head toward you. Heâs very tall. His hair was longer than you thought, too. âSo, why not keep each other company on our trip to the same place? Iâve been meaning to speak with you for a while now, also.â
âYou have?â You met his hooded golden gaze in surprise. âAbout what, may I ask?â
âYour skill with the mechanics of a Starskiff is commendable.â He began walking, and you fell into step beside him. The Arbiter-Generalâs voice was low, silky, and deep. No wonder women went crazy over this man. âIt reminds me of an old friend I once had, long ago. I could use your expertiseâof course, only if you are willing to agree, that is.â
âWhat is it you need assistance with?â Never in your wildest dreams could you have imagined the famed, formidable General Jing Yuan ever complimenting you for skills most in the Sky-Faring Commission had.Â
âFifteen Starskiffs were crashed in a heated battle northwest of Scalegorge Waterscape,â he explained. âIt will keep you awfully busy for a little while, but the compensation for your hard work will be great.â
Pursing your lips, you debated your answer. ââŠGeneral Jing Yuan, sir, I must remind you that I am a Sergeant Major, not a repairwoman. I am the one who sends out the Starskiffs to be crashed, not the one who fixes them.â
âAh, I see. Of course. It seems I overlooked that one small factor.â It didnât take both of you long until you arrived at the Sky-Faring Commissionâs headquarters. âI am sorry, but I will have to assign this task either way. Itâs really quite urgent. And Madam Yukong recommended you.â
âI really donâtââ
âWould a promotion from Sergeant Major to Colonel do?â
It was like he slapped you with the way you reeled back in shock, rendered utterly speechless. âPro-promotion, sir?â you sputtered, inarticulate. âIâthatâsâI donât thinkâŠâ
The Arbiter-General tilted his head coyly as if he were just discussing the weather, not your (huge) promotion from Major to Colonel. âBut, I do. I think that would suffice. Are you convinced?â
âIâŠâ Getting there, thatâs for sure. Our first meeting ever, and heâs promoting me? You werenât quite sure of your impression of the man. Wonder? Astonishment? You were torn between both.
Before you could answer, Jing Yuan pushed open the Commissionâs doors and entered. Madam Yukong caught sight of you both and rushed over. âGeneral! Oh, [Name], youâre here too. Jing Yuan, did you tellââ
âI certainly did.â His full mouth curled up into a playful smile. He glanced down at you, and you quickly looked away. âHowever, it is all up to Sergeant Major [Name] here. Yet, I do think the offer I made her is too good to refuse.â
âToo good to be true,â you softly corrected. âGeneral, I fail to see why my fixing of fifteen crashed Starskiffs warrants a promotion of such a degree. It would hardly be anything noteworthyâŠâ
âQuite the opposite.â The General outstretched a hand and patted your shoulder. He smiled indolently again, so casual. âThink it over, Sergeant. I look forward to working with you.â
With that, the Arbiter-General turned and headed away, over to attend to something else regarding Qingying, one of Madam Yukongâs colleagues.
You turned to her in bewilderment. âIs he serious?â
The older woman smiled in a way that made you think she was in on some joke you hadnât a clue about. It was a knowing smile, and she shot a look in the Generalâs direction. Then she looked at you again, eyes twinkling. âVery serious.â
Imagine being Boothillâs sweetheart before everything went up in flames⊠he didnât think you survived, but you did somehow, and you managed to get away from the terror and the flames. And he meets you again, in some far corner of the galaxy.
Heâs a galaxy ranger now, with a body made of metal and a core where his heart should be. But he still feels something click when he looks at you, even from the corner of his eye. He doesn't believe what he's seeing at firstâ he thinks that it must be some bug in his system. Some trick of the light. But despite his doubts he feels his feet move from under him, walking first, then running, until he's pushing other people out of the way and damn near sprinting to get to you before you disappear.
And oh, when he manages to reach youâ manages to stop you with a hand on your shoulder, he almost can't believe his eyes. He takes his hat off and presses it to his chest, the same way he had done when he asked for your hand a lifetime ago.
If he could cry, he thinks, heâd be a blubbering mess.Â
Because it is you. Because he'd recognize the curve of your cupid's bow and the shine in your eyes even from across a cosmos. Because you're here, against all odds and despite every nightmare he's had. You're here, and you're just as lovely as the day he lost you.
summary: it's supposed to be over, you and Finnick are supposed to spend the rest of your lives helping each other heal. living as peacefully as possible, but the the third quarter quell throws a wrench in your domestic bliss.
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warnings: angst, fluff, hurt/comfort, lots of violence/death/blood, like a lot of it, it's the hunger games, mentions of starvation and dehydration, injuries, mental illness, self loathing, casual dominance, savior complex Finnick, codependent relationship, reader has trauma relating to being too cold especially being cold + cold water we'll get into it eventually like next chapter, terms of endearment, nudity in a non sexual way, unedited, no use of y/n, Finnick washes readers hair
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You woke up too early, there was too much time for your thoughts to run on top of the fact that you'd barely slept at all. Mind full of reminders of the last time you'd been in the arena, how cruel fate was. At least you were still with Finnick, the protection of his arms, surrounded by his love, and you snuggled further into his grasp. Desperate to savor every speck of his being, of the moment before it could be taken away from you. You forced your eyes back shut, who knew how much sleep would be available in the arena, being well-rested could be an advantage. It didn't hit you until you sniffled that you were crying, it felt pathetic, how often you cried.
âI know you're awake." His voice didn't startle you, simply made you intertwine your legs with his even further.
âDon't wanna be." You buried your face in the crook of his neck, somehow even if there was no ocean he'd been swimming in for so long, his scent was still that of saltwater. It comforted you, like the smell of your home when the windows opened in the morning.
âI know, sweet girl." He nodded, arms having wrapped themselves tighter around you. An unspoken fear that if either of you let go it would be the last time. Tears peppered his neck and you already felt like it was lulling you back to sleep.
You weren't sure when your exhausted self had fallen asleep like that, but the next thing you remembered was Finnick softly whispering your name, announcing it was time. You kept your eyes shut and shook your head which broke his heart. Part of your brain reminded you that you volunteered for this, you could have been at home sick with anxiety, but instead you chose to be here.
âCome on, sweet girl, we have too." He whispered, voice so comforting it could have made you fall right back into your sleep. He was hypnotic.
âI can't." It was true, you couldn't have willed your body to move even if youâd wanted to. Your muscles felt like they'd shut down, frozen in place. He didn't push back with an âI told you soâ he just began lifting you up from the bed. Your head shook as he moved, âPlease, Finnick.â
"Angel, we don't have a choice.â His voice was sad, but definitive. He wiped away the residual tests and tiredness in your eyes from where he'd say you on the bed.
Staring into his soothing eyes helped your stiff muscles loosen somewhat, but shame had begun to take over your brain too. âI'm sorry." You muttered, your voice cracked and was still heavy with sleep.
âIt's okay, don't worry about it.â He kissed your forehead, "I've got you, sweet girl, I'll take care of you.â The guilt was almost numbing your body all over again, but it all reactivated when Finnick tried to step away. Instantly grabbing his hand and whining when he'd tried to pull away. âI'm just starting the shower." He reassured, but you didn't let go. So he sighed before resigning himself to it and just picking you up to come with him. He started the shower and put you down.
Maybe it had all finally hit you, the fact that your impending death meant you'd never have these moments with him again, but you felt completely robotic. Your arms felt heavy and you felt lonely the moment he was no longer touching you. Your fingers fumbled as you tried to get undressed in your stupor, but Finnickâs warm hands overtook your own.
âDon't worry about it, angel, I told you Iâll take care of you." You nodded dumbly as he began helping you undress. You'd spent so much time recently trying to prove you could do this you'd forgotten how nice it was to just let him take control, let him take care of you. As he helped you into the shower the warm water made you more tired which he could tell, âI'm going to have to make the water cold to help wake you up, sweet girl, just for a little bit."
You'd mumbled something incoherently probably trying to argue, but you couldn't, you needed your head in the game today. Finnick gave you a second before turning the temperature over to cold, you weren't standing directly in the water, so the residual sprays of water misted your body making you shiver. He cupped his hands under the water, collecting some of it.
âTilt your head back for me, angel, got to wake you up." You did so and closed your eyes as the icy water hit your face. Although you'd never admit it to him, the water itself wasn't what really was waking you up, well it was in a way. The cold instantly put you back into the arena, the way you'd all been dripping and shaking in the freezing rain for days on end. âYou okay?"
You nodded, âYeah, thank you."
âAwake enough that I can turn the water back?" He smiled softly at you as your hands moved up and down your arms trying to create heat.
âYes, please." You were grateful when he did, making it burning hot like you preferred. It all made you miss your home in District 4 where it was usually warm outside and the water reflected that, or every time it was cool it was combined with heat. So rarely did the weather and water coincide to be bitingly cold in those cases you just refused to leave the house much to Finnick's chagrin.
He led you into the stream of water, its full heat covering you as he wet your hair. When he was fully satisfied he took his time washing it, hands massaging your scalp. âYou know hot water is bad for your hair." He whispered as he washed some fancy shampoo out of it.
âI don't care and don't even think about it." You gave a warning look to him, he had a teasing look in his eyes.
âHow am I supposed to let the woman I love damage her hair like this when I'm taking care of her?"
âI'll get out."
âWell we wouldn't want that." You felt so peaceful while he continued washing your hair by the time he was completely finished you felt less robotic and more malleable. Finnick began scrubbing your body clean, who knew how long until you'd be able to do that again, if ever. You soaked up every moment in fear that it could be the last time you went through this routine. He made sure you were sufficiently soapy before rinsing you off and moving onto your face. You didn't even know the names of the various Capitol products, but he did it all with ease. It almost felt unnecessary, the size of your pores didn't matter when you were fighting for your life, but you let him continue. It was calming, made you feel loved, cared for.
âThank you, Finnick." You said when he finished, pressing a kiss to his lips.
He nodded, âGo dry off, angel, I'll be out soon."
âDon't wanna leave you." Your arms wrapped around him once again as you shook your head.
He kissed the top of your head, âOkay, angel, just stand right there and look pretty.â You took a couple of steps back as he washed himself off too, far enough to avoid most of the residual water spray when he turned the water back to cold as he cleaned his face and hair. Soon enough he was shutting off the shower head and grabbing two towels. He grabbed your hand, helping you out of the shower. âI got this too, my love."
He tied his towel around his waist before he began to dry you off. You were easy to move as he dried your hair as much as he could before sitting you down on the edge of the tub to brush your teeth. It gave you flashbacks, once upon a time you'd been sat here in this exact bathroom, in the same position as he did the same thing for you. It solidified in your mind how you wouldn't be able to live without him, he knew what you needed more than you did. Maybe because he'd dealt with it all himself and no one to do it for him, but he was always there to force you out of bed, take care of yourself, make you eat a meal, go outside, and endless other things that could have slipped your mind in favor of endless sleep. When he was done with your teeth he once again helped you up to spit on the sink and let you lean into his side as he began brushing his own.
âLet's go get you dressed." Without a word he picked you up the moment he was done brushing and brought you back to the room. The clothes didn't matter much when soon enough Cambrie would have you dressed to enter the arena, but you let him dress you in whatever he picked. Once you were both dressed, be kneeled down at the edge of the bed. âHow hungry are you?"
"Not really.â But you knew you'd have to eat, the possibility it could be days until you found food again wasn't slim.
"Come on, we're going to have to try to get something in you.â He went to pick you up again.
"You're really sweet, but I can walk.â
"Preserving your energy, angel.â He smirked and held you regardless to bring you out to the table. His chair pulled up right next to yours as he got you a little bit of everything, anything that could keep you full enough for a while in the arena. You ate slowly in a comfortable silence, savoring the food that you might never taste again. In your heart you knew it was the anxiety keeping you from hunger, but you pushed on out of the larger fear of starvation in the Games.
âGood job, angel." He said softly, at first you didn't know why, but then it hit you that he needed you to be properly nourished as a sign you cared about survival. He picked up a peach from a basket on the table and handed it to you which you accepted gratefully.
You'd only relish in its sweetness for a few bites before your designers entered the room.
âIt's time to go." Cambrie already sounded weepy, but that wasn't why your heart stopped. Finnick grabbed your hands intently.
âYou come find me right away and I'll find you. If anything happens, you scream for me and I'll follow your voice. Don't go trying to save anyone. Please, promise me that." He said soberly, eyes boring into yours to ensure you were fully committed.
"I promise, Finnick." He nodded slowly before wrapping his arms around yours and you melted as his arms got tighter, like he didn't want to let go. He reluctantly pulled away as the two of you stood, leaving the peach on the table. You grabbed his face, kissing him as deeply as you could and he instantly did the same. âI'll see you soon." You mumbled breathlessly.
âI love you so much, you deserve to live, remember that."
"I love you, Finnick.â He kissed you again before you both were forced to get on with it, to enter the arena where the unknown and uncertain lie.
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Your heart was pounding in your chest as the platform began to rise, taking one last look at your stylist Cambrie who gave you a sickly sweet smile, she was convinced you would win and talked non-stop about all the benefits she would get if you did. But as the sky came into view you weren't so sure, different advice Finnick had given echoed in your head. How you needed to make your allies trust you, allow your instincts to take over, not freeze, stay logical, be wary of the environment around you, and about feeling guilty later.
Wind hit your face as you rose from the ground, quickly taking note of the environment. There was no sun out, it was cloudy, the ground was extremely muddy where the grasses were, but large chunks of dirty water made up different portions of the area surrounding the Cornucopia. You tilted your head to the side where you could see certain areas had trees, none of which were very green. It was mainly a marshland you concluded with some swamps dispersed throughout. Backpacks of supplies and different weapons lay scattered around the Cornucopia where most of the bounty lay, your allies had already agreed to go for it first thing. Not to hesitate when the gong ran out and to protect each other if someone else tried to attack. You couldn't see Conway from where you stood, but Marlowe wasn't far away on your left, staring intently forward and Birch to your right was looking around like you were. Meeting eyes for a second he just nodded his head.
It felt like the longest minute of your life, but soon enough the last few seconds were on the clock and the adrenaline in your body preparing you to spring forward. There it was, the resounding gong, and you jumped forward. Eyes searching for the closest weapon to defend yourself with. There they were, glistening with water, a few small knives and you lunged for them.
Right as your hands grasped them someone tackled you from behind. You felt your ear wet with mud as you turned over under the body on top of you, slashing your knife into whatever was above you, whatever had hands trying to grasp around your neck. Something warm hit your face as the hands went limp. You wiped your eyes with one hand to see a girl, you were pretty sure she was from District 8 above you. You pulled the blade out, pushing her off of you before scrambling off the ground, grabbing the remainder of the knives. There wasn't time to feel bad, you needed to get to the Cornucopia.
The boy from District 10? 12? Everything was too blurry, you just needed to survive, to get to everyone else. The boy caught your eye, he had a machete and before he could even come towards you with it, one of the knives flew out of your hand straight into his skull. He fell backwards and your brain told you to grab the weapons, keep going. Some small voice told you to stop, how messed up this all was, but your instincts said otherwise.
You finally saw Conway, pulling a spear out of the girl from District 3 you were pretty sure. Suddenly Marlowe was in your view too, picking up a backpack.
âHere!" You heard your own voice, but it didn't feel real and tossed the machete to her which she grabbed with ease.
âThanks." She said quickly, and then Birch came out of the Cornucopia, bloody hatchet in hand. He had a backpack on and was holding two other ones. Throwing one to you and then Conway.
âWe should fill them with what we can find before we clear out.â He said gruffly and you all nodded. You decided to grab an extra backpack as you all walked towards the Cornucopia, grabbing small weapons on the way to fill the bags. Conway and Birch went deeper inside as you and Marlowe looked around, keeping defense.
Thinking about Districts didn't even matter anymore, you could take stock later, one of the boys came at Marlowe with a sickle. You threw a knife into his chest, he took a step back, giving Marlowe enough time to thrust the machete through him. She pulled it out and grabbed the knife for you too, tossing it at you with a nod.
âI think we've got what we need." Conway's voice filled the crisp air. You dumped one of the backpacks contents into the other one, tossing the empty one on the ground before sliding the other one on. Marlowe picked up an ax before muttering something in agreement. As the four of you exited the Career pack approached. The air was tense, but it didn't make you nervous. It would be four against four, there would be no point in attacking now.
All of you kept eye contact as you passed by each other, Birch giving a brisk nod that the boy from District 1, Otto you thought his name was, returned one. So you all walked into an area with more trees, leaving the other pack to whatever was left behind in the Cornucopia.
âDo you think the waterâs safe to drink?" Birch asked, looking around at the areas around you.
âIt's muddy, it would have to be purified at least." You answered, trying to rub off the mud you could feel drying on your face.
âWho knows what could be inside it." Marlowe remarked, some sort of mutt ready to attack.
âWe should sit here and see what we have, make a plan on where to camp and how to hunt." Conway pointed at a clump of rocks. Everyone agreed, it couldn't have been more than an hour yet you were all exhausted. Time was a construct here, they could make it day or night whenever they pleased.
Conway had two spears, a mace, a net, a water bottle, a plastic cover for rain, and some sort of bug spray.
âOh my god, there's going to be some sort of poisonous bug." Marlowe shook her head.
âMaybe we'll get some more, we'll all share and use it sparingly." Conway said, filling the bag back up. When Birch opened his, you realized the bags weren't the same. You'd expected them too, but there were variations.
âLet's see we've got a hatchet, a sword, a serrated chain, a box of matches, this super small bottle of iodine, a tarp, and a random coil of wire, which I don't think is useful to any of us. Good thing we grabbed more than one bag." He remarked, leaning back on the rock.
Marlowe emptied out hers putting her axe and machete to one side, âA sickle, an empty bottle of water, more bug spray, thankfully, another plastic cover for rain, and these weird glasses.â She played with them in her hands.
âThey're for seeing in the dark." You said, hand burrowing in the moss on the rock. âUm I've the throwing knives, a dagger, dried fruit, another bottle of iodine, and an empty bottle of water-â You internally thanked yourself for grabbing two, "Rope, more matches, a compass, and this metal bowl."
Conway nodded, âIf we come across any more backpacks we should take them too." What he really meant was if you came across someone to kill them and take their things, but he didn't dare state it aloud.
âWe should set up some snares, we can start a fire on the rock, so get some firewood, and fill the water bottles we do have." Marlowe stood up, axe in hand.
âWhat if someone sees the smoke?" Birch asked, sliding a bit as he stood.
âThen there's four of us and one of them, the Careers won't attack us, not yet. We can use the wire for fish-hooks, see if there's any to catch. I'll make a fishing rod and we can use the net." You filled the bag back up and stood on the muddy ground.
Birch nodded, âGood thinking." He smiled, he had the type of smile that was so infectious it made the most mournful times somewhat happier.
âLet's put on some of the spray first." Conway pulled out the bottle, shaking it. Trying to use it sparsely, save it as long as possible. All of you stayed nearby, but still split for your tasks. You made some rods with stray branches, cut off some of the rope, and wire. Setting them into the mud, if there were some fish you'd set up the net wherever you camped for future meals. Conway had begun filling up the bottles you had and putting in the iodine to purify what you did have. Birch had decided he would set up some snares and borrowed your dagger in case there was something he could kill before it even hit the snares.
Marlowe got done with the firewood the quickest, saying how back in District 7 there were punishments if quotas weren't filled fast enough so she'd been forced to learn how fast she could chop wood since she was a child.
âCaught anything?" She asked, setting down the wood on a tarp to keep it dry.
You shook your head, âNo, I'm too worried about whatever poisonous bugs might be here to dig for worms. If Birch catches anything I'll use part of it for bait, I might just throw the net in though."
"Here I found some crickets.â Conway came over, hands cupped.
"Are we sure they're not poisonous?â Marlowe asked as she began setting up the fire.
"Looks like plain old crickets to me.â Conway laughed, grabbing on the rods to stick them on the hooks. Slowly, but surely the fish began coming in. âI'll skin and you keep catching?" He asked, squeezing your shoulder.
You smiled up at him, âSounds good to me." Marlowe had a fire started the moment everyone was ready, hours had passed by the time you'd caught a good enough share, skinned them, began to cook them, and Birch returned with some rabbits.
âWe should eat here and then move to find a different camp before the sun goes down." Marlowe was helping Birch with the rabbits while you cleaned off the knives being used for each thing. You'd eaten much better than you'd expected too, trout and rabbit, plus having water. You hadn't realized how hungry you were until you started. Immediately you began packing up camp, Conway filled up and purified the water bottles again before you all started trekking again. The temperature began to drop and the jacket stopped doing as much as it had been doing before, you all finally stopped at an area with more dense greenery and trees. Laying out the tarps and plastic covers to try for some warmth.
Then there the light was in the sky, time to find out which tributes were dead. Both tributes from District 3, the girl to Conway. You thought of that poor 13 year old boy's family watching their baby die and silently prayed he'd gone quick. No one from 1,2, or 4 which was unsurprising. Birch had killed the boy from 5 and the boy from 6 is the one who'd tried coming at you and Marlowe. That was the female tributes from 5 and 6 still alive plus both District 7 tributes, since they were both with you. The girl from 8 was you, but the male tribute was also dead, probably from one of the Careerâs. Both from 9 were dead, both from 10 probably even more from the Careers. 11 was still alive, but you were right about thinking the boy who was going to attack you was from 12, his district partner survived though. 13 tributes left, 11 dead in one day.
Everyone was quiet, solemn. âI'll take first watch." Your shaky voice cut through the night air, after the silence had almost become unbearable.
âMe too." Conway's arms were around your shoulders, he wasn't particularly warm, but it was better than sitting alone. Birch and Marlowe agreed, laying down to get some sleep. You stared at the night sky, there were very few stars in the sky even if you knew they were artificial, it made you even more upset. Nothing would beat the feeling of you and Finnick sitting on the beach at night, staring at the stars over the glistening water as his warmth surrounded you like some sort of shield.
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âI'm just going to miss you so much!" Cambrie was bawling onto your shoulder. The Capitol woman who's whole life was ahead of her was crying to you, the one about to be sent to a battle of the death. âI'm going to dedicate a whole fashion line to you, it'll be such a hit." She meant well, she really did and that's what you reminded yourself.
âIncluding the wedding dress?" If anything it made you want to cry more thinking about how this poor, misguided woman still cared about you so much.
âOh yes. With a train like you're walking on water and sea foam." She pulled away to blow her nose. âYou just have to come back, gorgeous, I'll literally die without you." Ironic. âMaybe they'll be a hologram or something, won't be as good as the real thing, but you're my muse." The sickening part was definitely back, but she raised to be shallow so she was. A voice echoed around the room indicating your need to get on the platform. You hugged her one last time and she kissed you on the cheek, probably leaving trails of pink glitter but at least it was a proper goodbye.
âThank you, Cambrie. I couldn't have asked for a better designer." You walked over to the platform that closed around you, giving her a soft smile as he waved a goodbye, tears streaking down her slightly purple tinted skin.
Your foot tapped nervously on the platform and you hoped that at the very least it wouldn't be a cold arena. You began moving up, sun, you could see sunlight, that was good, at least you'd have sunshine. The smell of salt air hit your nostrils and it shocked you, a smell you were pretty sure would be left at home was right here. If you died, you'd die knowing that wasn't the last time you were one with the salty waters. When you were finally all the way up you looked around anxiously, it was water, clear, seawater you had to swim to get to the Cornucopia or the rows of rocks that you could walk on. Jungle was on the other side of the beaches, but there were beaches that felt almost too good to be true, like it was perfect for District 4. The sun cut in the way of your vision making it nearly impossible to make out faces, but you couldn't find Finnick. You took some deep breaths, preparing to dive the moment the gong rang out. He'd go straight to the Cornucopia and try to find Katniss so you'd do the same.
The instant the gong let out you'd dived in, having eyed the nearest part of land so you could try and make the quickest swim there. It didn't take long and you were hoisting yourself on the rocks. Running forwards to the shiny structure where he had to be. A hand from the side grabbed your leg and you tried to kick it off, âFinnick!" You shouted as the person attached to the hand emerged from the side of the rocks, pulling you down. He was from District 9, a lot older, but he was still much stronger. Brute strength had never been on yours side, but you could tell it was on his. âFinnick, Finnick!" You screamed, trying to kick the man off of his. His hands grabbed your shoulders harshly before punishing them back, head roughly hitting the rocks. It was dizzying, your head felt like it was literally spinning and your nose made it feel like you were drowning. Hands flew up, your vision was somewhat blurry, but last time you'd been in this position you'd taken out Conwayâs eye. Even if that kept you up at night, you could do it again. âFinnick!" Scratching at the man's face seemed to be doing very little besides delaying him as he tried to bat away your hands. Then he was coughing, sputtering blood all over your face the shock he seemed to be going through gave you an opportunity to kick him off of you, his weight on you made it a struggle but the adrenaline forced you to persist. He fell flat when you did escape and then you saw the axe in his back. You looked up, Johanna was headed your way.
You wanted to say thank you, but you felt somewhat frozen, your mouth tasted like iron, and she was somewhat blurry. âHe's over in the Cornucopia, with Katniss." She said, tearing her ax out of the manâs back. Her eyes found Wiress and she went to get her, mostly because according to Haymitch it was her way in with Katniss, she'd only take Johanna if she'd saved who Katniss wanted.
Your hands went to wipe your face and there was more blood on your hands then anticipated then it hit you that your nose was bleeding, the shock hadn't allowed you to initially realize, but you probably looked like a mess of free falling blood. âFinnick!" You yelled, your head ached as you kept running forward. Through the ringing that had begun in your ears you could faintly hear your name being called. You finally caught sight of him running towards you, a seemingly reluctant Katniss behind him.
âWhat happened?" He asked, wiping some of the blood off of your face.
âNine, Johanna just saved my life." Your mouth felt like it was filling with the blood as you wiped your face again.
âWell, I'll have to thank her sometime." Finnick smiled even though you could tell he was still concerned, so were you, the pounding in your head still hadn't gone away. âHere." He slid three small knives into your palm, âGrabbed them when I was in there for you, angel."
