Reflection
Recently, the evil deeds that I have done in my life came back haunting me.
I was considered as “angelic” - or that is what I thought so. Full of self righteousness, always helping the kind... I never thought I was so evil.
Evil incident #1 : I remembered during high school, there was a teacher whom took over when we went on to High 2. The new teacher took over our young, hip and cool ex-form, and the class hated it. I made him a hate website, made fun of him, his name. I am totally regretful about this incident. I shouldn’t have done it. I really need to repent on this.
Evil incident #2 : I am big on public shaming. I think it is just to fulfil my ego and I thoroughly regretted it. Some time back, I posted a Facebook post that my gym opened late and made everyone wait. Today, I read of a similar incident posted by another person and it made everyone boycott the organisation, which actually is rooted from the blunder from one of its employees. I felt bad for the organisation as I understand how hard it is sometimes, some people or some issues are out of our control.
I work towards to being a person to treat each with kindness. I must.
Today i told my sister I am unhappy. Yes, truly I was unhappy. I felt let down, I never felt more than alone, I felt unwanted. Then she listened to me. I stlll feel unhappy. I need to savour this part of my life and from then, I can find the happiness and inner peace. All along I had this bad impression of my sister that she is a “weaker” being, Then, again it made it became evil incident #3, which I really need to repent on this.