wrist can't move during the swing so preposition the racket and get a nice move through
moving feet away is important so I can have a straight swing
grip--I am too hard. but maybe because racket too smol. let's try more tape.
all I need is step-step-lunge to the conrer. But if I smash foot down in lunge i'm doing wrong. foot far forward, back knee OFF ground, bend forward at waist. Not a lunge squat!
can't volley underneath or in front of me, so slide to the side.
backhands
if you're crosscourting get behind the ball, try to contact with face far sideways
driving, even with ball
I'm standing too far back on serves and should volley more
went through th various basics. every time we do this it makes sense but i don't know what to do about it in practice.
push, tuck, pass, whip
on pushing i still move back on 3
passes--on a travelling turn I actually turn her, not like blues, it's not just moving a hand and letting her go.
she was encouraging me to signal turns a bit earlier--hand can up soon on a push turn even before we're moving, just so she knows to prepare. on a turning pass i still need to get forward moition, but again suiganlling earlier.
whips are hard?
one, two --off the track like passing, but catch her in closed. three-and-four is a normal triplebut end up extending leg across track--but weight still back. Five is a simultaneous change weight to the front and do a half turn and come together, six quarter turn and foot back to first side. Has to move quickly because i'm behind. The hard part is getting onto the right foot for the final triple step
don't worry too much about counting--stick twos or threes wherever, we're on a 4/4. and it'll line up--maybe just fine?
frame low and definitely stronger thna I'm used to
so far we know three ish basics
for a side pass get OUT OF THE WAY but not forward--same side step TO THE SIDE, then cross , and as she passes me tri-pul-step back into line, tri-pul-step to reset onto my foot
oh right, tension--bend back and hinge at the hip, i'm tending to STEP back and turn my pelvis but i want to be more straight on I think?
sugarpush - good to reset or have time to think. one, two comes to me, arms DO hing until hands at side--but very wide. Gorilla. I do NOT push her, I form a wall at my torso line and she bounces.
sugartucks a turn really, but again, it's form the wall and let her bounce. watch for the hand reversal, need a sidepass or similar to reset.
feels more comfortable than last time but i still need to get ability to flow from one to another. then just need to be prepped for 3x tempo
So, for I want to do an exercise for those who aren’t on the autism spectrum:
I want you to think about a subject in school that you didn’t understand very well, it could be math, it could be history, could be a foreign language, just any subject where you struggled and had a hard time grasping the basics, where it took a little more work than usual to actually figure things out.
Imagine that you are learning this subject in school, and the teacher, well, let’s say he isn’t a very nice person.
Let’s say that when he calls on you to give the answer, he relentlessly mocks you in front of the whole class when you get it wrong. In fact, he doesn’t just do this when you get an answer wrong, sometimes he’ll hold up your homework and mock your wrong answers in front of the whole class.
Not only that, but sometimes he’s physically abusive, sometimes when you get an answer wrong he’ll throw an eraser at your head or hit your knuckles with a ruler.
And, occasionally, just to mix things up, he’ll sometimes just correct your mistakes in a matter of fact way and move on.
You can’t really tell which mistakes cause him to fly into a physically violent rage and which ones merit gentle correction; if there’s a pattern there you can’t figure it out, it seems completely random.
Maybe, unfortunately, this isn’t too far from how some of you were actually taught.
How might you react to this? Perhaps by keeping your head down, sitting in the back of the class, and desperately hoping not to get noticed? Or maybe erratic and sudden acts of physical and verbal defiance? Keep in mind all the other school officials are quite certain that this teacher isn’t doing anything unexpected or unusual, and really, if you aren’t applying yourself to learning the material, you can’t really expect anything different.
How do you think you’d feel about this subject as an adult? Perhaps you might sort of put it out of your mind as much as possible, avoid that subject as an adult and sort of put on a mask of placid ignorance whenever the subject comes up in conversation?
This is how a tremendous number of us autistic people had to learn social interaction as children.
People on the autism spectrum are often at their most rigid and inflexible as children, which is also the time at which the rules of social engagement are simultaneously at their most fluid and most strictly enforced.
For one thing, children are much more prone to enforcing the social order through outright mockery and even physical violence. Sometimes when you talk about your interests it’s fine; I used to talk about Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles with the other boys and that was just fine. But then they started making fun of me because I also like My Little Pony. I had trouble understanding that, because, like, they’re both cartoons, right?
Exactly because you have a disability in social pattern recognition, it is very hard for you to distinguish between actions which are acceptable, actions which will result in overt mockery, actions which will result in days or months of overt mockery, and actions which will result in physical violence.
It begins to feel like every time you say something spontaneous, you’re rolling the dice, maybe saying this makes it okay to hit me, maybe it doesn’t, won’t know until the person is actually hitting me!
