𝖙he 𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 of living

✦ 𝐩𝐟𝐩(𝐭𝐰𝐭/𝐱): @𝐅𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐔𝐅𝐔_𝐍﹗ dazai osamu rp blog. (﹢) 𝐒𝐏𝐀 / 𝐄𝐍𝐆。 ⸺It wouldn't have mattered what side you were on because anything that I never want to lose is always lost. This is how it's always been for me. Everything worth want is lost the moment I obtain it. And nothing I pursue is worth the cost of prolonging this life, this suffering.

[humanity-error404]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤA good book is always good, ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤno matter how many times ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤyou've already read it.

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ㅤㅤㅤosamu dazai rp-blog.﹢ rules﹗ㅤ&ㅤ ✦ verses ㅤ;ㅤ﹟𝐇𝐂﹗ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ⤿ㅤ﹙✧﹚ 𝐒𝐏𝐀 / 𝐄𝐍𝐆. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ dazai's carrd: coming soon ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ﹙@crimson-yeou﹚compendium ﹗ ㅤ&ㅤ current ships: n.a. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤmore information coming soon﹗﹗

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ﹗﹗ 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓 ﹗﹗

[wasdy]

patient dazai

[1morality]

I don’t really have any new art done so here’s a kitsunezai from an unfinished vid a month ago Colors are not working today. Orange is perhaps the least intimidating color I think I have so much Artfight stuff to do tho so I’ll continue

[crimson-yeou]

💡 a recent idea (for Dazai!)

THE MUSES SPEAK: EMOTIONS + EXPERIENCES

💡 a recent idea.

"Ever since I noticed that making a cup of tea is an analogy for suicide, I have been enjoying my time at the café even more!"

[pancakedling]

A4 - Childishly fresh eyes

[benetnvsch]

hmm....

[justplaggin]

so. the day i took in dazai might just be the greatest thing ever

[mqrsss]

happy bday mackerel!! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*) 💙💙و

[humanity-error404]

How unfortunate. Today's his birthday; if only God could bless him with a peaceful and painless double suicide, then truly happiness would be once more in his heart.

[catatatonia]

Self-reflection

[phasmascript]

A chase! Niimi and Gon were good at those. But this person looks like he’d be unable to catch either of them. It’s the other comment that has the boy tilt his head, confused. Where hugs different depending on who hugs you? Or. Does this stranger just not like hugs? That's sad.

"Do you not like hugs? I always feel better when my nii-chan hugs me. His hugs are the best!" Maybe this stanger didn't have a nii-chan or nee-chan to give him hugs? That's really sad. But the stranger did offer to get tea.

"I think I know the way to the tea shop my nii-chan likes. It's kinda expensive, though. But they have really yummy dango! I can buy my own dango though~"

[humanity-error404]

“I only enjoy hugs from beautiful women.” He confessed. “Ah~. Must find my soulmate soon, nothing feels more romantic than committing a double suicide.”

Smiling, Dazai put his hands into his pants pockets, pulling the lining with his fingers to reveal not only the lack of money, but also a small hole.

“How tragic, I am nothing more than a humble employee who depends on his payroll.” The brunette placed both hands behind his back, humming a strange song as he leaned in front of Niimi, eyes wide open. “Would you be so cruel as to enjoy expensive tea before a poor man such as myself?”

[benetnvsch]

Didn’t take that well

[humanity-error404]

cw: animal abuse.

There are subtle references to animal abuse. It's nothing explicit, but better safe than sorry, right? Also, this is experimental writing (for an rp account lolol). I don’t, and I’ll never roleplay using first person.

There’s an ugly cat outside. It terrifies me, but I’m unsure what part of his anatomy throws me off; it may be his distorted pattern, as the fur seemed to be sewn by the skin of his akin, or the keloid scar splitting his face. I never wondered what could happen; I already knew the life of strays almost as well as Mr. Sneaze. We’re both witnesses, but my assumption wasn’t what scared me. Perhaps it was his open gaze. One couldn’t tell any emotion behind those eyes, but I felt dragged by them.

I never heard him purr; he used to meow when younger. The clowder was afraid of him, always cautious of the smallest yet unfathomable member, and after every violent outcome where no claw dared to tear his stripes, he would meow. A dreadful meow over my understanding, whose echoes aggravated my heart.

He stopped coming after eighteen days. I forgot about the ugly cat until today.

A chubby calico was lying down on the grass, looking at me with gentle eyes. The stretched spot over his head tied my bones up, luring my glance towards the darkness; they were afraid of sudden barkings, except for him. The ugly cat, sitting as a demon’s tamer, stared at me. A noiseless adult resigned to a grotesque existence; only his leg was under the Moon’s light, and no eyes were there to haunt me. They became a void blended with black.

There’s an ugly cat outside.

So brown. So dark.

There’s an ugly cat staring at me.

[phasmascript]

Ears flick after a single touch, and they are very soft and fluffy- and most importantly not ability made. But they do disappear soon after the touch, hidden away once more. Niimi pouts while Gon watches wearily, not keen on getting poofed out of existence again.

Niimi is on the verge of fussing, being as dramatic as his dear elder brother, when a certain word catches his attention. “Suicidal?” A blink as the boy’s pout disappears and it’s replaced with worry. Gon hops down from his arms in favor of standing on the ground out of reach.

“Are you okay, Mister?? Do you need a hug? Or something yummy??” Niimi looks up, worried for this stranger even if he was a little strange and made Gon disappear. But Niimi could always summon Gon back, so no harm was done! No reason to stay mad.

[humanity-error404]

It felt different. Dazai’s gaze fell upon his own palm, contemplating the absence of any sensation besides the previous softness. That’s interesting.

Approaching with a smile, both hands raised as his restless fingers moved with mischief. “Aaaah~, I’m in the mood for a chase, Gon-kun.”

… oh, my.

“I have no interest in men.” He admitted. “However, I could use a cup of tea.~”

Of course, Niimi would be treating him. There’s no money in his wallet. Alas, the hard life of the salaried.

[scampi-draws]

uhh, dazai loses his ability for a day so he can pet the big cat <3

[phasmascript]

“What’s your name, Mister? My name is Niimi Nankichi~” Niimi is completely oblivious to what was about to happen, a friendly and cheerful smile adorning his lips. A smile that falls when this stranger's hand settles on golden fur. One moment Gon sits on his shoulder, the next the little fox is gone. And like the poofing of his friend, the boy poofs too. Poof as in his once hidden tail and ears make a show- fluffed beyond belief.

"What did you do to him!!!??" A screech as the boy takes a step back, eyes widening for a moment looking around for a split second. There is panic as he uses his ability, quick to cling to the little fox the moment he summons him back.

"That wasn't nice, Mister!! You scared Kichi!!" The voice comes not from the boy, but the little fox held close in his arms.

[humanity-error404]

“My name, young man, is…” interrupted by an unnatural sound for a human being, Dazai joited slightly in surprise. Out of curiosity, his hand tried to reach Niimi’s ears, wondering whether they would disappear as well.

Outfoxing two foxes at once was ironic enough to entertain him, if only for a few minutes.

“Meeeee??? I haven’t done anythiiiing!” Dazai attempted a teary yip without success. “I tried to pet a wonderful goldie! Only to be met with disappointment and rejection.”

Not only was he forever barred from petting a certain tiger, but the list of forbidden fluffies had now expanded. A white tiger and a golden fox.

“Alas, why such animosity towards this humble suicidal? I’m merely a foxy man in a foxy world.”

[dead-body-in-the-basement]

Dazai's defense in court