âThank you." He quickly kissed you, getting his own lips getting smeared with blood. There were no complaints as he wiped it off and turned back to Katniss.
âPeeta! Peeta!" She was looking around frantically.
âFound him! Over here!" Finnick shouted, handing you his trident as he dived into the waters where Peeta was struggling to stay afloat. Katniss ran over as Finnick brought Peeta back to the shore.
âPeeta!" She helped pull him up and you all paused a moment as he gained balance. You handed Finnick back his trident. The ebbing pain in your head was finally seeming to lessen.
âLet's head out this way." Finnick said, arm around you as he began walking forward. Gloss, Cashmere, Brutus, and Enobaria continued on with their Bloodbath as your group made its way onto the beach and into the jungle. There were no supplies waiting around this time, you supposed they weren't intending for this to be a long enough game to need a survival kit just weapons. It felt safer though, you had Finnick, warm, protective, hovering Finnick. There would be no need to imagine the times you had with him when he was right there even if the plan was dangerous enough to get you both executed regardless of what happened in the arena.
summary: in which Tom is dragged out of bed in the middle of the night, because he is a simp to help his friend, deliver a hippogriff. (based on a request from anon)
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Tom was dreaming, or actually having a nightmare. He felt cold and the world around him was dark. There were strange faces looking at him, calling him Dark Master or Lord, he doesnât remember now, his attention is on the school- his school- around him, on fire and in ruins. Children and teachers are screaming and running around and heâŠhe-
He wakes with a gasp and later a scream, at the first thing he sees; a pair of wide eyes staring deeply at him.
âQuiet!â, you whisper and cover his mouth with your hand âAre you mental? Youâll wake everyone.â
His eyes widen at the realization, of you in his room and not a terrible monster that has spilled from his dream into the real world.
âWhat?â, he asks confused as he removes your hand lightly
âI think you were having a bad dream.â, you whisper
âHow did you know? Was I screaming in my sleep?â
âAh no. I came here for something else.â, you reply awkwardly- twirling your hair in your fingers innocently.Â
He had to control himself and not smile, at that. Truth was, that you and Tom had been good friends for a few years now. You did almost everything together; almost, because you like animals and he doesnât. More specifically, you will head off to the forest at times, care for the creatures there, spend time with them or just observe them. He loves that about you, how soft youâll turn around magical creatures, how protective you are and how caring.
He loves many things about you; he loves your voice and how it sounds when you laugh at his jokes. He loves your expression, the one you make when you try to keep up with his long talks about magic and life. He loves how you donât care about the whys and the what ifs whatsoever, but still pay attention to him and his existential worries. He loves you, but will never tell you.
And now, you are in his room at night, wanting to tell him something. Will that be a confession? A demand for you two to not be just friends anymore? Would you kiss-
âBobbi is in labour.â, you rushed out worried ,âYou need to come and help.â
âUhh- what?â, he asked in confusion- trying to ignore the pain in his chest.
âCome on, we donât have time, the baby could be out any minute.â
âThe baby?â
âYes! Bobbis baby- egg actually. Did you not hear what I said? Come on, up we go.â, you pushed the covers off and threw a few of his clothes on him.Â
âWho in the name of bloody Salazar, is Bobbi?â
âBobbi, the hippogriff, she is pregnant- was actually. Come on!â, you whispered loudly, waiting for him impatiently with your hands on your hips and your eyebrows raised. If you were together, Tom would plant a kiss on your lips and maybe drag you back to sleep; but you werenât and that is why, as he told himself, he got out of bed.
âWouldnât it be better if- I donât know- a professor helped Bobbi, instead of us?â, he asked- as he put on his clothes, after spinning you around so you wouldnât face him.
âTsk.â, you let out âBobbi doesnât trust them, she trusts us.â
âShe trusts you, you meanâ
âOnly, because she hasnât met you yet, you should join me more often when I visit her.â
âI donât see why.â, he lies- he would join you if it meant spending more time with you, but it would still be hopeless.
âFor starters, you could leave your dorm- and the library does not count.â, you lifted your finger towards him and he snortedÂ
âAnd, you and Bobbi are alike-â
âIn, uh- what way exactly?â, he asked fully dressed now and ready to leave with you
âWell, you both seem grumpy and scary, but in reality- you are way too soft.â
Only around you, he wanted to finish, but wouldnât dare to, instead he walked over to the door, lightly bumping your shoulder on his way out, âCome on then, Poppy is waiting.â
âBobbi!â, you said laughing and ran after him.
Bobbi had indeed been waiting, and in obvious pain, as she lay down on her side- letting out screams and cries. You quickly run to her side- kneeling by her and running soothing circles on her beak with your fingers.
âItâs going to be alright, sweet girl.â, you whispered in a tone that made Tomâs heart swell and slow down his breathing. With hesitant steps, he walked over to you two, kneeling quietly behind you- releasing a hiss from the frightened hippogriff in front of him.
âMaybe, I should go.â, he whispered cautiously trying to maintain eye contact with the creature
âStay where you are! Bow and youâll be fine.â
Mumbling an annoyed âShouldvegonetobedâ under his breath, he listened to you and slowly- without breaking eye contact, bowed to Bobbi, who gave him a less suspicious stare now. It took a few seconds, but they felt like many agonizing hours to Tom, for the poor creature to lightly bow in return, proving she approved of him and was willing to trust him.
It wasnât the bow he earned that melted his heart, washed his stress away- no- it was your hand clasping his and the smile you beamed at him, a thank you and an I told you so all in one.
He didnât have enough time to savor the feeling, a scream whipped both your heads away from eachother, turning your attention to the animal in front of you.
âWhat do we do now?â, he asked anxiously
âWell, I- I donât know, I figured youâd come up with something.â, you replied anxiously- moving closer to the animal, touching her beak in a comforting manner
âHow on Earth, would I know how to help hippogriff in labor, this is the first one Iâve seen up close.â, he whispered loudly, doing his best to not cause nay more stress to poor Bobbi, whoâd now curled up even further into herself.
âI donât know Tom, you always think of something.â, you said back, looking at him with open eyes, vulnerable and honest and scared. He wanted more than anything to wipe that look off your face, comfort you- fight every single one of your fears and worries, so he could see you smile at him, once more.
âAlright, alright.â, he said, mostly to himself while taking a deep breath, âFirst, letâs cast a warming charm, I-I spotted the calming roots we learned about last week in herbology, you remember which ones?â
âYeah, yeah.â, you replied collecting yourself- âThe ones with a little yellow at the tips?â
âExactly, I saw some a few feet behind, can you fetch some? And water, also?â, he said rolling up his sleeves and casting a Lumos so he could see clearer.
You tossed your bag at his feet, âThereâs a bottle in the front pocket.â,you said running to pick some of the roots he told you about.
The moment you ran away anxiety crashed him, his hands felt sweaty and unsteady and he drew a shaky breath staring at the poor creature, folded and in visible pain, whimpers and cries falling from her mouth, âI did not ask for this.â, he said earning a loud whine from Bobbi.
âYou are right, sorry.â, he replied, âWe can do this, come on.â, moving closer and transfigurating leaves and mud into a blanket for her.
âI am here.â, he heard your voice from afar, running breathless with a stack of leaves and flowers and anything that resembled the roots you looked for.
âHere-â, you handed him the roots, â-I also picked up these.â, you placed a few flowers on his lap-Â
He started at you for a few seconds with confused eyes, and red color creeping up on his cheeks, staining them.
âFor the tasteâŠof the potion.â, you added
âAh, yeah, of course.â, he shook his head and began brewing a potion to calm the poor hippogriff and ease her pain, make the situation easier and faster. He felt your hand gripping his shoulder, tightly, when you heard Bobbi scream and toss around, and if it werenât for the terrible circumstances, he swears his heart would have stopped.
Tom Riddle has felt relief, many times in his life. Moving to Hogwarts is a memorable one, you telling him that you would never date the annoying Hufflepuff prefect- another special to him. But, this exact moment, watching Bobbi, curled around her egg- with you by his side, resting your head on his shoulder and sniffling quietly with your arms wrapped around his, this moment; he is sure, heâll remember and cherish forever.
âThank you.â, you whisper on the way back to the castle, âI can always count on you. I- I can trust you and you are always there for me. Thank you, really.â
You squeeze his hand. His fingers are growing sweaty and hot as each moment passes. You must have realized by now- what you mean to him. How you affect him; how heâll always follow you, like the Moon orbits the Earth, at all times. Every night it shines for the Earth, like he would for you- if you asked him to. Maybe itâs the moon that shines bright tonight, or the sentimental- vulnerable moment that passed, or maybe it is all the years of pining that have piled up and canât be contained anymore.Â
âYou know why I did it, donât you?â, he stops abruptly , âI would do anything for you, anything you ask of me- itâs yours. For Merlins sake I- I would hatch a dragons egg for you!â
He stares at your expression; mouth slightly open- eyes focused on him, playing with your rings nervously. Nervous, you are nervous. Probably thinking of a way to let him down gently, because you are kind like that, you try to please everyone- make everyone happy, sacrificing in result your needs, but he wonât stand for that, especially not now.
âSorry, forget itâ, he says and takes quick steps away from you- wanting more than anything to hide under his blankets and pillows.
As he contemplates every decision heâs made in his life and tries to think of anything more stupid than his confession, right now, he doesnât hear you running behind him shouting his name annoyed.
âWould you just, wait one second!â, you grab his hand and turn him- to face you, âYou are so annoying when you act like this.â
âLike what?â,Â
âLike a complete self-pitying know-it-all-â, you shout, âExcuse me.â, he interrupts but you continue, â-itâs bloody annoying, especially when-â you stop and let out an exasperated breath at his ignorance; eyes looking at you innocently and blush all over his cheeks. He wanted to ask, âwhen what?â, but you let out a sound that reminded him of Bobbis groans and grabbed his tie- lowering him to you, smashing your lips to his.
It took him a few moments to realize what was happening, and then a few more to convince himself that he wasnât imagining this and you were in fact kissing him. And boy, when he was convinced he kissed you like his life depended on it.
His arms wrapped around your body, keeping you close to him, fearing youâd slip away. But your hands pulling at his collar, and playing with his buttons assured him there would be no slipping away, not tonight and hopefully not ever.
He smiles at your lips as you part from him, both of you in need of air as you take deep breaths.
âI would hatch a dragons egg for you too.â, you say quietly and intertwine your fingers, kissing his knuckles as he grins down at you.
âDonât look at me like that.â, you say blushing and then prompt him to move, walk back to the castle with you, âCome on, we have to wake up early tomorrow and help Bobbi with her egg.â
âOf course we do.â, he says tucking you to him, with his arm wrapped around your shoulder, as he gives your hair a kiss.
At this exact moment, Tom Riddle doesnât feel relieved or content. This feeling canât compare to anything, not to the satisfaction a perfectly curated potion brings him and neither to the sweet peace he feels as his head lands on his pillows on Friday nights. No, right now he feels joy and that counts for so much more than he ever thought it would.
A/N: sorry for any mistakes! feedback & criticism are very very appreciated
Hi! I love your work and was wondering if you could do potions teacher Tom falling is love with herbology teacher reader or just student Tom falling in love with this sunshine girl if you don't want to write them as adults/teachers. Thanks!
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potions master tom riddle x herbology teacher f!reader
2,253 words
warnings: nothing but fluff
notes: kind of grumpy x sunshine
summary: professor riddle was notoriously blunt and took everything very seriously. he couldnât think of one single time when he was nervous or insecureâ until now.
 The Gryffindor third year trembled as Professor Riddle approached his cauldron, peering down into its contents. The Gryffindorâs eyes paced between Professor Riddle and his cauldron, suddenly insecure of his potion making skills. Professor Riddle pursed his lips together and stood straight up again, eyeing the blonde Gryffindor below him.Â
 âIt seems itâd do some of you well to pay attention in my class,â Professor Riddle said in a low voice, his fingers locked behind his back as he turned on the Gryffindor. A group of Slytherins in the corner of the room snickered amongst themselves as the blonde Gryffindor boy sank further into his seat in shame, his cheeks glowing a very visible shade of maroon. âOh well,â Professor Riddle waved a hand. âPerhaps youâll find an essay on the correct way to brew a Wideye Potion more intriguing. I expect you to turn it in by the end of the week, Walker.â
 The room was silent save for the clicking of Professor Riddleâs heels against the floor, as well as the snickering Slytherins in the corner. Professor Riddle circled around his desk and set himself down into his seat, sliding a stack of ungraded parchments before him, his quill between his thumb and forefinger.Â
 âYou all may be dismissed,â he said. âDo not forget to bring me your samples of Wideye Potion before you leave. And do not forget to write your name, Iâm saying this because of you, Weasley.â
 Professor Riddle peered up at his class through hooded lids as Weasleyâs cheeks burned to match his hair, the group of Slytherins practically howling in laughter as they came up to his desk and placed their samples there. Professor Riddle paid them no mind as he sifted through each ungraded piece of parchment until finally, he was done grading essays, and he tossed his quill back into its ink bottle.Â
 He leaned back in his seat and stared at the vials of Wideye Potion on the edge of his desk, a surge of fatigue rushing through him. Tom Riddle blinked and rubbed his eyes with his knuckles, hard enough that he could see stars. He suddenly felt no desire to inspect his studentsâ potions, in fact, he suddenly felt no desire to do anything to do with potions at all.Â
 Tom took his job seriously as he did everything, he wouldnât dare show weakness, wouldnât dare give Professor Dippet any reason to believe that his performance as Potions Master was less than exemplary. Tom Riddle had way too much pride in himself, but he knew he deserved better than this.Â
 He knew he deserved the occupation as Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher.Â
  He had the best marks out of any student in the class during his time at Hogwarts, which was why he simply could not understand why Professor Dippet would not give him the job. At first, it was because he was too young. And now it was because Hogwarts already had an exceptional Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher in Professor Lynch, and the year before that, it was Professor Huxley, and the year before Professor Flint.Â
 He had jinxed the job for a reason, so why couldnât Professor Dippet just see that he was perfect for the job?
 But he digressed.
 He needed some fresh air.Â
 Tom Riddle sighed as he pushed himself out of his seat and grabbed his coat from the back of his chair, slipping it on either of his shoulders as he exited the Potions classroom. As he made his way down the hallway and into the Central Hall, students left and right scattered to clear his path, staring at the schoolâs handsome yet fierce Potions Master as he strode towards the doors leading to the Grounds.Â
 He narrowed his eyes as they adjusted to the sunlight after being stuck in his dark, dimly-lit classroom for the better half of the day, welcoming the outdoor air into his lungs. One his eyes had adjusted to the brightness, he scanned the Grounds where students roamed, some arm in arm with one another, some throwing chocolate frogs at each other, some Ravenclaw Quidditch players soared in the air, throwing a Quaffle back and forth.Â
 Tom slipped his hands into his trouser pockets as he strode absentmindedly around the circular path, nodding at the students who greeted him. Tom tried to ignore his frustrations as he made a half circle around the fountain in the middle of the Grounds, letting his feet carry him wherever they pleased.Â
 âPlease be careful with your lacewing flies! Handle their jars with care!â
 At the sound of the voice, Tom perked his head up towards the Groundsâ entrance where a very familiar figure strode through, leading a class behind her. Tom stopped and stood in his place, watching as she led the laughing students back towards the castle, jars of lacewing flies in each of their hands. When the Herbology teacher glanced up, tucking hair behind her ear, she smiled when her eyes fell upon the Potions Master and she nodded as she walked by.Â
 âNice to see you, Professor Riddle!â She exclaimed, and Tom nodded in reply. âNice to see you too, Professor,â he murmured as she walked off, and he watched as she disappeared inside of the castle, along with the rest of the students trailing behind her.Â
 Something fluttered in his chest, something he had only just recently acknowledged as his heart. Tom wasnât used to this, to feeling infatuated with someone else. At first, he ignored it altogether. For all of his life, he insisted that love was weakness, and that he could not love. So when his heart stuttered in his chest and the wind knocked from his lungs the first time he saw her, he dismissed it.Â
 But then it kept happening.Â
 Every single time he caught a glimpse of her in the halls, every time he saw her during meals, when she sat beside him during feasts, when he so much as heard her name, warmth would spread throughout his chest, engulfing his heart in flame. He couldnât stand being around her because of it at first, even though he found himself yearning for the next glance he could sneak at her.Â
 Eventually he convinced himself that this could be what love was, that he, Tom Riddle, could in fact be capable of falling in love after all.Â
 He was never the same after he acknowledged how he felt.Â
 He found himself growing more and more attached to her, in fact, it seemed the fact that heâd see her at breakfast was the reason he got up out of bed every morning. Whenever he felt frustrated, whether that be with the Headmaster or with his students or anything in between, his mind would turn to her, the pretty Herbology teacher who always seemed to be smiling.Â
 And heâd feel content again.Â
 Tom peered back over his shoulder to look at the castle entrance, and he glanced down at the time on his watch. He knew she would have a free hour next to make time for lunch, and perhaps if he left now, he could catch her before she left for the Great HallâŠ
 Tom circled the fountain and made haste as calmly as he could back inside the castle, pushing between the sea of students crowding the Central Hall. He strode through the hallway leading to the Greenhouses, pushing his way through the double green and gold doors, stepping inside.Â
 âDo you think weâll be able to keep the lacewing flies?â A Ravenclaw student with short brunette hair asked her friend, a tall and lanky boy with dark skin. He shook his head, âdoubt it. Riddle will probably have us use them in Potions⊠speaking of whichâŠâ
 The two Ravenclaw students bowed their heads when they noticed the Potions Master standing by the entrance, hurrying past. Tom paid them no mind, hands in his pockets as he ventured further in the Greenhouse, nodding when students greeted him. He approached the entrance to the Herbology classroom, where over a crowd of studentsâ heads, he could see her, smiling and waving goodbye to her class.Â
 His jaw clenched as his heart stuttered in his chest, and he cleared his throat when a Slytherin girl smiled at him. âAfternoon Professor Riddle!â She exclaimed, and he nodded in reply. âAfternoon.â
 âProfessor Riddle?â
 Tom blinked and he looked up where the Herbology teacher still stood in the back of the classroom, her eyes now set on him. Her smile widened when their eyes met, and as the last of her students poured out of the classroom, she approached, hands clasped behind her back.Â
 âWell, I must say, this is a nice surprise, Professor,â she chuckled and he shifted where he stood, his heart trembling when she drew near. âSo what brings you out to this part of the castle today?â She asked, blinking up at him with those sparkling eyes he often found himself thinking of.Â
 Tom bit back his words. He was notorious for being rather blunt, and he certainly wasnât afraid of saying what he wanted to say. But this was different. He feared rejection, or more accurately, he feared embarrassment. The shame heâd feel if he, Tom Riddle, were to be rejected. He simply wouldnât be able to live with it.Â
 âWas just taking a stroll,â he said, glancing towards the ground for a fleeting moment. âOh, itâs a wonderful day, isnât it?â She beamed. âI took my fifth years outside of the castle to find lacewing flies since the weather is so nice. I hope theyâll be of use in your class.â
 Tom found that a small lump had formed at the base of his throat, though he wasnât sure why. Perhaps it was the fact that she thought of his class, perhaps it was the fact that she potentially could have been thinking of him. He swallowed the lump back down.
 âYes, I appreciate it, Professor,â he replied simply, and she smiled warmly as she leaned against the doorframe of her classroom, gazing up at him. Tom looked away, suddenly feeling very hot as his heart beat harder inside of his chest, and he couldnât help but look away.Â
 She tilted her head to catch his eye again, and she cocked an eyebrow. âIs there anything else, Professor?â She asked, admittedly confused. It wasnât often that the Potions Master took strolls to her side of the castle, nor was he one for light conversation either. She knew he mustâve come here for a reason, perhaps to ask about a student, or something similar.Â
 She knew Tom Riddle took his job very seriously, in fact, it seemed to be the only thing he cared about. So she knew that this surprise visit to the Greenhouse must have been business related, but she couldnât keep her mind from wandering.Â
 What if he came here because he wanted to see her? What if he wanted to ask her out? She knew it was foolish for her to hope, but she could still dream.Â
 âYes, actually⊠there is,â Tom spoke finally, and she blinked back up at him, tilting her head. She didnât say anything else, only waited patiently, as he mustered up the courage to say what he wanted to say.Â
 Tom cleared his throat.Â
 Her eyes sparkled under the light.Â
 Her lips were curved into a soft smile.Â
 This was harder than he thought.Â
 âItâs⊠itâs a beautiful day,â he squeezed his eyes closed. He said that earlier. Why was this so hard? Why couldnât he just ask her? Heâd been thinking about it all year now, and it wasnât like him to feel so nervous.Â
 It was truly frustrating.Â
 Her lips twitched, but she suppressed the urge to laugh. This was a side of Tom Riddle she had never seen beforeâ could it be that for once, he was nervous?
 âIt is,â she nodded and he sunk his teeth into his bottom lip and glanced away, staring at the wall beside them. Perhaps he should just say it, get it over with. âItâs nice weather for a stroll around Hogsmeade.â
 Oh.
 She could feel the heat as it slithered like a snake up the back of her neck, creeping up into her ears, and searing her skin. Could it be that her dream was becoming a reality?
 Tom kept his gaze fixated on the wall beside them, and she smiled, daring to step just a little closer. âProfessor Riddle,â she said warmly, âif I didnât know any better, Iâd say you were trying to ask me out on a date.â
 Tom blinked and he turned his head towards her, looking down on her and into those beautiful glimmering eyes he couldnât help but admire no matter how hard he tried not to. Swiftly, he glanced down to her lipsâ he suddenly had the biggest urge to kiss her right now.Â
 But he resisted.
 âCall it what you want,â he replied as smoothly as he could, even though he felt like he could shrivel away from the world at that moment. âBut⊠I certainly wouldnât mind treating you to a butterbeer or two, if youâd let me.â
 The Herbology teacher giggled and her gaze cowered to the ground, and she wiped loose strands of hair behind her ear to hopefully mask her nerves. She glimpsed back up at him, and her smile widened. Â
 âHow about we get some lunch in the Great Hall first?â
a/n; sorry it took me so long to post this, life got in the way! not sure how i feel about my writing here, so sorry if it feels kind of rushed! tbh writing fluff for tom was kind of a challenge since heâs not exactly the fluffiest character LMAO
"would you kiss me for $10 or the hottest person in the world for $1000?"
ftâ blade, gepard, dan heng, jing yuan, luocha, welt, sampo, luka, argenti, dr. ratio
warning â none, just fluff! might be ooc, established relationship, gn! reader, no yanqing for this ;( mentions of kissing, might be cringe..? chinese names are simplified. not proofread.
a/nâ y'all i apologize if they're ooc (can't justify it i haven't even played hsr yet) so yes. ENJOY as this is my second time writing for 'em
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ć blade
â§ .... he knew it was one of those.. silly media questions that couples do to one another. and he hates you for actually doing them (not really he loves you too much)
â§ he continued to stay silent as he sat on the bench, watching as you sat beside himâanticipating for his response that will decide whether or not he will sleep on the couch or not.
â§ "ugh you big bum just answer the question!!" you groan, slumping down on the bench.
â§ blade cocks his head and raises his brow, smirking at you. "you mean the complex question that will probably lead you unhappy if i don't say the answer you were hoping for and then not talk to me for the next couple of hours as you're petty andâ"
â§ you quickly shut him up with your palm over his mouth, you were now mad at him for being too god damn right. warmth spread to your cheeks as you stared at him, completely flustered.
â§ "you better shut that mouth of yours baldie." you threaten, still keeping your palm over his mouth when you felt the icky, wet and textured feeling gliding across your palm, it was his tongue.
â§ wasting no time you pulled your hand back and stared at your palm before vigorously wiping it on your shirt, absolutely disgusted. "ewwww!! and you still haven't answered my question!!" you pout.
â§ blade huffs (he's very sassy), "yeah not after calling me baldie. i'm not even bald." he was so serious about it, it was very amusing to you.
â§ you pout even more, scooching closer to him. "okay i'm sorry for calling you baldie.. and yes you aren't bald. now will you please answer my question?!" blade continues to glare at you, thinking about his answer. well, he was only pretending to anyway.
â§ he already knew his answer the second the question slipped out of your mouth, obviously, kiss you for $10 (credits). even if it was for $1000 he could easily get that amount of money in a day and plus, you are the most hottest person in the entire universe.
â§ but he decided to tease you, he put on his thinking face, tapping his finger on his chin. "hm... i really don't know it's so hard to choose..." he hums, looking down at your face as he smirks in amusement at your silly little mad face.
â§ "so hard? SO HARD FOR WHAT????" you asked, leaning in closer. oh you were for sure getting irritated now.
â§ blade chuckles before engulfing you in a tight hug as you sat on his lap, face buried in his chest. "of course kiss you for $10, i don't need $1000 anyway."
â§ "what about the pretty part?" "you are the hottest of them all, y/n."
â§ you hummed in content, happy with his answer before speaking again. "see, it wasn't a trick question at all." blade rolls his eyes. "uh huh... so you weren't going to quote-on-quote, 'ground' me if i said the wrong answer?"
â§ "....no...."
â§ (btw he was still a lil hurt when you called him baldie. like wow, it really hit him deep)
æ°ćžćŸ· gepard
â§ the second you asked him the question he did not hesitate and answered within 1 billion light speed.
â§ "you of course! i don't want to a random stranger who i don't know for $1000, i don't need that money when i have you."
â§ "ohâ gepardâ" yeah, you almost burst into tears at his answer. it was so geniune, sweet and adorable. even his face said it all!! he looked at you with such sincere eyes as he told you his reply!!
â§ gepard almost freaked out thinking he said the wrong thing when he saw the tears welling up in your eyes, he immediately held onto your shoulders, apologizing if he did anything wrong.
â§ you shake your head no and wipe away your tears dramatically, "nâno i'm fine gepard i'm justâ i didn't expect you to say your answer so quickly! when i saw other couples doing it the other person is always hesitating or something."
â§ gepard is confused, was this a test or something? (poor baby doesn't know) and so you have to explain to him what the trend is all about and all that jazz.
â§ he doesn't think that it's a bad trend or anything, if anything he encourages you to ask him more questions!! anything you ask, he will reply asap 100%!!
