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Don't be scared...

I changed my URL and name again ahaha

darn I forgot it hahaaha...cant think i need to search it haha....

*leaves**

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5 meses

Han pasado 5 meses desde que llegue aquí. 5 meses de cambios, rutinas rotas, pero sigo en donde mismo. Tome miles pasos pa delante y luego me retrace como dos miles mas.

Siento que nunca voy a dejar este lujar porque me acostumbre a lo malo, a lo toxico. Ya no soy la misma, ya no sé cómo seguir viviendo sin ser quien soy.

A veces me canso y a veces lucho, pero el cansancio esta cada día más fácil...

#life #love #personal #2b

Por Fin

I finally did it! I finally decided to pick me and my health! Pero no esta nada divertido!!! I just want to go back, I want to be numb, I don't want to feel peace and quiet. I want chaos, I want drama, I want to feel A L I V E !

Honestamente, no se lo que quiero realmente. Como dice el dicho "you can't cut the cake and eat it too"...although that saying isn't really working like that cos in general you CAN cut your own cake and eat it too *giggle* smh

I thought I was going to be able to write but I can't. I don't have the energy, I do enjoy typing on my laptop keyboard, but I just have no brain thought to put down...

#personal #life #love #2B #mental health #depression #writing #dark #dv #tw

I’m not okay.

No estoy bien.

You don’t want me and you don’t want anyone else to have me.

Ósea como está eso que tú no me quieres y nadie más puede tenerme?

Mijo, ya no me mandas! Solo me aguanto hasta que te pueda bloquear 🤭

#2B #love #not love #5 whole years #not a single year solid

#hating this feeling #feelings #life #love #hate #ehhh

Aye por dios

this is dumb and stupid. I am a broken record because I am not being heard!! I am not being respected and I am tired of all the fake love and bullshit! I am always the bad guy because I refuse to stoop low and clock people with bitterness and hate.

I am not use to not being kind. Even if I were to throw jabs at someone and make them cry, I won't feel bad to your face but damn, trust me when I say I feel bad for the ENTIRE rest of the situation! I can't be rude or whatever like someone people want me to be. I have done alright with the way I present myself so why must I have hatred in me?!?!?!?! Fuck everyone that thinks that being better is by doing worse to the person who fucked you over!!!

#tea #love #life #sucks #hate #I hate that I have to be so secretive about my life so someone doesn't get hurt and mad #okay. I am done. bye

Por que sigo de necia en querer estar contigo? Por que siempre quiero que seas el que me abraza? Por que siempre yo tengo que ser la que sufre? Por que tengo que a hacer como soy? Por que chingada madre!!!!!!!!!!

POR QUE SIEMPRE PREFIERO SUFRIR QUE ESTAR FELIZ!

ya me canse de todo esto pero lo que me da mas coraje es que aun voy a seguir aqui, sin hacer nada, sin buszcar una solucion por que mi mente, mi corazon, piensa que va cambiar, que esta vez todo sera diferente pero por dentro yo se que no es cierto...

Que gran vida decidi tomar. A waste of a life! I depressed life! A life that isn't worth saving...

but I know that this is just me venting...that's all the action I am going to be taking. My life will be taken away because of this man and too soon....

#i am not manifesting #I do want out #I just don't know how #love #hurts #and stinks #twobee

Blah

I spent too much time trying to get to the first post and decided to stop. Why bother? It's all in the past and whatever has been said was because it has either happened or it was all in my thoughts.

I am now in a totally different relationship, but it feels like I have been in the same relationship just with a different person each time. It's like I have a type, like I WANT to sabotage my own life for no apparent reason! like WTF!!!!!

I am misunderstood I am gaslighted I am manipulated I am vulnerable

I have all the traits for someone to play me, mess with me, break me and just overall ruin me!!! Emotionally more than anything else...I don't even have the mentality to write all my thoughts down because I am so scared of the consequences, and I am scared to face my reality.

#relationships #love #past #depression #personal #hurt #pain