Even worse, when you’re a kid, socially acceptable behavior changes very quickly. One school year everybody is playing with dolls, the next only a dumb baby would ever play with dolls.
So you can’t even take refuge in doing what worked last year or last month; even doing exactly the same behavior that was okay last year might promote mockery or violence if you try it again this year.
In the face of this, it often becomes easier to withdraw from society; the way to keep safe is avoidance and the projection of a kind of placid anonymity.
To this day, despite being subjected to very little violence in the grand scheme of things, there is still a part of me that feels like admitting something openly about how I feel is putting me at risk of violence, and that the people around me will likely think of that violence as justified.
I have seen surprisingly little which focuses explicitly on this aspect of the autistic learning process; often we are not so much taught social interaction as we are, essentially, bullied into it.
I was looking up some definitions of “masking” on autism advocacy web sites and they tend to define it as various ways that autistic people attempt to mimic the actions of allistic people, but I don’t think that’s exactly the case.
I think in particular that autistic people often develop a variety of strategies aimed at preventing people from noticing or reacting to them.
Again, this is because your formative years often teach you that it is extremely dangerous for people to react to something you have done; you simply don’t know whether or not they will react with mockery or violence; the only safe strategy becomes a kind of withdrawal, an attempt to minimize the amount to which others are reacting to your behavior at all.
I don’t think that this is really the same process as allistic people use to conform to social expectations, indeed I think it is less an attempt to conform to an understood expectation and more an attempt to avoid doing anything that conceivably could be scrutinized or subject to expectation.
i've yet to see proof i've lost anything to shoplifting, but anti-shoplifting measures have made ordinary shopping trips even more annoying, now that huge chunks of store inventory is under lock
I’ve literally left a store after several minutes of no response from the “press for assistance from an employee” button in the deodorant aisle. If you hate homeless people so much that you’re going to make taking a stick of deodorant off the shelf into a 10 minute task, I’m just not gonna buy anything from you
They're building a tiny building in the middle of my local grocery store so I have to go through a second checkout line to buy booze or soap.
Doesn't remodelling have a cost? Did anybody ask *me* if I would be okay just building the cost of loss into prices instead of making me assault a fortress reminder of our society's fundamental moral failures every time I run out of shampoo?
This same grocery store once left a pile of burned trash out by the sidewalk for, literally, two weeks and when I went to the manager to ask if they would please clean up the giant mound of trash on their property that I have to walk by to get home the manager told me that they didn't have the budget to hire enough people to clean the outside more than once every two weeks, so if a crazy person lights a shopping cart on fire they just simply don't have the budget to do anything except dump it next to the public sidewalk and let it fester.
But apparently they do have the budget to build a giant inconvenient fort in the middle of their building AND staff the checkout line in said fort for the whole 12 hours they're open.
In a different store I once had to wait something like 20 minutes trying to buy a $1.50 ballpoint pen because, like @afloweroutofstone I could not for the life of me locate a single employee with the key to the pen cage. Maybe you lose so much to shoplifting because there aren't any employees in the damn store!
The stuff inside the fort is robocop level commentary on modern society, it's all of the booze plus all the hygiene products, diapers, and baby formula.
Artwork commission by @AdventuringZone of the character Wilhelmina Korsht of Wolf's Dragoons Gamma Regiment by Tan Ho Sim. Huge thanks to @AdventuringZone for sharing it with the #Battletech & #Mechwarrior community!
half guard passing. the key insight here is that we start a specifics drill from half guard looking one way (bottom guy on side, maybe knee shield, maybe frame) but that’s not the only way half guard can look, and you want it to be another way.
flatten him out at the hips. how? easy (hah) get both knees to both of his hips and he just...does. It’s kinda magic.
let’s say knee shield: smash down. He’ll restore, so jam my right hand into into MY right hip and slip it through on the INSIDE of his leg (this feels awkward but is fine). Left knee pushes up to the hip. Right foot STEPS up...as a penetration step, knee down, he’s flat.
okay, NOW attack top: let’s stick both hands in the armpits with both elbows on the mat. Slide left hand into crossface. Right hand is more interesting. S grip (right hand still on top of shoulder connecting to crossface) and rotate LEFT,p ulling crossface DOWN. Generates space: forearm to the mat and spider crawl underneath the arm. (IF he blocks with the arm, THEN you can bring arm backinside and use head to generate space.
Now you can tripod. Feet down, knees up (clamp his), slide both forward onto him. Wiggle wiggle wiggle to mount....AND YOU HAVE THE ARM ISOLATED FOR A H&A! (if he blocks one leg coming down, you fake knee on belly, it’ll open up.)