â§ and so you asked more questions.
â§ "you don't care about the money gepard? that's a lot though, $1000!" you exclaim, gepard shakes his head and smiles, "i already said why i don't need that money, love, i don't need the money when i have you, you're priceless."
â§ EUGHHHHHHHHH HE JUST HAS TO HIT YOU WITH THAT. you smiled back and gave him a kiss on his cheek before backing away. "that's so sweet of you... okay next question, who is the hottestperson in the world?"
â§ gepard only stares into your eyes, mesmerized by your face, his eyes are trained on you and only you as his thumb caresses your cheek. "you, of course, you're the most hottest.. although i'd rather use prettiest instead, you are the most prettiest and amazing person in the entire universe."
â§ safe to say his face was peppered with kisses after that, not that he minds it.
äžčæ dan heng
â§ "what kind of question is that?" is the first thing he says, looking at you in confusion as he closes the book he was reading.
â§ you had just entered his room, phone in hand before asking him the question out of the blue so he assumed you saw something from the media which now... lead to this.
â§ you shrug, going back to your question. "don't be trying to change the topic, what would you do? kiss me for $10 or kiss the hottest person in the world for $1000?" you repeated, your brows furrowing. to dan heng, it was crazy scary how you looked right now, so desperate for his answer.
â§ "well obviously the hottest person in the world for $1000, that' so much money!" he replied, knowing what this was going to lead him to. "......so... you would kiss the most hottest person in the world for more money?"
â§ dan heng cringes as he nods his head slowly. your eyes narrowed as you began to glare at him, soon, you stormed out of his room, pissed, and with a right as well.
â§ dan heng sighs in defeat before getting up from his seat and following you to where you always went when you were mad, to the kitchen.
â§ and he was right, you were in the kitchen just snacking on food you just bought the day before, when you spotted him you turned around, your back facing him. "baby c'mon im sorry i was just joking.."
â§ hearing him call you "baby" did something to you but you didn't want to give in just yet. you were mad at him still. you pout (not like he can see you but still) and continue to munch on your food angrily.
â§ "i didn't mean to, i promise i was just joking. i would much rather kiss you for $100 i pinky swear." .... "pinky swear?" "pinky swear."
â§ safe to say you accepted his apology as he absolutely peppered your face with millions of kisses before engulfing you in his arms.
â§ "you're ridiculous..." dan heng sighs, resting his eyes. "yeah well you love me so" well, he can't deny that.
æŻć jing yuan
â§ jing yuan is definenetly doing the mathematical calculations in his head right now. because what in tarnation are you talking about?!
â§ he stares at you like you're crazy for a second before sighing, looking down and closing his eyes shut (he reminded you a lot like a disappointed dad...)
â§ "what do you mean? why are you asking me this out of the blue..." for one, he is a tad bit afraid that if he says the wrong thing you will sentence him to three (3) days to sleep on the couch, yeah, you banish him from your SHARED bedroom multiple times when he said the "wrong thing".
â§ you repeat your question again, waiting for his answer. "what a silly question, i would kiss you of course, with or without the $10." he breathed, planting a kiss on your forehead before pulling away and smirking, he knew that that was what you wanted to hear and the kiss was the cherry on top.
â§ for a few seconds you just sat there, too flustered to do anything. YES YOU KNEW IT WAS JUST A FOREHEAD KISS BUT IT'S JING YUAN OKAY
â§ "hm? is something the matter, my love?" he questions, leaning in closer to your face, he was much more taller than you (obviously) so he was quite literally towering over you, his face was so close to yours.
â§ you shake your head before going in for a small and chaste kiss and closing your eyes, you can feel the smile on his lips as he pulls you closer to him by your waist and deepens the kiss. your brain was starting to get fuzzy as you felt more and more delirious. jing yuan just knew how to make you fold.
â§ "hey! this isn't an excuse to make out with me you know?" you pull away breathless, looking quite dazed just for this "simple" kiss. jing yuan hums, resting his head on your shoulder before speaking up.
â§ "you know you love it." at his words you sigh and shake your head, "well i can't deny that..." you reply with a smile as you run your fingers through his soft hair.
â§ a few minutes go by in silence, you assume that jing yuan was asleep by how calm and quite he was, when the silence was broken. "does this mean i can sleep in our shared bedroom?"
â§ your brows furrowed at his words, was that all he was thinking about? "mmmmmmm now that you mentioned it..." "no." you chuckled, patting his head. "i know i know, yes, you get to sleep in our shared bedroom."
çœćč luocha
â§ "what an odd question.." luocha replies, observing your very serious face. he found it amusing how you looked so serious after asking such a silly question.
â§ you whine and shake his arm, "just answer the question luocha it is very serious!! i need to know your answer!!" .... okay yes apparently it was very serious as you literally called him by his name and not some cute nickname.
â§ luocha offers you a soft and tender smile, the one he always does every time he spots you and or is with you (it never fails to make you swoon), "of course you, i don't need the money when i have you, are you doubting something my dear?"
â§ you shake your head at his words, happy with his answer. "no, everything's fine don't worry! thanks lychee." luocha then engulfs you in a hug all of the sudden, the scent of flowers filled your nose as his hair tickled your face.
â§ "your hair's in my face babeâ" you mumble, moving the strands of hair off your face. luocha quickly apologized before pulling away, he cups your cheeks and stares deep into your eyes, which confused you.
â§ luocha continues to stare at you for a good hot minute, he was thinking about something. "say, did anything happen to you that prompted you to ask me that question? did someone do something? did i do something wrong?"
â§ he's so cute. anyway, you shake your head. "no, why?" luocha sighs in relief before taking his hands off your cheeks. "i don't know i assumed something happened that made you question me with that.. question. thank the lord i didn't do anything."
â§ kissing his cheek, you sighed dramatically, "well actually something did happen.. a certain somebody hasn't given me any attention for the past couple of hours"
â§ luocha playfully rolls his eyes, "my fault, princess/prince" and that's how he ended up peppering and littering you with kisses all over your face and no, you couldn't escape him even if you wanted to.
çŠć°çč welt
â§ if you keep asking him such questions he's only going to age more, physically, you're going to give him too many wrinkles if you keep on making him furrow his brows and frown.
â§ all you can hear is him heaving a great big sigh as he sets his mug down on the table, staring down at you. "the hottest person in the world?" he asks, you nod your head while smiling, you somewhat knew his answer already.
â§ "well it's you of course." he replied without any hesitation, you hummed and gave him a peck on his cheek. "right answer."
â§ "but why $10 only? you're worth more than that you know." he added, you only shrugged your shoulder. "i don't know it's what the text says" "the text?" "yeah, look!" you held your phone up and pointed at the screen where there was a couple, one of the partner asked a questionâthe same one you asked him.
â§ the other partner states that they would kiss the most hottest person in the world for $1000, it then showed a clip of the person sleeping on the couch. the answer was easy really, welt didn't understand how bad one person can mess something up.
â§ "well he was stupid, answer was easy." you agreed and put your phone away. "simple right? i knew you would say the right thing" you continued, welt only smiles in pride. "of course, i know what you want to hear, but i hope you know i would never kiss a random person, even if they were the hottest."
â§ your heart melts as he speaks, his words really sinking into you. "awwhh welt~" next thing he knows you're absolutely hugging the shit out of him (and rubbing your face in his chest), not that he minds.
æĄć sampo
â§ "well would you kiss me for $10 or kiss the hottest person in the world for $1000?" sampo repeated your own question back in a somewhat sassy tone. you were a bit shocked to say the least, i mean, how dare he not answer your question but answer your question with the same exact question!! (same energy ykyk)
â§ but obviously, you're used to his antics as you roll your eyes playfully, closing your phone. "seriously, shampoo. answer the question." "woah woahâshampoo? i said to call me anything but that!" he whines as he uses his hands to talk (as usual), very much exaggerating everything.
â§ you shrug your shoulders with an unamused "hmph" and don't reply any futhur. sampo dramatically sighs in defeat. "but babes, if you really think about it $1000 is a lot of money.." you raise your brow at his answer. "you're only thinking about the money?"
â§ sampo shakes his head, he grabs a hold of your hands while looking at you so sincerely it kind of scared you as he was always so... non-serious. "no, of course not. but just think about all the things i can buy for you...and me...food, flowers, more food, clothes and so much more! wouldn't you want all of that?"
â§ you think about it for a second and replied, "well although those are nice, wouldn't you much rather kiss me instead for $10? we can.. still buy something with $10, plus my kiss is unlike any other!"
â§ "yeah, i know." sampo snickers, upon his reply you narrow your eyes at him, your unamused face screamed "what do you mean by that?" in a menacing type of way. sampo quickly clears his throat before you could get any ideas (you had already gotten a few).
â§ "what i'm tryna say is that yes, i would rather kiss you for $10 but.. i thinkâ" you immediately cut him off with a solemn face. "sh. i don't want to hear anymore of you." sampo can see that you're visibly upset at his answer. shit. he didn't mean to say the wrong thing.
â§ his grip on your hand tightened as he moved in closer to you. "no, wait babe i didn't mean that. i was just playin' i promise i would rather kiss you, your kisses are a one in a billion and i really don't care about the money andâ" once again, you cut him off, but for a good reason this time.
â§ you giggle softly and shush him up with your index finger pressed up against his soft lips. "i know what you mean sampo, don't go on a big rant now you aren't in trouble." a clear sigh could be heard from sampo. "thank the stars.."
â§ " but babe! you haven't even answered my question." you gawk at sampo. "... oh well..."
â§ and now it was your turn to tease him, be prepared for a pestering and probing sampo!
ćąćĄ luka
â§ luka is quite stunned at first because for one, the question was out of nowhere, and two, WHAT DID HE DO THAT MADE YOU QUESTION HIM (you have a habit of asking him random questions out of nowhere)
â§ "did i do something wrong?!" is the first thing he says, he says it like it's urgent it caught you off-guard. you shake your head no and chuckle. "no, why? it's just a question don't worry."
â§ as you both were beside each other, sitting down on your couch, luka leans in closer to you where his nose is just barely touching yours. "well.." he whispers before giving you a long and tender kiss on your lips, it was soft and delicate, it wasn't intense or hotâjust simple.
â§ "you, obviously." he begins as he pulled away slowly, his deep, sparkling blue eyes staring down at yours so softly and genuinely. "plus in my eyes you're the most prettiest person in the entire world, actuallyâno, in the universe!" the way he beamed at you as he spoke his words made your heart flutter. he was so sweet.
â§ luka's sweetness and innocence of a child (not quite literally) never failed to make you tear up, his charisma and optimistic personality pulled you in. but back to the moment. "awww luka you're too sweet âčïž" your cute lil pout made luka's head jump out of his chest and right back in, you were all too adorable.
â§ "oh you know it's nothing.. just stating the facts!" he chuckles, wrapping an arm around your neck and pulling you closer to him where your hips touched each other.
â§ luka rested his head on top of yours, his chest heaving up and down calmly. "wait, so you would kiss me even if you only got $10 other than $1000?" you asked, not bothering to move your body to face him.
â§ "yup! i would still kiss you for free too, money or not. if you still don't believe me.." luka lifted his head off yours as he faced you, you mirrored his actions and turned to face him. "hm?"
â§ luka began to kiss your face, first your cheeks, then it was your nose, then your forehead and finally, you're lips. this time he pressed his lips onto yours for longer as he used his left hand to cup your cheek. everything about this moment was wonderful.
â§ when he finally lets go, you both are left breathless and yet still yearning for more. "do you believe me now?"
é¶æ argenti
â§ argenti is quick with his response, catching you off-guard. he was just standing out in the public (well more like posing to you and other people as he always looks like he's a model posing for his pictures) when you came running to him with your phone in hand, looking quite excited. which got him excited as well.
â§ but despite the silliness of the question he quickly answers your question with no hesitation. "why, you of course. i would kiss you any day, anytime and anywhere." he spoke with such sincerity and calmness it instantly made you fold. his soft and luminous grey eyes boring into yours.
â§ argenti moves in closer to you where his chest is looming over you. but even if he was taller than you, you were quite used to him doing that so you weren't afraid at all. "why do you ask?" you shake your head and smile up at him, happy with his answer. "nothing special!!"
â§ argenti stays silent for a couple of seconds before cupping your cheeks with his hands, your hands reaching to hold his with yours, the cold, hard metallic texture. you stare up at him, confused, but don't speak. you wait for him to do whatever he needed to do.
â§ before you knew it he had leaned down, his lips barely touching yours, his hooded eyes staring down at your lips. a kiss. his lips were so warm and soft, they did not part whatsoever, it was just soft, slow, gentle and sensual kiss. his lips were softly pressed against yours for a good hot second when he gradually pulled away, the tingling and exciting sensation still lingered on your lips.
â§ when both of your lips parted, it seemed like you two had forgotten that you were out in public, unaware of the many stares that were coming your way (i mean can you blame them? they are witnessing a very gorgeous couple passionately kissing. but not in that way.)
â§ after argenti pulled away and observed your face for any signs of discomfort the corners of his lips began to pull up after seeing you smile shyly. you were so adorable. "and that would be $1010." he whispered, gently pinching your cheeks.
â§ a cheerful and tender grin grows on your face at his words. but before you could utter a word or sound your eyes land upon a rose being held right in front of you by argenti. his signature rose.
â§ "a freshly picked flower for you, my rose." he breathed, his other hand pressed against his chest as he slightly bows. what a gentlemen he is. you smile in embarrassment before gratefully take his flower and slightly bowing before thanking him and smelling the rose. "thank you so much! it's breathtaking...."
â§ "just like you."
ççć»ç dr. ratio
â§ "be completely and utterly serious with me with me right now." you added, using big words to really make him think about it. not like he ever does (he's always thinking logically).
â§ ratio sighs, yes, he gave you that sigh. "what? don't give me that sigh. just tell me your answer and then go on with your life again!" you said, doing your sigh this time. ratio is clearly and visibly thinking about his answer.
â§ "wow. are you really thinking about your answer?" you spoke, raising your brow in complete confusion. ratio shoots you a stare and shakes his head. "yes, really, but the answer is simple, you." although his answer was what you wanted to hear you wanted to know why. i mean, he was your boyfriend after all but still.
â§ "i thought you said you would let me go on with my life after answering your non-sensical question." he replied bluntly, cocking his head to the side. you mumbler under your breath as he was right. "yes well just one more thing, please?" and of course, he could never say no to you.
â§ "simply because i love you. i don't need to kiss anybody, especially a random stranger that is quote-on-quote, extremely attractive, for $1000 or more. even if somebody offered me a million i wouldn't take it, simply because they are not you. your kisses are different and have a different feel compared to theirs. and i am 100% positive that their lips are probably not the best unlike yours. not only that but it would be completely unreal for me to meet someone extremely attractive in the world as nobody is. but to me, you are the most wonderful and amazing person i have ever met. and not only that butâ"
â§ you roll your eyes playfully before shushing him up with a finger pressed up against his lips. "okay okay i get it smarty pants" you giggled, removing your finger from his lips. ratio only grinned upon your words.
â§ "hm, well that's a good response. you're the best!" you beamed before kissing his temple and pulling away, heat rushing to your cheeks.
â§ as you were about to walk away you stopped in your tracks, causing him to stop what he was doing and looking your way. you turned around, facing him. "did you mean everything you said?" you questioned softly. the corners of ratio's lips curled up. "of course, i promise."
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"Tell me about your wife." said the man sitting in front of Astarion, the room was quiet around them, only the crackling of the fire could be heard.
Upon hearing the word, wife, Astarion's features softened.Â
"It might be a long one."
"I want to hear it." insisted the man as he leaned back in his chair, waiting for Astarion to start.
Astarion smiled, his eyes filled with love as he began.
"My wife... My beloved Y/N. She saved me you know, in more ways than one. She not only helped me kill the man who caused me so much pain and suffering, but she saved me from myself.
My beloved was a strong woman, brave and incredibly beautiful. She was a kind soul and yet, she could kill a thousand men without taking a break.
She loved songs and loved to dance. Although that might be because I was the one dancing with her. She often said she didn't wish to dance with anyone else but me.
She enjoyed sweets. But only the ones I have given her.
And even if I told her not, she kept on eating them.
It has been so long yet, I will never forget her laugh. She became my world. You know, it wasn't even intentional, I fell in love by accident. I was only meant to seduce her so she would help me kill Cazador. And yet I found myself in love.
But make no mistake, I never regretted the feelings I have. Not once. Falling in love with her was so easy.
I am quite privileged to be able to tell that she was my wife.
My... scars on my back, she cried when she first saw them. She hugged me and told me how sorry she was for I had to endure such pain. She kissed me and cried at the same time. I was so confused by it, I didn't know what to do.
But then, not long after, I asked her to marry me." Astarion looked at the gold band on his finger.
"I never believed in marriage, I thought it was silly for people to bind themselves to one another, and the symbol of it all... a simple ring. I laughed at the idea until I met the person I never wanted to let go of again. Suddenly I wanted nothing more but to have her bonded to me and for me to be bonded to her. I looked and searched for the perfect rings. Matching ones, but hers had a simple stone in the middle. A stone which was made of our blood. The perfect diamond, mixed with my and her blood. And then, we were married. Not like the words of others mattered to me, I would have been happy just to have her in my life, but to have her as my wife... it meant everything.Â
I will not bore you of the events directly after the wedding, leave it up for your imagination I suppose, but I can assure you, she was the first woman who could have me at her feet with a simple look.
And she always looked at me with so much love and care. She was always so gentle and lovely.
When people say love burns like fire, they lie, my love for her burns like lava, much like the core of the Earth. I was ready to destroy everything and everyone who would dare get between us. If I had to, I would have burnt down villages for her, for she was mine.
And not long after, she gave me the greatest gift.Â
A gift so precious.
I will never forget the look on her face when she told me, pure happiness.
She was with child.
Something I never even thought would be possible for me and yet there she was, getting more and more round with my child, with my son. Our son.
She was the sun for me. I have lived a long life in darkness and pain, and she made it all go away with a simple simple. I had a life of happiness thanks to her." Astarion leaned back in his chair once more when the noises from the kitchen stopped.
"STOP TELLING PEOPLE I'M DEAD!"
"I have never used the word 'dead', My Love." Astarion turned to look at you as you exited the kitchen.
"But you made it sound like I am." you pouted as Astarion looked at the ring on your finger, he smiled as you placed the food on the table. "Don't listen to him, Love, he is but an old romantic." you said as you sat down.
"I am very much aware, Mother. I just like to listen to him talk about you." admitted your son as he smiled at the two of you. Now a grown man, yet all you could see was him as a little boy running around the house, hair silver like his father's but eyes the same as yours.
"That's because I love your mother very much."
"I love you too." you replied as you all finally began to eat.
You two loved each other for a thousand years, and you will continue to love for another thousand to come.
okay, so i would like to request a theodore nott x reader where reader is like this kind of shy, studious type of girl and theo has had a crush on her for the longest time? like, he always sees her muttering the answers to professors questions and studying in the library and reading in every corner of the castle. maybe she gets dragged to a party by one of her more extroverted friends and ends up hiding away in the corner where theo comes and puts the moves on her?
i've read a few of your fics and adored them, you are such a good writer <33 if you can't get to this ask, i understand. i hope this finds your well <33
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synopsis. being an introvert pushed into a crowd of over extraverts isnât what you imagined doing on a friday night. good thing that theodore nott seems to be the best extrovert you could ever find to be around.
notes. theodore nott x shy!reader. kind of high school!au
req. iâm like. so in love with that request. liz i love you. its all i needed in my life to feel completed. hope i exceeded ur expectations đș also pride n prejudice reference??
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theo didnât expect to see you there. you were never a party person, you hardly ever went out to hogsmeade with your friends or paid attention to something that wasnât your thrifted, muggle books. however now, you were standing all dolled up in the corner of the room, surrounded by gwen and betty, â who wanted to make sure youâd be okay on your own â anxiously scanning the common room, when the two girls left you.
something in his mind could tell him that the party wasnât exactly your cup of tea, the huge, loud crowd you were pushed into was probably just giving you a hard time adjusting to the atmosphere. it wasnât hard to notice as your eyes couldnât focus on one thing, hands trembled and you were getting pale, so you had to sit on the emerald chair.
âitâs not nice to stare.â pansy nudged him in his ribcage teasingly, catching his attention almost immediately. his best friend had her arm wrapped around ginny weasleyâs waist and a drunken smile spread over her lips. âgo get âer tiger.â she added, watching him roll his eyes and walk somewhere.
maybe he stared a little. and maybe he made it a little too obvious â or obvious enough to get teased for it by his friends. he had to keep his cool or he would probably scare the shit out of you for being such a creep who just stared. not only at the moment, but also in class when you sit somewhere in front of him, or at the slytherin table.
and, to just make clear that theo has been interested in the curious creature you were, he even started coming to the library more often, staying there and pretending to read, when he couldnât, so utterly distracted by the way your eyes move, or the way you have to take breaks to react to the book youâre reading, or the way you sometimes look his way, but look away the second you make eye contact.
theodore nott has never been a shy type of guy â overly confident, always hanging out with the elite, and looking above on everybody. or maybe thatâs what everyone thought, because when he was to make a few steps in your direction, all the traits people knows him for were gone. he felt like a little kid, who wanted to ask his mom a big, important question, but couldnât let it out of him.
his legs felt wobbly, making him as confused as it was possible. heâs never experienced anything like that over a girl whoâs doubtlessly more into the book on her lap than sheâd ever been into him. a stupid smile appeared on nottâs face the second you brought your gaze higher, falling on his lightly flushed face.
âuh, hi.â you struggled to let out, a little flustered that he came up to you like that. having closed the book, your gaze fell on his face one more time, analysing who youâre talking to, though it didnât take too long to figure out it was theodore nott.
âhey.â he replied, shamelessly taking a seat next to you. for the fifteen seconds he was walking there, he thought about all the possibilities of conversation, but then? he just sat next to her silently for half a minute. âdoinâ alright?â a question left his lips.
âiâ, uh. kind of.â you lied, stuttering at the same time.
of course you knew theodore nott, who didnât? he was a friend of mattheo and draco, a lacrosse player and a smart-talker. never studying, but always perfect on tests. and, in addition to top it all â undeniably handsome that keeping eyes off him was like a death sentence.
his eyes rolled in playfulness. âfunny. you look more than just miserable.â the boy commented, his eyes fixated on your face as he speaks. âwould you mind if i keep you company?â theo flashed you a cheeky smile and you just shook your head silently, watching him as he took a closer seat.
âyou donât have to speak.â nott added quickly, seeing a piece of distress at him keeping you company, and the way your hands gripped the cup you held. âyou can just⊠act like you listen to whatever iâm sayinâ, thatâs fine with you?â his head tilted to the side waiting for a most likely short answer.
once you agreed or maybe itâs better to say once you didnât refuse, he started rambling, rambling and rambling, trying so hard to make you laugh â chuckle, at least. oh and was he so proud of himself when he finally did. and minutes after that, you started replying to him more often, and god, it sent him to heaven, even though he was the one speaking much more, hearing you reply once in a while was enough.
the music was getting louder with each second, and he took you out for a walk, showing you around a little, because you were not exactly from that part of the town. âyou smoke?â he asked, and he knew the answer immediately. you didnât, but you nodded, waiting till he extends his hand with the pack of cigarettes.
you brought the cigarette to your parted lips, feeling his gaze on you. the motive for the whole smoking part was completely unknown to you â you never smoked, neither did you want to, but how could you ever say no to theodore nott, when he ditched the party to talk to you.
so⊠somehow, it led you to do what you can to impress him. you took a drag, feeling his eyes on you, and⊠started coughing so much you had to hold his arm for a few seconds to keep your composure. you could see theo trying his best not to laugh at your poor attempt at smoking. his teeth dig into his bottom lip as he bit back a smile, not wanting to make you feel bad.
âitâs better that way.â he nudged your side lightly, trying to cheer you up, seeing the embarrassment painting all over your face. âsomeone really doesnât want you to smoke up there.â theo joked, making the corners of your lips curve a little upwards.
there was a comfortable silence between the two of you for some time, just walking around the town, enjoying each otherâs presence until he finally decided to give it a break. âyouâre not the type to party.â theodore stated, giving you a side glance. âlost a bet or something?â he asked, his left eyebrows lifted.
you walked beside him, hands laced behind your back as he asks the question. you couldnât help but tilted your head slightly to the side to take a better view of him â of his sharp jawline, high cheekbones, those beautiful eyes of his and those lipsâ shit. you almost forgot he asked you a question and maybe even worse, noticed you staring.
âno.â he got a little head shake for an answer, before you found yourself revealing even more. âjust promised my friends iâd go out with them.â
to theo, it sounded like something youâd do. even though he hardly ever spoke more than few words to you, heâs been perceptive and watching you in class was something he did most of the time, the reason behind it? his crush fell too deep to not continue looking for an opportunity to make a move.
âmhmm.â he mumbled under his breath, turning his face to look at you, a smile creeping onto his lips. âto be fair, despite the visible discomfort on your face, you look real pretty.â theo gave you a cheeky smile, before adding. âthough, comfort looks so much better on you.â
shit. this motherfucker. his smooth way with words got you blushing from the top of your head down to your toes. before you could even stutter an answer, you felt the fuzzy insides of his coat on your shoulders. it felt so unreal yet so realistic at the same time. were you dreaming? you wish you werenât.
âis it really that visible?â a soft sigh has left your lips, stopping in your tracks to look at him. ânah, just if someone has been paying attention to you before, theyâll notice.â the boy shrugged, your cheeks growing even hotter.
heâs been paying attention to you. theodore nott, the slytherin, has been paying enough attention to you to notice how uncomfortable you were in gwenâs dress. his cheeky smile got even cheekier as you were processing everything in your mind, the two of you standing in front of each other in the middle of the pavement.
your lips were slightly parted as you tried to think of something to say without embarrassing yourself more. you didnât even catch the moment when he leaned a little closer until the two of you were inches away. âtheoâŠ?â a quiet whisper escaped your lips, your head tilted upwards to look at him.
âiâve been infatuated with you for a while now.â confessed theodore, your breath hitching in your throat. what now? âitâs not the âi like youâ talk, itâs the mr. darcyâs âyouâve bewitched me, body and soulâ talk. iâm not myself when youâre not around.â his words are like honey on your ears, his hand finding yours, your eyes never leaving his.
âyou like jane austen?â you giggled, accidentally interrupting his confession.
ây/n.â he groaned. âplease, can i kiss you? i donât think iâll be able to breathe without it.â theo seemed desperate, but you couldnât mind, it was theo who wanted to kiss you, the guy you always stared, when no one looked, the only guy that ever appeared in your dreams.
it took him just a small nod from you to lower his head and crush his lips into yours. at first, you could feel all the emotions he wanted you to feel â the desperation, the need, and the happiness that came with finally being able to kiss you. his fingers found its way to your hair, pulling you even closer as your lips moved against his so perfectly.
if it wasnât for your fist that gripped the fabric of his collar, youâd probably pass out from the sensation of his mouth on yours. you had to break out for a few seconds to catch some air, but this time â you were the one who kissed him, standing on your tiptoes, kissing him like your life depends on it. he tasted like the liquor he had drunk before you two got away, and menthol cigarettes.
his forehead is resting against yours, after the two of you finally pull away yet so slightly. âwere you for real?â
âi have never been as for real as i am right now, y/n. if being so enamoured with you was a crime, iâd be facing lifetime.â
Theodore Nott knew that one day he would be asked to marry a pureblooded witch and have a family with her; not because he wanted it, but because thatâs what is expected of him.
What he didn't know is that in his 7th year, his father would begin throwing women at him, witches he didn't know and didn't care to get to know.
He did his best to avoid his fathers constant complains and lectures, but time was not his friend and he needed to come up with a solution to his problem or he would soon be marrying a stranger.
You and Theo became somewhat friends during quidditch practice. Neither of you played quidditch but attended your friends practice meetings, since you had nowhere else to go.
You bonded over not being into sports and falling asleep during first period every Monday. You always knew you would find him near corners at parties, watching the crowd but never intending to join them.
You were a pureblooded witch, not part of the Sacred 28, definitely not a blood purist. He liked those things about you, it felt refreshing being friends with someone who did not care about such insignificant things.
You were also kind and thoughtful and always helped him when life felt heavy, that is why he was brave enough to ask you a very important favor.
"Absolutely not!", you shouted
"Shhhhh", students whispered.
Madam Pince walked to you, with a scowl on her face and her hands crossed tightly in front of her,
"Mr Nott, are you and your friend aware this is a library?", she said displeased.
"I am sorry, Madam Pince, it wonât happen again", you whispered fast
"Well that is what I expect of you, next time I hear you, you'll be jinxed off of here.", she replied and walked away.
Theo was looking at you innocently, begging you with his eyes to accept his proposal.
"Theo I will not pretend to date you", you whispered this time.
"Please, it won't be for more than three months, I just need my father to back off!", he explained
"Please, please, please!", he continued, "He will marry me off to a snob French witch, I am sure of it, and then Iâll be forced to have a bunch of kids with her, for the sake of the family line"
"I will end up 30 and more miserable than Snape!", he finished dramatically
You rolled your eyes at that and said, "Firstly, that is a bit dramatic and secondly, if we 'date' there is no way it will be only for three months."
He smirked at that "Well, love, if you wanted to be with me for more than that you could have said so from the start."
You hit him with your notebooks after that and he burst out laughing.
You saw Madam Pince behind him -not so entertained- mouthing "OUT" with her eyebrows raised.
He shouted your name while following you down the hallway,
"Please, think about it.", he begged
"Theo I told you-", you started but were cut off by a figure walking past you.
"Hello there.", says Finn with a smile that could persuade you to do anything he wanted.
Truth is you have had a crush on the boy ever since you met him. He is in a different House than you and you never get the chance to talk to him. You always try to master up the courage during parties but you can never find the right time. He hangs out with your friends but you feel too foolish to admit your crush to them, so you are stuck with greetings in hallways and daydreaming during class.
"Hi", you respond with a blush on your face and an awkward smile.
Finn continues walking; but your mind is stuck on the way he looked at you and his smile and;
"So that is why you won't be my fake-girlfriend."
"I- what?", you turn to find him smirking like an idiot and reply "Shut up", as you walk by him, taking long strides.
"Wait wait.", he says while trying to catch up to you.
"Maybe this can help us both.", he says after running in front of you to stop you.
"How could this help me?", you say back, "Not that I want any help!", you add quickly
"Well in the case that you did want my help, I can - as a teenage boy- testify that jealousy goes a long way."
"Please, jealous? He doesn't even know my name, why would he care if we dated?"
"Along with jealousy, being seen with someone else makes you more attractive", he adds quickly
"That is stupid and disgusting."
"It is the way the world works, love." he smiles deviously "So what do you say will you be my fake girlfriend?" he says as he extends his hand into a handshake
"No" you reply, smacking his hand away.
"I will see you tomorrow for breakfast, I'd tell you to ask Pince, she's a proper catch and your dad would approve, but Iâm not sure she'll say yes after what happened today.", you say sarcastically
"Oh you wound me so.", he sighs dramatically "Maybe I'll ask McGonagall with a flock of birds to impress her."
You laugh at that before wishing eachother goodnight.
You lie on your bed thinking about Theo and his proposal; about Finn and how stupid your crush feels. About how stupid boys make you feel, how you wish you had more experience with them, more confidence.
You wished you were one of those people who went out to get what they wanted, the ones who fought for themselves, didnât sit around in the corners with a comfort blanket draped around their shoulders.
âMaybe this can help us bothâ he said
Would it honestly be that bad to pretend to be Theos girlfriends for a few months?Â
You trusted him and knew he would never do anything to make you feel uncomfortable. Maybe you would have to set a couple of rules to be sure there would be no misunderstandings, but things could work out.
You quickly got dressed the next day and found him eating breakfast alone; like he did every morning, being the first of his friends to wake up this early.
You sat across from him and begun putting fruit and pastries on your plate while he filled your coffee cup; another habit of his.
âI will do itâ, you said calmly
His eyes shot up at yours and before he could say anything you let out a hiss of pain and stared at the coffee spilling from the overflowing cup to your hands and plate.
âBut-â you continued more serious now âwe need to set up a few rules.â
âI love rulesâ he replied while drying your hands with a napkin and then switching your plates so he got the drenched-in-coffee one.
"Okay well, firstly I would appreciate it if this arrangement stayed between the two of us- I am not exactly thrilled to be mocked by the whole Slytherin house for the rest of the school year.", you said looking him in the eye
âEasy- doneâ, he exclaimed âYou have to come with me to a Ball and meet my father.â
âI- you should know it will be very awkwardâ, you said apologetically
âNo need to worry, it will take no more than ten minutes, he isnât a people person, I just need him to believe that I am dating you.â, he explained quickly.
"Fine, I guess, but after we end this wonât he keep on pressuring you? We canât keep this on forever you know.", you said
"Well, of course not; I just need him to get off my back until we graduate, then I can be free of him."
"Okay then, do we need to pretend at school? Your father wonât be here to see us.", you asked
"Yes, but the children of his friends will be and then heâll find out Slytherins are terrible gossipers, you know.", he joked
"Fine okay, but we wonât do anything extreme", you said with a serious tone
"Not unless you ask me", he said grinning like the devil (wink wink)
You throw him a blueberry and he laughs before he picks it up and eats it
"What about you and loverboy? How do you want us to approach it?", he asked
Us rolls off his tongue way too easily, you think and feel a flutter in your stomach as you play it back
"Well , I havenât thought about that, I am not sure I want to do anything really, I just want to forget it even happened.", you awkwardly say
"What 'happened', your feelings? It isnât exactly something you can control .", he joked
"Donât be ridiculous. Of course it is; if you are reasonable and smart." you say looking him in the eyes "Anyways, I got too distracted from the constant what if but now I have something else to focus on." you continue
"I can assure you I'll be the best fake girlfriend there is" , you say and smile
"It is a deal then.", he says extending his hand
"Yes.", you say shaking his hand this time.
The pretending started slowly, small touches in front of other students in the library, the Great Hall and on quidditch matches.
Spending weekends at Hogsmeade together, sharing butterbeer and going for walks with his arm behind your back or hands clasped together.
He would lend you his sweater and you would lend him your scarf, the one with your house colors.
He pretended he smelled you in his Amortentia and made a spectacle out of it in class; leaving you a blushing mess.
Eventually the Ministry planned a Ball; and you dreaded every second leading to it.
Theo helped you pick out a gown for it and walked you through the experience of a "Ministry party for the Miserable", as he called them
"Most of them will be boring themselves with talks about work; others will be drinking their boredom away and then there will be dancing. It will be over before you realize it, truly", he calmed you down
You agreed to meet him at the venue and you found him by the door playing with his wand while waiting for you.
"Some boyfriend you are-", you joked and his head immediately shot up to look at you "Making me come here alone, not walking me from the car, what will everyone say?", you said smiling and looped your arms around his, while he stared at you.
"My fair lady you have to forgive me, I will make it up to you." he shook his head and lead you both inside.
He spotted his father quickly and walked towards him. You felt terrified, couldn't exactly understand how a man sweet and kind; alive like Theo could have come from a man like his father.
He looked cold and mean and from what Theo had told you about him he was.
"Father" Theo said in a voice reserved just for his father and introduced you to him.
"I am sure you are familiar with her parents; they have an active role in the Wizarding community.", he said
You smiled at that; at his Slytheirn traits showing up when he needed them most.
"Ah yes, I remember your father in our Charity event a few months back.", he said with his strict voice, "I just wish Theodore would have bothered to tell me back then you two knew eachother."
You smile awkwardly and look at Theo who gives you a tired look.
"As I understand you are seeing eachother; how long has that been going on?", he asks
"A few months; but we have been friends for a few years now", you reply as calm as you can
"And what are your plans for after you graduate? Theo is going to work in the Ministry, I have friends in departments that can show him the ropes", he questions and you try to picture Theo in a Ministry 9-5 job and think it is just wrong.
"Well I am not sure yet; I was hoping to continue my studies and maybe get a master in Potions or Transfiguration. Passing NEWTs is the only thing on my mind right now.", you explain nervously
"Right. Well excuse me, I have to greet a few friends.", he says and leaves the two of you alone, once again.
You both leave out a breath you have been holding for a while.
"Didn't go that bad, right?", you ask
"No, uh it went fine.", he says with a troubled look, "Do you mind if we go outside?"
"Not at all, come on.", you say with a comforting voice and let him lead you outside.
You find a quiet place in the garden away from everyone. Finding company in the stars and each other.
"I hate him", Theo breathes and you don't know what to say back, how to comfort him.
So you take his hand in yours and hold it tightly.
"I am not taking the job at the Ministry, I won't.", he said
"What do you want to do?", you encourage him
He shakes his head before he answers.
"Slughorn offered to write me a recommendation letter, so I can study where he did. If I do well on the exams",
"But my father doesn't care about what I want, has not even bothered to find out.", he scoffs
"Well he can sod right off, respectfully, because he scares me." you say and he laughs
"You'll do great, you are so smart Theo, everything will work out, I am sure of it.", you say holding his hand
"Thank you.", he says smiling, "for everything."
You spend the rest of the night talking about life and the future, with your head on his shoulder and his thumb drawing circles in your hand.
As the school year progressed stress and anxiety were starting to get the best of everyone. Students were either practicing for a quidditch match or studying in the library.
That is why a few Gryffindors decided to host a party, to take a break from studying and celebrate the success that would surely be coming; "very Gryffindor of them" commented Theo.
While getting ready for the party you realized this would be the last time everyone would be having fun together and you felt nostalgia crash on you like the waves that destroy rocks.
What happens after school? You think.
Will you lose your friends? Will you lose Theo? Where will you go? What will you do?
There are questions you donât know how to answer and that scares you.
Then your mind drifts to Finn and how you never did anything to get close to him no matter how much you liked him; liked because now he is a thing of the past, thanks to Theo you think, who took your mind off of him, kept you company.
Maybe, you think, faking a relationship with Theo made something deep inside you think that it wasnât pretend. That Theo liked you more than a friend and that maybe you did too.
Did or do?, you think
Did, definitely did. Theo will get a masters in Potions somewhere and you will have to find your place in this world. Liking Theo isnât something that should be happening right now- or ever with his terrifying dictator of a dad.
You laugh as you picture family holidays with the Notts.
âKnock knockâ
You snap out of your thoughts and turn to find Theo leaning on your door, with his hands in his pockets .
âReady?â He asks
You nod and he extends his hand âAfter you my ladyâ
âShut upâ you laugh as you let him hold you
Ronald Weasley waits for you by the portrait of the Fat Lady and lets you inside.
Everyone is dancing, snogging, drinking or doing all of those things together.
"I am going to get us drinks." shouts Theo and you give him a thumbs up as you walk into the crowd, trying to find some familiar face.
Suddenly you feel a hand on your shoulder and see Finn smiling at you.
"Hi!" you beam at him
"Finally decided to let yourself have fun?", he asks playfully
"What do you mean?", you ask
"Well I haven't seen you in a party since you and Nott became a thing, come to think of it, before that you two would always find a quiet corner and stay there together.", he says
Before you get the chance to reply you feel an arm snake around your waist and Theos scent fills your lungs.
"Here you go, love" he says and hands you your drink "Finn, how are you mate?"
"I am fine Nott, preparing for Quidditch finals, nervous about the NEWTs?"
"Obviously, but what can I do besides studying?", he responds.
Awkward silence lays between the three of you. You cant wait to laugh with Theo about it, once Finn leaves.
"You are lucky your girlfriend is such a good listener. I remember once she let me explain the Star Wars films to her without falling asleep or complaining.", he said laughing
"How do you even remember that, it was ages ago", you say surprised
"You would be surprised. Now if you will excuse me, I need a refill."
You watched Finn leave and turned to see Theo looking at you with a calculating look.
"Looks like loverboy is back", he said
"Stop" you say and drag him with you to greet your friends and dance.
After a few hours you both decided you had enough social interactions for one night, so you decided to go back to your dorms.
As you were leaving you spotted Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley, laughing and kissing eachother before disappearing into a broom closet together.
âAh broom closets; the perfect shagging spotâ, joked Theo
âWhat, you..â you stammer âin aâŠâ
âShagged in a closet? Yesâ, he said smirking at your awkwardness
âRightâ you replied
âWhat, you havenât?" he asks and you shake your head
âNot even for a dare?â, he continued
âNo, Theo I havenât.â you say annoyed
He laughs and says âDonât worry you arenât missing much. Besides, the best shagging spot is the restricted section.â
âYou are impossible.â , you say to him as you walk together side by side
âI am joking, nothing tops the comforts of a bed.â, he says jokingly
You remain quiet, I wouldnât know, you think to yourself.
âWaitâ he says â-have you ever?â
âHave I what?â You say annoyed
âBeen with someoneâ he asks
âI, well, have you seen me date anyone, all these years we have been friends?â
âNo, but you also never told me you like Finn, so how would I know what else you keep to yourself. "
âLiked, Theo, and can we please forget about that?â, you plead
âAlright I am sorryâ he answers raising his hands
âDo you think it is weird I havenât been with anyone? Yet?â You ask nervously
âWeird? No of course not, why?â
âWell you sounded very surprised, that is allâ, you say
âNo it isnât weird, but if you want me to show you what it is like I-â, he said slowly
You hit his arm and cut him off âShut up, honestly, you can sometimes be so annoying!â
He laughed and said âSorryâ
You continue walking without saying anything before he breaks the silence.
âI think he likes youâ
âNonsense, he talks to everyoneâ, you say while rolling your eyes
âWell then, he is an idiotâ, he responds with a serious tone
You shake your head and laugh
âHe really isâ, he says again
And as you look up at him you see his eyes deeply focused on yours. The look on his face: something entirely new to you. Up until now you always thought Theodore Nott had shown you his real self, almost every part of him; but the way he looks at you now proves how wrong you have been.
His cheeks are flushed and you are sure if you were to touch him heâd burn you. His usual smirk is nowhere to be found; his lips are relaxed and asking for something; as if they have a mind of their own. His eyes are wandering over your features, not calculating but admiring.
His hand flies up to fix a strand of hair that has fallen in front of your face and gently places it behind your ear.
You look at his lips and at him, lost and surprised.
See you tomorrow, he whispers and before you get the chance to respond he walks away to his dorm.
What happened? you think for the rest of the night
Had you grown closer to Theo these past few months, without meaning to?
Had your feelings shifted and if yes when did that happen?
You felt empty as you woke up the next day. Did you feel for Theo what you had felt for Finn once? A made up scenario showing you what could have been?
No, you knew Theo, the version of him inside your head was the one that already existed.
He is kind and smart; he cares about you, always have; even before this agreement.
He always makes sure you feel safe, never pushes things too far.Â
What he said last night, the way he looked at you sends butterflies to your stomach. Would it be that ridiculous of you to think he has feelings for you?Â
And if he does have feelings for you, how do you feel about him?Â
Is he a friend or something more?
Have you just grown used to the attention he gives you? The pretending and faking.
Or do you want-need it to be real.
You will ruin everything and that scares you.
This is too much thinking before coffee, you think and head to the Great Hall.
You find him then with a mug in one hand and a book in the other, once he sees you he smiles, innocently, not a smirk; a greeting.
And that is enough for you to break down your walls, leave your fears behind.
You want him to smile at you; only you every time he sees you. You want to be with him, not only in front of others, always.
You want to tell him I love you and you also want to hear it from him. You want him to tell you his dreams and encourage yours. You want to spend every night with him and wake up in his arms. You want him to show you what it is like to be cared for, truly.
And that desire is enough for you to shed your fears away, because even if things go bad, at least you've tried; fighted.
"Goodmorning", he says as you take the seat next to him.
You smile at him "Goodmorning"
He fills your mug with coffee like he always does
"I don't want to keep pretending to be your girlfriend.", you say
His face darkens and his smile disappears, "Is it about last night? Did I make you feel uncomfortable, I-"
"I can't keep pretending.", you continue "If you want to be with me we have to stop pretending, I want to be with you for real."
"I-" he is speechless now, playing what you said over and over in his head.
"I am in love with you. And it is okay if you aren't, but I had to tell you. I can't fake it anymore.", you confess
He smiles now and grabs your face to kiss you before whispering in your lips, "Who said I was pretending?"
pairing: theodore nott x reader.
song inspiration: until i found you by stephen sanchez feat. em beihold.
author's note: boyfriend theo is the best theo. if you're wondering, then yes writing this hurt me as much as it hurts reading it but like in the best way possible.
Theodore Nott has always had an affinity for the stars.Â
When he was younger, Theo's mother used to take him to the rooftop of Nott Manor and point out the constellations to him. The stars told stories, his mum had said. Theo listened with rapt attention as she recounted the tales of Aquila, Heracles, and Orion as they glittered against the backdrop of the English countryside.
The two of them would make an entire evening out of it. Laying on his back atop a nest of blankets and pillows, little Theo watched as the stars climbed higher and higher, filling the horizon with hope and light. Stargazing had been their special secret. The one thing that wasnât tainted by his abusive father. Theo guarded the memory of those nights in his heart like a priceless treasure.
After his motherâs passing, Theo continued their tradition of stargazing. Even if she was no longer alive, all he had to do was look up at the sky to feel her with him. For that reason, the stars were special to him and heâd never shared its meaning with anyone.Â
Until tonight.Â
âWatch your step, cara mia.â Theo said as he guided you by the small of your back.Â
The dark cloth covering your eyes prohibited you from seeing, but you trusted your boyfriend to keep you from falling. Though you werenât a fan of surprises, Theo was impossible to resist. All he had to do was flash those pretty watercolor eyes at you and you were an absolute goner.Â
For you, Theo had always been the exception.Â
He guided you up a staircase, keeping a firm grip on your waist as the two of you ascended. Wherever you were going, it was pretty high up. You smiled as Theo took hold of your waist, knowing that you weren't the biggest fan of heights. Sometimes it felt like he knew you better than you knew yourself. When you reached the top, Theo unfastened his tie from behind your head.Â
âYou can open your eyes now, sweetheart.âÂ
You blinked, letting your eyes adjust to the dark. The wind whistled through the stone arches of the Astronomy Tower, framing the starkissed night with its marble pillars. The soft glow of the moon illuminated the nest of blankets and pillows arranged in the middle of the wooden floor.Â
âDid you do all of this for me, babe?âÂ
Theo smiled. âI thought you might like to go stargazing with me,â he said, his voice soft. âDo you like it, my love?âÂ
âI love it, Teddy.â You beamed, standing on your tiptoes to kiss his nose. âBut not nearly as much as I love you.âÂ
Theo grinned before pulling you in for a proper kiss. His lips were soft against yours and he tasted like peppermint. Butterflies erupted in your stomach as your knees buckled slightly. Theo never failed to make you feel like a lovestruck school girl. It never stopped feeling like this despite how many times you kissed this boy.
As if reading your thoughts, Theo smiled against your lips. âCome on, Y/N. I want to show you my favorite constellations.âÂ
The two of you laid down beneath the stars, making yourself comfortable amidst the blankets and pillows. Wordlessly, Theo pulled you into his arms and you nestled into the crook of his neck, breathing in the familiar scent of sea salt spray and sun kissed skin.Â
âTell me the story of the stars, Teddy.âÂ
He smiled, brushing your hair back. âThat one right there is Ursa Major. Otherwise known as the Big Dipper, but if you look at the entire constellation, it actually forms a bear.âÂ
âI remember learning about that when I was little,â you said, gazing up at the sky. âDidnât it have something to do with Zeus?â
Theo nodded. âIn Greek mythology, the Olympian God Zeus fell in love with Callisto and got her pregnant. After she gave birth to the child, Hera was so mad she turned Callisto into a bear.âÂ
âThat hardly seems fair,â you responded with a frown.Â
âZeus was a bit of a wanker,â Theo said in agreement. âHera was even worse. She cursed Callisto to wander the forest for years in bear form until she was hunted by her own son Arcas. Just as he raised his spear to strike her down, Zeus stepped in and sent them up to the heavens. Callisto as Ursa Major and Arcas as Bootes.âÂ
âThe Greek gods were truly a piece of work,â you replied. âBut at least we got those constellations out of them."
You squinted, pointing at the cluster of stars hovering in the east. âWhatâs that one?âÂ
âThatâs the constellation of Leo,â explained Theo. âNamed after the Nemean lion that Heracles defeated during the first of his twelve labours.âÂ
âDidnât he make a cloak out of the lionâs pelt?âÂ
âSmart girl,â Theo said proudly. âThe cloak made Heracles invincible and more fearsome than he already was. The Nemean lionâs heart is made up of the star Regulus, which is associated with the arrival of spring.âÂ
âThe Little King. I read that it burns hotter than the sun.âÂ
Theo couldnât help but smile. Before he met you, he never thought heâd find someone to share such a special and intimate thing with. He was worried that no one else would understand his love for the stars, but as he watched you peer curiously up at the sky, your nose scrunched in careful concentration, Theo felt all of his doubts fade away.Â
âRegulus is unique because it can be seen in both the Northern and Southern hemispheres.âÂ
The blue star glittered brightly above your heads, as if it was showing off for the occasion. âItâs beautiful,â you breathed.Â
Theo stared at you, at the childlike wonder shimmering in your eyes, and he felt like the breath had been knocked out of his lungs. The gravity of what he felt for you hit him all at once.Â
âYeah,â Theo said softly, still looking at you. âBeautiful.âÂ
You grinned, intertwining your fingers and kissing his knuckles. âHow do you know so much about the stars, Teddy?âÂ
âMy mum taught me.â Theo answered, drawing circles on your hip. âWhen I was little, she used to take me to the rooftop of the manor and tell me the story behind each star. She was fascinated by them. Before she met my father, she wanted to teach astronomy at the Stati Magia.â
âThe Italian School of Witchcraft?âÂ
Theo nodded. âMy mother attended the Stati Magia, just like her mother and her mother before her. A tradition that I unintentionally broke, as nonna Lucia loves to remind me. Sometimes I think the old bat wishes that I was born a strega instead.âÂ
You giggled. âYou wouldâve been a very pretty witch.â Theo chuckled as you propped your head up in one hand. âDid your mum end up becoming a professor?â
âNo,â Theo said sadly. âAfter I was born, my father said that her place was at the manor. He refused to move to Florence, even though he knew it was my motherâs dream.âÂ
You stroked his hair, nodding emphatically. Theo rarely talked about his mother. You knew that her passing was a painful subject for him, so you never pushed him to talk about it unless he wanted to.
âThatâs awful. Iâm so sorry, my love,â you said. âBut at least she was able to pass down her love of the stars to you. In a way, she lived her dream by teaching you.âÂ
A soft smile tugged at your boyfriendâs lips. âI suppose she did.âÂ
You laid back down, but this time you cradled Theo against you. He rested his head against your chest, listening to the calming sound of your heartbeat. Talking about his mother will always be hard, but you helped ease the pain.Â
âWhat about those stars?â You asked, pointing to the north. âWhat did your mother tell you about them?âÂ
âPerseus and Andromeda,â Theo answered. âThose are actually her favorites.â
âThe chained maiden.âÂ
Theo stirred, inclining his gaze to the horizon. âAndromeda was the Princess of Aethiopia, the daughter of King Cepheus and Queen Cassiopeia. She was said to be very beautiful. Her mother bragged that Andromeda was fairer than the Nereids, which angered Poseidon. As punishment, the Sea God sent the creature Cetus to ravage that coast of their kingdom.âÂ
You nodded, recalling the story. âKing Cepheus chained her to a rock and offered her as a sacrifice to appease the sea monster.âÂ
âLuckily for Andromeda, the hero Perseus found her before Cetus could attack again. Perseus fell in love with Andromeda and defeated the monster so he could free the princess. They ended up marrying and became king and queen of Mycenae. When they died, the goddess Athena placed them side by side in the heavens so that they would never be parted, not even by death.âÂ
âA love written in the stars,â you said with awe and wonder. âI can see why itâs your motherâs favorite.â
âWhen I was a boy, she told me that she hoped Iâd experience a love like theirs, minus the sea monster of course.â You chuckled. Theo knit his brows together like he did when he was deep in thought. When he spoke again, his voice was barely audible. âItâs sad to think that she never found her Perseus.âÂ
You brushed his hair back, running your fingers through his curls gently. âShe might not have found her Perseus, but she did have her Theo.â
Theo turned over and looked at you. The intensity in his gaze made you shiver. He was so ingrained in your heart that it felt inaccurate to continue calling it yours.