(3/4s mount: you need to pull back to sit on his legs. Crossface is your enemy here. Block tailbone with forearm; get your right arm underneath his forearm and you can generate the hook.)
H&A: don’t forehead mat. Just get outside edge AND POST OUT--you shouldn’t be moveable! just hand friction should be enough! Wiggle out space, gable, step off.
I looked up a potential employer today. This box showed next to the ordinary search results:
Nice going, Google scraper, Wikipedia infobox, PR flacks, GPT-summarizer, and whoever else may have contributed to this interpretation of "exclusively".
I’ve had a lot of ideas for SCP articles over the years, the most recent of which is a spiritual sequel to SCP-096- a humanoid anomaly doing the whole “Track Down And Murder Everyone Who Sees My Face” routine, except instead of an unstoppable emaciated monster, it’s a dumpy, unatheletic middle-aged guy in a polo shirt named Derek, he appears to be doing it as his job, and he’s unbelievably bad at it. He has a homing sense and resurrective immortality (and boy does he need it) but no especial strength, martial competence, or situational awareness, so he’s just constantly eating shit while trying to kill his current target. He’s been targeting a foundation researcher for the past three years, just lurking around the site lying in wait, and every single time he ambushes the guy he trips down the stairs or swings a lead pipe into a live wire or some other Home Alone bullshit, and the Foundation basically considers this containment achieved. He’s only on record as having killed three people ever, two of whom were asleep, but close to 50 percent of all internet users are in his theoretical kill queue due to the sheer volume of viral videos that exist of him eating shit while trying to kill the target before the foundation researcher he’s currently targeting.
Love adopting and operating on conservative capitalist logics in order to own guys who are kinda cringe online. there's no way this could go badly. the fact that we've consolidated cultural production into a specialized class of "artists" definitely has zero problems and is good.
If I could feed a computer a prompt and have a cool jeep materialize in front of me for pennies on the dollar, I would absolutely do that. Fuck the Fiat-Chrysler factory worker I'm getting a cool jeep for cheap
Everyone focusing on the jeep is completely missing the point. Yes, corporations bad, but that's not the point being made here. Don't be mad at the jeep manufacturer because you cannot afford the jeep, be mad at your employer for paying you so little you cannot afford the jeep. You should be able to afford a working, safe vehicle, just as you should be able to afford art that speaks to you. But in neither case is it the fault of the people who created them that you cannot have them.
Also, if you fed a computer a prompt and got a jeep for pennies on the dollar, it probably wouldn't have a drivetrain or bearings or seats or a bunch of other easily overlooked things that would make it functionally useless. In other words, it would be a soulless, useless copy that benefits nobody but the owners of the machine that created it.
A little story for the "youth rights" people on here:
My dad taught me to drive a car before I was 12. It may have started as early as age 9 or 10 -- my childhood memories get a little fuzzy -- but I know it was before 12 because of a milestone in my life that year.
Dad would first let me sit on his lap in the driver's seat, and he'd hold his hands over mine on the steering wheel so I got used to gripping and turning it. This training started while driving at low speeds through a national park's open plain, without even fences on the roadside, so if I swerved wrong the car went from dirt road to dirt grass and there was nothing to crash into.
Over time he let me hold the steering wheel on my own, then taught me accelerator and brake, me changing gears while he held the clutch, then using the clutch on my own, and eventually letting me sit in the driver's seat and drive the car while he rode shotgun. He was still cautious enough that he sat ready to reach over and grab the wheel if there was a problem.
This was illegal by government standards. My dad was committing a crime to let me, a youth, do things that the government would prevent me from doing. He expanded my youth rights.
Government-run stats on youth are structurally incapable of capturing the benefit of this. First, of course, my dad wouldn't tell the government. I learned to drive on dirt roads, far away from traffic cops and census workers. But second, if the government did find out, there's a "heads I win - tails you lose" bias at work in government methodology for counting such things:
When parents are more restrictive than government, the government can count that as a suppression of the rights of the child, and enter it into the 'parental abuse' stats
When parents are less restrictive than government, as in my case, the government can count that as child endangerment and also enter it into the 'parental abuse' stats.
See the problem here?
Then there's 'neglect' and similar charges which are often levied against good parents who encourage children to grow and become independent.
("cannot", sheesh, I know I can because I did walk to school alone while under 12. I understand the colloquialism of "cannot" for "must not" here, but I don't like it. Thinking that way is a bad habit.)
I expect that a movement for youth rights would be some flavor of anarchist or libertarian, calling for the repeal and disregard of a great many laws governing child-raising; and would have a strong contempt for law enforcement, which includes Child Protective Services. CPS are a type of cops. Anyone who says ACAB must say CPS are bastards.