âAfter she died, I never thought Iâd share her stories with anyone again, but Iâm glad I shared them with you.âÂ
âThank you for trusting me, Theo.â You said as you placed a kiss on his temple. âIt means the world to me that you not only shared your motherâs stories, but her memory as well. I wouldâve loved to meet her.â
The tender smile on Theoâs face was heartbreaking. Then softly, he whispered. âShe wouldâve loved you, Y/N.â
Your heart cracked open, his words spilling like sunlight over every crevice, warming you from the inside out.
Tears formed at the corners of your eyes, but you forced yourself to give Theo a watery smile. âBecause Iâm a nerd who memorized obscure mythological facts?â
Your boyfriend smiled. âNo,â he said gently, caressing your cheek. âBecause you made her wish come true. You are my love written in the stars, cara mia.âÂ
The moonlight kissed Theoâs tan skin, the silver beams caressing his face like a lover as if the moon and the stars craved to commit his beauty to memory as badly as you did. Gods, he was breathtaking.Â
This was the Teddy you knew and loved. Your Teddy.
Those watercolor eyes shimmered with emotion. âSometimes I think the gods made you just for me, like our souls are linked in a way that neither logic nor magic can explain. Whatever it is, I think Iâve loved you since before the heavens and the earth existed and Iâm fairly certain that Iâd still love you even after the last star falls out of the sky.â
âYouâre the love of my life, Theodore Nott.â Tears streamed down your cheeks as this boyâthis beautiful boy ensnared your mind, body, and soul. âIâd find you in any universe and in any galaxy. Maybe someday weâll be immortalized in the stars too.âÂ
Theo held your face in his hands. His expression was open and vulnerable, like he wasnât afraid to lay himself bare before you. As if it was the most natural thing in the world.Â
âWeâre two halves of a whole,â Theo said. âI loved you yesterday. I love you today and Iâll love you tomorrow. Youâre it for me, Y/N. You and no one else.âÂ
âYou and no one else, Teddy.âÂ
Under the constellations of the star crossed lovers, Theo kissed you so gently that it made your heart ache. As Andromeda and Perseus kept watch over the horizon, Theodore Nott knew one thing for certain.
author's note: everyone say thank you to my love @writingsbychlo for fueling my delusions. constantly spamming her with my ideas because i have no self control when it comes to this man. thereâs just something about theo fighting that makes me absolutely feral but iâll hush now before i spoil it đ€
Theodore. Fucking. Nott.Â
Those three words fueled your rampage as you marched across the quidditch pitch. The audacity of that cocky, arrogant, silver tongued Slytherin knew no bounds. For years, you tolerated the pompous prick and the rivalry between you, but today he had finally gone too far.Â
You cleared the field in less than a minute, passing by confused players as you angrily seethed. You spotted a shock of familiar platinum blonde hair and walked right up to Draco Malfoy.Â
âWhere the hell is he?â
He chuckled, perfectly aware of your longstanding enmity with his closest friend. âWhatâs he done this time?â
âWhere. Is. He?â you repeated through gritted teeth. âDonât make me ask again, Malfoy.âÂ
The blonde paled several shades when he saw the fire burning in your gaze. âLocker rooms. I wouldnât go in there, Y/N. Theyâre still showerââ Draco sighed as you brushed past him. âWhatever, itâs your funeral.â
The locker rooms were steamy, the heat and humidity clinging to your school uniform as you stalked through the aisles. The Slytherin players startled when they spotted you amongst their midst.Â
âWell, well, well,â Mattheo drawled as he leaned against the wall. A towel hung dangerously low on his hips and he smirked when your eyes flickered over his body. âWhat do we have here? A sweet little Hufflepuff marching straight into the viperâs den.â
âWhere the fuck is he, Riddle?â
Mattheo grinned lazily. âYouâre going to have to be more specific than that, sweetheart.âÂ
âYou know exactly who Iâm talking about. Your arrogant prick of a friend who sent my fucking date to the hospital wing!âÂ
Before you went to sleep last night, you had done so with a grin on your face after a wonderful date with Alec Stone at the Three Broomsticks, but then you arrived at breakfast this morning with no Alec in sight and the rumor mill rampant with talks of Theo pummeling some poor Ravenclaw in the courtyard.Â
You were going to kill him.Â
âSorry, love. Doesnât ring a bell.âÂ
You frowned, purposely bumping against Mattheo as you walked further down the dimly lit aisle. In your trail for vengeance, you ran into a very flustered looking Enzo who yelped as he sought to cover his very naked torso.Â
âY/N,â Enzo said, hastily wrapping a towel around his waist. âWhat are you doing in the locker rooms?â
Behind him, the sound of the shower running echoed against the marble tiles. âIs he in there?â
Berkshireâs face fell. âYou heard about the fight?âÂ
âIt wasnât a fight,â you said angrily. âHe pummeled Alec so badly that heâs currently in the hospital wing with a concussion and several broken bones.â
âJust hear him out, okay?âÂ
Your eyes nearly bugged out of your head. âHear him out? Your precious Theodore beat the absolute shit out of my date and you want me to hear him out? For what? What reason could Theo possibly have for doing what he did to Alec? He couldnât stand to see me have fun for two fucking seconds? This is low even for him and you know it, Enzo.â
âYou donât know the whole story, Y/N.âÂ
âWell then please point me in the right direction so I can hear from the arsehole himself.âÂ
âHeâs in there,â Enzo said, pointing to the shower stalls. âBut Iâm warning you, Y/N. Heâs in a proper foul mood.âÂ
You huffed. âThat makes two of us.âÂ
The steam from the showers rose up like a malevolent fog, curling around your feet as you stormed through the stalls. You found him in the farthest corner, water trickling down his back as he faced the tiled wall. His body language was tense, like a serpent preparing to strike. A crimson trail swirled against the marble as blood dripped from Theoâs bruised knuckles. The sight of it incensed you.Â
âWhat the hell is wrong with you?âÂ
Theo whipped his head towards your direction, his dark curls plastered against his cheek. Those watercolor eyes were stormy, the blues and greens flickering with anger as he met your gaze.Â
âYou shouldnât be here,â he said dismissively.Â
âBullshit!â You countered, stepping further into the stall. The steam barely covered Theoâs naked form, but you werenât about to let that deter you from demanding answers. âYou owe me a fucking explanation.â
âFor what?âÂ
âFor what?â you repeated incredulously. âYou beat Alec within an inch of his life and thatâs all you have to say for yourself? Honestly Theodore, have you gone absolutely mental?âÂ
âHe deserved it.âÂ
âWhy? Because he took me out on a date? Because you couldnât stand to let me have this one thing? You absolutely loathe the idea of me being even remotely happy, donât you?âÂ
Theo clenched his fists as his jaw twitched in anger. âNo. I loathe the idea of that miserable excuse of a human being breathing the same air as you.âÂ
âSo you beat him to a bloody pulp?âÂ
His voice was cold and icy, cutting through you like glass. âHeâs lucky I didnât do worse.â
âWhat do you have against Alec?â You moved closer to Theo, closing the gap as you poked his chest. The shower streamed over the both of you, blurring your vision. The water was hot against your skin, but it paled against the heat of your own anger. âWhat did he ever do to you, Theo?âÂ
Theo gripped your wrist. You were vaguely aware of his nakedness, but he made no move to hide it and you were too furious to even care. âDonât say his name. I canât bear to hear you say it after what he said about you this morning.âÂ
You stepped backward, flinching. âWhatâwhat are you talking about?âÂ
When you met his gaze, you startled. Youâd never seen Theo this angry before. His eyes, which were usually dead and expressionless, burned with a cold sort of fury.Â
âI heard him in the courtyard, bragging to his stupid friends. I thought he was just chatting shit, so I kept back. I only came down for a smoke, but then he said your name.âÂ
The pit in your stomach grew. âWhat did he say?â you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. You werenât sure you wanted to know. Not if he was this angry over it.
âThe stupid fucking prick was talking about your date. The dress you wore. The smiles you gave him. The hand holding through Hogsmeade. Then one of his gormless mates asked if he got lucky.âÂ
You froze at his words as a horrible feeling washed over you. Theo loosened his grip on your wrist, but didnât let go.Â
âDo you know what that sodding idiot said? I will, soon enough. I can tell sheâs raring to go.âÂ
Tears pricked at your eyes. You felt like you were going to be violently sick.Â
âAnd his friendsâthose miserable fucking wankers started betting on how long it would take. Two dates. Three. A month.â Theoâs hands were shaking, violence spilling over into his veins. âThat smug tosser smirked and said he couldâve had you out in the hallway. Thatâs how eager you were.â
âI barely even touched him!â you said angrily. âI kissed his cheek good night and that was it.âÂ
âI know,â Theo said, his voice low and rough. âI know you. I knew he was lying, so I fucking lost it. I walked over there and just punched and punched until my knuckles were bloody and bruised and all I could see was red. I wanted to wipe that stupid fucking smirk off his mouth.âÂ
You could picture Theo putting out his cigarette ever so calmly before walking over to throw the first punch. Youâd seen him fight before. He was relentless. Where Mattheo was pure fire and rage, Theo was as cold as ice. There was nothing but lethal calm in those dead eyes as he delivered blow after blow in absolute silence.Â
âEventually, Blaise and Enzo pulled me off of that prick.â He averted his gaze as if remembering the moment. âWhen his idiot friends finally peeled him off the floor, I spit on the fucker. I told him to consider it a warning. That Iâd do a lot worse if I ever heard your name come out of his mouth again. I promised him that a concussion would be the least of his worries if he didnât stay the fuck away from you.â
The tears fell down your cheeks despite your efforts to keep them in. The anger all but faded from Theoâs eyes as soon as he realized that you were crying. You were so, so stupid. For thinking Alec was a nice guy. For being so giddy after your date only for him to turn around and spit vile lies about you.Â
For crying in front of your worst enemy.
The color drained from Theoâs face as you cried into your hands. You felt him shift beside you, debating whether or not to come closer.Â
âDonât,â you said through a broken sob. âDonât come near me.âÂ
Theo flinched at your words, looking visibly pained. His voice was soft and soothing when he spoke again. âTell me how to fix it. Do you want to yell at me? Punch me? Go ahead, love. I can take it.â He sounded desperate. âJust please, please donât cry.âÂ
You hugged your arms around your waist and glared at him. âWhy do you even care?âÂ
He paused, fingers flexing at his side as he fought the urge to reach out and comfort you.Â
âBecause I care about you!â The exasperation in his voice made your chest tighten. âI care that you let that stupid idiot take you on a date to the Three Broomsticks. I care that you fucking smiled at him when he gave you roses even though I know you prefer sunflowers. I care that you kissed him on the cheek when he dropped you off at your dorm.â
You sniffled, utterly perplexed at his words. âI donât understand. We hate each other!âÂ
Theo visibly softened, the tension leaving his body. âI could never hate you, Y/N.â He reached for your hand. Your first instinct was to pull away, but you let him trace soothing circles on your skin. âI may tease you. Prank you. Annoy you. But Iâve never hated you.âÂ
Theo wiped the dried up tears from your cheeks. No fresh tears, which he took as a good sign. âI donât even think you remember this, but I tried asking you to the Yule Ball in fourth year.âÂ
The memory surfaced. You were reading by the Black Lake and Theo had asked if you had a date. You said no, to which he promptly asked if he could take you. You left in a huff, thinking that it was just another way to rile you up.Â
âI thought you were just trying to get a rise out of me. If I wouldâve knownâŠâÂ
Theo paused. âHow could you not know? How could you not see?âÂ
The rage crashed against you like an errant wave. You didnât know if you were angry at Theo or yourself, but you exploded either way, unable to keep your emotions under control.Â
âBecause you never told me, you idiot!â
âI never told you, but I showed you.â He smiled crookedly. âI'm not good with words, obviously. Every time I open my mouth itâs like I say the perfect combination of words to piss you off. So I learned to tell you how I felt through my actions.âÂ
âHavenât you ever wondered why your favorite study spot in the library is always free? Thatâs because I threatened anyone who came near it. Or how you never seem to run out of quills despite the fact that you manage to break one every day from how hard you write? I always replaced them when you werenât looking.â Your heart clenched at his words. âI even bribed first years to bring you hot chocolate when I knew you were pulling all nighters.âÂ
You stood there, staring at him. This wasnât the cocky, arrogant Theo that you knew. He was looking at you so earnestly that it physically hurt how endearing it all was.Â
âWhy would you let me think that you were an inconsiderate jerk this whole time?âÂ
Those hypnotizing eyes pierced right through you, filled with a sadness so heavy that you felt it weighing on your chest.Â
âBecause at least you were thinking of me.â
You swayed gently. The water had long seeped into your bones, making you shiver as all of your clothes stuck to your skin like paper. You were convinced that your body had gone into shock. The range of emotions you were currently experiencing was turbulent to say the least. You stood in stunned silence, just taking it all in. Then the impact of his words hit you all at once.Â
Theo watched as your bottom lip trembled. Panic seized him as you began crying again, this time not bothering to hide it from him. âFuck Iâm sorry, Y/N. Please donât cry.âÂ
He didnât know what to do. Should he comfort you? Should he keep his distance? Theo felt like he was doing a rather exceptional job of mucking things up.Â
âWhy are you saying sorry?â You said between hiccups. âIâm the one who should be apologizing.â
Theo caressed your cheek. So gently. Like he half-expected you to recoil. That only set a fresh wave of tears to spill onto your cheeks.Â
âYou have nothing to apologize for, love.âÂ
âOf course I do!â you nearly wailed. âIâve been horrible to you. Iâve thought the worst of you, but all this time you were doing all these sweet, considerate things and I never even noticed. You shouldâve told me, Theo.âÂ
âIâI didnât think youâd ever see me that way,â Theo said softly. âIt was better to have you hate me and still be part of my life than risking not having you in it at all.âÂ
Because at least you were thinking of me.Â
It was the saddest thing that youâve ever heard. For years, Theo settled for being your enemy because heâd rather have your hatred and loathing than indifference. He sustained himself on the bare minimum because he thought that was all he deserved.Â
âIâm sorry, Theo. Iâm so so fucking sorry.âÂ
Theo was absolutely distressed. âFuck, look Y/N. Let me just finish up here and get my towel and when Iâm dry and slightly less naked then we can talk, okay?âÂ
You sniffled, wiping your tears away. There was no way you could wait. Not after everything Theo had just told you. Not after everything that heâs been telling you all these years. Theo had literally and figuratively laid himself bare before you. The least you could do was to even the playing field.Â
So you unlaced the gold and black tie around your neck. Unbuttoned your blouse and threw it somewhere behind you. Stepped out of your skirt and stared at Theo head on.Â
âOhâMerlinâs beard, what in the hell are you doing, Y/N? Are you trying to send me into cardiac arrest?âÂ
You shook your head, smiling slightly. Theo was determined to look everywhere but at your very exposed body. You were still in your bra and panties, but the black lace really didnât leave much to the imagination. Especially when the water clung to every inch of your skin.Â
âYou were vulnerable with me,â you said simply. âSo Iâm returning the favor.âÂ
Theo felt like he was definitely headed for an early grave. He tried to think of somethingâanythingâother than the girl heâs been head over heels for since third year standing naked in front of him.
âTheo,â you said softly. His name had never sounded half as good coming out of anyone elseâs mouth. He wanted to bottle the sound. âCan Iâcan I hug you?âÂ
He couldâve sworn that his heart had stopped beating. The air had all but left his lungs, deflating his entire body as though heâd fallen off his broom and plummeted through the sky at breakneck speed.Â
Theo didnât recognize his own voice as he said, âOf course you can, Y/N.â
The words were barely out of his mouth before you dashed into his arms, nearly toppling him over from the force of it. You were a tiny little thing, but you were stronger than you looked. He smiled as you wrapped your arms around his neck, standing on your tiptoes as you hugged him. For a minute you and Theo just stood there under the trickling water, holding each other as though you were the only two people alive.Â
If this was all the affection you were willing to give him, Theo wouldâve been content to hold onto you until you grew tired of him. His slender fingers traced down your spine, drawing soothing circles against your skin as you buried your face in the crook of his neck. You felt safe. Like nothing bad could ever happen as long as you were with him.
You couldnât remember the last time youâd felt like this. There was just this spark between you. Perhaps that was part of the reason why you had been so angry this morning.Â
It hadnât just been because Theo sent Alec to the hospital wing, which you were now thankful for after hearing all the disgusting things he said about you. It was also because you thought that he had ruined your chance of feeling that rush with someone else. The same rush you got when the two of you were arguing. The same rush that was noticeably missing when you kissed Alec last night.Â
Things with Theo had always been electric. You attributed it to mutual loathing, but that wasnât the full story. Sure he made your blood boil sometimes, but he also made you feel alive. You were terrified to admit it to yourself, which is probably why you said yes to Alec in the first place.Â
You sighed as Theoâs fingers tangled through your hair. He gently pulled your head back and looked at you in the most heartbreaking way.Â
âY/N,â he said hoarsely. Theoâs gaze dipped to your mouth as his arm snaked around your waist. âI think I might die if I go one more second without kissing you. Will you please put me out of my misery, love?âÂ
You couldnât help but smile. âGladly.â
Theo held his breath as you pulled him down to you, lips brushing shyly at first. Then you leaned in and kissed him. And he truly and honestly thought that he had died.Â
Your lips were soft against his, tasting of strawberries and mint toothpaste. He cupped the back of your head and tilted your chin to deepen the kiss. Before, Theo thought he couldâve sustained himself from a simple hug, but right now, he couldnât even control himself as he gorged himself on your taste.Â
He chuckled when you tried and failed to get on your tiptoes to offset the height difference between you. Theo caressed your cheek and smiled against your mouth.Â
âNeed some help, love?âÂ
You nodded before pulling him back down again. This time, the tender kisses turned more heated as he locked your legs around his waist and pressed your back against the wall. You gasped as the cold tile made contact with your bare skin and Theo took the opportunity to slide his tongue against yours.Â
Merlinâs beard. Theo kissed with his entire body. There wasnât an inch of you that wasnât touching him and the skin to skin contact set your body on fire. Youâd kissed other boys before, but they paled in comparison. You couldnât get enough of Theo. You ran your fingers through his hair. Wrapped your legs more tightly around his waist. Trailed kisses along his jaw and neck and throat.Â
Then he fucking moaned.Â
It was a low, rumbling sound that sent tremors over your body and shook every fiber of your being like a devastating earthquake. You wanted to hear him make that sound over and over again.Â
âY/N,â Theo said, his forehead dropping to yours. âBefore I lose all sense of self, I want toânoâI need to tell youââ
âWhat is it, Theo?â
âIf we do this, then you have to understand what it means to me,â Theo whispered. âI may be terrible with words, but itâs important for me that you hear me when I say this. I want you. Not just physically, but in every sense of the word. I wanted you in third year when you first told me off for being a dick to the first years and I want you now even though you came in here to defend a prick that definitely doesnât deserve it.âÂ
âWhat are you saying, Theo?âÂ
âI want you to be mine, Y/N.âÂ
You beamed. âLike, your girlfriend?â
âI donât think girlfriend is a strong enough word to express how I feel for you, but itâs a start.â He moved the hair out of your face and cradled your cheek. âSo yes, I suppose I do want you to be my girlfriend. I want to hold hands with you in the hallways. I want to look up at the stands during my games and see you cheering me on. I want to take you up to the Astronomy Tower and kiss you under the stars.âÂ
âAnd you say youâre bad with words,â you teased. âI want to do all those things and more with you, Theodore Nott. Of course Iâll be your girlfriend.âÂ
âGood, cause youâre mine.â Theo said matter-of-factly, those adorable dimples making an appearance on each cheek. âYou were mine even before you knew it.âÂ
He kissed you again, but this time it was soft and sweet and it filled your stomach with butterflies. Theo no longer felt the need to hoard as much of your affection as he could because you had just given him the ultimate reassurance that he would have plenty of you in the future.Â
You sighed contently against him, toying with the curls at the nape of his neck. He shifted, pressing kisses against your neck. Your fingers froze when you felt him stir underneath you.Â
âTheo,â you said slowly, biting back a smirk. âIs that what I think it is pressing against my leg?âÂ
He groaned. âWeâre half naked, in the shower, heavily making out, and you just agreed to be my girlfriend. Of course Iâm hard.âÂ
You stifled a laugh. âTheodore Nott, is emotional intimacy turning you on?âÂ
âEverything about you turns me on.âÂ
âThatâs helpful to know,â you said with a little smirk. âEspecially when we're dueling and Iâm losing.âÂ
âMerlinâs beard. My girlfriendâs downright evil.âÂ
You grinned so hard that your cheeks ached. Theo peppered kisses all over your face before setting you down.Â
âI suppose we should head to dinner soon. My teammates watched you march in here in a fit of rage. They might think youâve murdered me.âÂ
âThereâs only one problem,â you said as you finally turned off the shower. âIâm soaking wet.âÂ
âI bet you are, darling.âÂ
You rolled your eyes. âFrom the shower, you wanker.âÂ
He grinned and kissed the top of your head. âItâs alright. Iâve got some extra clothes in my locker.â
Ten minutes later, the two of you walked out in the quidditch pitch hand in hand. Theoâs sweater completely enveloped you and he smiled a little at the sight. You received a few interesting stares as you made your way through the castle halls, but one look from Theo and they all quickly found something else to gawk at. Having a scary boyfriend was already paying off.Â
On the way to dinner, you ran into Enzo. The git had the biggest smile on his face when he saw that you and Theo were holding hands. âSo you heard him out after all, huh?âÂ
âYeah, we sorted out our differences,â you said with a smile. âCoincidentally, I gained a boyfriend out of the whole ordeal. Happy now, Berkshire?âÂ
âAbsolutely chuffed,â Enzo said with a grin. âSee you lovebirds at dinner.âÂ
Theo rolled his eyes as his friend disappeared into the Great Hall. He turned, squeezing your fingers. âI should warn you. My friends can be a bitâŠmuch.âÂ
âDonât worry, I think we all got fairly acquainted in the locker rooms. If they tease us, well Iâve got a perfectly scary boyfriend to fend them off.âÂ
He chuckled. âA scary boyfriend with an even more terrifying girlfriend.âÂ
You winked, kissing his bruised knuckles. âThis school wonât know what hit them.âÂ
âNeither did Alec,â he said with a satisfied smirk. You gave him a reprimanding glare, but it was half-hearted. You didnât actually feel sorry for the prick. âSorry. Too soon?âÂ
âYou know you canât punch everyone that says anything bad about me, right?â
âOf course not. Iâm perfectly capable of kicking them too.â
You rolled your eyes fondly. âShut up and kiss me, Theo.âÂ
ACCIDENTALLY ON PURPOSEâ despite whatâs written on the bathroom stalls, twenty-three year old gojo satoru, is a virgin. this was a well kept secret until he made a drunken social media post spilling his dirty laundry. worried about his standing in the university hierarchy â satoru turns to you, his oldest friend, to save his social life. how? by taking his virginity, of course.
content: a college au, angst if you squint, smut and fluff. gojo being an oblivious dork, afab!reader x gojo satoru, piv sex, fingering, cunnilingus, a brief conversation regarding consent, no power dynamics, reader is called (hot, baby, sweatheart, is shorter than gojo.) all lowercase. word count: 10k
satoru guesses it is nearly five in the morning when his phone chimes three times in quick succession. he immediately regrets choosing a quacking duck as his notification tone, waking with a start and banging the top of his head against his coffee table.
the vibrations occur no more than a few seconds apart, the screen lighting up each time and nearly blinding him from its place on the floor; propped against one of the legs of the violent table. his body is awkwardly contorted, head turned in its direction.
satoru lifts up his head to glance at it â squinting in pain as he tries to focus on the kanji. It darkens before he can see who woke him and he turns up his nose in annoyance when he notices the cracked upper corner of his very expensive cell phone. he runs the heel of his hand roughly against his eyes, wiping the crusted edges in an attempt to clear his blurry vision.
despite not being fully coherent, satoru can tell that heâs hungover. his memory is hazy at best but some of it comes back in short flashes; being at the bar with nanami, drunken coin fumbling to buy another round of shots, someone tossing him on his living room floor and ruining his favorite shirt.
his white leather ottoman is bowing in the middle, obviously broken. the minibar is ransacked and the floor is covered with remnants of the night before: empty beer cans, a plate of chicken bones, a cowboy hat, half-eaten skinless mangos, his favorite jacket, a plastic battle ax, etc.
snoring on the couch and wearing only jeans and one sock, the words MUNCH written in sharpie across his forehead, is geto suguru. a cat that satoru assumes is his now, struts across the top of the couch until it reaches a plastic cup blocking its path.
âoh shit,â he groans, strands of black hair falling out of his top knot and into his eyes. âwhat the hell happened last night?â
satoru goes to shake his head, but the heaviness of it makes him nauseous. he glances over at his friend and then down at himself. âpajama party?â he lays in the same position he originally slept in and the same white button up he remembers wearing (albeit with a few buttons missing).
the two men groan in unison, satoru lifting himself up and using his now broken leather furniture for leverage. vertigo hits him hard and black dots are on the edge of his vision, but heâs able to stumble his way into his kitchen while keeping hold of the contents of his stomach. on his marble countertop are painkillers, candies that heâs sure are from his pantry, and a note. it reads: try not to black out again. you almost killed me for attempting to put you in bed.
satoru raises a brow, recognizing his friendâs font-like handwriting well. how sweet of nanami to look out for them in this way! he makes a mental note to tease him about it later.
satoru pops a candy in his mouth, the hard sugary treat clacking against his teeth. he scrolls down on a search engine for hangover remedies and just as he learns that sugar is apparently not what he should be having (oops?) a new notification appears, grouping with the three from earlier:
INU_NOT_YASHA liked your post.
the notification itself wouldnât be so strange if it werenât inumaki that liked his post. he rarely ever saw the underclassman on the app (and if he did it was watching slime making videos.) satoru can hear the rustling of beer cans as suguru must be removing himself from the floor now, too. another notification comes up and then another:
JLAWFAN39 liked your post
JLAWFAN39 commented on your post: woah gojo-senpai youâre way braver than me. why were your nipples out btw? ://
satoru raises an eyebrow. he hadnât posted a shirtless picture in⊠like three days. (a new record) he goes to respond to the comment and defend his honor, but the next one makes him pause.
NANAMI.KENTOBOX commented on your post: he insisted that they needed to âair out.â
nanami often preached about how much he hated social media, how the instagram account he had was purely for convenience. what would have caused him to comment on one of satoruâs posts? he never had before.
satoru taps on the notification then, wanting to know what the fuss was all about, especially since he was the topic of conversation. what he finds makes him almost drop his phone in the sink.
for starters, he had posted six images at once (which did not fit the minimalist aesthetic heâd curated over the past two years.) one photo is of him, suguru, and nanami in the bar. the more stoic man is begrudgingly standing with his arms crossed. from there, each picture gets progressively more raunchy. until the very last one, a recorded video, starts to play.
itâs definitely him, pulling at his own button up in an attempt to flash the camera. nanami is heard sighing in the background and geto is making weird mouth sounds at what satoru assumes is the mystery cat. âcould you at least give me a warning before you strip?â the blonde man chastises. satoru can hear the sound of him rummaging through his kitchen cabinets.
video satoru lets out a laugh, throwing himself back on the living room floor with the phone raised over him. thereâs a thick thud where his head connects to the ground, one that makes both suguru and nanami wince. âouch!â he whines, pouting at the camera and using his free hand to rub the sore spot on his head. his cheeks are red and his eyes are almost closed, obviously intoxicated.
âiâm soooo lonely, guys. who wants to come keep me company?â satoru instantly cringes at himself. this was definitely embarrassing (and explained the 200 followers heâd dropped in the span of only a few hours) but not enough for him to be concerned, right?
video satoru gets a faraway look in his eyes, the kind that says heâs about to either burst into song or is very deep in his feelings. âdonât any of you get jealous, okay? iâm just kidding! i wouldn't please you, anyway. i donât have the experience.â satoru sees his past self start to tear up and suddenly, he remembers the feeling of laying on his expensive rug and feeling the cool air riddle his chest with goosebumps. he also remembers what he says next for all 4,000 3800 of his followers to see:
âbeing a virgin fucking blows.â
and there it is on the internet forever. his biggest secret. something that only one other person knew about until now, broadcasted on his most used social media platform. shit. shit!Â
suguru has managed to lift himself off the floor somehow, making his way over to the kitchen while holding the street cat in both hands. his sock is practically hanging off his foot now, the black ink on his forehead streaky as if someone ferociously tried wiping it off. âdonât look so distraught, satoru. just make another post saying you were drunk.â
satoru gives this some thought but one look at his dms and he knows he wonât be able to salvage this social nose dive. people were blowing him up asking if the post had any truth to it, if he needed a warm body to fill his bed at night. it was all too much, panic starting to set in.
noticing his friendâs genuine distress, suguru raises a brow. slowly, a smirk starts to appear on his face. âwait⊠is it actually tru-â
âof course not!â satoru interjects, shutting off his phone and flippantly waving a hand in his friendâs direction. he flinches at the volume. âi lost my virginity years ago, you know that. besides,â he grabs the street cat from suguruâs hands and lifts it so that their cheeks are pressed together. âwho needs sex when you have this adorable little thing?â the adorable thing in question immediately tries to squirm out of his grasp.
the smirk doesnât leave suguruâs face and in response he shrugs his shoulders. âalright then, who popped your cherry? you never told me that many details. is it someone we know?â
satoru feels his face redden. âuh, well-â
this is where things get complicated. if he made up a name then suguru would surely grill him on every detail of the encounter, finding holes in his lie. he had to think of someone and fast.
âwell?â the dark-haired man presses, lips still curled in amusement.
in satoruâs defense, he was cornered! he couldnât possibly tell him the truth now, could he? it is a split second decision (the only response he could conjure up) when satoru opens his mouth to say the first name that comes to mind. it is only by pure necessity and recency bias, that it is yours.
judging by the angle of the sunlight filtering in through your cheap blinds, soft yellow that just barely comes over the horizon, it was most definitely too early for you to be awake. you glance over at your alarm clock, the green letters showing that it was without a doubt, too damn early. whoever was pounding at your front door must have wanted a death sentence.
at first, you decide to let their knocking be until they give up, assuming no one was home. one quick glance at the opposite side of your dorm and you see that nobara is nowhere to be found â already up and at her morning class. unfortunately for you, this person was persistent and what was once a pounding of a fist turns into a song of some sort⊠as if they were entertaining themselves until you decided to stop ignoring them.
you consider your options â one of them being whether or not prison is as horrible as they say â and another debating the logistics of jumping out of a third story window and landing directly on concrete. you roll both options back and forth in your head like a mental tug of war â but right as you are about to decide â the knocking stops.
a sigh escapes you as you roll over onto your side, back facing the window behind you. your eyes close and you nuzzle deeper into the warmth that is your bed. before you can appreciate the sudden silence, the shrill jingle of your cell phone blares to life on your bedside table.
âare you-â you slam your hand down on the device and drag it by its tied charms to your side. you donât look at the caller id before you swipe to answer and lift the screen to your ear. âfucking kidding me?!â
âi most certainly am not! good morning to you, too by the wa-â
you immediately hang up at the sound of his voice, letting your phone fall onto the ground. you were not letting that string bean ruin your slumber again. the last time you answered this early, heâd been drunk off his ass slurring about something you donât even remember. not this time! you close your eyes again but the same agitating, grating voice comes out behind a muffled door. it calls out your name in a sing-songy tune, followed by knocks that hit the same melody. âopen up,â he sings, âi know youâre in there~!â
you groan loudly into your pillow.
youâve known gojo satoru long enough to deduce two things about him â he was definitely persistent, and annoyingly patient when he wanted to be. no amount of potential embarrassment could sway him. if you didnât answer now, heâd knock until your neighbors called the police and youâd have to deal with their nagging for weeks; especially from the two sophomores in 1B, they fucking hated you.
you begrudgingly lift yourself up out of your warm bed and trudge to the door. as soon as you open it a flash of what can only be described as a tall shadow moves past your vision so quickly that you almost get whiplash. âthank god,â a voice you recognize chirps, âit took me forever to even get you to wake up.â
you shut your door and turn around to see none other than gojo satoru, your best friend, dressed in his campus hoodie. the same design of hoodie that you had slept in the night before. heâs as handsome as ever, stark white hair and bright blue eyes covered with thin shades. he smiles at you and you return a frown. itâs only then that you notice the plastic bag in his left hand and the familiar brown label on the bottle that pokes through.
âbefore you kick my ass, just hear me out. yeah?â he rolls up the sleeves of his hoodie and you try to not let your gaze linger on his forearms. âhave a seat. iâm gonna set the table.â
satoru places the bag on the table in question (which is just a desk next to your bed) and grabs you by your shoulders to guide you to sit down in your chair. you comply, your half-asleep state focusing only on the sweet cheese danish he places in front of you along with your favorite bottled coffee drink. he pulls out his own goodies and you raise a brow at the very modest bottle of water.
you see, satoru had a vice. one you had known well after your many years of friendship. every morning, without fail â heâd drink the most sugar-induced, whipped cream, caramel drizzled frappuccino known to man. youâd always tease him and ask how satoru still had all of his teeth and heâd just lick the caramel that dripped on his fingertips and give you an annoyingly handsome smile. for him to drink anything without artificial sugar was concerning, to say the least. he sits on the opposite side of you on your bed and starts to tap his fingertips on the desk. he seemed almostâŠnervous? you open your coffee, the plastic top cracking under your hand.
âso,â you lift the bottle to your lips, âwas starbucks closed or somethingâ?â
âi want you to take my virginity.â
you choke on your coffee mid-sip, sputtering as you try to repress a coughing fit. it takes you a moment for you to catch your bearings, grabbing a packed napkin from the bag and pressing it against your now stained hoodie. âshitâ! âtoru, what?â
satoru lays down with his legs spread out in front of him and his elbows keeping him up; the sheets moving beneath him. you can tell by the gleam in his eyes that heâs dead serious. frighteningly so. âi want you to take my virginity! pop my cherry. steal my virtueââ
âstop!â you interrupt him, hand lifting up in front of you as the other places a now soiled napkin on the table. âplease, donât elaborate, satoru.â you press two fingers on the bridge of your nose and take a moment to collect yourself.
âwhat do you mean you want me to take your virginity?â
he rolls his eyes at this, sitting up so that one arm supports him. his hand reaches out to grab your discarded stack of napkins, playing with the ends of the paper. âyou told me once that people should share their first time with someone they care about, that they trust.â he shrugs his shoulders. âi trust you more than anyone.â
you canât believe what youâre hearing. âthereâs more to it than that, toru.â how could he be so calm about this? âyou have to actually love the person to some degreeâ!â
âwho says i donât love you?â
that makes you pause, lifting your head to make eye contact with the man in front of you. he said it in a way that suggests that it was ridiculous for you to believe otherwise.
exasperated, you sigh through your nose. âsatoru, you know what i mean. itâs a different kind of love. you need someone who wants to⊠i donât know! build a life with you or something.â
he laughs at this. âright because when you lost your virginity to maki, it was because you were madly in love?â
âthatâs not the point.â he raises a white eyebrow.
in a way heâs not entirely wrong, you and maki were dating at the time but you never saw a future with her. when you broke up it was amicable, two people realizing that they just werenât all that compatible. still, your point stands. you didnât regret the way you lost your virginity or who youâd lost it to but would the same be said for gojo? could your friendship survive that?
as if sensing that you were thinking entirely too much, a long pale finger flicks your forehead.
âow!â you instinctively look over at the other side of the room â turning away once you remember that nobara is still out for the day. you can practically feel her eyes burning the side of your head because of the noise.
âpay attention! iâm practically giving you my body on a silver platter and you arenât even giving me the time of day?â he suddenly hops (or more accurately steps with his long ass legs) to your side of the table and plants himself on nobaraâs bed next to you, moving your feet to relax on his lap. âiâm not asking you to give me the most mind blowing experience of my life just⊠i want to get it over with.â
(somewhere, nobara feels a shiver run down her spine. a great disturbance only caused by gojo satoru.)
you give him the look he hates, the one that says heâs not getting what he wants. âwhat if this ruins our relationship? i-i have an idea! what if you ask suguru to take your virginity?â
if looks could kill youâd be six feet under. âand get throttled with his bare hands for even asking? besides heâs ugly,â his nose scrunches up in disgust, âyouâre hot and like, soft. you exfoliate.â
âgojo satoruââ
âi also might have told him that you took it already.â
that makes you pause. of course he told the second most popular man on campus. âyou did fucking what?â
âdonât worry about it! i doubt he believed me!â you give the same look from before. âokay, admittedly i could have framed this conversation betterââ
âyou think?â
âbut⊠if i were to be with anyone, why wouldnât it be you?â
you consider this for a moment, covering your face in your hands. maybe if things were simpler, if the two of you were just acquaintances, it would be easier to agree to. but how are you expected to sleep with someone who youâve known since you were freshmen in high school? youâd helped his mom cook dinner, talked to his dad about the family business even when you had no interest. they were like a second family to you.Â
you feel a hand grab your wrist and you look up to see the face of a man you know better than anyone, who you would hate to lose. âdonât look so freaked out! iâm not going to force you or anything so... just think about it?â
you sigh but nod your head, ignoring the pounding of your heart. âalright⊠yeah. iâll think about it.âÂ
you did not think about it. in fact, you did everything in your power to not think about it. that meant burying yourself in your studies and avoiding gojo satoru at all costs, giving the excuse of being busy every time he tried to meet up.
by the time the two of you left your dorm that day, youâd not only found out why exactly he was in a rush to lose his v-card but that the school was now divided on the legitimacy of gojoâs virginity claims. especially since you were allegedly the one to have taken it. geto suguru made quick work of spreading that fact to anyone who would listen.
on one hand, you were happy that satoru had some of the heat off him but that meant that you were getting dms from people youâd never even spoken to before, asking for you to confirm it. eventually you just went private but that made the rumors spread even more. were you two together? friends with benefits? was it just a one night stand?
after a week of this â you started practically barricading yourself in your dorm room, avoiding not only gojo but anyone else that was trying to get the latest news on your relationship. of course, you could only keep this up for so long, message after message hitting your phone. once from itadori on how to use a rice cooker but mostly from satoru asking if heâd made you uncomfortable or crossed a line.
you would say no, that you just needed to focus on your classes, but he didnât take that answer â posting sad bart simpson edits on his instagram story to further prove his point. you hated making him feel this way (even if he was being overly dramatic) but you werenât someone that liked being in the spotlight. satoru had always been popular, adored. you tended to just fade into the background and you liked it that way.
when you try to lift your head, you realize that your face is pressed into the crook of your arm. thereâs a blanket draped over you that you donât recognize and it slips off your shoulders when you start to move from your uncomfortable position at your desk. the blinds of your dorm are open wide enough for pale blue light to peer through them and it blinds you momentarily as your vision clears. the light reflects off of something black and metallic on your right hand, pen stains from last night. gross.
you groan and place your face back into the cocoon your arms have created. you have a class fairly early today but by the color of the sky through your window, that time hasn't come yet. maybe you could get just a few more hours inâŠ
ârise and grind, sleepyhead!" your roommate says way too loudly for the early morning. normally you had no issue getting up, but the cram session from the night before presents itself with the pounding headache you have and the taste of a fruity energy drink on your tongue.
ânobara⊠as much as i appreciate the positivity,â your words are muffled in your arm, âiâm not exactly in the mood for it today.â you let out a sigh, feeling unreasonably hot all of a sudden. âthis weekââ
âi know exactly what happened this week. i think the entire campus knows at this point! i mean, jesus, all you've done is sleep.â you and nobara werenât friends exactly, a frenemies type of relationship if you will, but you could see the obvious concern on her normally stern features, brows furrowed and lips pouty.
she was attractive in an⊠aggressive way. a cute bobbed haircut and a bright, full laugh so contagious you couldnât help but smile when you heard it. she was the type of girl to have both men and women alike on their knees.Â
when you first met nobara she was too focused on flirting with a classmate of yours, and not focused on where she was going. to make a long story short, you both got into an intense screaming match. all of this in the middle of the courtyard, while standing over the box of personal items that you had been carrying to your dorm. it didnât exactly make things easier for the two of you when you found out that you would spend the entire semester together. satoru had to practically hold you both back so you wouldnât start throwing blows. she saw you as a clumsy, irritable nuisance and you saw her as an annoying flirt with too much time on her hands.
somehow over the course of time you two had come to a mutual level of understanding and the hostility slowly dissipated from your living space. now, months later, she was one of the few people on campus that you felt comfortable venting to.
you stretch your arms over your head, ignoring the way her eyes peered down at you in what you perceived as pity. âyeah well the entire campus doesnât know the whole story, do they?â you say with a hint of exasperation in your voice.
she grins. âno, i suppose they donât.â nobara pulls over her own desk chair as you spin yours around to face her. you tuck your knees up to your chest and she gets comfortable across from you. âtell me everything.â
you proceed to explain the events of the week in vivid detail, making sure to emphasize how mortifying it all truly was. she wasnât there, so you had to paint a vivid picture. the determined look he had given you, the early morning bed hair he still had. nobaraâs nose curls at the sound of satoruâs name and she almost has a heart attack when she realizes he sat on her bed. when you explain exactly what satoru had asked from you, she crosses her arms against her chest and her lips curl up on one side. your voice is soft and your cheeks feel warm. even if your face were stoic as ever right now, your anxious hands were a dead give away to how flustered you were.
âhe wants you to take his virginity.â this is a statement, not a question. you nod. âand not only did he lie and tell geto that you already hadâ you nod again, slower this time. âbut youâre considering actually taking up the offer.â
âwell â yeah. pretty much.â
nobara shrugs. âhonestly, i didnât think you had it in you but a dirty mind can come from even the most innocentââ
âwho says iâm actually going to sleep with him?â you interrupt.
she raises a brow. âyouâre not?â
âno! i-i donât know! maybe?â
nobaraâs signature smirk is back and sheâs leaning in closer to you, knees knocking against the edge of your chair. âare you positive?â your friend reaches behind you and grabs one of the sticky notes off your desk. in barely legible writing it reads your first name and then the last, replaced with gojo instead of your own. shit.
it was a joke the two of you made after a long night of studying. nobara had made a comment about how you had a crush on your longtime friend and you didnât exactly deny it. âgojo isnât that bad of a family name. if gojo ever gives you the opportunity, fuck him. hell, you can even marry him if youâre feeling bold! do that thing that americans do where you take his last name.â
you had laughed it off, even though at the time you had been completely committed to maki. it was supposed to be a joke, a little thing between the two of you. now, many months later, itâs obvious you werenât the only one who remembered that conversation.
âi knew you had some type of feelings for him!â she whisper-yells, âis that why youâre so scared to go through with it?â
you canât help the way your lips twitch downwards, breaking your stoic appearance. nobara knew you better than you thought. it was equally flattering and annoying. âfine,â you huff, âyou got me. is this the part where you tell me that iâm gonna get my heart broken? that i should have told him how i felt months ago?â
nobara shakes her head. âobviously not. this is the part where i say that as your friend, i want whatâs best for you.â she leans in impossibly close now, her hands resting against the arms of your chair. you stare into her eyes and the glossy brown color stares right back at you.
âmaybe the only way youâll get over this little crush is by testing out the merchandise or maybe he just feels the same way!â she pauses and you see her dark eyes narrow with mischief. âbesides, youâre practically attached at the hip anyway. heâs come to check on you ten times in the last four days.â
you think of the days this week that youâve hidden behind the door as nobara rattled off an excuse for you, saying that youâd gone to the library or to visit a professor. the times youâd seen him in a hall and took a detour around campus just to avoid awkward conversation. if you were being honest with yourself, you werenât being entirely fair to him.
âyeah, yeah i get it. iâll talk to him.â you lift your hands in defeat, ignoring the way she practically shakes from excitement.
âthank god! do me a favor ân fuck him dumb so that he forgets how to speak, yeah?â
you only shove her away, her laugh filling the room as you turn around to grab your cell phone from your night stand. you turn it on and see a slew of messages:
[12:00 am] toru: u know things are bad when im up this late
[12:30 am] toru: i know ur awake :((
[12:57 am] toru: or maybe you arent? ur dorm light was on earlier
[1:25 am] toru: that sounds so creepy i was just walking by :((( đđ»!!
[1:30 am] toru: i miss you
you let out a chuckle but it comes out more sad than you mean for it to. you missed your friend just as much as he seems to have missed you.
[7:45 am] you: meet me at our place after class?
you donât expect a response to come so quickly, the vibration going off before you can even fully place your phone back on the table.
[7:46 am] toru: iâll be there.
the sharp crunch of torn flesh clear in your ears, the salty juices coating your lips and tingling from spicy red pepper flakes. your plate of chicken is practically empty and you sigh in content as you place down your final bone and wipe your mouth. satoru is sat beside you and for the first time since this whole fiasco you actually see a hint of a smile on his face, watching you enjoy your meal with his own plate nearly empty.
youâre currently sat next to each other in the busy restaurant. everyone who had gotten off of school or work stopped by on their commute home and now itâs so packed that the two of you have no choice but to share a small booth area in the corner. to anyone looking on, you seemed like a normal couple sharing a meal after a long day. it was nice, comforting even, to imagine.
youâre staring down at your plate still, contemplating whether or not you want to order another round. your fingers tap on the table, the surface dented slightly from drunken toasts and sticky with cheap cleaning solution.
you feel a wave of air in front of your face and satoru is looking at you with the same sly grin. he looks so natural like this, warmth radiating from the hand he raised in front of you to get your attention.
âare you sure you donât want to eat the bones, too? maybe suck on the marrow?â
you take a sip of your drink and roll your eyes at him. âlaugh all you want but iâm trying to compensate for a week of surviving off of granola bars and gatorade.â
at the sound of your eating habits, he frowns and you wonder if making that comment was a mistake.
âand why would you do that?â
you shrug a little and play with the bracelet on your wrist, one he gave you only a few birthdays ago. âi wasnât exactly worried about my eating habits. this semester has been draining me so iâve been preoccupied and everyone is up my ass about you, if youâve forgotten.â
âoh, i havenât forgotten. i guess i just⊠started drowning it out? maybe we should just try not to care what other people think about our relationship. itâs just college â none of this will even matter in a few years!â
you raise a brow at him.
âthatâs rich coming from you,â you say, leaning in closer to the man next to you, âall youâve cared about for the past few years is how everyone else perceives you! who cares if youâre a virgin? are you supposed to be some type of playboy because youâre pretty?â
he smiles at you and you immediately regret your choice of words. âyou think iâm pretty?â
âobjectively,â you interject, âyou are objectively pretty.â
âbut iâm still prettyââ
âcan you be serious for once in your life?â
ânot a chance!â
you lean back so that your head is against the booth. âyouâre stalling.â
âand youâre letting me.â
you close your eyes (hoping that if you couldnât see him heâd just disappear) and get even more comfortable in the booth. you two were fairly far away from the rest of the afternoon crowd, the sound of moving plates and chatter filling your mind. you feel at peace sitting in the muffled silence, even though you know that satoru is watching you expectantly. you set up the meeting after all and heâd already said his piece.
you open your eyes and look into satoruâs very blue ones. theyâre mesmerizing, a bit frightening if you didnât know the person behind them.
âsoâŠwhyâd you ask me? to⊠take it, i mean. was i just the easiest option?â
for the first time in the years you have known satoru, he looks genuinely taken aback. maybe because you sprung this all on him suddenly. your mood had been a little sour ever since you guys originally met up so this should have been expected.
he opens his mouth to speak but closes it again and you see his internal battle right in front of your eyes. âyou arenât the easiest option at all.â he murmurs, voice so low you almost missed it.
âwhat?â
âi didnât ask you to fuck me because i thought you were easy. i guess i just wanted you.â you can practically see his jaw struggle to move, as if getting the words out were painful. for a man that was usually so confident to feel any type of timidityâŠ
now itâs your turn to be confused. âsatoru, what the hell are you talking about?â
âjust please, listen. can you do that for me?â
you nod, trying your best to follow directions and let him speak.
with a deep sigh, satoru looks more tired than he did earlier. you miss that warmth already. âiâm not exactly the best when it comes to not fucking up my relationships with people,â he thinks this part over a bit more, âhell if i know what a real relationship is even supposed to be like. what i do know is that it isnât whatever iâd find with someone else so⊠i wanted to try it with you. maybe i saw this as an opportunity to eventually get there? i promise i never meant for any of this to happen, but i panicked. then you started avoiding me and i felt awful. i thought that i ruined everything.â
out of all the things he could have said, you werenât prepared for this.
âi guess i never expected you to not be around. weâre almost always together! and yes, i was being childish and maybe even a little selfish but⊠i really didnât mean to hurt you. you have to know that.â he pouts a little as he says this and you try to ignore how soft his lips look.
âare you mad at me?â you ask.
his expression turns sour, eyes dramatically wide. âno! iâm mad at myself. i shouldnât have put you in this situation. itâs not your responsibility to make me feel better about something i caused. that would be gaslighting⊠is that the word for it?â
you stifle a laugh but nod. âyeah, thatâs the word, toru.â
âlook,â he starts, âiâm tired of pretending weâre strangers and walking around campus like a lost puppy. think of this as a sorry and a thank you for dealing with all my bullshit for the past few years.â
you know heâs serious. can see it in the way he looks at you and the way his eyes shimmer with a certain fire. youâre so used to seeing satoru as this goofy man who you managed to tolerate for the sake of your friendship. someone that you occasionally thought of on nights when you were particularly lonely. now all you see is just how appealing he looks with his pouty pink lips and pretty hair tickling his forehead. you wanted to run your hands through it andâ
ââpull my head out of my ass or he would.â
you blink. âwhat?â
âyou are really distracted today. when i talked to nanami about everything he said i had to pull my head out of my ass or he would.â
this was not the time for you to be drooling over him, not with so many people around.
satoru places a hand on the bare skin of your arm, squeezing the flesh gently before rubbing his thumb over it in small circles. âanyway, i know that itâs a lot to process at once but iâm really just offering here. do you⊠want to try being with me?â
you stare at him for a while but realize the heat of his hand is distracting you. your own hand reaches up to move his off of your arm, but he catches it and places it against his cheek firmly. satoru leans into your touch and hesitantly turns his head to kiss the palm of your hand. he doesnât miss the way your pulse quickens when he starts to kiss down your wrist.
âyou make a good offer, but i think thereâs something i want to add.â you lean in to him to feel his warmth again, so close now that your lips graze his other cheek. you hear his breath quicken but he recovers with a small laugh.
âreally now?â you can hear the smile in his voice, softer now.
you hum in response, your hand drifting down from his cheek to his chin, shifting a blue gaze to yours. âdo you wanna get out of here, toru?â
and it's here in this tiny booth, fingertips pressed against his smooth skin, that you decide to take the leap.
because if gojo satoru wanted his first time to be special â to be with you of all people â then fuck, it was going to be.
satoru is panicking. you can see it in the way that he fidgets with the contents of the bag, reading the labels carefully to make sure he grabbed the right items. youâre sat on his bed, criss-crossed in front of him and everything heâd dumped on the duvet. condoms, lube, water bottles, a bag of candy. everything youâd need for what was to happen next.Â
heâd already spent fifteen minutes on the phone with you at the store asking what kind of condoms you preferred and if a certain lube was better than the other. the attentive, albeit sometimes annoying personality youâd become accustomed to.
you try to ignore the tremble in his hand and the hard swallow he does before he speaks. âso, uhm. i didnât get water based like you said but i have it in my bathroom if you change your mind.â
you smile at him. âtoru, this is fine. perfect actually.â
âare you sure? i donât want to hurt youââ
âyou wonât. iâm not the virgin here, you are.â
âstillââ
âsatoru.â you places your hands on his, rubbing soothing circles on his skin. âplease, i need you to relax. iâll tell you if something feels wrong, donât stress yourself out.â
he nods before letting out a small laugh at himself. âi donât know why iâm so nervous.â
you place the items back in the bag, leaving the condoms and lube on the bedside table. âletâs try and loosen you up then, yeah?â
you tug on his hand so that he moves forward. satoru follows you as you guide him to rest against the headboard and you sit patiently between his thighs. âokay, so we should express some boundaries before we start, yeah?â
satoru nods and tilts his head a little to the side, you canât help but be reminded of the cat you just met thatâs currently resting in the living room. apparently, he named her candy bag. he has no idea where she came from.