But a lot of the people calling themselves “youth rights” that I see on Tumblr seem to take government methodology for granted when posting, and they talk as though rights are merely what the government says they are, so the government is structurally incapable of violating rights. Such people cheer for more CPS and more regulation and 'abolish the family' with the power of the state. They don't want youth rights, they want state power that's labeled “youth rights” and annexes all youth to the state.
I wonder if Ada Palmer has a fundamentally different reaction to really hot people than I do. Cuz like..I've seen really hot people, and like, there's definitely a wow factor but it caps out pretty low I think. I think that "so hot it's literally awe-inspiring" is not a reaction im capable of having, which makes all the scenes where the characters marvel at ganymede and sniper and danae feel really weird and cheesy. Maybe I just haven't met hot enough people?
I’ve met people who are like, objectively extremely hot by official metrics like being paid a ton for nudes or being a supermodel so I don’t think it’s that you haven’t met hot people. Terra Ignota is not-so-secretly a litany of Ada Palmer’s sexual interests I think.
Also just out of the blue, unprompted, talking about you not wanting to have sex with someone, is pretty rude and if you're bringing that up like that to that person when they haven't asked, its honestly a form of harassment.
Imagine, (and this may have happened to you before so think of how that felt) having someone, loudly and unprompted, talking about how they find you, personally unattractive and don't want to fuck you. You never asked, you have made no indication you want anything to do with them sexually, and yet they just keep talking about it, then say you are harrassing *them* when you tell them to shut up.
Now, not finding you attractive is well within their rights, but they're being incredibly rude and hurtful to say that to your face without any reason to.
Idk, as a cis queer person who also has a lot of other aspects of my identity such as being mixed race and disabled that some people take issue with, who has been on the same recieving end of strangers not shutting up about disliking your body for one reason or another when you're just trying to survive, and having to take the constant harassment on the chin and deal with it constany chipping away of self esteem just for daring to *exist*; I agree that it does get to a point where you're just being transphobic. (Or in the cases of myself, ableist or racist)
You are not required to find anyone attractive. You however *ARE* required to treat people with some basic level of human respect.
Imagine being told unprompted that people don't want to have sex with you. Can't relate. What a specific niche marginalised experience that is totally alien to most people. Boy would that suck though.
imagine if you’re the parent of some super adorable tiny elementary school pony and she gets her cutie mark one day while listening to Insane Clown Posse on her horse ipad and u look and its a fucking hatchetman. and you realize your 10 year old child is destined to be a part of the dark carnival.
imagine being The Virgin Mare-y and giving birth to Horse Jesus and then he gets a cutie mark when he’s a preteen and its a crucifix. and you’re like “should i be worried about this”
house treats a dog trainer who says she has a 100% success rate for helping angry dogs and make them quiet and nice. house argues about how it cant be exactly 100% and wont stop being annoying about it. He brings in a literally feral rabid dog and she like makes it calm and lie down . House is disturbed by this because he wanted to be right that she sucks at stuff. (B-plot: house and the team sees if house can be trained with a dog clicker.) they break into her house and they find loads of dog pheromones and learn she has been wearing it like a perfume to calm down dogs. she thinks this is fine and theres no link but they think she is having a freaky reaction to it. but they take the pheromones away and she starts dying harder. house is really mad and has dinner with wilson, where he is complaining about how this lady is a charlatan but he doesnt understand what’s going on while eating out of a bowl of kibble like nothings wrong with it. wilson is watching him intently, as is the rests of the team who is watching from afar. house says his food is really yummy and insists wilson tries some and wilson is like “NO I CANT.” and house is like no you have to. you have to eat it. and wilson is like HOUSE STOP WE’VE BEEN CLICKERING YOU TO MAKE YOU EAT DOG FOOD. and house MAKES him eat a spoonful and hes like “… cocoa puffs..?” and house smirtks smartly as he demonstrates that he knew about their silly trick. “i know you guys are watching…. come out.”(the team is slowly emerging) “don’t worry . i dont bite anymore —“ he pauses and does a house stare and walks away to the sick lady’s room. cameron pours wilson a little milk for his cereal.“20%.” he walks into the room smartly. the patient is miffed and is about to say she doesn’t want to argue about percentages literally on her death bed. but house is like “no. 20% actually refers to the number of dog bites that get infected. You got bit by a dog and never got treated for it and ingredients in the dog pheromone solution were slowing it down. (?? im not a scientist) “ and he says something stupid like “sometimes a dog’s bark really is worse than its bite” and walks out. music starts playing. chase expresses he is mad about what cameron pouring milk for wilson means for them because cameron used to pour milk for her dead husband and he thinks she isnt over him. house walks out and reaches into his pocket and sneakily eats a hand ful of kibble