âfirst, i want you to know that we can stop whenever you wantââ
âtrust me iâm notââ he interjects.
âif you do, though. weâll use the stoplight system. red for stop, yellow for slow down, green for keep going. understood?â
gojo nods, not realizing that heâs gripping the sheets with his hands. âyeah, i got it. could you... not call me like daddy or anything like that? at least not yet. iâd like it more if you called me nice things or my name.â
âbold of you to assume itâll be that good.â
âiâm aiming to please.â
âiâm sure you are. but, nice things?â you tease with a small smirk, âlike what?â
he shifts under you and you see a rising blush against his cheeks. âyou know, like baby or that name you call meâ âtoru. something like that.â
you nod. âalright, i can do that. for me uh, donât push my head down at any point, okay? it sort of freaks me out.â
he gives you a shocked look and you realize that the implication of what you said just hit him. âwhat?â you awkwardly scratch the back of your neck, âiâm going to at least try to make you feel good.â
satoru smiles at you and his grip on the sheets loosens. âiâm not complaining, just surprised. i guess.â
you roll your eyes. âjust lean back, idiot.â
knowing that the conversation has come to an end, you move to straddle satoruâs hips. thereâs a warmth where he automatically rests his hands on you, fitting against your hips perfectly. âthat feels nice,â you praise. he fails to hide the way he preens underneath you. you make note of it for later.
you lean in close, your breaths mingling and chests almost touching. satoru lets out a shaky breath and you gently cup his cheeks. âcan i kiss you, toru?â he gives you the smallest of smiles but nods, still a little tense.
first you press a kiss to his cheek and then to the corner of his mouth. ârelax, sweetheart⊠touch me.â and he does, his hands gently trailing up your spine and down to the dip of your back. you kiss him then, soft pecks that soon turn deeper as you lips mold together.
heâs a good kisser, almost too good with the way you forget what youâre doing. his tongue is hot and experienced, curling against your own. his teeth nibble at your bottom lip, sucking the flesh into his mouth with a groan. without even realizing it, youâve started to move against his slowly growing bulge, gasping as you feel a familiar throbbing, aching arousal between your thighs.
satoru moves his hands lower to cup your ass, hovering before he gets to the swell of it. âgo ahead,â you say, âi want you to touch me.â
with a firm squeeze of his hands, satoru presses you closer and grinds your front against his own. itâs in this moment that you hear him moan for the first time. itâs a low and breathy sound but now you want to pull every noise from him. you want to hear the deep ones from his chest that you would fantasize about on nights when you were alone â fucking yourself on the silicone toy you kept under your bed. you pull away from him and satoru looks dazed.
âi wanna put my mouth on you,â you pant, âcan i?â
it takes him a moment to realize what youâre asking and then heâs nodding and looking down at the bulge of his pants. you lift yourself up from his legs and grip onto his sweatpants. âjust so you know,â he starts as you tug his pants down, âiâm actually pretty big so just be careful to not hurt yourselfââ he gasps at the feeling of you palming him over his boxers. a shudder moving down his spine when you start to fondle his balls.
âf-fuck okay that for sure feels different when someone else is doing it.â you canât help but laugh and he rolls his eyes at you. âstop making fun of me, iâm in a very vulnerable state right now!â
your fingertips graze his waistband and start to tug down. even though he has already consented, you glance up at him anyway for approval. when he slowly nods, you finally pull his cock free from its place under his boxers and hold in your gasp.
you would not give him the satisfaction⊠but, fuck was he pretty. he wasnât very thick but he was long. soft pale skin until it reached the thick blushed tip. he had a bit of a curve and twitched every time the cold air hit him.
satoru watches as you take him in and feels something stir in his chest. he liked the way you gawked at him, your mouth hovering just barely an inch away and teasingly puffing warm breaths against his already sensitive length.
you examine him more, wanting to see him squirm for a little while longer. and when you finally lean in, itâs to press your tongue to the underside of his clock and drag it up until you reach the tip. satoru letâs out a strangled moan, trying his hardest not to buck his hips into you. you take him in your mouth and use a hand to hold his hip, immediately dropping yourself lower until he hits the back of your throat and his trimmed pubic hair tickles your nose. âf-fuck!â he moans, a hand gripping your shoulder. âbaby, shit- slow down or iâm gonna cum before weâve even started.â
you slowly pull yourself up, tongue smoothing around his tip as he lets out another pretty sound. you decide then that you want to hear it again and reach out a hand to grip his base. his grip on your shoulder tightens as you move faster, bobbing your head around him as saliva collects in your mouth. âyou can take it,â you say with a mouth full of cock, pulling yourself up briefly to speak. âjust enjoy it, âtoru.â
and enjoy it he does, releasing his grip on your shoulder so that he can caress your hair. he makes sure not to pull or tangle his fingers in it for fear of hurting you, just gently feeling your pretty strands against his palm.Â
âfuck, youâre perfect.â he praises, âi knew youâd be perfect.â when you start to rub your thighs together against the bed, itâs hard for him not to notice.
âiâm a fast learner, you know. y-you can teach me what to do. how to â ah â make you feel good. do you want that?â
you respond by squeezing his balls and satoru jumps, his cock hitting the back of your throat and making you gag. he puts his hand on the nape of your neck and rubs the skin as a way of apology. you lift your head and smile at him.
âyou taste good,â you murmur, your lips slick with saliva and precum. satoru thinks he might pass away from the sight. you tug on his shirt, and satoru quickly yanks it off with one arm to toss on the floor. heâs always been thin but itâs only now that you see his toned muscle, the hard contours of his stomach and chest.
following his lead, you reach to tug off your clothes but satoru places his hands over yours. âwait,â he moves them away and grips the hem of your favorite sweatshirt, âiâve always wanted to take this off you. can i?â
you smile and tilt your head a bit. âalways, huh?â
he playfully shoves your shoulder. âshut the hell up. lay back.â
you follow directions, back firmly against the large bed as he pulls your sweatshirt from your head. you arenât wearing anything underneath and he stares at your breasts in what could only be described as awe. you lift your arms to cover yourself, but satoru is faster. his hands move yours to your sides and he situates himself between your legs. âstay still.â he demands, and you do as youâre told.
heâs deliberate in the way he removes the rest of your clothes, making sure to rub his hands together first so that they donât feel icy against your skin, pressing kisses against your thighs as he situates himself between your legs. you have half a mind to clamp them shut as he gets unbearably close to where you want him most. âso wet,â he murmurs, glancing up at you in surprise. âi didnât even touch you.â
you feel heat rising up your neck and face, hoping the darkness concealed the embarrassment on your face. âdidnât have to.â
trying his best (and failing) to hide how pleased he was in himself, satoru reaches over to the bedside table and squirts some of lube on his fingers. he looks up at you for guidance.
ârub them together, warm it up a little,â he nods and you see the slickness seeping in between his long (and recently clipped) fingers.
you show him with your own fingers how to touch you. âuse your pointer finger first and then slowly ease into me, okay? take your time but donât be afraid to tell me if youâre lost.â
satoruâs listens intently, for once not joking as his pointer finger enters your already dripping hole with ease. you make sure to relax further and nod as he starts to gently thrust it into you. âgood job, baby, youâre doing so well.â
his fingers are so long that you start to feel a bit of sweat on your brow, you want him to touch the most sensitive part of you, to have you shaking and crying on his cock, but you knew that this wasnât the time yet. patience was key.
he makes sure to ask you if youâre okay as he adds more fingers, your gentle encouragement turning into pleas. when he leans in to gently stimulate your clit with his tongue, you let out a whimper. âam i doing a good job?â he asks, words muffled as his mouth suckles and licks at your sensitive clit.
you whine, the pace of his fingers quickening after what feels like hours of him easing you open. âfuck, youâre doing so good. keep going, âtoru.â
the inclusion of his mouth on you is almost overwhelming. youâre surprised that he was doing so well despite having only porn for reference. you know heâs being thorough but itâs hard to keep yourself from pushing him down and taking what you want.
satoru can feel you tighten around him. your moans causing his cock to twitch against the sheets. he needs you, craves you. âbaby,â he leans up so that you are face to face, âi want to be inside you now. is that okay?â
you nod your head so quickly he laughs at you. âsomeoneâs eager.â
âshut up and just do it already.â you pout, but he kisses it off your face. partially because he wants to taste you again, and also to distract you from the feeling of his fingers pulling out of you.
âcan i ask you for something?â he murmurs, gently biting on your bottom lip and pulling it into his mouth.
âhm?â you murmur against his mouth, âwhat is it?â
âi want you to ride me,â he says, kissing down to the spot where your shoulder and neck meet. his kisses become rougher, for sure leaving marks on your skin. âi wanna watch you bouncing on top of me, wanna see you make a mess while iâm buried inside you. you can say no but i think iâve touched myself to the thought too many times to not ask.â
you feel your heart jump to your stomach. âyou⊠thought about me?â
âi still think about you. i know you think about me, too.â
you decide to not engage, ignoring the sudden desire to confess something to him. âget on your back then.â you say, pushing into his ribs so that heâd roll over to the side. he looks so pretty like this, lips all red and puffy. you position yourself over him and satoru runs his hands up your stomach.
âhold me for a sec,â you say, grabbing the box of condoms once he has a steady hold on you. you tear open the packaging and ease it on his extremely hard length. he winces as your hand grips him as it goes down but once it seems to be properly secured, you grab some more lube and squeeze it onto him.
you position yourself on top and line his tip up with your hole. for a moment, you see a look of anxiety in his eyes but it quickly turns into determination. âwhatâs your color, toru?â you ask, your hand moving to brush some of the hair from his face.
âgreen. definitely fucking green.â
you feel his grip on your hips tighten and you ease yourself down on his length. he tenses up once he feels the first squeeze of you around him but as you slowly sink down his grip on you tightens and he forgets how to breathe. âh-holy shit why are you so tight?â
you let your hands rest on his chest as you catch your breath, you realize how thankful you are for the prep from before when you shiver at the feeling of him twitching inside you. âc-can i move?â you whimper, feeling his grip release just a bit.
satoru nods his head and you feel him helping you lift yourself up and then back down again, sucking him in from the tip and back down to the base. he lets out a guttural moan that you feel rumble in his chest. he looks up at you with an expression youâve never seen before.Â
âfaster,â he breathes out, âfuck me faster.â
âs-satoru!â you moan, burying your face in his neck as you grind your hips against him.
âwrap your arms around me. i want to try something.â your arms loop around his neck and he plants his feet into the mattress. before you can process the change, he starts to thrust into you at a brutal pace, the air in your lungs leaving you with each thrust. it isnât perfect and it takes a moment for him to get a solid rhythm but once he does you feel yourself relinquish control.
your mouth falls open as you pant into his skin â a thin layer of sweat sticking your bodies together. you feel a familiar pressure between your legs and try your best to warn him. âbaby iââ
âyouâre squeezing me so tight. are you gonna, oh fuckâ!â you canât stop yourself from cumming against him, your release pouring out of you and dripping down on his cock as he continues to fuck your tight hole. the mixture of cum and lube sticky and matting the hair at his finely trimmed base. satoruâs thrusts get sloppy and hurried, his grip on you keeping you from moving away. but you have no intention of running from him.
ât-too t-tight. gonna cumâ!â
satoruâs releases into the condom, his hips jolting with each thick spurt. his pace slows as you whine and whimper against his chest. your fucked out body barely registering the hot, sticky mess between you two. âsorry, i think i might have scratched you,â you whisper, finger grazing over a red line in his shoulder.
âitâs alright⊠just lay here with me for a sec.â you nod your head weakly, pressing your face into his neck. you decide to talk about things in the morning but that doesnât stop him using a warm rag to clean you off and giving you one of his shirts to sleep in.
he also forces you to drink a few gulps of water. some of it spills out the sides of your mouth and he makes you laugh when he sticks out his tongue to lick it up. he then makes sure that you take care of your hair before you fall asleep, keeping it protected under a bonnet. heâs attentive and gentle, so far beyond what you imagined heâd ever be towards you with his usually goofy personality.
that is until you wake up the next morning and see a few messages light up on your phone.
[8:00 am] toru: âżïž”âżïž”âżïž”âżăœ(°âĄÂ° )ă me drowning in your pussy last night lol
[8:10 am] toru: jk plz come help with breakfast i burned the pancakes.
letâs just say that you appreciate the attempt.
over the next few days, you talk a bit more about the state of your relationship. if you wanted to be open about it online or if you wanted to let things fizzle out on their own. eventually, after setting more than a few ground rules, you both agree to be discrete. you'd let everyone else figure it out in their own time.
this doesn't halt satoru's social media presence, though, the man posting a photo of the new feline addition to his family. he easily gains back his two hundred followers thanks to âexploiting his new childâ as you put it.
the future looked promising, but there were still things you both had to work through to make your relationship work. it was going to be hard navigating life as lovers instead of friends but if anyone were to ask you â it was well worth the effort.
note: so if this looks familiar, it is! this is a repost. i unfortunately deleted this fic on accident so, here it is again. it felt like the perfect opportunity to reformat and change some things so hopefully you guys like it. this is the longest fic iâve ever written and it holds a special place in my heart. thanks for reading.
also ty to @saintshigaraki for originally inspiring this story.
TODOROSIE. all original work. do not plagiarize, translate, or repost. this includes feeding my work to ai apps and sites.
a/n: fluff, pining, childhood friends to lovers, reader was in the same orphanage as wriothesley when they were kids, mild codependency (?)
happy wishing everyone! â§âĄâŠ
Amongst the hundreds of books stored in the Duke's office, none hold a place in his heart quite like the dusty old atlas you gave him when you were children.
It's old and worn, something aged with the faint scent of Tidalga wafting as the pages turn. To an outsider, the atlas almost looks like garbage, or rather, exactly what it isâthe only crappy book in the entire vintage shop that you could afford with your terrible allowance.
He doesn't see it that way.
It's a precious commodity to him, something he holds in high regard (despite the way he's glued the spine together on nearly a dozen occasions with the amount of times he's flipped through it).
Wriothesley is not a sentimental man. Growing up the way he did taught him not to grow too attached to material belongings.
There are few things in the world he would consider treasures: his boxing gloves, for one, though that's a given. His growing tea collection that originally started as a treat he would spend coupons on, but somehow evolved into a hobby.
And lastly, but perhaps most importantly, the map of Teyvat you gave him in the orphanage you came from. Because it wasn't only a birthday gift, it was something infinitely more meaningful than that.
He remembers that birthday fondly: he was twelve and you were ten. You'd snuck into his room beyond curfew and lights out, sheltered yourself under his blanket, and shoved the poorly packaged gift bag into his hands.
The two of you spent the entire night going through the pages, amazed at how giant the world truly was outside the confines of your orphanageâimagined how freeing it would be to explore it with nothing but your pair of feet and each other.
"One day," you breathed with excitement bubbling in your voice, "We'll leave this place and travel all across Teyvat."
It wasn't just a promise to see the world. It was a promise to see it together.
For a boy who had nothing at all, what you offered him was like placing the universe itself in his hands. And even at twelve years old, with you and that book sitting between his legs and a blanket thrown over his body, he knew he'd found a dream.
The older he got, the more he clung to that.Â
You were the one he came back to when he was lost. The one who made the orphanage a home. The one who gave him a raggedy atlas of the world and whispered purpose into him.
Something to cherish. Something to protect. Something to love in this world when he had little to spare.
Though time had changed everything in his life, he still found it hard to abandon the welded pieces of your conjoined hearts.
Unlike Wriothesley, you had chosen to return to the surface after you finished serving your sentence.
It was lonelier beneath the crushing pressure of the sea without you. He made sure you knew that, too, always bringing it up whenever you came by to visit in the most nonchalant ways.
The Fortress of Meropide was a home both of you had discovered after years of being without one. "Come home already," he used to complain when he was still just a regular inmate and you were dropping by with a care package. "I miss you."
Nowadays, he made certain you understood the gap in his heart without you by other means. Like, say, when he would invite you personally to his office for a cup of tea and some cake, which was a rare treat you missed out on as kids.
Once, you called him out for attempting to bribe you back down into the iron fortress which he, of course, denied with his chest. Still, you never failed to make the trip down despite your outspoken disinterest in being back in the prison, and his weak offer of sweets since you now worked at one of the most prestigious bakeries in the city.
You had initially greeted him this time with your hands all over him, arms wrapped so tightly around his neck in a hug that he could barely breathe. Sweet smiles and kisses pressed to his cheeks and fingers pinching his noseâevery action endearing and a remnant of your childhood spent together.
Now, you're seething in the office at his simple question: how are things on the surface?
"... That's when I turned to Lady Furina and, get this, she somehow ate every pastry I'd brought in a matter of seconds!" You huff, pacing back and forth in front of Wriothesley's desk while you rant about your latest visit with the Archon.
Furina was often in your schedule in one way or another, and almost always she wanted you to bring along sweets from the shop you worked at.
Wriothesley finds humour in your woes, following you around in your pacing with his arms folded over his chest.
"You know, you could just show up to your audiences with her without treats."
"She would call high treason and toss me back in prison!"
The Duke just snorts, earning him a well-deserved glare. Even with the pull of your lips into a thin line and the narrowing of your eyes, he thinks you look like a breathing angel under the warm orange light of the office.
There was nothing in the world you could do that would make him stop loving you. Not even glaring daggers at him like he's your mortal enemy.
"You're exaggerating," he hums, trailing behind you once again as you pace around the desk.Â
He nearly bumps into your back when you suddenly halt in your steps, attention stolen from the conversation. The hands that were flailing around in the air to animate your anguish drop to your sides.
Wriothesley peers curiously over your shoulder at what has caused you to stop so abruptly.
Oh. Oh, Archons. He can sense the heat rising to his ears.
He feels as though he's been spotted in vulnerability, even though that isn't at all what has happened and that you would be the last person to judge him even if he was.
But he feels seen. Caught in the act of sentimentality just because you've picked out the book you gave him all those years ago when all you had was each other.
"You still have this?" You gawk, pulling the atlas from its prestigious position on his bookshelf. It's in a spot that he can always see as soon as he enters the roomâin his direct line of sight, he has a part of you with him.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"Well, I just thought..." You consider the words for a moment, tasting them in your mouth before admitting embarrassingly, "I just thought you'd have thrown it out for a newer atlas. You know this is out of date, right? Half the oasis in Sumeru is covered in sand now."
"Why would I ever throw it out?"
"It's old," you lament again.
"And?"
"And... you can't even use it?" Your statement comes out more as a question and he can't help but roll his eyes.
"I can still use it," he insists.
You raise a brow, slotting the book back into its regular spot. "Good luck. When are you ever going to have time to do that, oh great and powerful Lord of the Fortress of Meropide?"
He ignores your little jab, as he's gotten so good at throughout his life. There's a sense of familiarity that rises in his chest, a strange nostalgia that drives him to open his mouth once more.
"Actually, about that..."
You turn to look at him again, hand coming up to brush the hair from his eyes. You always used to scold him for not taming it better. Now it seems permanently stuck as a fluffy mess.
"What is it?"
Your fingers graze his skin and he falls apart on the spot, feeling as though you had just tipped him over the edge of the cliff he's been too afraid to dive off of.
His hand catches yours, holding it just beside his cheek for a moment before lowering it to his side and tugging you just a little closer.
If he didn't ask now, would he ever?
"Let's leave this place," he murmurs, reciting the dream you promised him when he was twelve years old. "Let's travel all across Teyvat."
The silence that follows is so loud that it makes his ears ring. For a moment he falters, thinking he may have misread the situation and in turn whatever feelings he thought you may have harboured for him.
But then you take a daring step forward, nearly flush against his body. There's a look of wonder in your eyes that makes his heart race.
"Just you and me?"
"Just you and me." Just us.
There's a heavy implication behind that and you both know it. More than a proposal to chase a dream of bygone days, it's starting to sound like a confession. In his own roundabout ways, of course.
He can see the hitching of your breath, the subtle widening of your eyes, and all he wants to do is laugh at how seriously adorable you look.
"And what about the Fortress?"
"People here are less problematic nowadays than you may think."
"Won't the paperwork back up?"
"I can deal with it whenever I come back."
"Why me?"
Another silence.
"You ask too many questions," he says quietly, dodging your interrogation. In reality, he already has an answer. It's instantaneous, resting comfortably in his mouth but never leaving.
Why would it ever be anyone else?
He's having trouble focusing on anything right now with your chests so close together and his thumb running along your knuckles.
"Wriothesley," you say his name and it sounds like honey, the sweetest thing in all of Teyvat. And the look you're giving him, so touched and melting into nothing but a smiling messâhe isn't sure his heart can handle this. "I can't believe you remembered that."
"You kiddin'?" He laughs, slowly closing the distance between you. "It's all I've thought about my whole life."
He watches you carefully as you swallow down the lump in your throat. Your hand squeezes his and that's when he knows he's got you. You kiss him and he can feel the curve of your lips, the ever growing smile on your face meeting his. His knees are on the verge of buckling by the time you pull away.
"Surely you'll miss this place in your absence. This is your home now, isn't it?" You tease.
"Well, you know what they say." He gives you a grin so wide that his eyes crinkle. "Home is where the heart is."
It didn't matter if you were braving a sandstorm or the rainforest or the depths of the sea.Â
Wherever you were, you would be his dream. You would be his home, tooâjust as you always had been for as long as he could remember.
Wrio the slay calling reading clingy so reader sleeps on couch âŠđ thx
x : DISTANCE :*+ïŸ
in which: you overhear wriothesley calling your affection too much, so you respect his wishes and give him some space. yet, why does he not seem like it?
warnings: 5.6k words (why did it get so long), hurt/comfort, gn!reader and wriothesley are married, pet names, no spoilers but set in canon, misunderstandings and miscommunication af, slowburn??, you might tug your hair out at some parts lol sorry, fluff with angst but happy ending, it gets emotional.
a/n: okay this was definitely not my favourite piece, i was experimenting with writing styles and writing in an omnipresent pov... so sorry if it feels clunky at some bits. overall, i'm pretty happy! also sorry for not sticking to the original prompt
Perhaps today was a bad time, you think as you leave the Fortress of Meropide, anxiety churning in your stomach and doubt weighing on your mind. Despite Fontaineâs sunrays shining brightly upon you, you feel anything but warm. Â
What started as a visit to your husband with kind, wholesome intentions of delivering some lunch to him on your day off ended with a visit that left you riddled with questions. Coming at a time when he was in a meeting nearing its end, you didnât even get the chance to speak to him, yet his words rattled around your head, replaying like a broken disc.Â
âHow are you and your spouse?â A rich voice echoes from his office, door slightly ajar signifying that whatever discussion was happening within was coming to an end.
âY/n and I? Weâre amazing, thank you,â Wriothesley answers. âIâm always happiest whenever Iâm with Y/n.âÂ
The company, who you have realised is Monsieur Neuvillette, responds. âThatâs good to hear.â
âAlthough, Y/n has been quite⊠affectionate recently, to the point that itâs borderlining too much-â
The conversation is drowned out by a ring of an alarm on Wriothesleyâs desk and the atmosphere from his office suddenly grows in tension. The voice of the two men turn from relaxed to alarmed in a matter of seconds, and that is when you decide it is probably time to take your leave, lest you intrude on whatever emergency has happened.
Dropping the lunch you brought for Wriothesley at reception, even the receptionist was confused by how quick your visit was since they typically lasted for an hour- even longer since Wriothesley likes to push the amount of time he gets with you. They donât question it, though, merely nodding in understanding when you tell them to drop it off for him on your behalf.
Has Wriothesley always thought of your affection as too much? If it was overwhelming him, why didnât he tell you? And why Neuvillette, the Chief Justice of Fontaine, of all people? You understood the nature of their relationship- how they both tend to confine in each other with whatever they are troubled by, but why couldnât your husband come to you about this directly? You made an oath on your wedding day to be fully honest with each other and to never hide anything. Where did that promise go?
Arriving home with a heavy heart, you immediately flop onto the couch, arm covering your eyes as tears sting the corners of your eyes. Perhaps itâs time you lessen your displays of physical affection before you drive the love of your life away.
Wriothesley, looking down at the contents of your boxed lunch, feels his heart warm in his chest at your display of care. How fortunate he is to have someone like you, he thinks before eating, satisfying his hungry stomach that has been aching for food since half an hour ago. He wonders why you didnât see him personally and dropped it off instead, he would have liked to eat with you beside him. Â
Whatever the reason, heâll make sure to drop by your favourite bakery to purchase some conch madeleines as a thank you.Â
When he returns home later in the evening, youâre asleep on the couch, curled up with only a book on your chest to protect you from the chilly air seeping into the house. Wriothesley quickly lays his coat over you, bookmarking the page you were at before retreating to change into more relaxing clothes. You still have not roused when he returns and as much as it pains him to disturb you, he doesnât want you napping too late lest it disturbs your sleep schedule.
âY/n?â He gently shakes you. Slowly, you come to wakefulness, eyes fluttering open as you gaze up at your husband.
âWriothesley? Youâre home?â You murmur, rubbing your eyes whilst slowly sitting up. âWhat time is it?â
âNearing six in the evening.â
âOh my! I didnât mean to sleep that long! Iâll go get dinner ready, you should rest, you must have had a long day-â
Silencing you with a warm kiss to your forehead, you donât melt into it like you usually would, his words from earlier slamming back into you like a brick. He doesnât notice the way you tense, merely brushing your hair away from your forehead.
âDonât worry about dinner, Iâll cook,â Wriothesley offers, grabbing something he left on the table behind him. âHave some madeleines I bought for you whilst you wait.â
He places a bag of the baked goods in your hands and you smile at him, lips chapped and eyes still drowsy, yet Wriothesley thinks youâre the most beautiful being to ever exist.Â
âThank you,â you murmur.
âIâll call you when dinnerâs ready.â The dark-haired leaves you with another kiss to your temple before turning around to go into the kitchen. However, you stop him with a tug on his wrist which you drop almost immediately when he turns around, acting as if his skin was an open flame that licked you.Â
âDarling, you have a sticker on your arm.â You reach up to grab the piece of adhesive, ripping it off him in one smooth motion.Â
âThose melusines,â he murmurs, rolling his eyes with a hint of a smile tugging at his lips. For how much Wriothesley scolds them, he cannot bring himself to actually get mad at them, letting the little creatures play pranks instead of reprimanding them.Â
âIâm surprised they keep getting by you. Maybe you need to sharpen your instincts.â
âQuiet, you,â thereâs no bite to his words.
âThey put a little crab on you,â you giggle. âMust be going through an ocean-themed sticker book. You had a little shell on you yesterday.â
âI did? Why didnât you tell me?â
âI find it funny.âÂ
He sits down beside you, dinner momentarily forgotten. âDo you now?â The dark-haired murmurs. âTurns out my own spouse is against me also.â
âIf it brings me amusement, why not let the melusines play their pranks a little longer?â
âYou are an awful influence,â Wriothesley winds his arms around your torso, pushing you down into the pillows of the couch. There, you almost sink into him, lured by the warmth of his embrace, but the memory of what you overheard sinks into your gut like an icicle, and your smile fades.
You pat his shoulders in surrender. âShouldnât you be working on dinner, dear? Itâs already quite late.â You pray he doesnât notice the way you have suddenly altered the mood, drying the playful atmosphere.
If he does notice, he doesnât comment on it, getting up with a groan before retreating into the kitchen.Â
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Thereâs a whistle from the doorway to your bedroom, low and appreciative, and the culprit is no one other than Wriothesley. He walks towards you, draping himself over your figure sat in front of the mirror. âWhere are you going tonight?â
âClorinde and I are going to dinner together,â you tell him nonchalantly, as if all of his weight wasnât on your shoulders right now.Â
He pouts. âWhen will you be home?â
âNot too late, thatâs for sure. Weâre meeting at the other side of the Court of Fontaine, though.â
âAn evening without my love, whatever shall I do?â
âYouâll live,â you smile before raising a necklace up to him. âHelp me put this on?â
With a huff, he raises himself off your back and gently takes the jewellery from your hands, careful with the jewels that adorn it. His cold touch grazes against your exposed skin, sending shivers down your spine as he successfully clasps it together. When you meet his gaze in the mirror, itâs full of adoration and admiration, and you have to busy yourself with your hair lest it flusters you too much.Â
Standing up, you swiftly walk out of the bedroom and towards the front door. Wriothesley trails behind you without much thought. âIâll get going now before Iâm too late.â
âDo you need me to accompany you there?âÂ
âItâs alright, thank you for offering.â Disappointment floods him like an ocean as he watches you put on your shoes. With one final fidget of your clothes, you deem yourself presentable and turn to him. âSee you tonight, darling-â
â-Arenât you forgetting something?â
âWhat?â Your eyes widen in alarm as you begin frantically patting yourself down. âI brought my wallet, keys? Theyâre here, what am I forgetting?â
Wriothesley pretends like your cluelessness doesnât hurt more than it actually does. He taps his cheek. âA kiss.â
âOh, of course. How could I be so careless?â you laugh, the corners of your eyes scrunching with delight. Wriothesley has a remark resting on the tip of his tongue but it quickly dies when you step forward, anchoring your hand on his chin before you press a kiss to his cheek; to both cheeks for good measure.Â
âLove you,â you murmur when parting.Â
The desire to keep you home is a burning one, and pleads of âstayâ threaten to spill from his mouth. There is nothing more he wants than to be in your arms, to cling to you until the weekend is over in the blink of an eye, but you are your own person, and no matter how needy he is, Wriothesley should not stand in the way of your fun.Â
âI love you more,â he sighs, holding open the front door for you. âBe back soon.â
âIâll try. Bye dear!â You blow him a kiss before walking out of your garden. Â
He watches you leave with a heart heavy with longing, closing the front door once youâre out of sight and tries to sigh the feeling of emptiness away.Â
Later that night, Wriothesley greets you the second he hears the front door being unlocked, urgent strides allowing him to turn the corner just as you open the door, looking as pristine as you did when you left. Thereâs a small, tired smile on your face, but you look happy, blissful expression brightening when you see him.Â
âHello, love,â you say, slipping your shoes off.
âWelcome back,â he says, embracing you with one, muscular arm whilst pulling you in for a kiss. Your hands unusually fly up to hold his shoulders and Wriothesley thinks heâs imagining the way you push him slightly, as if trying to get him out of your personal space. Yet your grasp on him was so tight, creating temporary divots in his skin that he doesnât really know what youâre trying to do.
Why are you trying to push him away in the first place? The thought of you not wanting him near is upsetting enough to make him unknowingly tighten his grip around you, causing you to stumble into him from the momentum.Â
You look up at him, shocked whilst he gazes down at you with a storm of terror gathering in his eyes. For the first time since the two of you got married all those years ago, a rift forms.
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Whatever occurred that night isnât a topic of conversation, ever. The two of you retreated to bed after a quick conversation of how your evenings were before devolving into other topics, like what the week ahead had in store, restaurants you two should visit sometime, new boutiques and bakeries youâve been hoping to explore- little chats that hold more meaning as the days roll by.
During it all, there was an undeniable heaviness to the conversation that made it slightly uncomfortable. Wriothesley cannot remove the memory of how you tried to push him away and you cannot forget the shocked look in his eyes. The more you picture it, the guiltier you feel, heart sinking in your chest.
You thought that it was what Wriothesley wanted: more space from you, an opportunity to breathe without you overwhelming his space.
So why do you feel so bad about respecting his wishes?
âWhat a lovely view!â You exclaim excitedly, running toward a patch on the grass that sits a few metres away from a nearby beach, the sound of waves meeting shore a soothing lullaby and a testament to how calm the day is. The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and youâre out on a picnic with the love of your life.
âHereâs a nice spot to set up, what do you think, Wriothesley?â You ask.
âSounds amazing, darling,â he responds, setting down the picnic basket when youâve laid out the blanket. You sit down with an unglamorous huff, leaning back onto your hands to let the morning sun soak into your features.
Morning picnics were one of yours and Wriothesleyâs favourite date ideas. The best time to be together was before the sun would rise to its highest peak, bearing hot sunrays that make everything uncomfortable for everyone. Fontaineâs sun is never merciful either, which is why the nation is perfect for diving and all other water-related activities, but when you are simply walking around, it becomes rather suffocating.
The Fortress of Meropideâs administrator takes a seat beside you and you indulge by resting your head on his shoulder, hoping that he isnât uncomfortable under your touch. The dark-haired hasnât shaken you off yet, so you keep resting against him.
âHow did you discover this place?â You ask.
âSiora told me of it, said that a passenger on the aquabus was talking to her about it. She thought that it sounded like a delightful place to take you to,â he answers and you canât help but smile, fiddling with your fingers.
Melusines and their wholesome ways. Youâll find a way to thank Siora later. âHow kind of her and how fortunate for us.â
âI take it you like it here then?â
âI love it,â you tuck your legs closer to your chest and Wriothesley leans back on his arms as well, letting your hands rest beside each other as the sea continues to crash on the shore before you. There are seals resting nearby too, ships pass by here and there, and seagulls stop near the two of you before flying away, but the only thing that matters to Wriothesley is you leaning on his shoulder.
Sharing with him the breakfast sandwiches you packed, no words are exchanged, merely the sound of waves crashing against the shore occupy the tranquil silence. Itâs not until a few minutes later that Wriothesley speaks.Â
âWill you be visiting me at the office today?â He asks.
You tear your gaze away from the horizon. âPerhaps. Do you want me to?â
âWould I really be asking if I didnât?â
âPlease, forego the sass, your grace,â you snort and he rolls his eyes, an affectionate smile pulling on his lips.Â
âSeriously though, I would like you to. You know how dreary and boring weekends at the prison get, would be much better having you there.â
âAre you trying to butter me up?â
âIs it working?âÂ
âMaybe,â you mutter, grinning. âWould you like me to bring lunch with me or shall we go find a place to eat?â
âHow about takeout? Hey wait, now that I think about it, why didnât you stay the other day when you brought lunch for me? I would have much rather seen your pretty face than the receptionistâs.â
You ignore the butterflies blooming in your stomach because of his compliment. âAn emergency happened just as I reached there. I didnât want to be caught in the middle of it, so I left.â
Confusion shines in his eyes, his expression giving away the cogwork ticking in his brain as he tries to pinpoint what emergency you could be referring to. When the pieces click, his eyes widen a little. âI see. You did the right thing, my love,â he presses a kiss to your cheek.Â
âIâll visit you today,â you whisper, toying with the hem of your clothes as you wait for his response.Â
âAmazing. Iâm looking forward to it, thenâ
You stay true to your word, walking down the path you recognise like the back of your hand. The guards need not think twice about welcoming you in, guiding you straight in the direction of Wriothesleyâs office.Â
Since being with him, youâve grown less and less afraid of how daunting the Fortress can feel, adapting to the chill knowing that there is someone in there who will set himself ablaze to keep you warm. Yet, today you walk in with apprehension clasped around your ankles, threatening to pull you under with each step.Â
Itâs ridiculous, you know Wriothesley would never turn you away or shun you, but the mind is the worst enemy and yours canât stop replaying the conversation you overheard weeks ago. You know Wriothesley could open those heavy doors of his and greet you with something more grim than loving and cast you aside, and you have to hold your breath when the guards knock on your behalf.
Your heart skips a beat when they push open the doors, revealing your husband crouched over his desk, hands mussed in his hair to keep them out of his eyes. He looks up at you and the way a smile manifests on his features is akin to that of fire melting ice, fatigue dissipating as you step inside his office. Â
âHello, dear,â you greet, tone soft and controlled, unlike the thrashing of your gut.
âHi,â he stands up and takes great strides towards you. Naturally, you open your arms for him; unnaturally, you merely hug him instead of greeting him with a kiss. Wriothesley keeps you locked in his arms as he digs his nose into your neck and you feel the way his eyes flutter close against your skin.
âLong day?â
âDraining too,â he murmurs.Â
âOh dear, we cannot have your grace tired, whatever shall we do!â You gasp overdramatically, clearly poking fun at him because you are perhaps one of the only people who could do so in this entire building.Â
The dark-haired accepts it and doesnât bother to correct your use of formalities. Instead, he retracts his head out of your neck to look at you with hopeful eyes instead. âYou could give me a kiss.âÂ
âDid you do anything today to earn it?â
âI need to earn my kisses now?â
âYou should shut up sometimes,â you murmur before placing your hands along his jaw, pulling him in for a gentle kiss. He smiles against you, biting back a quip when his hand comes to the base of your neck, holding you against him. You can tell he needed the proximity, judging by his little exhale and the way his shoulders slouch, so you let him take his time and ignore the nagging in your heart.
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Wriothesley is losing his mind. He has been since you left the Fortress of Meropide, and was left to freeze in the ache of your lack of affection. A goodbye kiss is customary between you two and when you didnât give him one before leaving, it felt like a slap to the face. He would have much rather you just slapped him, actually, so what gives?Â
Youâre not rejecting his advances, but youâre not explicitly initiating anything either. Does that mean he should back off, too? Did he do something to upset you, and if so, when? All this thinking and speculating is making him feel like a pathetic headless chicken who canât even talk to his spouse-
â-Wait!â You exclaim, just as he was about to grab the knob to the front entrance and step out. Instead, Wriothesley turns around to be greeted by the sigh of you frantically scrambling to him, and his heart canât help but come alive, silencing his thoughts.
Stopping to a slide before him, he canât hold back a soft grin. Despite just wrangling out of the claws of sleep, youâre so breathtaking, delicate in the mornings when no one else is around but him. The dark-haired is grateful that only he is able to witness you like this, that you trust him with this vulnerable side of you.
You donât meet his gaze, eyes pinned to his chest instead. âYour tie is crooked,â you murmur hands reaching out before he even gets a chance to look down. âLet me help you.â
How can he deny such a kind request of yours? Youâre gentle with him, undoing his knot and weaving it together until it looks proper, but Wriothesley couldnât care what his tie looks like. You could be making a total fool of him and he wouldnât care, too entranced by your glow to tear his eyes away from you. Thereâs a little scrunch in your forehead as you concentrate, mouth slightly parted and youâre not oblivious to his gaze either, too familiar with the intensity of it to get shy.Â
Finally satisfied with your work, you let go, patting his shoulders and smoothing out any wrinkles in his garment. âThere. All done.âÂ
âThank you, dear,â he murmurs.Â
Wriothesley is expecting a kiss from you, waits for the moment that youâll rise onto your toes and place a peck on his lips to fill him with some energy for the day. He waits for the familiar feeling of your lips pressing against his, and waits for the rush of adrenaline that your touch always manages to ignite.
Except it never comes, and it hurts most to confess that some part of him preempted this. You step away from him without another word, or kiss, and his heart burns at your retraction, unease fluttering the lining of his stomach when you turn around to retreat into the living room. Wriothesley moves without thinking, a hand coming up to your waist to stop your steps as he forcefully pulls you back to him, capturing your lips in a searing kiss, one far more intense than the ones you usually give this early in the morning.Â
You notice the desperation that bleeds from him; a certain fervour uncharacteristic in situations of morning domesticity.Â
Thereâs a bright glimmer of surprise in your eyes when he pulls away, as if he had kissed away all your fatigue and shocked wakefulness into you.Â
âHave a good day at work,â you murmur, barely able to choke the words out.Â
âI will,â he replies, opening the door. You stay and watch him go, still trying to recover your breath over his passionate display of affection.Â
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The day his racing thoughts get to him is the eighth day of this strange treatment of yours. At this point, heâs become insatiable, barely able to hold it together as you remain in the centre of his world. He wants your affection again, he wants your displays of love, he wants you near him so badly that itâs driving him up the walls of the Fortress.Â
Itâs irrational for him, a grown man, to skirt around his problems as if he was a teenager. For some reason, Wriothesley has no issue locking up and containing some of Fontaineâs most dangerous criminals, yet when it comes to you, he becomes a lovesick fool who craves everything his partner can give.Â
You still are not initiating any displays of affection, keeping to yourself unless it is him acting first.Â
But after being locked in his own study for hours, unable to distract himself from you when he was really meant to be reading some new court documents from Neuvillette, he snaps. Pushing his chair out with more force than necessary, he searches for you in the living room, where you are curled up in the corner, reading.
âIs everything alright?â Wriothesleyâs interruption shocks you, and you jolt your head up to meet his gaze.Â
You are met with the sight of him leaned against the wall, muscular arms crossed over his chest. âWhy wouldnât they be?â You ask, not letting your gaze linger for too long on his arms before sitting up just a little straighter.
âDunno. Just double checking.â
âOkay,â you hum softly, nodding. âAre you alright?â
âMe?â How could you switch this up on him so quickly?
âYeah.â
âFine, amazing, just dandy.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow at your husband, not truly believing him but you decide itâs best not to press on. âAlright⊠but if anything is wrong, donât be afraid to tell me.â You go back to your book and your hair falls perfectly in front of your face to hide it from him.
Wriothesley shifts his weight from one leg to the other, trying to find the words to speak up and ask why you were acting so weird. Itâd been two hours and twenty-four minutes (and counting) since you last saw him when he disappeared into his study, were you not concerned for him in the slightest? Sure you dropped off a plate of fruit and refilled his teapot with hot water, but normally your check-ins would be a little more frequent, and a little more encouraging than just a morale boost through food.Â
Where was the cheek kiss you always gave him before you left?
Deciding not to press on any further, your husband sighs before leaving, his arms and heart feeling emptier than usual. You are only in the next room, but why do you feel like youâre on the other side of Teyvat?
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The day Wriothesley snaps is the day Sigewinne asks him to be nicer to the guards of the Fortress because his foul mood is darkening the already glum prison. His subordinates must have sent her knowing that he couldnât possibly lash out at her, and they were right, but she really didnât need to comment on the way his veins have been more prominent recently, or how creases are forming on his forehead from how hard heâs been scowling. To top it off, she said that he should delay the appearance of wrinkles for as long as necessary, because thereâs a good chance theyâll come earlier than he wants.
Heâs not even a day over thirty, and yet, he is being reprimanded for âageingâ. But he knows the problem, and heâll be damned if he lets it drag out for another day.Â
âWelcome home, baby-â your greeting is cut off unceremoniously by your husband, who practically drags you into his embrace, closing you in with no space for you to breathe or move. Your cries of alarm are muffled against his chest, and he easily picks you up before striding the path to your shared bedroom. There, he all but throws you onto the bed, your neck resting on the pillows as he climbs on after you. âWriothesley?â
He shushes you.
âWhat-â
â-I need this,â he wraps around you like a vine and breathes you in with the fervour of a man starved.Â
When you try to shuffle away from under him, or at the very least sit up, Wriothesley groans, borderlining a growl as he tightens his arms around your middle. You donât question or disobey his wants, merely sinking your head into the pillows in understanding that he must have had a particularly rough day.Â
So instead of repelling his touch, you give in and let a hand snake up to his hair, playing with it as you let Wriothesley lay atop you. Slowly, the tension in his shoulders melts away, and the way youâre scratching his scalp is enticing him to rest, except there is a barrier keeping him from reaching a haven of dreams and he wonât rest peacefully until heâs broken through it.
âWhy have you been so distant lately?â He garbles, voice a lot shakier from the usual stoic Wriothesley that you are used to.
You heard him loud and clear, but a pathetic âpardon?â slips past your lips.
âI said, why have you been so distant lately?â This time, heâs firm, determination seeping into his tone as a hand of his sneaks out from underneath you to search for your hand. After patting around, he finds it and holds it gently, raising it to press a long kiss to your knuckles.Â
Itâs silent. You donât have anything to say in response and itâs past the grace period where you can give an excuse and make it sound like the truth, and Wriothesley looks up at you with expectant eyes. Thereâs hurt in them but as much as youâd like to mend the heartbroken expression of his, admitting the truth is difficult, because it has eaten you alive, gnawing at your heart for days on end.Â
âIâŠI donât have it in me to tell you,â you murmur quietly, looking away and slipping your hand out of his, but Wriothesley is tired of this dance of yours and chases after your touch, this time roughly grasping your wrists. Not enough to hurt, but enough to keep you rooted.Â
âI didnât do anything, did I?â He asks, raising your hand to his cheek.Â
Your voice is quiet when you confess. âIf I said you didnât, Iâd be lying.âÂ
The dark-haired stiffens. âWhat?âÂ
âNothing,â you cough.
âNo, Y/n, be honest with me here.â
âYouâre going to laugh at me, or find me ridiculous.â Wriothesleyâs heart clenches at your admittance, frowning at the fractures of insecurity piercing you like glass, but most of all, he hates that he canât stop you from feeling this way. âI thought what I did was what you wanted.â Â
âWhich was?âÂ
âSome distance, just- not me crowding your personal space all the time.â
âWhy would I ever want that?â
âI can get overbearing sometimes, and I donât know, just assumed that would annoy you.â
âYouâre not telling me everything, I can tell something happened to make you feel this way. Please, darling, just tell me the truth. I promise you I wonât judge or think differently of you.âÂ
You sigh. âI⊠I overheard you and Monsieur Neuvillette the other day- when I dropped off lunch. You said that my affection was sometimes too much, and that I was making you uncomfortable, so I thought that you wouldnât want me to be around you anymore. I didnât want to drive you away so I, yâknowâŠâ
Confusion fills him stomach like water and it takes a few moments before it hits him, the memory coming back to him. You heard his conversation out of context- he wasnât complaining about you, no, quite the opposite, but it just seems that you werenât there for the parts that mattered most, and now you canât even bear to look him in the eye.Â
âHoney, please look at me,â his voice thins into a vulnerable whisper that pleads for you to glance his way so you can see how he is head over heels in love with you.Â
When your gaze finally meets his, he almost cracks under the weight of your sadness, and it dawns upon him that you canât feel the adoration he holds for you, dripping from his heart into your hands. You canât see the mountains heâd overcome just to end the day resting in your arms. You donât know the extent he would go just to win your love.
Itâs a fact that kicks at his knees, shuns him down and bruises his heart. If the Fortress of Meropide has taught him anything, itâs that there is no point holding your feelings back from living fully. There is no point to contain the human heart that has every desire to live with others, he has seen the sorrow of prisoners saying goodbye to loved ones, and how they dwell over words they should have said. Even his own time as a prisoner taught him so, because everytime he sat behind those bars, the faces of people he should have been more open to kept him awake at night.Â
Wriothesley would rather drown in primordial water than see you, the most important person in his life, hurting over his own negligence. You have been feeling half-loved because of him and he doesnât know how he can make it up to you.
âYou misunderstand. I wasnât talking about you negatively, I was talking to Neuvillette about how loved you made me feel that way, and how grateful I am to have someone like you as my partner,â he confesses earnestly, eyes pleading for you to believe him.
You blink at him, comprehending his words carefully. âReally?â You ask.
âI would never think otherwise,â he whispers.
As if a weight was lifted from your shoulders, a smile pulls at your lips and suddenly, a laugh spills from them, causing your expression to scrunch up with joy, looking the most lively Wriothesley has seen you in a while. He laughs with you too, just a little.Â
âIâm sorry,â you confess through dying fits of laughter. âI shouldnât have assumed like that, how stupid.â
He shakes his head, âyou have nothing to apologise for, youâre not at fault. But I beg you, never hide things like this from me again and tell me whenever something bothers you.â
You nod, âI will.â
âPromise.â
âI promise.â
âNever ever think that I want to be away from you,â Wriothesley grumbles, hiding himself in the crook of your neck. âThat was the worst week of my life.âÂ
âSorry for putting you through all that.â
âStop apologising.â He demands. âJust, no more secrets.âÂ
âI love you, Wriothesley.âÂ
He sighs shakily, relief tangible in his tone. âI love you more.â
A damp patch forms on your collar bone right where his tears would fall, and you place a kiss on his forehead for each drop you feel on your skin. There is still much to discuss, much to mend between the two of you, but his hands run along your skin like heâs trying to memorise and mark you, so you never doubt his devotion again.Â
*sighs and puts hands on hips* i don't really like that ending either so don't judge lol
whenever you critique and complain of your body, gojo always quips back with a lighthearted âthen just give it to meâ
the first time you had this conversation, you were both standing in your kitchen after breakfast. you were wiping down the countertops when you opened up to him about thoughts regarding your body image, adding in a few lighthearted jokes and comments along the way.
he took a swig of his sweetened coffee and eyed you up and down from the corner of his eye. "then just give it to me," he exhales, setting the cup down and giving you a small shrug. you stopped wiping and looked at him confused.
"if you're not going to appreciate all this," he dramatically waves his hands in front of you, "then give it to someone who will. i certainly will, so just hand it over anytime."
amused, yet still confused, you frown and say, "how is that even supposed to work-"
he cuts you off and says, "your body will still be with you, but starting now, i'll be in charge of taking care of it." he looks behind him and adds, "you know what, my body's feeling kinda thirsty."
you watch him fill up a glass of water, mouth slightly ajar from puzzlement.
he brings the glass up to your lips and lightly taps your chin. "here, drink up."
you glare at him with furrowed brows as you somewhat reluctantly take a sip of water. "wait, so-" you begin.
"from now on, i'll be in charge of caring for your body," satoru firmly says, bringing his hands to your shoulders to make you look at him. "so you can't make those mean comments anymore. it's not right to talk about other people's bodies, right? this one ain't yours anymore until you start appreciating it."
and with that, he places his hand on your back and ushers you to the bathroom because "my body's feeling a little dirty, needs a bath."
for the next couple days, you decide to entertain his little gimmick to see how far he takes it. within these days, he diligently scrubbed you clean, fed you good, frequently made you drink water, take you on walks, and decide your outfits. you heard a lot of "how's my body doing, feeling kinda sore?" and then he'd spend the next 15 minutes massaging an area you never said was sore. "my body's craving ice cream," he'd say, and get up to get you your favorite ice cream.
"why is your body's favorite ice cream also my favorite ice cream?" you ask him as he hands you the carton and a spoon.
"coincidence," he shrugs.
"i'm feeling blue today," he'd say as he would hold up your light blue pants next to you. "hmm maybe dark blue...no, definitely light blue, even though both looks so good"
one afternoon, he suddenly said, "my body would look so good in this," and brought out his favorite baby blue lingerie set that he got you on one of his business trips. (it wasn't on sale and there was no special occasion, he just felt like getting one for you) satoru quickly ushered you to room to put it on.
"why would you randomly put your body in lingerie at 2:35 in the afternoon," you ask, trying to sound annoyed but really, you can't help your heart from fluttering at his dedication to this
"because i look good and i can," he widely grins as he looks you up and down. "c'mere, i'm suddenly feeling cold and need to be warmed up." he pats his lap and opens his arms. you bite your lip to stop yourself from smiling too hard.
since the beginning of your relationship, he had always been touchy, but this level was touchiness from these couple of days is unprecedented. his hands always had a place on your body. it used to just be one hand on your thigh or just his chin resting of your shoulder, but lately, it's been both hands on your thighs and his chin resting of your shoulder while his hands ran up your shirt. "gotta show my body extra love," he'd say when you question him. "since the previous owner wasn't so good at doing so"
the first time this happened, it lasted around a week. you found his whole gimmick amusing until after a while, you wanted to choose your own outfits, when you wanted to exercise ("not if," he insisted before giving your body back to you. "when" ), and what to eat, and after a quick promise to appreciate your body, he gave you a quick kiss and "handed it back."
this gimmick hasn't happened in a while, but every once in a while when he hears you complain, he just shakes his head and motions for you to hand it to him.
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